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There was a tensed silence in the kitchen as Chris was making coffe . Patty stared out of the window. - so are we going to talk or ..? - Chris asked almost as if he wasn't even expecting an answer . Both resented the other and both knew it . - okay why don't I go first then ? - Chris asked as he handed Patty a cup of coffee - you mad at me because you think I was trying to tell you how to mother and now kit wanted me instead of you so - no I was trying to get this whole poop drama done ASAP at the shortest time once and for all but no you have to go and baby him - you realize we put him in diapers right ? - Chris raised his eyebrows at Patty who was never at her best trying to win arguments when her feelings were hurt- we physically put him in diapers sleepers and gave him a baby bottle . That's babying . And that's what we agreed so technically I was following the plan . But what I was trying to do was break the circle so he would stop screaming the moment he hears the words suppository or poop or - which I always have to deal with - yeah I know , and I should have been there that's probably a major part of the problem - oh so what you are actually saying is that I m the major part of the problem cause I made him this way ? - Patty had anger and frustration tears in her eyes - no that's not what I m saying I m saying I should have been there a lot more and I will be neither of them said anything trying to think what to say . - look we have a lot of figuring out to do , I mean this whole thing is insane if you think about it , but I really don't think restraining him is how we should be doing this . - well it's easier for you to restrain him , besides you changed 1 diaper after he wore himself out crying an and a half prior so don't think that's gonna be your norm Chris was about to answer when pattys mobile buzzed . - it's Kate , she called me earlier she probably thought kit was napping by then as he should have Chris slightly rolled his eyes in irritation Patty picked up the phone and put it on speaker . - so you got over the firsts right ? Those are always the hardest - Kate's voice asked over the speaker Patty glanced at Chris but he didn't seem so sure about the answer either - first wet diaper , first messy diaper , first bottle first bath first nap - oh yeah pretty much - Chris said - you don't sound very confident - well I m not sure if we have handled everything in the best possible way - okay what do you think you should have done differently ? - well I m not on board with using the suppository in the first 24 hours and - the longer we would have waited the worse it would have gone , waiting doesn't get results with him - Patty lashed out - he is on laxatives ! - okay - Kate as any child psychiatric had to realize time and time again that more than half her work were the parents - why don't we circle back to that particular point as we all know it's a problematic one , anything else ? Patty glared at Chris in annoyance - well I was not happy about Patty restraining him , we said we would only do that if he throwing tantrums and we can't control him - he was throwing tantrums - pattys voice was sounded angry - Chris what did you do when he was giving Patty a hard time ? Chris closed his eyes - I didn't interfere - well then here is the thing you are a team you have to work as one . Together . if he is giving a hard time for 1 of you the other takes over tries to distract whatever you can . If all else fails then you should results to restrains - you are right . besides disapproving I didn't do anything else and I should have - Patty what about you ? - I just feel like I m the bad cop or parent - Patty noone thinks that especially not me - Chris reached out at took her hand - I know how much you do - this is how you guys need to handle things precisely . Support each other . And definetly not fight . Parents fighting makes any child anxious and that's exactly what we are trying to avoid . You need to talk over exactly what you plan to do and how . And here to circle back to the whole suppository issue , you need to decide together when and if it's the time to use it and follow through . - look about that , sorry I m trying to make you feel bad but - Chris squeezed pattys hand - what worries me about today is that giving it to him while he was restrained without any warning is going to make here fear getting changed which will complicate things .. - Patty here I have to agree with Chris , we all know how he reacts normally - I just wanted this to be done with minimum fuss and crying and - Patty I m sure you meant well , but you have to understand that he isn't used to being back in diapers yet , him being afraid of it is really not something we want to achieve , so that is definetly not something you should do and Chris saw Patty wiping a tear away- ok what's done is done what should we do now ? I mean if he does show fear - well try talking to him of course in the level we agreed explain that he will only get that medicine if he hasn't done a poopie in a whole day etc and that you will talk to him first . If he feels reluctant try rotating that too , the more changes he has the easier it should be. Look every parent makes mistakes , and this is a good chance for you to fix patterns you might keep falling into . For now what I'd suggest is upping his laxative dosage from tonight and see if you get results without a suppository. - okay - pattys voice was a bit shaky - we will try to work on things - of course I m sure you will do fine, it's only the first day . I will check back in a couple of days , if you need anything till then you have my number . - thanks Kate - as Chris hung up the conversation he put his arm around his wife and pulled her close

Kit burried his head in his dad's shoulder not even realizing he slipped his thumb into his mouth Chris carried kit up to his room and layed him over the changing mat. Chris considered his next move as kits right hand was laying on his chin as he sucked his thumb but his left hand layed next to his leg . he gently folded his left hand over his chest - hands stay in this area okay ? Kit nodded not showing any signs of protest - alright then little duck - Chris playfully pressed kits nose - let's get you changed chris had to admit to himself it's been a while since he had to change a diaper or clean up a poopie mess , though that was more frequent . Nontheless by the time Patty appeared at the door kit was in a fresh and clean diaper. as Chris sat him up and was about to lift him off Patty shook the bottle of milk as if saying have you forgotten bed time ? Well nap time to be precise - right .. - Chris said - ready for nap hm ? You had a long day little guy a little nap will do you good Kit looked at Chris puzzled . He couldn't recall the last time he took a nap. - it's ok I got it - Patty said as she put the bottle on the dresser and picked up his sleeper - why don't you choose a story in the meantime ? Kit let Patty dress him though he didn't return her smile as she removed his slobber covered thumb from his mouth. patty carried him over to the bed , she had to admit it was a lot easier to do when he was actually a toddler but still he was her little boy. As Patty layed him on the bed and got the baby bottle he pushed it away - no I want daddy Patty stood still for a moment trying not to let her hurt feelings show in her expression , she glanced at Chris . Kate said they should let kit have his way as long as it isn't "big kids things" - come here little duck - as Chris reached for kits hand he jumped on him grabbing his neck - let me try something - he mouthed at Patty as he picked kit up and sat down with him on his lap in the rocking chair . - let's see what Molly the mole is up to shall we ? - Chris asked as he opened a book he used to read over and over when kit was little , he wasn't sure how much of it kit would actually recall but he did snuggle up against him and showed no resistance when Chris held the baby bottle to his lips . He finished the bottle before Chris finished the book and he kept on sucking the rubber nipple sleepily. - and that is the end ... - as Chris put down the book he looked down at kit who was laying half asleep on his shoulder , he gently kissed his head as he reached his hand to Patty who was leaning against the closet watching them - the pacifier - he mouthed to her as Patty handed him the pacifier Chris gently eased the baby bottle out if kits mouth and replaced it with the pacifier . He gently lifted kit up and layed him in the bed slowly pulling up the ranks as quietly as he could . kit seemed to be falling asleep as he tucked him in and gently rested his hand on his chest . Something that used to work when he was a baby. chris slowly started backing out of the room signaling Patty to do the same as she kept watching the peacefully sleeping boy . kit was drifting off to sleep remembering a few old pieces of memories and feelings from long ago , a lot like what he felt and experienced this afternoon , things he thought he would never feel again as he was a big boy now not a little baby ...

Planning yes exucution is a different story however ? But I m working on it

And then there are always the drynights etc for nighttime ( but can be a daytime pullup ) up to like 50 kg I think

Middle of Europe ? We mostly have German brands I think and of course Pullups as well not just diapers

My bad it was meant to be brown eyes I m a bit off today xD patty has blue eyes Chris has brown ?

Sorry I relized I wrote finished 6th grade when I was intending on making this summer being after his 6th grade in school ( I changed that now ) so I didn't really want to go into the description so much ? But since you asked and seems like you are the num 1 fan of this story : age is around 11 height about 140 cm so around 4'6 weight around 29-30 kg so around 66lb brown hair brown eyes ? In Europe we have "baby" diapers that fit up to 32 kg ( lots till 30kg) so yeah I'd say he is small for his age slim so it should be a fit his parents just as a compression : chris : is around 188-190 cm so 6'2-6'3 I guess weight is 90-95 kg so 210lb ? Brownish blond hair brown eyes Patty - is around 166-167 cm so 5'4 weight is around 60 kg so 130lb but she works out ? Wavy brown hair blue eyes Hope picturing is better now ?

