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  1. Hi I m sorry I haven't posted any updates in the past days I m not abandoning the story our family dog had to be put down may he rest in peace so I m not yet up to writing hopefully soon
  2. Chapter 11 continued - I known since I came back - and it didn't dawn on you to share the news ? - beatys voices was sarcastic but still palpably angry - no , it didn't . Look I m not in the mood to fight . Let's all calm down have a good nights sleep and then discuss this rationally in the morning - why you want time to come up with an excuse ?! - how about just giving you time to sober up from the wine ? - Chris started to sound like he was losing his patience and I knew he very well be mad at me I mean end of the day it is all my fault - sweetheart please don't fight , this day was tiring enough as it is - moms voice did sound tired more than anything maybe she was siding with Chris and wanted to end the family fights at least for the night - exactly my point we all had a long day, there is no point in making it longer and say things we might regret - I m not sure if Chris referred to himself in that notion or to Beaty - no this is exactly how we get to these situations because you two either let him off the hook or just aren't there - okay I m going to take a shower , will continue this in the morning . Good night - good night sweetheart - did he just serously walk out ? I m not finished with this conversation! Sometimes I think he feels he could get away with anything ! And no one ever listens to me if you would we wouldn't be here to begin with ! Chris seemed to be ignoring beatys rage altogether. Though she kept ranting even though I heard Chris go into the bathroom and turn on the shower . I was silently praying he wouldn't be extremely pissed at me. Though he could be , maybe should be even. But by then I have had more than enough for a day . And it wasn't even over. I needed to relieve my bladder again and a more concerning urge started forming in my gut no matter how much I tried ignoring it . peeing laying down was a lot harder than I though even though I seem to do it everytime I fall asleep, but doing it awake was a different story. Yet I knew I had no choice . Chris was in the bathroom , and Beaty was madder than before. Not to mention I feared that moving would only increase the for now manageable need to poop. so I stayed curled up on my left side . Feeling the increased burning sensation on my skin as my bladder emptied and the drops landed on my already abused skin. a few minutes later I heard the water sound stop and a bit later Chris opened the door already in his shirt and and boxers. I didn't know what to do. I guessed Chris didn't know what exactly happened today but mom and Beaty finding out and my accident but not the rest . In a way I wanted him to know cause then maybe he would feel like I was already paying the price for getting him into trouble too but on the other hand just imagining saying that I got spanked made me feel like I was 5 at most . - hi - hi - I slowly turned to my back though still trying not to face him directly - fun day I see - he didn't sound amused though I didn't know what to say but I don't think he was expecting me to answer . He walked to the other side of the bed took of his watch and started setting his phone for charging as he was sitting with his back to me I couldn't really tell how angry he was at me but I knew he was still my best chance to get a bathroom pass . - Chris ? - yeah ? - could I go to the bathroom ? He turned to me looking quite puzzled - sure .. I guessed he sensed there was some sort of an explanation to my question but I didn't want to risk my chance or wait too long so I got up and made my way to the door , feeling the diaper slightly sagging after being used twice not go mention it was in plane view . He must have figured something wasn't right but didn't ask anything. I just reached the bathroom door as I heard beatys voice - and where exactly do you think you are going ?! - clearly the wine did nothing to calm her but the opposite I felt like a little kid caught doing something wrong . - to to the bath bathroom ..? - seems like you already have and what did I tell you ?! I blushed and shifted my weight from one foot to the other . I knew exactly what she told me but I couldn't bring myself to say it out loud. - what did I tell you ?! - why are you yelling now ?! - Chris appeared behind Beaty and his voice wasn't calmer than beatys Beaty shot an angry look at Chris but wasn't going to let me off the hook. - didn't I tell you to ask an adult if you want to go potty ha ?! What's not clear about - I told him to go , and the last time I checked I m an adult - Chris shoved me lightly inside the bathroom and shut the door behind me I guess it was a clear signal that I was "free" to use the toilet which was a great relief but I was still a bit nervous as I slowly tried to slide down my half soaked diaper and sat down on the seat. The argument continued outside which on the one hand made me feel even worse but on the other hand I was slightly relieved that their voices muffled the sounds of my bowels emptying . - what's got into you ?! - Chris kept his voice low but the anger was palpable - me ?! Whats got into me ?! Seems like he is the one who needs another round with the hairbrush cause the one today wasn't enough !!! - what ?! You you ... You did WHAT ?! You did not seriously - so I guessed right Chris didn't know about that till now, however him knowing just added to my embarrassment somehow - spank him ? Oh yeah I did - you are nuttier than a fruit basket I swear to god - Chris sounded utterly shocked - what did you just call me ?! - you heard me you are out of your mind he is 21 for gods sakes what the hell is wrong with you ?! - wrong with me ?! He is the one wearing pullups and diapers like a toddler and you are the one hiding it - go to bed just go to bed before I do something I might regret - what's is happening here ? - sounded like mom was at the door too - nothing is happening here . Beatrice was just going to bed . At this point I think everyone should go to bed - Belinda , he is right we should go to bed - isaacs voice was quiet and tired - alright then - mom didn't sound convinced but I guessed she was tired out from fighting I heard angry footsteps walking away as I flushed the toilet and tried my best to pull up the diaper without opening the tapes . I quickly brushed my teeth and as I spit the water out I heard a soft knock.