Patty glanced over to the changing table where kit was still crying and trashing as Chris tried to calm him . he is not going to calm down , she thought , not from the second he knows he will get a suppository ( normally more than 1 ) till he finally poops. Even after that he tended to retract to his room and curl up on his bed and snivel. As if this whole thing was some sort of a punishment or abuse. It wasn't exactly a fun thing for either. she was determined to follow Kate's instructions - the sooner he he messes the better it is for all. but Chris was always the 1 he kit could bid the time with begging for just 1 more drink of water first , just 1 more story first. Patty has long stopped trying to prolong the scene, the faster she got the meds in him the faster he'd poop and the faster it will be over. She knew Chris hated seeing kit bawling so did she but it's been years since Chris handled his withholding so she was much more immune to his endless crying and begging than he was. - alright come on come here - Patty pulled her crying child out of Chris hands and off the changing table - let's go back to the living room until the medicine works and you can make a poopie kit wailed at the words "medicine" and "poopie" . chris stood still at the changing table watching Patty lead off the crying child. how long has it been since he actually handled an episode like that ? He got angry at himself admitting it was probably years. Though at first he used to be the 1 coaxing him for hours to poop in the potty then the tiolet as Izzy was just a tiny baby and Patty was an exhausted mother after birth. But Patty always said him letting kit carry on for hours at a time was just making it worse . So he let her do it. Fairly he had to admit she was more immune to his crying than he was. Even quite recently he would come home to hear him sniveling in his room after having his holding back cleared up . His instincts were to go and try to comfort him but Patty refused saying he would be rewarding him for a tantrum. he sighed , Kate said this was their chance to break the circle and fix the problems well for now it seemed like it was all going in its usual pace. Unless something changed ... It won't be kit and knowing pattys feelings it won't be her either as he walked down to the living room he saw kit huddled up on the carpet still sniveling and Patty watching him from the couch. Once again he had the urge to go to kit and try to comfort him but pattys glance stopped him . he sat down at the couch, but not too near her - 1 won't be enough - she said under her breath with mustered anger he felt 1 was too many - he is on full dose laxatives - he wishpered back just as angrly neither 1 said anything more as Patty watched the minutes go by and kit starting to fidget more and more. without a doubt with the amount of oral laxatives he was given with the addition of a suppository his full bowels started to cramp and crunch trying to get rid of the unnecessary load inside , while kit on his behalf tried his best to clench his little hole and buttocks to make sure everything that was inside him would stay there. After 15 min have passed Patty briskly stood up and walked over to kit who was still sniveling softly and squirming to find a position which would reduce his impending need to empty his bowels . - upsy daisy - Patty pulled kit up and pulled the back of his shorts and diaper - still no poopie ha ? - she glanced at Chris with an I told you so glance - honey mommy knows you need to go poopie and the medicine will help you get the poopies out ok ? Kit shook his head . Though he was desprate to get rid of the steadily growing unfomfortable pressure in his tummy he was not willing to do what his body was telling him to. he sat back down despretly trying to prolong what even he knew was coming Patty had a sudden thought - sweetie everybody goes poopie mommy daddy everyone - Patty set down on the carpet behind him pulling him into her lap - everybody has to go poopie chris realized pattys plan wasn't to coax kit to calm down and give into his urge to but reduce his ability to fight that urge as much as she could. As she pulled him onto her lap in a way that his bottom was in the air between pattys 2 legs as she strategically spread his legs . of course kit screamed and stated despretly to trash immidiatly as he also realized what's going to happen. - it's okay just give a big push for mommy and you will feel a lot better once the poopie is all out come on big push Chris jumped up from the couch and picked kit up . He sat back on the couch holding the still screaming child. But unlike Patty he had no intention in using his body strength to over come his . It took kit a few minutes to realize his dad was only trying to hold him not restrain him and slowly started to calm down a bit as he was still fighting the growing urge inside . patty was furious as she shut a glance at Chris - what did you do that for ?! She mouthed at him he didn't even bother to reply as he kept talking in a low voice to kit who slowly started to calm down a bit as the minutes went by pattys frustration grew. Had Chris let her have way , either with double suppositories or by holding him in a position where he would just poop this would all be over . she shot another angry glance at Chris as he walked upstairs to retrieve another suppository it would have been so much faster if I had done this originally she thought as she returned to the living room where kit was sitting on the couch while Chris was retrieving a sippy cup . Perfect she thought without a notice she walked over to the couch and started undressing kit - no mommy no no please no mommy - ok no ! We are not doing this I mean it ! - Chris's angry voice took Patty by surprise as he put him sled between her and the couch she was holding kits shorts in her hand as kit tried to crawl away to the edge of the couch - so what is your plan ? Do this till nightfall ?! - I will do it for as long as it takes ! Okay ? I will do it . Patty watched as Chris coaxed kit into letting him hold again as he was still convinced he will be held down for another round of medicine - you are not going to get more medicine ok ? I promise you shhh it's okay Patty walked into the kitchen trying to think what to do . just then she saw the screen of her phone flashing a msg - hey how is it going ? Do you need any help ? Kate as if she sensed it Patty thought and hit dial - hi is everything okay ? - Kate asked - well not quite - Patty replied as she tried to keep her voice low so it wouldn't be audible in the living room - what happened ? Patty was trying to shortly summerize the events to Kate - aha I see , yeah I know the nurses said he screamed down the place here too - well the longer Chris is letting him carry on the longer this whole thing lasts ! If it would been up to me he'd been long changed and put down for a nap - look I get your frustration I really do but as we talked certain habits need to be broken and you guys need to find a way to get him to poop without creating such a drama every time as Patty listened to Kate trying to get her frustration and anger to subside she glanced towards to living room where kit was wrapped in Chris's arms but seemed like Chris was able to subside his crying . patty slowly took a a few steps towards the living room door as if to try to hear gat Chris was saying to kit as she still had Kate on the phone - everything is going to be just fine , you have nothing to be afraid it of, I m here with you okay ? I m not going anywhere - it will hurt - no honey it won't I promise you it won't - of course based on past experience many times his poops were hard as he struggled to pass them pushing him back into holding back to avoid the pain , but now he was given high doses of stool softeners that he wasn't aware of - did I ever promise you something I didn't keep ? - kit shook his head slowly - then I need you to trust me okay ? You don't have to do anything just don't fight it okay ? Patty was about to take a few steps back to the kitchen to tell Kate the coaxing him plan isn't getting results either when she saw kit shakely stand up though still holding Chris's hand as an other cramp hit he whimpered softly as he tried to unclench and felt a warm soft poop exit his bottom into his diaper - it's okay it's okay you are okay - Chris's voice was still surprisingly calm and reassuring - I m here with you , everything is okay honey kit felt an other wave of cramps coming without realizing he crunched down next to the couch with one hand holding his dad hand and with the other he grabbed the couch as his knees bent and he instinctively pushed and grunted as his warm semi solid poop started to fill his diaper . Chris kept holding his hand while with his other hand he gently rubbed his back still encouraging him in a calm voice . - I think it is working - Patty wishpered to Kate - I will call you back by the time she walked into the living room kit seemed to have stooped pushing though he was still squatting. chris kept rubbing his back as kit felt his bladder let loose and warm pee mixed into his just filled diaper for a minute no one said anything . Chris was still rubbing kits back as kit was still trying to make sense of what just happened . Patty had to smile . They were trying to treat him as a toddler and now he looked just like 1. wearing nothing but Disney printed shirt and a soiled diaper . the smell already gave it away but she decided to "check" him anyway - well I see someone did a big poopie in his diapie didn't he ? - she said as she pulled the elastic back of the diaper and seeing the brown poop smeared all over even up his back - you feel a lot better now don't you? - Patty asked as she took his hand and stood him up Kit nodded uncertainly . His tummy wasn't feeling full anymore and he didn't have any cramps but he was growing red as he felt the poop push up against his skin . Not to mention the smell . - let's go upstairs and mommy will get you changed . It wasn't so bad to make a poopie now was it ? Kit tugged at Chris's hand looking at him in fear . The last remark from his mom was definetly the wrong one. He didn't want her changing him. What if she tried to give him more medicine cause she felt he didn't poop enough ? Wouldn't be the first... And how bad was it ? His eye lashes still had a few tears on them and both his cheeks were smeared . - no ... daddy - he looked at him pleading stretching his arm towards him - okay let's get you upstairs and daddy will get you changed - chris said as he picked him up and carried him to his room