  3. I m sorry if it was disappointing , this is not what the story is evolving around but it was needed for the plot line id like to try to keep the story as realistic as possible but I also want to keep it interesting so I m sorry of the storyline isn't always as every1 hoped :/ i can say though that this was the only scene like this planned in the story
  4. That was the reason for the spanking - sorry if it was confusing : the fact that he hid the fact that he needs diapers since he got injured was the reason not the diarrhea accident , that just added to his status as a child who needs looking after but only for getting food poisoning of course spanking is too much and has no sense here the anger was supposed to be aimed at the fact that he didn't tell them about the diapers so it's as good as lying And if he acts like a child she will treat him like one Minor "spoiler" ahead i will add though that someone will feel bad for him and Beaty wont have her way so easily
  5. Her reason of being mad wasn't the accident itself but the fact that he hid from every1 ( well Chris found out already ) that he has accidents after his injury - and that's how she found out about him wearing protection Beaty kinda comes off as a bitch but she is running a company and has 2 young kids so she has her reasons for being on the edge but yeah she tends to be unfair ( sorta needed for the story line ) and since Jonny is more than 10 years (more like 13 years) younger than her , with their fathers death - who was the only one trying to discipline in the family , she tries to take over and probably goes overboard , feeling that even though Chris is the oldest he is often away leaving her to deal with everything
  6. Chapter 11 I saw the light turn into darkness as I basically tried to stay motionless . No one came into my room but mom once with a glass of water. I pretended to be asleep. I didn't know what else to do as I could hear beatys voice from the door. since then no one came in . It's been hours now. I felt the familiar urge in my bladder , I was grateful at least though I did have an uneasy feeling in my stomach my bowels didn't seem like they wanted to empty again . My first instinct was to get up and quickly get to the toilet. But before I reached the door beatys voice echoed in my ears " under no circumstances are you allowed to take off change or do anything with that diaper do you understand ?! Only an Adult can do that". So to use the toilet I'd either risk not getting caught which is unlikely since all the rooms open to the same hallway and flushing the water would be heard anyway . Or ask an "adult" to let me use the toilet . I guess my best chance of that would be mom but she was with the others . So I'd have to go and ask in front of everyone to be taken to the tiolet like a toddler. No I couldn't do that . Plus knowing Beaty I wouldn't put it past her that she'd say no just cause she can. My 3rd option was and becoming the most likely , is let nature take its course and use my diaper for its intended porpuse . It wasn't an appealing choice but I knew that my time was running out for any other option . in a matter of minutes I felt my bladder let loose and my diaper grow warm as the hot urine was soaked up. Normally I'd change right away, but I knew that if I do I would have to dispose of the used diaper which for sure someone would notice. I had no choice left but go back to bed. I never really spent long amount of time in a used diaper ( that I was aware of ) but now adding to my discomfort was the burning sensation of the skin recieving multiple smacks by a hairbrush. I saw beatys point of depriving me of any lotion . The heat and the urine most definitely made the pain of the spanking last and not letting me forget it . I wished I could ease the burning but at least something occupied my mind besides the fear of what will come next . Based on the noises joe was trying to keep the girls in bed and put them to sleep while Beaty and mom are drinking wine in the kitchen. I heard mom and Isaac fight earlier as mom is considering cancelling the cruise last minute . now for a while it's been a half agreement half disagreement between Beaty and mom how did the situation get to where it is and wether mom should go on the trip or not. Mom wanted to stay and "look after me" as the mother it's her job , something Isaac clearly did not like or agreed with. While Beaty claimed she'd do a much better job and that mom should go on the cruise . i didn't know which option was worse. Moving back with mom where now Isaac will basically hate me or the very best treat me as a simpleton and mom I guess treat me like she would Britney or Haley . moving in with Beaty and joe , as today demonstrated would be probably even worse , Beaty wouldn't even treat me with as much respect as she did with her daugthers and I was pretty certain joe didn't need another child on his hands . to the midst of that Chris arrived. - hello family - I heard Chris voice coming from the kitchen - oh look what the cat dragged in - the anger in beatys voice was clearly audible even in the other end of the house - well what got you in such a good mood ? - oh don't don't play dumb with me Chris . We know okay ?! WE KNOW - know what ? - oh like you really don't know - ok look Beaty its late I m tired and you clearly had more than just that bottle of wine so how about you just tell me what that is we all supposably know - our adorable baby brother and let my emphesis be on the BABY - what about Jonny ? - oh you are a piece of something too you know like we'd buy you don't know no matter how good of an actor you might be - well to shortly summarize today - I heard moms voice - Jonny got diarrhea in the car on the way back and when we sent him to get cleaned up - which obviously he couldn't do I had to clean up - beatys voice had an accusatory tone as if that would have somehow been Chris's fault - you should have seen the state of his clothes and the bathroom , and I found that instead of underwear he wears pullups like my kids - but the rest I m sure you know - mom added I heard Chris sigh . - so you knew all along ? - moms voice was quiet but I could sense her disappointment.