Kit screamed and bad tried to trashed barely even hearing his moms words - shh it's okay baby mommy is just going to give you a little medicine in your bum bum to help you make poopies his words were barely understandable as he was crying - no noooo I don't want it no mommy please no mommy noo despite his begging and crying he felt his mom lift his legs even higher firmly gripping his ankles making sure that wouldn't be able to kick her while with her other hand she guided the bullet shaped medicine to his thightly clenched little hole , passed his spinchter deep into his intestines . Kit screamed as he felt his moms invasion. Chris entered the room running - what happened ?? what's wrong ?! - nothing - Patty lifted up her index finger which she used to insert the suppository , covered in brown , she wiped it off with the wet wipes - no kicking mommy , that's a no no - she said as she grabbed his ankles again . Kit screamed and trashed as he anticipated the intrusion of a second medicine - no no I don't want another no please no mommy no dadddyy - okay that's enough for now - Chris said though kit didn't even hear him over his own wailing - it was just 1 - Patty said with a slightly annoyed look , she was the 1 dealing with the "no poop" situation at home the last few years , she didn't appreciate Chris overruling her opinion - that will do - Chris said as he tried to calm kit who obviously had no intention of stopping his hysterical crying while he was restrained to the changing mat - we said last result - his voice was stern especially as he looked down at the harness that restrained him unable to move something they also agreed not to use yet Patty broke that agreement 3 times today Patty though not happily , taped up the fresh diaper and pulled up his shorts while Chris removed the harness . kit was crying as Chris sat him up trying to give him a hug to soothe him but he was far too upset to be soothed . Even without the current predespositions a suppository was always a cause for tears wailing begging and generally trying to do everything possible on his part to escape the little bullet entering his back passage . It has been like that since he was a toddler and didn't change over the years. Pattys patience with his constipation treatment related hysteria did however decrease as the years gone by. To be fair to her it was becoming exhausting to deal with a child kicking screaming and crying at least once a month over "giving him something that will help him go ". With all the usual fight he put up she decided to try to cut the whole thing as short as possible this time. Without telling him what's coming , as she would normally , but now treated as a toddler she saw no reason to try to bargain and reason . She was the mom the 1 incharge to do whatever was needed to get done. She knew Chris was not happy with her decision though.

He was quickly lifted onto the changing table with the usual arrangement . He wanted to protest he didn't need diapers but with his hands held down and the pacifier held in place he didn't get a chance while he was wiped thourghly , rubbed with antirash cream ,diapered and dressed ( in a Disney printed t shirt and shorts ). The only time he got a chance to complain was when he was led to the bathroom to have his face and teeth washed . - I don't need diapers ! I can use the tiolet ! Mom ! Mooommmm but once again it seemed like his mom was deaf to his bitter complains as she ignored his cries and led him down to the kitchen where he was strapped into the seat and held by the harnesses as the tray was pushed infront of him with a colorful bowl on it containing oatmeal. He wasn't the greatest fan of oatmeal though he didn't exactly dislike it either. But on that particular morning he had more than 1 reason to be cranky - he was dressed and addressed as a much younger child , he was diapered , he felt his bladder slightly strain as it was not empty despite soaking his diaper during the night but he was not given a chance to use the tiolet . His bladder was not the only thing bothering his tummy his bowels felt unfomfortably full. He recieved the hated suppository at the hospital just a couple of days ago and though since he didn't poop nor even tried to , it usually took much longer for him to get to feel this uncomfortable . of course unkown to him he was given medication to increase the need of both his bladder and bowels emptying . as Patty tried to get him take spoonfuls of oatmeal he kept pushing her hands away - come on honey mommy made you a nice breakfast eat nicely for mommy - nooo !! - kit tried to push the entire bowl away but his attempt was unsuccessful as Patty caught the bowl before it fell removed his tray setting on the table - okay I see you are in a tantrum mode today have it your way then - she said as she took his right hand and attached it to restrain hanging from one of the harnesses , repeating the process with his left hand then pushing the tray back in from of him essentially locking him into the chair in a way that the only way of resisting left for him to try was turning his head away . - you have to have breakfast open up now Chris frowned at Patty from across the table. He felt that tying him down was too much . Though as slowly and tediously as it went kit was forced to swallow the offered food. Of Chris knew why , quite a lot of laxatives were mixed into the oatmeal. As he was now almost unable to move kit felt his bladders growing need for relief but even he could see by now that trying to talk to his mom was pointless. Every fiber of his being wanted to resist relieving himself in his diaper but it seemed like there was no choice , he squirmed around as much as he could but he was held in place firmly. He was used to peeing standing up so trying to pee in a sitting position was not easy. he tried to pee but his brain was telling him he was doing something that was wrong, he struggled for a few minutes until Patty took a wet wipe to wipe his face clean then as he tried to get away from his moms hands his bladder finally compelled and let a warm stream flow into his diaper . - Well I hope you will be better behaved today than just now - Patty said in a motherly but stern voice as she removed the tray and slowly started to undo the harnesses - otherwise you end up in the naughty step kit didn't reply , he didn't think his mom was expecting him to , she handed him a sippy cup as she took him by the hand to the living room where cartoons were playing , he sipped the juice out of the cup as he was sitting on the carpet with his somewhat soggy diaper. his parents were sitting on the couch behind him , he heard them wishpering but couldn't make out the words . Somehow he felt they were having a row. That was never a big row but always made him anxious . he was wrapped in his own thoughts so he didn't realize the wisphers stopped and his mom walked over to him until she stood him up . - well done finishing your drinkie , now let's see your diapie - she felt his mom pull his shorts and diaper back - no poopie - she declared as she wasted no time and probed her fingers into the leg hole of his shorts and diaper - oh but looks like someone went pee pee in his diapie ! Alright let's get you upstairs and change you into a clean diapie ! Chris can you start lunch ? It's really late. Hopefully our little boy won't give mommy any trouble while I change him into a clean diapie While he was changed he was wondering wether he should tell his mom , his bladder didn't fully empty but he deduced she would simply ignore him again . And though he could spit the pacifier out as his hands were restrained by a harness around his chest he decided it was pointless . lunch went in a similar manner as breakfast. He ended up having his hands restrained as he didn't want any food . Firstly breakfast wasn't too long ago and secondly his bowels felt even more full now . he was able to hold on with his peeing till he was led to the living room, he figured standing might be easier than sitting. it was , but standing still concentrating immidiatly drew attention to his deeds . and his mom was quickly there to give him a diaper check . - mm still no poopie ... But we have lots of pee pee in this diapie . Okay I will go change the diapie can you clean up lunch ? As kit was laying on the changing table with the harness around him , feeling tighter than the previous change he felt like his mom was taking longer than usual to wipe him and apply the cream. The clean diaper was already ready to be fastened when he felt more cream being applied to his poppie hole . he caught a glimpse of a bullet shape object being unwrapped. he spit out his pacifier and started screaming with all his might

Patty gently stood kit up and took him by the hand leading him upstairs to the bathroom . Patty had mixed feelings on the hand she felt bad for ignoring her sons pleadings and reducing him to such an infantile state but on the other hand she had to admit she missed those times he needed her so much . Kit was still sniffling as he was walking up the stairs . He couldn't believe what just happened , he had woken up in a wet bed more often these days but never had he wet his pants during the day wide awake . But technically he didn't wet his pants ... He shot a few glances and saw them completely dry. The diaper however felt even bulkier than before making him waddle more . The sense of relief from his aching bladder didn't last long as he entered they bathroom and he was forced to realize he was not going to be left to simply get on with it. - okay sweetie let's get you undressed and into the nice bath - Patty smiled at him encourageadly as she slowly started to take his clothes off - oh ! Looks like someone made lot of pee pees in his diapie , no wonder you are cranky , let mommy get you out of this wet diapie kit felt his heart sink he hoped to at least be able to quickly get rid of any evidence of his accident without everyone knowing , of course he wasn't away his parents knew even before he did , now his mom was making embarrassing comments out loud. once he was lifted into the bath he felt slightly better as the bubbles hid his most private parts even though there were toys scattered in the water that he hadn't played with in years . He wasn't in a mood to play when his parents offered him a toy . - I think the poor little thing is really tired , let's just get him ready - Patty said to Chris - I can bathe myself - kit tried to object but once again as if his voice wasn't heard at all . Patty put on a bathing glove and started washing him throughly as she used to when he was little. From head to toe even his hair and to his biggest embarrassment as he was stood up Patty gently but efficially pulled back his foreskin and cleaned all around his sensitive area making him try to squirm away and almost slip . - you hit him Chris ? - Patty asked as Chris steadied kit as she continued to wash and rinse his privates - yeah I know honey it feels strange when mommy cleans your willie but we have to make sure you are all clean after he was lifted out he was wrapped in a giant fluffy towel while they dried his hair and helped him brush his teeth. Chris easily lifted him and carried him to his room. Only it didn't look like the room he usually slept in... It was a pale blue room painted with white sheep and clouds . As kit quickly glanced around he realized that not only the color and decorations changed but the forniture too ... Besides the closet that was also animal printed was a new dresser on top of which layed a mattres . On the other side there was an ordinary looking bed till you took a closer look : the head and back of the bed were pushed against the wall covered with soft padding as of to avoid any injury in case a child might bang himself into it , the sides not covered by the wall had rails that you could put on the bed to make sure a child wouldn't roll off . Next it a rocking chair ... as Chris layed him on the mattress on top of the dresser and kit instinctivly looked around he realized it was no dresser but a changing table ! It had holders for diapers creams and other things he couldn't even make out, before he could gather his senses and try to object , though it seemed pointless as his parents seemed like they don't even hear it , the fluffy towel was removed leaving him again completely naked laying on the changing mat. Chris and Patty assumed their usual positions , Chris by kits head making sure his hands won't be in the way and when he was protesting or tried to skipped a pacifier into his mouth, while Patty was at his feet bending his legs to his chest , making him horribly aware that he was helplessly exposed and to add to that as his legs pushed on his tummy he felt that though his bladder was empty his bowels were not , adding to his already uncomfortable situation . Patty though hasn't had to change diapers in the past years did still have the skills of a trained mother so after rubbing a good measure of antirash cream all over and even going a bit further and using baby lotion on most of his body kits diaper was fastened and Patty began to work on his sleeper . - there now you are all good to go to beddy bye all snug in your comfy diapie and pj it was of course no ordinary sleeper but one designed to make sure "little hands " could not remove it , kit was taken by surprise as he was stood up on the carpet and his mom quickly pulled up the zipper on the back and fastening it into the lock . - okay baby mommy is gonna get you a nice drinkie while daddy tucks you up in bed patty already had the milk mixed with the medicines ready she quickly warmed it in the kitchen and returned to the nursery . she gently propped kit up laying his head on her lap as Chris opened a story book and started to read out loud . kit was trying to remember the last time it was just the 3 of them and especially the last time he was cuddled and was read a story to but he was not happy as Patty coaxed another rubbery nipple into his mouth he realized it wasn't a pacifier as warm sweet milk started drinking into his mouth he pushed it away several times even kicking Chris with his legs but eventually Patty kept trying to get him to drink "his nice warm milky " and eventually managed to to get most of bottle into him . Eventually they both kissed him good night pulled up the protective rails and put his pacifier back into his mouth , which he spit out immidiatly , as they turned on the night light and slowly backed out if the room . kit wasn't sure what he was feeling , angry ? Scared ? Frustrated ? He set up trying to make a plan of what to do now as he was finally alone , he tried to get his sleeper off in vain then looking around trying to find something to aid until he spotted the baby monitor , the type that didn't just had a microphone but a camera too ... So his parents might have left the room but he was sure they were watching his every move . Evetually he tried to settle down to sleep , he wasn't sure what the time was but he sensed it was still quite early definetly not his usual bed time. After much turning and trashing he did fall asleep . He woke up to gentle rubbing of his tummy and chest as he slowly opened his eyes he saw his mom smiling down at him - did my sleepy boy have nice dreams hm ? Yeah ? Come on let's get you up Patty lowered the rails and untucked kit allowing him to slip out of the bed . He looked at the bed and felt proud as it was dry ! He didn't wet his bed ! Of course his joy was short lived as Chris entered the room ruffled his hair and went to open the blinds while Patty removed his sleeper uncovering his soaked diaper . - oh little boy had lots of pee pee during the night didn't he ? Yeah your diapie is soaked with pee pee come on baby boy lets get you changed for the day , you are such a good boy aren't you ! And you like pacie don't you sweetie ? Only then kit realized that his pacifier was in his mouth . He didn't even remember putting it back into his mouth after spitting it out

Kit wasn't left with much time to react as his dad picked him and told him to wave goodbye to the doctor - which he did half heartedly - and he was carried out to the car. He burried his head in his dad's shoulder trying to hide the pacifier though he wasn't sure how obvious the bulk of the diaper might be to any bystander .To kits surprise the back seat had a child seat, but once again he didn't have much time to wonder as his dad quickly seated him and started to adjust the stripes of the harness . As chris was putting kit in the car Patty went with Kate to pick up the medications . - so we started him on a mild diuretic so his need to urinete will be as frequent as it can without causing any harm , it should "aid" his bedwetting meaning he will definetly be wet in the morning , however I'd like you to stop as soon as possible as in once he will start wetting his diaper during the day without any problems , it shouldn't be more than a couple of days. The more times he will use his diaper the faster he will adjust to it. But especially till then make sure he is well hydrated. Now about his withholding ... We started him on a couple of laxatives that should increase the volume and the bulkiness of his stools, so he will be well aware of having to empty his bowels. Those you should keep giving him until you feel he is pooping regularly without a fuss. Now here are some suppositories to help make sure he will definetly go as he needs. All the dosages are written down but if anything is unclear you have my number . - thank you Kate - Patty smiled weakly as she put the medication boxes away - you did great just keep it up ! Good luck as Patty got into the car they started driving off . It wasn't a particularly long drive but now it felt longer than usual for kit. He tried to wriggle around only to find the harnesses had a firm grip on holding him, and keeping him from being able to explore the strangely feeling thick padding between his legs. Kit was trying to make sense of it all, it all happened so quick he didn't have any time to really process it. Why was he diapered like a baby when he didn't have any day time accidents , well small ones when he didn't have a bm for a few days. But he didn't need a diaper . He took out the pacifier he was sucking on and tried to get his courage to tell his parents now with the Doctor gone that he didn't need any of this . But as he was about to speak Patty beat him to it - what is it sweetie are you hungry ? - no I just wanted amm - here I know what you need - Patty said smiling as she reached back and handed him a sippy cup looking bottle filled with juice - here baby drink up like a good boy - he wasn't sure he was really thirsty but he still had the need to be a good boy in the eyes of his parents . Even if that meant drinking from a sippy cup strapped into a child seat in a diaper . as they left the hospital late afternoon it was early evening when the car stopped at the cabin. As chris started unloading the bags from the trunk Patty undid the harnesses , clipped his pacifier to his romper and held out her hand for him to take. He felt very self concious walking to the house , though he knew there were no neighbors around to see as he waddled slightly as the diaper pushed his legs slightly apart. Inside he was amazed to see that the usual setting was quite different. On the living floor a puzzle carpet was layed with toys on it that seemed to fit much younger children . - alright sweetie mommy will get din din ready in just a few minutes ok ? - Patty said in a tone used on much younger kids than him as she led him into the living room - but first let mommy check you kit was puzzled for a second until he felt his moms fingers reach into the side of his romper slightly pulling the rubber band on the side of his diaper and probe around , he felt himself go red as he tried to pull away but Patty held him in place with her other hand until she was satisfied with her check - okay baby you are dry , we will have nice din din and then a nice warm bath won't that be nice hm ? - she gently rubbed his tummy making kit realize the pressure in his bladder was starting to build up and as his dad returned to the living room after placing the suitcases in the rooms, she declared loudly to him that his little boy hasn't done any pee pee yet in his diapie - you go watch something with daddy for a little while ok ? It started to dawn on kit as he sat down on the carpet to watch a children's show that the fact he was in diapers was far worse than he let himself think till now ... And why are they suddenly treating him as he if we're 10 years younger ? When Patty called them to eat he was taken by a surprise as Chris swiftly lifted him into a booster on a chair and fastened the harness with a tray attached infront - a high chair basically ! He wanted to resist as Patty set hot dogs cut up in soldiers in a plate on his tray. Next to it the sippy cup filled with water . He wanted to to protest but every time he opened his mouth to speak one of his parents fed him another soilder or held the sippy cup to his mouth . He was angry and both of them and himself but a more urgent thing started to distract him . His bladder was starting to ache for relief . Of course unknown to him he recieved several doses of the diuretic already which made it with the amount of fluid he drank a losing battle against his bladder . As he was released from the chair and Patty leading him back to the living room by his hand he tried to pull his hand out of his moms to run down the hallway towards the downstairs toilet , but no such luck . Patty held on to his hand firmly - no no honey we are going back to the living room - she said as she guided him back to the playing carpet . - I need to use the bathroom -kit finally found his voice Patty took a deep breath and as Kate told her ignored his request as he will soon find out his diaper was there for the porpuse of usage and Chris and her were only to respond to toddler speech . - mom ? I need to go to the bathroom .. Please ?? - his pleading now more desprate made her weaver but she quickly removed his pacifier and slipped it into his mouth - Chris are you coming ? - she called feeling she could use reinforcement as she was doing her best to ignore kits pleading - yeah I m here - Chris said behind her . Patty glanced up at him trying to signal to him that their first obstacle has arrived - should we watch some bob the builder before bed time ? - Chris said as he turned on the tv and sat kit down on the carpet Kit was in shock , he asked to go to the bathroom but it seemed as neither 1 of them heard him . Was that possible ? Why ? What do they want ? Him to wet his pants ? Then panic hit him ... Under his pants was a diaper ... But surely they can't mean he will have to use it ?? He was near tears now , he despretly tried to hold his bladder from emptying but the pressure seemed to be getting stronger no matter how hard he tried squeezing his legs together and holding his tummy whimpering - oh what is it honey ? - Patty asked as if she only now noticed something was not okay - come to mommy kit was desprate . He slowly walked over to his mom sitting on the couch he was hoping she would finally listen and let him use the bathroom . Some wishes are fulfilled a little differently than hoped . Patty pulled him close kissing the top of his head as she wrapped her arm around him - yeah does your tummy hurt ? It's okay mommy will make it better shh shh yeah I know - kit wanted to tear himself from her embrace and make a run for it but as he tried to sit up from Pattys firm held as she gently rubbed his tummy in circular motions right above his aching bladder , he felt a sudden warm flow escape into his diaper - it's okay baby mommy is gonna make it better - kit felt tears steaming down his face as he realized there was nothing he could do to stop his aching bladder from relieving itself and stop the stream. - Chris I think maybe you should get his bath ready I think he had a really long day today and a nice warm bath and then a beddy bye is what he needs now isn't it ? Kit was beyond taking in all the babish words as he burrowed his head into his mom still crying - sure I will get the bath started - Chris said as he got up rubbed kits back and mouthed to Patty - did he pee ? - yeah - she mouthed back - you are sure ? Patty nodedd her head towards 1 of her thighs that was directly below kits bottom . Yeah she was able to feel the warmth of his pee spread and get soaked up in his diaper .