  7. Chapter 10 I managed to convince mom to let me retrieve to the bathroom as I was and I was hoping I would be able to somehow take control of the situation . Things weren't on my side though , first of all I had to use Beaty and joes bathroom as that was closer to the front door and mom didn't want me to go across the house , saying whatever I'd need she could grab . Of course I couldn't have risked that and it started to dawn on me that if Chris would be here things be a lot easier to manage. But he wasn't set to be back for hours yet . Second of all , no matter how hard I tried to make as little mess as possible as I peeled of my clothes everything smeared . The floor, the toilet . I still wasn't sure if my bowels have completely emptied so I tried to give myself some time sitting on the toilet , in case anything was left to come out and I was trying to control my growing panic and make a plan how to get out without them discovering this wasn't the only accident I had. I already felt in the car that alongside my bowels my bladder had given out too and my protection was caked with pee and shit . No better way to paint that picture though I doubt anyone would want to have that picture in their head. I still didn't make any sort of a plan when I heard Beaty and haleys voices . I knew instinctivly that it will only make my situation worse . But I couldn't have imagined how much worse. As Haley complained she had to go potty I heard mom ask Beaty to take her to the other bathroom as I was in theirs . Beaty probably wasn't happy about the situation and wanted some sort of explanation as I heard Britney's voice pipe up - cause he had a accident in his pants and didn't make it to the potty - I felt myself go hot just hearing that - You have got to be kidding me - I could clearly hear the irritation in beatys voice - I can not catch a break ! I already have 2 kids who can't seem to get the hang of potty training now he decides to join in ?! - It's not like it was on propose sweetheart , it's probably just the food - mom tried to calm her - I m still going to be the one to have to clean it up - I made a mental note to try to clean everything sparkling somehow I just still didn't know how as I had no idea how to get out of the mess I was in - The car needs to be taken to the car cleaners too - I heard isaacs voice I was at lost. I had no idea how to get my messy clothes out or the mess out of the clothes for starters . - oh dear god - I wasn't sure if she meant the smell which I had to admit was awful or the general state of the bathroom having poop smeared on the toilet and on the floor where my pants shoes and socks were in a heap . - hey ! You can't ... Just ... Just come in here - I didn't know what to do but try to cover myself up as much as I could . I just knew I had to get her out. Of course that wasn't going to happen. - well someone has to clean up here and knowing you , it's not going to be you . You are excellent at getting into a mess - she shot me a degrading look as she opened the bathtub taps and started filling the tub - literally . But not getting out of one . she was right , spot on right about that . Especially as my situation was about to get worse . A lot worse . She started emptying the pockets of my clothes and throwing them into the tub which was bubbling with soap I tried stopping her and saying I will do it but she completely ignored me. - what is this ?! - I froze . I knew that she found the absorbant underwear - what the hell is this ?! I couldn't come up with a single excuse or explanation . Beaty seemed furious . - mom ! Mom ! MOM! Get in here now !!! - as if this wasn't utterly humiliating enough now there won't be a single person in the family not knowing - sweetheart why are you shouting ?? What happened ?? Beaty showed her my destroyed protection she almost threw into the water. As they both demanded answers I had no choice but to stummer at least part of the truth trying to down play it as much as I could considering I was basically naked but a shit covered t shirt . Beaty didn't seemed convinced while mom seemed utterly concerned , Beaty jumped up and left the room. I knew nothing good could come out of that . And I was right . In less than a minute she was back with the packages hidden in my closet held as evidence . I knew that I lost the battle. My secret was out. There was nothing I could do. My troath felt like it had a giant lump preventing me from speaking and I was way too embarrassed to look them in the eyes. especially mom , who kept asking me how could have I not told her . - he lied to you and to all of us what else is new ?! Just proves my point that I been right all along he isn't more mature than the girls are. - Beaty showered my pants spraying water all over - god damn it.! - She threw the pants into a plastic basin - well not all of us actually Chris knew - I could see moms expression of disbelief - oh come own ! He was staying in his house and here they are sharing a room for crying out loud ! Chris isn't stupid or maybe he is why else would he go cahoots with this ?! But he has definetly had to see this mess or something similar . i felt beyond awful knowing that now I have dragged Chris into it too. I could tell mom wanted to defend Chris , since he wasn't even there to be able to defend himself , though for that matter I was there but I couldn't say anything in my own defense much less Chris's , yet it was clear for her too that Beaty is right Chris has had to know. - take off your shirt I felt my heart pounding. Though the shirt was hardly enough to cover the truth or the mess without it I will be totally exposed. - take off your shirt ! Now ! It's a mess ! Oh don't give me that look, you don't have anything we all haven't seen before. Plus if you are walking around in pullups you are in no position for modesty , off with your shirt like it wasn't enough that now I was completely naked infront of my mother and sister , Beaty also degraded me to a toddlers level by referring to my protection as "pullups" something a toddler would be using . Certainly not someone my age. Beaty seeing that mom seemed too stunned to take any action , rinsed my shirt threw it in the basin and shoved the basin with my wet clothes in it at her and told her she will handle it. - I think I should handle this - mom said but she wasn't convincing. Before , even with dad she could been quite assertive when it came to her children . But I guess something changed since , I know dads death wasn't easy on any of us espcially not mom. - that is precisely the problem- Beaty turned to face mom as she drained the tub and washed it with clear water- you don't handle it! If anything you interfered when dad was trying to handle him and look where that got us ! - Beaty didn't even seem to try to control the volume of her voice - I will handle this ! Mom left the room , and though the door was half closed with the paper thin walls it was sure that everyone in the house heard everything . - get in ! I was so stunned I wasn't even sure if I heard her right - I said get in right now or God help me ! - she pointed at the tub with her eyes sparkling with anger i wanted to object , maybe I should have but I felt so vulnerable I just couldn't . - I can shower by myself - oh really ?! Cause I have a bathroom full of mess and