After they left the hospital Patty and Chris spent days thinking and planning . Asking kits pediactrian for her insight , who surprisingly took Kate's side and encouraged them to try . Chris was less convinced but pattys maternal guilt of not properly protecting their child and possibly getting a second chance do make things right got to Chris too . So with heavy hearts they eventually decided to leave the company up to their vices and take a few weeks off to travel to their vacation cabin near the lake . It seemed the perfect choice as it was quite far and isolated . Izzy would spend those weeks with her similar aged cousins unaware of her parents spending those weeks with her brother . - okay so you guys are ready to do this ? - Kate asked in a quite chirpy mood . - you said you made a guide book ? - Patty ask trying to seem calm and collected - well more like a to do and not to do list : for instance : by no means make him feel like it's a punishment or that you are disappointed in him , lots of praising , set bed time , you are incharge in making rules and following them . - she looked at the unconvincingly concerned - you have to be on the same page and show a united front ! That's very important . He has to know you are doing this for him ot because of him . You can't half heart this . - we won't . - Chris said with a somber expression - okay then one last thing I want to talk about before we talk to kit . About his tioleting issues , we have noticed that especially regarding his withholding . It's clear it's an unresolved issue since his early childhood. He seems to be generally avoiding using the tiolet unless he is alone wurh no one near by, and if he can't pass stool he won't come to us and that's the same for you based on his pediactrian . So what I would like to emphasize here is that beyond all else we are also trying to resolve these issues . So what I would like you to do are the following : don't treat him using his diaper as a bad deed, don't forget he will be fighting years of being told to do his bussiness in a potty or in a toilet , praise him when he uses his diaper . He will likely feel awkward and confused at first . Second he will instinctivly will either try to withhold or hide to pass his bowel movements . So as he is in a toddler state you must never leave him alone , I also suggest based on his history of withholding to make sure he won't have the possibility to hide when he uses his diaper . You must be very very patient with him . I know it will be testing but it's crucial . And of course never let him take the diaper off but I gave you a few tips on that . Patty took a deep breath - okay , let's do this then the sooner the better right ? - yes indeed as they all stood up Kate added - oh and I just want to make sure from now on you as well as him only use terms you would use with a toddler such as mummy daddy poopie diapie etc . I will go get kit kit seemed utterly confused by the suggested plan of him going up to their cabin with his parents so he could be away from everything for a little while and carefree - you won't have to worry about anything sweetie mommy and daddy will be there to take of everything . Kit seemed skeptical that he could enjoy the summer in the cabin when he was told it would include him wearing diapers. Diapers were for babies. And though 1 part of him was desprate to have some time with his parents he still wasn't sure this wasn't some sort of punishment for failing. - for how long would we go up there ? - he gazed at his parents with a quizzical look -for a few weeks honey - the vague answer didn't really calm him , especially as he would have to wear a diaper. Starting now . - but why do I have to wear a diaper it's for babies I m not a baby - his voice was near a whine - sweetie .. Like we .. Like mommy and daddy said you had quite a few accidents lately so we want we think this is for the best right now ok ? - Patty repeated again gently ruffling kits hair - come on sweetie let's get you ready to go you will have lots of fun I promise kit wasn't as sure but he let his mom take him by the hand and follow Kate to another room where they usually examined patients. His lifted him up to the table and before he could protest his mom started undressing him just like a small child. He felt himself going red as his underpants were pulled off , and instinctivly wanted to cover himself with his hands but as if Chris had anticipated that move he gently but firmly held his hands out of the way of Patty lifting his legs and bending them in 1 move pushing them up to his chest . - mooommmm - kits uttered whine was cut short as Patty used her free hand to quickly push something into his mouth a pacifier ! His eyes widened as he realized that in just the matter of a few seconds Chris shifted the hold he had on his hands to 1 hand and held the pacifier in his mouth as his mom was quickly spreading some cream over his bottom and his front . He wanted to spit out the pacifier and make it all stop but somehow he felt paralyzed . Patty quickly taped a diaper around him , as he noticed suddenly there was a whole blue bag stuffed with diapers creams and other things he couldn't even make out. As he was dressed in a shirt with cartoon figures and a romper - well done honey you were such a good boy for mommy - petty cooed at him . He being praised for what a good boy he was . It didn't feel like that to him , it felt strange to sit up on the bed with a thick padding between his legs and a pacifier in his mouth it felt all wrong he tried to take the pacifier out of his mouth with his now free hands but it was quickly placed back by his mom - no no honey keep being a good boy and keep your pacie nicely in your mouth ok baby ? Kit felt himself blush even more , not just that he was now dressed like a toddler addressed by words he haven't heard in close to a decade , it all happened infront of Kate who stood at behind his parents .

- I m not saying that ... Between the 3 of us I m sure we can convince him that this would be the best for him this summer - Kate smiled though it seemed as if first she'd have to convince Chris and Patty - convince him of ? What ? Playing with choo choo trains all summer ? - well among under things ... He would be free to be a little kid again. And be treated like one - he can do whatever he wants to do we never really forbid him to do things unless they were dangerous but he was always such a catious little thing we basically never had to - Patty added as she was drying her eyes - I think I need the emphasize the treated like one with all that implies if you get where I m going with this kate waited for her words to sink in as Patty looked confused but Chris seemed to seemed to have an idea about what she meant as he squinted suspiciously at her - do spell it out - Chris said leaning forward Kate took a deep breath - he would essentially be a toddler , free to play with no responsibilities and you would resume your previous role of holding all responsibilities of course all pro and cons of having a toddler - and what would those be exactly ? - you would be able to play games with him again read him a story get cuddles - that doesn't sound bad actually - Patty added she glanced over her husband , she was more than willing to cuddle and smother her baby after everything he gone through - somehow I m sending a catch here - Chris added still not convinced - no catch - but ? What are the cons ? - well - Kate pressed her lips together - you would basically be having a toddler again - yeah but he isn't actually a toddler - yet you would treat him as if he were Chris and Patty exchanged looks , Kate sighed . - look your daughter was born around the time you potty trained kit right ? I mean I get that , 2 kids in diapers can be too many, but as I seen in the files and in our department this wasn't a smooth process right ? Repeating constipation and soiling after withholding which needed laxatives ? Occasional bed wetting ? - yes but those were just episodes - Patty put in seeming a bit embarrassed as if it would be her fault - that got a lot worse in the past year . He wet the bed here on several occasions and we had to give him laxatives numerous times - well after everything that he been through this year I think that has an explanation - Chris said sharply - I m not saying it's not , but based on what kit feels he was the safest while he was still an only child - so you want is to what ? Get rid of Izzy ?! - of course not , I mean yes but just for a little bit . He needs you , just you . Take him back to that safety . Treat him like a toddler who has no worry in the world , play with him read to him bath him change his diapers .. - diapers ?! - Patty cried out - you are suggesting we put our son back in diapers ?! - is that even legal ?! - Chris said mortified - it's not illegal - Kate said calmly - like i said you need to treat him like a toddler with everything that comes with that . And it might even resolve his tioleting issues in the long run - I m really not sure about this - Chris said as he crossed his arms and looked over at Patty - how do we know this crazy idea won't make things worse ? - I wouldn't call it crazy but in medicine there are no guarantees anything will work in every case. - we need to think about it . - do that , but like the other 3 psychiatrist who seen him said , he didn't respond to any conventional treatment so I m trying something a bit unconventional . Let me know how you decide , if you refuse of course it's your right and you will be able to take him home of that's what you wish . But of you will decide to go forward with this I will help you to do it right

*** disclaimer - English isn't my mother tongue I m sorry for spelling and grammar mistakes so please take that into consideration in your comments Summer vacation just started, that would be the highlight of any kids year. And it was the same for Kit till last September. But not this summer. This summer he was strapped into what could be described as a large toddler car seat , dressed as a toddler sucking on a pacifier as he watched the trees and bushes they passed by from the car window. From the outside he had the idyllic life. He had 2 loving parents, a little sister, a huge house and even a dog. He was a well behaved child with good manners who always came top of his class. Ironically this is what ended up sending him down a spiral he never even knew existed outside his safe bubble . And it didn't, not until he finished 5th grade last year and his school principle suggested to enroll him in a special school for the gifted. His parents though hesitant at first to send their child so far so young eventually convinced it will give him the best chance to get as far in life as he could. tution was no issue as both chris and Patty made good money though it did mean working long hours at their company and less with their children. Kit was excited about the new school . But things turned rather quickly . He was always a shy and sensitive child who was very much attached to his family , so separating from them was not an easy 1 to begin with . But as he soon discovered that would far not be his biggest challenge. The school had a very strict regime from when he got up went to bed what he ate. And his school mates were anything but mates. Vicious competitions were between the students to be the best to better than rest . The stress and the emotional abuse he recieved from both peers and teachers were showing their marks quickly . By Christmas vacation Chris and Patty were worried that their decision to put kit in that school may have been a mistake but as he solemnly refused to talk about anything that might be bothering him and insisting on spending his holiday studying. then 1 fatal day in May he failed 1 of his final exams . Not being able to take the stress and faulire he resorted to taking the pills he knew his roommates were hiding . After getting his stomach pumped he was transfered to a child psychiatry ward. Luckily he didn't suffer any damage from the pills the psychiatrist concluded he did suffer a major emotional crisis. Non of the therapies and interventions seemed to work . so 1 day dr Kate Dollen summed both parents to her office to suggest to them a new "therapy" - taking kit back to the last stage of his life where he truly felt happy and protected . chris and Patty looked at each other with quite a confused look as they listened to dr Dollen - I m sorry dr Dollen - Patty started unsure of how to pharse her thoughts - please call me Kate - Kate .. Isn't this a bit .. Radical ? Treat him like a toddler ...? - I know how it sounds at first but what your son needs the most right now is to feel safe and loved and no one can give him that more than you can - I think what my wife was trying to ask is this sounds a bit "abnormal" sorry for the term , to take a child his age and treat him as a toddler - well it's quite abnormal for a child his age to attempt suiicide - Kate concluded -look I have spent many hours in the past few weeks talking to kit and the conclusion I reached is that the last he felt completely happy was before his sister was born and he still had your full attention , - the room quited both Patty and Chris had quilt over not spending enough time with their kids but could that have really led up to this ? - so what you are saying is that we shouldn't have had an other child ? - Patty asked a little mortified - no of course not, but you have to understand , from that moment he became the big brother the big kid who got the role of being responsible in school and with his sister and eventually all the stress that comes with always being responsible and doing well got too much for him. - so what you are suggesting is that now he needs to be the little ..? - Chris asked as he ruffled through his hair - he needs to feel safe again - oh god - Patty cried out as she burried her face in her hands - this is all my fault - okay okay let's say we would try this "therapy" - Chris said unsure as he rubbed pattys shoulders - how exactly would this go ..? Was this kits idea ? Does he want this ..? - this is my suggestion . Not kits idea . He doesn't know actually . Chris squinted at Kate - so this wouldn't be with his consent..?

Hi I m sorry I haven't posted any updates in the past days I m not abandoning the story our family dog had to be put down may he rest in peace so I m not yet up to writing hopefully soon

Chapter 11 continued - I known since I came back - and it didn't dawn on you to share the news ? - beatys voices was sarcastic but still palpably angry - no , it didn't . Look I m not in the mood to fight . Let's all calm down have a good nights sleep and then discuss this rationally in the morning - why you want time to come up with an excuse ?! - how about just giving you time to sober up from the wine ? - Chris started to sound like he was losing his patience and I knew he very well be mad at me I mean end of the day it is all my fault - sweetheart please don't fight , this day was tiring enough as it is - moms voice did sound tired more than anything maybe she was siding with Chris and wanted to end the family fights at least for the night - exactly my point we all had a long day, there is no point in making it longer and say things we might regret - I m not sure if Chris referred to himself in that notion or to Beaty - no this is exactly how we get to these situations because you two either let him off the hook or just aren't there - okay I m going to take a shower , will continue this in the morning . Good night - good night sweetheart - did he just serously walk out ? I m not finished with this conversation! Sometimes I think he feels he could get away with anything ! And no one ever listens to me if you would we wouldn't be here to begin with ! Chris seemed to be ignoring beatys rage altogether. Though she kept ranting even though I heard Chris go into the bathroom and turn on the shower . I was silently praying he wouldn't be extremely pissed at me. Though he could be , maybe should be even. But by then I have had more than enough for a day . And it wasn't even over. I needed to relieve my bladder again and a more concerning urge started forming in my gut no matter how much I tried ignoring it . peeing laying down was a lot harder than I though even though I seem to do it everytime I fall asleep, but doing it awake was a different story. Yet I knew I had no choice . Chris was in the bathroom , and Beaty was madder than before. Not to mention I feared that moving would only increase the for now manageable need to poop. so I stayed curled up on my left side . Feeling the increased burning sensation on my skin as my bladder emptied and the drops landed on my already abused skin. a few minutes later I heard the water sound stop and a bit later Chris opened the door already in his shirt and and boxers. I didn't know what to do. I guessed Chris didn't know what exactly happened today but mom and Beaty finding out and my accident but not the rest . In a way I wanted him to know cause then maybe he would feel like I was already paying the price for getting him into trouble too but on the other hand just imagining saying that I got spanked made me feel like I was 5 at most . - hi - hi - I slowly turned to my back though still trying not to face him directly - fun day I see - he didn't sound amused though I didn't know what to say but I don't think he was expecting me to answer . He walked to the other side of the bed took of his watch and started setting his phone for charging as he was sitting with his back to me I couldn't really tell how angry he was at me but I knew he was still my best chance to get a bathroom pass . - Chris ? - yeah ? - could I go to the bathroom ? He turned to me looking quite puzzled - sure .. I guessed he sensed there was some sort of an explanation to my question but I didn't want to risk my chance or wait too long so I got up and made my way to the door , feeling the diaper slightly sagging after being used twice not go mention it was in plane view . He must have figured something wasn't right but didn't ask anything. I just reached the bathroom door as I heard beatys voice - and where exactly do you think you are going ?! - clearly the wine did nothing to calm her but the opposite I felt like a little kid caught doing something wrong . - to to the bath bathroom ..? - seems like you already have and what did I tell you ?! I blushed and shifted my weight from one foot to the other . I knew exactly what she told me but I couldn't bring myself to say it out loud. - what did I tell you ?! - why are you yelling now ?! - Chris appeared behind Beaty and his voice wasn't calmer than beatys Beaty shot an angry look at Chris but wasn't going to let me off the hook. - didn't I tell you to ask an adult if you want to go potty ha ?! What's not clear about - I told him to go , and the last time I checked I m an adult - Chris shoved me lightly inside the bathroom and shut the door behind me I guess it was a clear signal that I was "free" to use the toilet which was a great relief but I was still a bit nervous as I slowly tried to slide down my half soaked diaper and sat down on the seat. The argument continued outside which on the one hand made me feel even worse but on the other hand I was slightly relieved that their voices muffled the sounds of my bowels emptying . - what's got into you ?! - Chris kept his voice low but the anger was palpable - me ?! Whats got into me ?! Seems like he is the one who needs another round with the hairbrush cause the one today wasn't enough !!! - what ?! You you ... You did WHAT ?! You did not seriously - so I guessed right Chris didn't know about that till now, however him knowing just added to my embarrassment somehow - spank him ? Oh yeah I did - you are nuttier than a fruit basket I swear to god - Chris sounded utterly shocked - what did you just call me ?! - you heard me you are out of your mind he is 21 for gods sakes what the hell is wrong with you ?! - wrong with me ?! He is the one wearing pullups and diapers like a toddler and you are the one hiding it - go to bed just go to bed before I do something I might regret - what's is happening here ? - sounded like mom was at the door too - nothing is happening here . Beatrice was just going to bed . At this point I think everyone should go to bed - Belinda , he is right we should go to bed - isaacs voice was quiet and tired - alright then - mom didn't sound convinced but I guessed she was tired out from fighting I heard angry footsteps walking away as I flushed the toilet and tried my best to pull up the diaper without opening the tapes . I quickly brushed my teeth and as I spit the water out I heard a soft knock.