diapers proving that you can't even go to the bathroom by yourself I can't say that in the past months I wasn't bathed by nurses or nurse aids, but that was after my accident in a hopital . And it was still a lot less humiliating and to be honest a lot less forceful than what Beatys idea seemed of bathing me. After she felt she washed me throughly enough , she told me to get out . as I was drying myself I noticed she pulled a diaper out - what are you doing ?! - it was fairly clear what she was doing or intending to yet I couldn't believe it - what does it look like genious ?! Besides this package is half empty so don't tell me you aren't wearing diapers - not not during the the day - I stummered I couldn't even bring myself to say the d word out loud - well not anymore ! Lay down on the towel i shook my head , she couldn't be serous but she was - lay down now or you will be sorry I shook my head again - fine you asked for this ! I m not even sure what or how happened in the next few seconds but by the time I was able to grasp what was happening I was you could say laying over beatys knees as she repeatedly and forcefully lowered her hairbrush onto my backside. She didn't have a very hard time though as height wise we were about the same especially when she wore hills , and in the past year or so she was regularly working out at a gym to regain her prepregnancy figure . The commoction beatys shouting and my cries of pain must have attracted everyone cause as far as I could see through my tears , the smacks were painful no doubt , but I think the tears were mostly of frustration and humiliation , I could make out that mom joe Isaac and the twins well all at the now wide open door. Joe quickly dragged the two wide eyed girls away, who likely won't doubt their mothers threats about spanking ever again or forget the sight of their uncle 6 or 7 times their senior being spanked by their mother. Isaac mumbled something about getting the car cleared, and mom just watched and maybe for the first time didn't rush to my aid. maybe there isn't much aid left to give when your daughter is spanking your but naked 21 years old son with her hairbrush at the full view of the family. I m not sure how long or have many smacks there were before it ended. To me it seemed to last hours . - unless you want more I suggest you lay your but down this time I didn't object , I was trying to swallow back my tears . Beaty pulled up the diaper around my waist fastened the tapes without any hesitation . - normally you would get antirash cream but I think letting you remember what a freshly spanked bottom feels like for as long as it can last will only do you good, now March yourself to your bedroom and don't even think of sassing back to me unless you want another find with the hairbrush I wanted to object to having to walk through the house in nothing but a diaper but it was clear that any objection or even begging at this point would fall on deaf ears. So I had no choice but to walk to my room in nothing but a diaper , passing by mom and joe with the twins who I guess didn't know what to be more amazed by my spanking or the sight of me in diapers . as my pajamas were in our bathroom Beaty pulled out a random shirt and told me to put it on . she told me to get in bed and she will be back later to check on me - and under no circumstances are you allowed to take off change or do anything with that diaper do you understand ?! Only an Adult can do that it was obvious that from this point I was no longer considered an adult . As she was about to shut the door she stopped , took the key out of the door - children don't get to lock their doors - she declared as she kept the room with the key I layed down on the bed pulling the cover over me . I still felt tears on my cheeks but I couldn't let them hear my cry . My stomach felt in a knot and I could only hope I wouldn't have another round of diarrhea , at this point I don't know what would be worse another accident or asking an "adult " to let me use the bathroom . I wasn't even sure they would . Plus the adults for now we're Beaty who put me in this position , mom who didn't try to stop her. Isaac was definetly not an option and neither was joe. That only left Chris , but he wasn't back yet. And I had no way of warning him about everyone knowing he knew what I hid as my phone was left in the bathroom . God why didn't I text him then ... But I m not even sure if he would be on my side anymore . Not after mom and Beaty attacking him , well probably not with a hairbrush , about knowing my secret and not telling them . ( sorry about the spanking scene not being too detailed first time ever writing a scene like that )
  8. Chapter 9 continued - mom I really think that any not long is too long .. Maybe you could pull over - well honey it's really not that much longer so you will just have to hang in there there isn't much option to stop around here but as she was saying those words it was already too late . As much as I willed my spinchter to hang on and stay shut it didn't , I felt the warm loose almost fluid like mess ooze out of me. There was no hiding it . The smell was awful and strong , there was no hiding that . Also no way of hiding that as I suspected my protection failed to contain it. Loose stool was oozing down my legs onto the seat basically smearing everything around me and I was completely helpless to stop it . of course immediately what I have done or what happened as you wish to phrase it , became evident to all the other 3 passengers in the car. i could describe the reactions as total disgust (Isaac) to total shock ( Britney ) I guess mom was less shocked as a mother of 3 she seen and lived it all basically but I definetly could she was taken aback . I knew she would try to contain the situation as much as it was possible but at this point it wasn't really a possibility . i really wished the ground would just swallow me right then and there. Britney as most little children still didn't master the art of keeping honest remarks to herself - I thought big boys and girls don't have accidents in their pants but they go in the potty I couldn't even think of a response . Not to mention if they would know that I tend to not make it to the "potty " an awful lot of times lately ... - well sweetie pie you know even big boys and girls can have accidents when they are sick . So Isaac maybe if you could roll down all the windows and drive a bit faster ...? Isaac murmured something about having to get the car cleaned , as I didn't know where to look. Definetly not at any of them . I felt my neck my face burning with shame and humiliation. Frankly we did reach the house a few minutes later but by then it was beyond too late . mom told me to stay put as she rushed in to get an old towel to " minimize more damage " while Britney demanded more and more agitatedly to be released from her seat and car. I couldn't blame her as the smell was repelling , and I wished I could escape it too but as I was the source I had no chance of that . Isaac stepped out of the car but didn't seemed like he felt it was his place to take any action. mom returned with a towel and told me to take my pants and shoes off and wrap it around myself. Then I really panicked. Taking my pants off would definetly expose what I been trying to hide all this time .
  9. Chapter 9 to my surprise and relief the first week or so went by quite smoothly , I can't say completely uneventful but no one found out. I was selfconscious about wearing and espcially having to put a diaper on in front of Chris . Of course I knew he seen it even put it on me but I wasn't fully aware of it then thanks to the alcohol. However Chris seemed to sense my inconvience without me having to put it into words and tried to give me as much privacy as it was possible so I'd be able to change alone . Putting a diaper on in the bathroom wasn't a good idea from 2 reasons 1 being that it was a shared one with mom and Isaac at best and a few steps from our bedroom and during that short time I could have ran into anyone especially giving that the overnight diaper was a thick one , not possible to discreetly hide like my daytime protection. Second reason was that I couldn't master putting the diaper on standing up , only laying down while that was I guess somehow manageable in the bathroom doing it on the bedroom bed was much more comfortable . disposing them wasn't much easier to manouver but we still managed undetected. i completely underestimated how much all of this had to do with Chris , his planning and executing , him running interference when needed, mapping gas stations and stops when we went somewhere . I didn't realize all that till he had to go back to the city for 1 day for a final audition or closing a role not sure he doesn't tend to talk about job possibilities till he signed a contract . By that time Beaty was on the edge , her and joe fought daily about the girls mostly but other things too. Beaty did most of the shouting so wether we wanted to hear or not we did. In a way it was a good thing for me cause it distracted mom from paying close attention to me. But by now even joe was losing his patience . I guess the last straw for him was Beaty almost actually spanking Britney not just treathing , after she has an accident . Joe claimed in his family these kind of things were rare and reserved for severe occasions , I guess so was in ours with mom and dad. Though mom never spanked me dad however did. Mostly when I acted up or sneaked out. The last time was not too long before he died when I had to move back home after being dismissed from college . Growing up when mom and dad went on vacation dad "empowered" Chris and Beaty to punish me when needed. Beaty used her given authority over me but Chris only went as far as treathing he will but he never did. I don't think he would have. Beaty always told mom the reason I was always in trouble was that she intervened on my behalf rather than letting dad give me a lesson I wouldn't forget . But circling back to the day that changed it all. As I said before Chris was in L.A. , he said he'd drive up early morning and back at night though everyone told him to just stay in town for a night , which normally he would have . He said he didn't want to since it was a family holiday and he felt bad enough leaving as it was. I wasn't concerned with him leaving. It was a week into our vacation "routine " was down and as I already said , I failed to realize how much of it going smoothly was to do with him. So I wasn't more stressed than any other day . the day started as usual. Then to keep joe and Beaty from fighting mom decided it would be nice to go out for a drive and get lunch somewhere . then I did start to to get a little nervous as till now everytime we went out Chris drove, and made sure to stop for me to use a restroom . but that part I did managed to avoid as mom thought it would give Beaty and joe a little break if they had Haley while her Isaac and me drive with Britney . Which meant "potty stops " . breaks I despretly needed. So I thought I was out of the woods as mom was mostly preoccupied with Britney and Isaac and I never had to much to talk about for long periods of time and a week in neither 1 of us was trying. But I figured if I managed to get through the whole 4th of July picnic without any accidents , well major accidents anyone would have noticed, I could get by easily going unnoticed at a short outing without Chris . The problem came after we stopped for Mexican food. I did experience some digestive problems after certain Mexican meals but as I haven't had any in so long and things seemed to go just fine I guess I wasn't being careful. We were already driving back to the house, Isaac was driving while mom was trying to sooth Britney who kept complaining about not getting a prize as she unlike Haley didn't manage to avoid accidents 2 days in a row, when I felt a sudden cramping urge. only this urge didn't originate from my bladder but deep in my colon. Oh no no no , I tried to calm myself and think of something else but anyone who ever had a sudden onset diarrhea knows that's not something you can just ignore. i guess my face reflected what I was feeling cause mom suddenly turned to me - Jonny are you feeling okay ? - to be honest , not really . I don't think tacos was a good idea. - are you gonna be sick ? - by that point I wished it would come out of that end - no but I need to use the bathroom - and soon , really really soon. I never had to estimate wether my protection could hold this type of "accident" but based on what happened at Chris's party with an overstretched bladder I assumed if it couldn't handle the content of a bladder it will most definetly fail at the full content of my colon . And even if by some miracle it would , it would still be one of the most embarrassing events of my life. - well we will be at the house soon honey - how soon is soon ? - I tried to keep my voice from becoming desperate though my situation sure was - I m not sure - mom was not exactly a gps expert - but it's not long I already knew it is too long ... To be continued soon
  10. Chapter 8 ( so in this chapter I will try to move the plot along without losing important scenes I hope it will work) As we left the consultation room I was quite desprate to go to the men's room and make sure that I didn't need to change my protection . I handed Chris my coat and took only my bag with me in case ... annie waved at us from the other side of the hallway - you know she seems to like you right ? - Chris asked me in a low voice - what ? Who ? - Annie . What did that concision hurt your eyesight? She is clearly interested in you - I don't think so - what are you serious , she is totally your type . What's up with you ? Normally you would have asked her out ages ago , actually why don't you ask her out ? - I don't know it's weird , and isn't there a law or something against it ? - no , you are no longer a patient . Oh god just do it - as we got near Annie Chris lightly shoved me towards her - hi - hi - I hope it's not weird or something but I was wondering if you would like to grab a cup of coffee sometime or something ? - sure though I thought that you might be avoiding coffee - yeah kinda of - I started to regret taking Chris's advice as I felt really stupid - maybe frozen yoghurt ? - Annie added with a smile - yeah that's sounds great , maybe after the 4th of July sometime ? We are going up to a family vacation but I'd be great once I m back - let me give you my number I automatically reached into my pocket only to realize that my phone was in its usual place in the pocket of my jacket however I wasn't wearing my jacket . I heard Chris clear his troath behind me as he passed me his phone - I will send you the contact Annie saved her number in Chris's phone as I quickly excused myself and entered the men's room to a do my bussiness and b assess