I m sorry if it was disappointing , this is not what the story is evolving around but it was needed for the plot line id like to try to keep the story as realistic as possible but I also want to keep it interesting so I m sorry of the storyline isn't always as every1 hoped :/ i can say though that this was the only scene like this planned in the story

That was the reason for the spanking - sorry if it was confusing : the fact that he hid the fact that he needs diapers since he got injured was the reason not the diarrhea accident , that just added to his status as a child who needs looking after but only for getting food poisoning of course spanking is too much and has no sense here the anger was supposed to be aimed at the fact that he didn't tell them about the diapers so it's as good as lying And if he acts like a child she will treat him like one Minor "spoiler" ahead i will add though that someone will feel bad for him and Beaty wont have her way so easily

Her reason of being mad wasn't the accident itself but the fact that he hid from every1 ( well Chris found out already ) that he has accidents after his injury - and that's how she found out about him wearing protection Beaty kinda comes off as a bitch but she is running a company and has 2 young kids so she has her reasons for being on the edge but yeah she tends to be unfair ( sorta needed for the story line ) and since Jonny is more than 10 years (more like 13 years) younger than her , with their fathers death - who was the only one trying to discipline in the family , she tries to take over and probably goes overboard , feeling that even though Chris is the oldest he is often away leaving her to deal with everything

Chapter 11 I saw the light turn into darkness as I basically tried to stay motionless . No one came into my room but mom once with a glass of water. I pretended to be asleep. I didn't know what else to do as I could hear beatys voice from the door. since then no one came in . It's been hours now. I felt the familiar urge in my bladder , I was grateful at least though I did have an uneasy feeling in my stomach my bowels didn't seem like they wanted to empty again . My first instinct was to get up and quickly get to the toilet. But before I reached the door beatys voice echoed in my ears " under no circumstances are you allowed to take off change or do anything with that diaper do you understand ?! Only an Adult can do that". So to use the toilet I'd either risk not getting caught which is unlikely since all the rooms open to the same hallway and flushing the water would be heard anyway . Or ask an "adult" to let me use the toilet . I guess my best chance of that would be mom but she was with the others . So I'd have to go and ask in front of everyone to be taken to the tiolet like a toddler. No I couldn't do that . Plus knowing Beaty I wouldn't put it past her that she'd say no just cause she can. My 3rd option was and becoming the most likely , is let nature take its course and use my diaper for its intended porpuse . It wasn't an appealing choice but I knew that my time was running out for any other option . in a matter of minutes I felt my bladder let loose and my diaper grow warm as the hot urine was soaked up. Normally I'd change right away, but I knew that if I do I would have to dispose of the used diaper which for sure someone would notice. I had no choice left but go back to bed. I never really spent long amount of time in a used diaper ( that I was aware of ) but now adding to my discomfort was the burning sensation of the skin recieving multiple smacks by a hairbrush. I saw beatys point of depriving me of any lotion . The heat and the urine most definitely made the pain of the spanking last and not letting me forget it . I wished I could ease the burning but at least something occupied my mind besides the fear of what will come next . Based on the noises joe was trying to keep the girls in bed and put them to sleep while Beaty and mom are drinking wine in the kitchen. I heard mom and Isaac fight earlier as mom is considering cancelling the cruise last minute . now for a while it's been a half agreement half disagreement between Beaty and mom how did the situation get to where it is and wether mom should go on the trip or not. Mom wanted to stay and "look after me" as the mother it's her job , something Isaac clearly did not like or agreed with. While Beaty claimed she'd do a much better job and that mom should go on the cruise . i didn't know which option was worse. Moving back with mom where now Isaac will basically hate me or the very best treat me as a simpleton and mom I guess treat me like she would Britney or Haley . moving in with Beaty and joe , as today demonstrated would be probably even worse , Beaty wouldn't even treat me with as much respect as she did with her daugthers and I was pretty certain joe didn't need another child on his hands . to the midst of that Chris arrived. - hello family - I heard Chris voice coming from the kitchen - oh look what the cat dragged in - the anger in beatys voice was clearly audible even in the other end of the house - well what got you in such a good mood ? - oh don't don't play dumb with me Chris . We know okay ?! WE KNOW - know what ? - oh like you really don't know - ok look Beaty its late I m tired and you clearly had more than just that bottle of wine so how about you just tell me what that is we all supposably know - our adorable baby brother and let my emphesis be on the BABY - what about Jonny ? - oh you are a piece of something too you know like we'd buy you don't know no matter how good of an actor you might be - well to shortly summarize today - I heard moms voice - Jonny got diarrhea in the car on the way back and when we sent him to get cleaned up - which obviously he couldn't do I had to clean up - beatys voice had an accusatory tone as if that would have somehow been Chris's fault - you should have seen the state of his clothes and the bathroom , and I found that instead of underwear he wears pullups like my kids - but the rest I m sure you know - mom added I heard Chris sigh . - so you knew all along ? - moms voice was quiet but I could sense her disappointment.