the damage done to my protection . Luckily my assumption was correct and not more than a few drops escaped into it meaning I had to reason to change . Relief though only lasted a few seconds as I realized this was only the first test ( and still the less likely to end up embarrassing ) of the day as we still had lunch out lined up. Surprisingly the lunch went well and it was really a nice break from my boring routine , Chris was an attraction as always but as he cleverly mapped the men's room out as we arrived and discreetly pointed it out to me , I used the attention directed at him to skip out basically unnoticed several times and avoid any possible accidents . i must admit that outing boosted my confidence , and also the impending date , I guess it's a date , with Annie . ...................................................................................................................................................................................................................................... the last couple of days before driving up to the summer house went quite uneventful for me , Chris as always was quite busy . The only problem I encountered was how to pack my "things" . Obviously I don't mean clothes or shoes but the disposable things . If I put them in my suitcase there is hardly space for anything else but if don't then I m left virtually walking around with them in plain sight . after a lot of debate I decided to ask Chris's advice , I mean after all we will be sharing a room it's not like he won't be seeing it all , as much as I wish he wouldn't . He was in his room packing and talking on the phone as I tapped on the door he beckoned me in , putting the phone a bit to side as he asked what do you need? Usually it would be borrowing his stuff like shirts or aftershave but I didn't feel at all comfortable to being up packing my protections while he was on the phone and I could be overhead so I just said I will be back later and retreated to my own room. A while later I heard a knock on my door - what's up ? - as Chris entered I showed him my dilemma - I think the easiest unless you can calculate exactly how many of which you will need - to which I shook my head , technically the diapers I could while adding a couple of extras just in case , but I still couldn't say the word diaper out loud and the absorbant protection no way of knowing as I hoped the bare minimum but let recent events show things don't tend to go as I calculate them - it's easier if you just leave them as they are I will look for some bag which won't make the content obvious to tell and we will figure how and when to bring them in . on Friday we loaded the car with our bags and my protections and headed off towards the summer house . Chris sticked to the plan and stopped 3 times during the drive , once quite close to the house itself in case the bathroom would be occupied at arrival . During the drive he told me that he talked to mom and Beaty and our room would be next to moms whole Beaty joe and the twins will take the other bedroom and kids room , meaning Chris and I will be sharing a bathroom with mom and Isaac while Beaty joe and the kids get the second . I wasn't so sure that being right next door to mom is the best since the walls were paper thin but I had to admit it was still a better option than sharing a wall with Beaty and joe. - besides joe and Beaty are all about getting alone time to work on things while mom and Isaac are just a week away from going away alone for 5 months , which couple do you figure is more likely to get procreating ? - Chris asked raising his eyebrows - ohh Ewww don't - just having that image of mom doing it was enough to give me nausea , it was weird enough we were all here without dad as this house was his dream his making and mom was sharing their bed with a new man , I needn't to think about what happens in that bed, I'd hoped nothing . i was worried about getting the bags in unnoticed but we got lucky. We were basically only greeted by mom and Isaac but mom returned to the "scene" almost right after and Isaac retreated to the kitchen to his wine, he looked like but the time Chris and I as the last to arrive have he already had enough family time. I could relate to him somewhat . the scene which was clearly heard over even in our bedroom where we tried to unpack ( or in my case hide ) our belongings , seemed to be another huge fight between Beaty and joe. They been fighting a lot since Beaty went back to work . Which led joe home as a full time dad . That probably left him incharge of the potty training which now , at least based on beatys views, ended in a late disaster . Espcially for Britney who still has several daytime accidents . One of which probably occurred not much before we arrived and created enough distraction for us to slip in almost unnoticed . Mom tried to calm things and reason with Beaty such as fraternal twins are as good as 2 totally different children and either way this was no major disaster worth shouting , but as usual when she flew into a stubborn rage fit there was no talking to . It's not like Beaty and moms relationship was a smooth 1. When Beaty was growing up she and mom fought about everything to the point Beaty applied only to colleges on the other coast to be away from home for years where she barely visited . Since the girls where born and dad died their relationship has seemed to reach a quiet zone but fights still occurred . my feelings regarding the twins potty training were mixed . First it took up a lot more bathroom time than before , and brought it up constantly as a conversation topic making me go pink and squirmish reminding me about my own troubles , on the other hand I felt sorry for them , as Beaty clearly tried to take over now that she was home and the more joe tried to mellow her attitude the more fights it seemed to result in . discipline wise it seemed clear that Beaty took after dad. Joe seemed much more calm yet it seemed clear he has had it too with the whole thing and I guess the fights in particular . regarding the girls mom and Chris seemed dispatched consoling them when the yelling a broke out , though Beaty hasn't directly yelled at the girls she was yelling at joe right in front of them which seemed to have to same effect. i did feel bad for them while trying to keep myself distant as I knew my own situation wasn't far from theirs . ( we are getting nearer the action but I don't want to ruin the tension build up so it will take a little bit longer )
  11. Maybe I m taking a bit too much time to build up the background of the story and it's taking too long to get to the action I might try to "skip" a little and just mention things without so much detail and get to the painful stuff that r yet to come and rehabilitation won't be so much of a part of that but Annie will be
  12. Chapter 7 sometimes I wonder if Chris knows me so well he literally knows what I m thinking or my facial expressions are that obvious . - relax , I didn't mean that I'd go in with you and ask the doctor 35 question that I prepared at home , but if I m not doing anything at the time of your appointment I can drive you and you don't have to uber, I can have coffee or something if u rather I don't go in . I know driving is not exactly working yet with your knee . Plus mom will call you to ask wether she should take you or the very least what the doctor said after, so if you tell her I m taking you it will reassure her that your health is being taken care of even if she isn't here. And with this trip anything that eases her mind is a blessing . i guess all 3 of us wanted mom to go on this trip. All of us from different reasons , me obviously to get moms extensive questioning and worrying of my back for a while , Beaty since with mom gone she will be running the company by herself , and Chris I guess has the most selfless reason wants mom to have someone she would be happy with. - ahh I didn't mean like don't come or something just didn't think you have the time - well I don't know but if you tell me when it is I will check - Tuesday at noon Chris scanned his calendar - wide open actually . I even have time to wait for you and we could go out to lunch ,how about that for a plan? I shifted uncomfortably , I was trying to come up with an excuse that wouldn't be rude to avoid the lunch out but my mind draw up blank. Chris frowned at me - what's wrong ? I already got him angry by hiding what was going on , and yet all he was doing since is trying to bail me out so the least I could do was be honest . - I haven't really been out so I m just not sure how good of an idea it is - what do you mean you haven't been out ? I m talking lunch not clubbing till the next day - I haven't been out to eat and stuff either, I usually order in it was safer to stay in familiar places and avoid ... You know - I still couldn't bring myself to say accident - wait you haven't been out at all since the accident ?! Now I m getting worried i guessed he was half joking half serious . Staying home was never my thing . I even went as far as far escaping through my bedroom window to go party . But that was when I didn't have to worry about peeing my pants like a toddler who hasn't mastered tiolet training . - I guess I just tried to avoid situations where things could go wrong , I mean if I'd gone out with my friends and something would have happened ... not exactly simple to explain . And it would require a lot of preplanning to make sure nothing happens . - look during this holiday we will go out for dinner and 4th of July and you the usual. You stayed scooped up in the house that's a definite red flag for everyone especially mom. Besides its not good for you either. You should get out a little . So Tuesday we will do a trial run. Will go have lunch and if anything does go wrong we will come ready and we will draw our conclusions . We have to start somewhere . Besides , you won't be doing it alone. Whatever happens I m gonna be right there with you . i knew Chris was right , I couldn't hide inside forever and if I wanted mom to not suspect a thing I had to act normal. But going out still made me nervous . And nervous just makes things worse that I already learnt . ...................................................................................................................................................................................................................................... monday was quite uneventful . Chris was out at meetings and auditions and catching up with some people while I mostly did what I been doing the past 2 months which wasn't much . we set to be ready at 11:20 to go to the rehabilitation facility I was treated at. It wasn't actually far not even with traffic but by now I guess it goes without saying that prior to going in seeing the doctors I wanted to be able to use the men's room. The plan was that Chris will drive me and wait till I get the consultation and then we would head to a small quiet bbq place near by. Id lie if I'd said I wasn't nervous . Well the consultation was 1 thing. It's been 2 months since my release and they wanted to evaluate my status , not a very comfortable experience . And after I survive that I get to go to a restaurant where I can worry for about 1.5 to 2 hours wether I will have an accident for all to see or I will be able to retain my pride and self dignity . we were waiting outside the consultation room where the receptionist instructed us , as it wasn't the room I usually went to Chris cake with me so finding each other would be easier after. I just came back from the men's room as Chris was telling me to text him when I M done to meet downstairs as a young woman walked pass by us then turned around - Jonny ? Hi ! How have you been ? It was Annie , she was wearing her usual white uniform her long brown wavy hair tied in a pony tail. She was many times my "morning nurse" sometimes during the weekends nighttime , nurses work 3 shifts and each was assigned to certain rooms and patients . as I remember Annie was trying to finish her degree in rehabilitation nursing so she mostly worked mornings and weekends and took classes in the evenings . - hi Annie ! Amm the usual I guess ... Here for me 2 months check up . How about you ? - I m good too thanks , oh wow 2 months already hopefully only good results ! I m sorry I m not sure if we met I mean I knew you I mean seen you but officially .. - I was used to girls my age getting all giddy around Chris he is a known actor after all - hi Chris , nice to meet you Annie . No I don't think we met face to face , I haven't been visiting enough so I guess we missed each other the few times I have been here. - I only work mornings , some weekends I pick up some extra shifts during the weekend at night cause I m studying in evening school to finish my degree in rehabilitation . - wow not resting for a minute are you ? - well now more than I like to as the departments are half empty cause of the holiday and summer vacation time just then the consultation room door opened cutting the conversation short and a nurse and Annie exchanged smiles as the other nurse beckoned us in. Annie was standing right next to the door politely showing us in to avoid things seeming akward Chris smiled and stepped into the room behind me whispering in my ear - I guess I m coming in then ... The consultation itself took less than I thought mostly cause the doctor wanted me to have an MRI of the knee in another month though as it seemed it will be longer since July August seemed like the yearly vacation times everywhere . chris was a much less disturbing companion than mom though he did ask a couple of questions mostly regarding the sedation needed for the MRI he didn't press points and the medical staff seemed pleased that I didn't come by myself . Not sure wether because of Chris himself or cause they did emphasize during recovery the importance of a supporting background . the only unpleasant part of it was the examination of my knee which was more painful than I thought and I have to admit it was embarrassing having to take my pants off and reveal my protective underwear , of course nothing to the staff and by this point to Chris either. But during the examination I felt the familiar sudden urge and with the pain caused by manipulating my knee I stood no chance of avoiding my bladder content escaping into my underwear. As I just been to the tiolet about 10 minutes before I knew it couldn't have been more than a few drops of pee, might not even be enough to show at all but I was still very self conscious and concerned they will spot my "accident". It didn't seem like anyone has noticed anything and they attributed my reaction to the caused pain. The doctor tried to reassure , chriscas specially since he got on his feet and came over to make I was fine , that at this time it's perfectly normal for me to experience pain during knee examinations but no harm was done and that they are expecting promising results from the upcoming MRI . my main concern at that moment was mainly to hide any possible signs my accident could have left , though my knee did throb it still concerned me less .
  13. Chapter 6 continued : ( sorry I had to stop midway ) - is there a pattern or an evoking cause ? - No - Ok does it happen multiple times in a day ? - Sometimes , I mean it can be once or 4 times that's why they said the more times I go to the bathroom I reduce the chance of a larger volume - I let my voice trail off without finishing with the word accident . I guess even without adding it's clear Chris frowned and picked up his laptop typing away without a word for a few minutes . - well based on what I see there is 1 gas station averagely every 5 miles on the road so if we stop 3-4 times counting traffic it should be ok I think . What do you think ? He turned the screen towards me showing the highlighted gas station on the planned way. - yeah I think so - I felt a bit relieved . Chris was a guy who had a plan and a plan b for everything. Having him on my side is probably going to make things a lot easier. - Now regarding the house , from what I gather Beaty and joe really want the girls out of their bedroom which in that case would mean that we would be sharing a room. Sharing a room ? At first a shiver of panic hit me. That I didn't consider. I had to share a room in recovery but that was different. - look I already know and seen everything there is nothing you should be concerned about , it won't bother me. Well not more than the other annoying things you can do - Chris added with a grin I guess to lighten the mood as he probably saw my expression when he said share a room . - yeah I mean I hope it won't bother you - I felt my neck turning red, just imagining going to sleep wearing a diaper not to mention waking up soaked , with Chris only meters away. I saw a hesitance flash through Chris's face as he asked in a nonchalant voice - did you ever wet the bed ? I mean while using a diaper? I felt myself blush- no , no I didn't - Besides the room that used to be ours that now Haley and Britney will use all the others have a double bed Oh , that's right. I always got the "kids" room which now the twins will get. Which means that not only will Chris and I be sharing a room , we will be sharing a bed... Not that it would be a first , camping trips and such plus I used to climb into his bed when I was little. Dad didn't allow that when he was home , and after a certain age Beaty was too busy with her boyfriend and friends who frequently spent the night she banished me from her room. Chris however never really seemed to mind , not even when he brought a girl with him . - no I didn't I mean the bed is dry - Ok it's not the end of the world anyway and only a few nights, just thought to prepare accordingly . Last question this problem is urinary only then ? - Yeah - I blushed nothing more I would need in my life ... - no poop related .. - no ! No - okay okay chill I just asked that's all there was an awkward silence I was trying to stop the sensation that my entire upper body was in flames of shame as Chris seemed to decide on his final plan - Okay well mom and Isaac are seriously planning this trip, so though honestly I don't feel very good about this play I guess it's the best for all involved for now. I nodded. - do they know when they are leaving ? - on the 10th I think. Which day is your doctors appointment ? I stared back at him with surprise. Wait how does he even know that ? And why does he want to know for ? - mom asked you before the dinner and you said you got a check up this week Ah yeah . Mom always asks me what check ups I have and when , if it would be up to her she wouldn't just go with me she would go in with me if I wouldn't try to stop her. Honestly I m not always able to . I tried to at least keep her from coming with me saying that I want to take responsibility , I think it is mostly Isaac who convinced her to stay more in the background I think he has 5 or 6 kids but he wasn't involved in raising any of them nor does he has much relationship with them now. But Chris taking moms place in sitting with me at the doctors ..?!
  14. Chapter 6 i staggered around fiddling with the diaper . I was too tired to even properly dispose my used diaper, at this point basically why bother Chris already knows. Ahh just thinking of that made my headache worse . Luckily I slept a few more hours and as I woke up my head did feel better . The rest of me not so much . Waking up to a soaked diaper and the knowledge that not only does my brother now knows what I was trying to hide he actually diapered me. Just that thought ... I mean I know it's not the first time ever. He babysat me when I was little and still not fully toilet trained but that was different . I wish I could have just hide somewhere and not face any of it . Another talk not to mention that starting Friday I m bound to a 10 day long holiday locked up with my entire family . if I failed hiding it from Chris I don't stand a chance of hiding it from my mom and Beaty . I will never live it down . but i Know i already let Chris down so I stepped into the shower and after getting dressed I disposed both of my soaking wet diapers and slowly headed downstairs. the house bore no signs that just the previous night there was a party full of people . It was clean and immaculate as ever . Chris was sitting in the living room infront of his open laptop talking on the phone . I hesitated wether I should go in or wait in the kitchen but as I entered Chris signaled that I should sit down . He didn't seem so angry with me this morning but my head was still throbbing and I wasn't sure if all my memories were accurate or how accurately was I able to asses his mood to begin with it took a few minutes till he was able to hang up the conversation . - feeling better ? - yeah I mean more or less - still hangovered huh? - yeah ... Look I m sorry about the mess I caused last night I didn't want to - it's fine don't worry about it similar happens in basically every party I didn't know what to say I knew that the chances that he forgot about wanting to talk to me is not likely but I couldn't bring it up - do you want to eat something ? - I still have kind of a nausea but maybe - okay come on then I followed him to the kitchen as he made the food . Even as we ate he didn't seem to bring up the subject. i started to think he might have really forgotten , but as I returned to the living room a few hours later after my bathroom trip Chris set down on the coffee table the computer he held on his lap and turned to me - okay let's get this thing over with shall we? I bit the inner side of my cheek I should have known it will be coming. In this family the terms we have to talk or we will talk later inevitably do come no matter what and how much you try and want to avoid it . - so what exactly is going on ? I didn't know what to say, what should be said. This whole topic , though I had to discuss it again and again with doctor after Doctor still feels completely humiliating and embarrassing . -did it start in rehabilitation? I nodded - and you seen specialists who said it could improve with time ? I nodded again - Jonny I know it's not something you want to talk about but if I don't know what is going on I can't help. What exactly happens ? - I don't know a sudden urge to pee and if I m not near a toilet then what happened last night I desparetly tried to avoid terms like protection diaper accident or wetting my pants - how much time is there between the urge and peeing yourself ? - I don't I m not sure - just hearing the words I wished I could put my hands on my ears and not hear anymore though it would probably just echo in my head - seconds ? Minutes ? - minutes but i don't know exactly how many but usually if I m near a toilet then it's ok - and what about during the night ? - I guess he saw the lable on the diaper bag saying extra absorbent for nighttime I shook my head - every night ? - yeah - do you wake up to the urge ? - nope I mean sometimes I wake up but it's too late - and during the day you use absorbent underpants ? - yeah in case - last night it didn't seem to help too much . Did it in other occasions ? - yeah , I mean last night I think I drank too much and there was a long line to the bathroom so ... But what they told me at the clinic is that if I go more often than I would I can reduce the volume so that if ... it happens the thing will absorb it and it won't show l don't know if it shows they says its discreet chris sighed - so to summerize there is nothing to do regarding the nights that's a lost cause , daytime is manageable as long as you are in a short distance of an avaible tiolet ? - yeah I guess basically yeah - well the drive up to the summer house is a bit over 2 hours drive so that's 1 question, the other is the arrangements in the house itself