Chapter 10 I managed to convince mom to let me retrieve to the bathroom as I was and I was hoping I would be able to somehow take control of the situation . Things weren't on my side though , first of all I had to use Beaty and joes bathroom as that was closer to the front door and mom didn't want me to go across the house , saying whatever I'd need she could grab . Of course I couldn't have risked that and it started to dawn on me that if Chris would be here things be a lot easier to manage. But he wasn't set to be back for hours yet . Second of all , no matter how hard I tried to make as little mess as possible as I peeled of my clothes everything smeared . The floor, the toilet . I still wasn't sure if my bowels have completely emptied so I tried to give myself some time sitting on the toilet , in case anything was left to come out and I was trying to control my growing panic and make a plan how to get out without them discovering this wasn't the only accident I had. I already felt in the car that alongside my bowels my bladder had given out too and my protection was caked with pee and shit . No better way to paint that picture though I doubt anyone would want to have that picture in their head. I still didn't make any sort of a plan when I heard Beaty and haleys voices . I knew instinctivly that it will only make my situation worse . But I couldn't have imagined how much worse. As Haley complained she had to go potty I heard mom ask Beaty to take her to the other bathroom as I was in theirs . Beaty probably wasn't happy about the situation and wanted some sort of explanation as I heard Britney's voice pipe up - cause he had a accident in his pants and didn't make it to the potty - I felt myself go hot just hearing that - You have got to be kidding me - I could clearly hear the irritation in beatys voice - I can not catch a break ! I already have 2 kids who can't seem to get the hang of potty training now he decides to join in ?! - It's not like it was on propose sweetheart , it's probably just the food - mom tried to calm her - I m still going to be the one to have to clean it up - I made a mental note to try to clean everything sparkling somehow I just still didn't know how as I had no idea how to get out of the mess I was in - The car needs to be taken to the car cleaners too - I heard isaacs voice I was at lost. I had no idea how to get my messy clothes out or the mess out of the clothes for starters . - oh dear god - I wasn't sure if she meant the smell which I had to admit was awful or the general state of the bathroom having poop smeared on the toilet and on the floor where my pants shoes and socks were in a heap . - hey ! You can't ... Just ... Just come in here - I didn't know what to do but try to cover myself up as much as I could . I just knew I had to get her out. Of course that wasn't going to happen. - well someone has to clean up here and knowing you , it's not going to be you . You are excellent at getting into a mess - she shot me a degrading look as she opened the bathtub taps and started filling the tub - literally . But not getting out of one . she was right , spot on right about that . Especially as my situation was about to get worse . A lot worse . She started emptying the pockets of my clothes and throwing them into the tub which was bubbling with soap I tried stopping her and saying I will do it but she completely ignored me. - what is this ?! - I froze . I knew that she found the absorbant underwear - what the hell is this ?! I couldn't come up with a single excuse or explanation . Beaty seemed furious . - mom ! Mom ! MOM! Get in here now !!! - as if this wasn't utterly humiliating enough now there won't be a single person in the family not knowing - sweetheart why are you shouting ?? What happened ?? Beaty showed her my destroyed protection she almost threw into the water. As they both demanded answers I had no choice but to stummer at least part of the truth trying to down play it as much as I could considering I was basically naked but a shit covered t shirt . Beaty didn't seemed convinced while mom seemed utterly concerned , Beaty jumped up and left the room. I knew nothing good could come out of that . And I was right . In less than a minute she was back with the packages hidden in my closet held as evidence . I knew that I lost the battle. My secret was out. There was nothing I could do. My troath felt like it had a giant lump preventing me from speaking and I was way too embarrassed to look them in the eyes. especially mom , who kept asking me how could have I not told her . - he lied to you and to all of us what else is new ?! Just proves my point that I been right all along he isn't more mature than the girls are. - Beaty showered my pants spraying water all over - god damn it.! - She threw the pants into a plastic basin - well not all of us actually Chris knew - I could see moms expression of disbelief - oh come own ! He was staying in his house and here they are sharing a room for crying out loud ! Chris isn't stupid or maybe he is why else would he go cahoots with this ?! But he has definetly had to see this mess or something similar . i felt beyond awful knowing that now I have dragged Chris into it too. I could tell mom wanted to defend Chris , since he wasn't even there to be able to defend himself , though for that matter I was there but I couldn't say anything in my own defense much less Chris's , yet it was clear for her too that Beaty is right Chris has had to know. - take off your shirt I felt my heart pounding. Though the shirt was hardly enough to cover the truth or the mess without it I will be totally exposed. - take off your shirt ! Now ! It's a mess ! Oh don't give me that look, you don't have anything we all haven't seen before. Plus if you are walking around in pullups you are in no position for modesty , off with your shirt like it wasn't enough that now I was completely naked infront of my mother and sister , Beaty also degraded me to a toddlers level by referring to my protection as "pullups" something a toddler would be using . Certainly not someone my age. Beaty seeing that mom seemed too stunned to take any action , rinsed my shirt threw it in the basin and shoved the basin with my wet clothes in it at her and told her she will handle it. - I think I should handle this - mom said but she wasn't convincing. Before , even with dad she could been quite assertive when it came to her children . But I guess something changed since , I know dads death wasn't easy on any of us espcially not mom. - that is precisely the problem- Beaty turned to face mom as she drained the tub and washed it with clear water- you don't handle it! If anything you interfered when dad was trying to handle him and look where that got us ! - Beaty didn't even seem to try to control the volume of her voice - I will handle this ! Mom left the room , and though the door was half closed with the paper thin walls it was sure that everyone in the house heard everything . - get in ! I was so stunned I wasn't even sure if I heard her right - I said get in right now or God help me ! - she pointed at the tub with her eyes sparkling with anger i wanted to object , maybe I should have but I felt so vulnerable I just couldn't . - I can shower by myself - oh really ?! Cause I have a bathroom full of mess and diapers proving that you can't even go to the bathroom by yourself I can't say that in the past months I wasn't bathed by nurses or nurse aids, but that was after my accident in a hopital . And it was still a lot less humiliating and to be honest a lot less forceful than what Beatys idea seemed of bathing me. After she felt she washed me throughly enough , she told me to get out . as I was drying myself I noticed she pulled a diaper out - what are you doing ?! - it was fairly clear what she was doing or intending to yet I couldn't believe it - what does it look like genious ?! Besides this package is half empty so don't tell me you aren't wearing diapers - not not during the the day - I stummered I couldn't even bring myself to say the d word out loud - well not anymore ! Lay down on the towel i shook my head , she couldn't be serous but she was - lay down now or you will be sorry I shook my head again - fine you asked for this ! I m not even sure what or how happened in the next few seconds but by the time I was able to grasp what was happening I was you could say laying over beatys knees as she repeatedly and forcefully lowered her hairbrush onto my backside. She didn't have a very hard time though as height wise we were about the same especially when she wore hills , and in the past year or so she was regularly working out at a gym to regain her prepregnancy figure . The commoction beatys shouting and my cries of pain must have attracted everyone cause as far as I could see through my tears , the smacks were painful no doubt , but I think the tears were mostly of frustration and humiliation , I could make out that mom joe Isaac and the twins well all at the now wide open door. Joe quickly dragged the two wide eyed girls away, who likely won't doubt their mothers threats about spanking ever again or forget the sight of their uncle 6 or 7 times their senior being spanked by their mother. Isaac mumbled something about getting the car cleared, and mom just watched and maybe for the first time didn't rush to my aid. maybe there isn't much aid left to give when your daughter is spanking your but naked 21 years old son with her hairbrush at the full view of the family. I m not sure how long or have many smacks there were before it ended. To me it seemed to last hours . - unless you want more I suggest you lay your but down this time I didn't object , I was trying to swallow back my tears . Beaty pulled up the diaper around my waist fastened the tapes without any hesitation . - normally you would get antirash cream but I think letting you remember what a freshly spanked bottom feels like for as long as it can last will only do you good, now March yourself to your bedroom and don't even think of sassing back to me unless you want another find with the hairbrush I wanted to object to having to walk through the house in nothing but a diaper but it was clear that any objection or even begging at this point would fall on deaf ears. So I had no choice but to walk to my room in nothing but a diaper , passing by mom and joe with the twins who I guess didn't know what to be more amazed by my spanking or the sight of me in diapers . as my pajamas were in our bathroom Beaty pulled out a random shirt and told me to put it on . she told me to get in bed and she will be back later to check on me - and under no circumstances are you allowed to take off change or do anything with that diaper do you understand ?! Only an Adult can do that it was obvious that from this point I was no longer considered an adult . As she was about to shut the door she stopped , took the key out of the door - children don't get to lock their doors - she declared as she kept the room with the key I layed down on the bed pulling the cover over me . I still felt tears on my cheeks but I couldn't let them hear my cry . My stomach felt in a knot and I could only hope I wouldn't have another round of diarrhea , at this point I don't know what would be worse another accident or asking an "adult " to let me use the bathroom . I wasn't even sure they would . Plus the adults for now we're Beaty who put me in this position , mom who didn't try to stop her. Isaac was definetly not an option and neither was joe. That only left Chris , but he wasn't back yet. And I had no way of warning him about everyone knowing he knew what I hid as my phone was left in the bathroom . God why didn't I text him then ... But I m not even sure if he would be on my side anymore . Not after mom and Beaty attacking him , well probably not with a hairbrush , about knowing my secret and not telling them . ( sorry about the spanking scene not being too detailed first time ever writing a scene like that )

Chapter 9 continued - mom I really think that any not long is too long .. Maybe you could pull over - well honey it's really not that much longer so you will just have to hang in there there isn't much option to stop around here but as she was saying those words it was already too late . As much as I willed my spinchter to hang on and stay shut it didn't , I felt the warm loose almost fluid like mess ooze out of me. There was no hiding it . The smell was awful and strong , there was no hiding that . Also no way of hiding that as I suspected my protection failed to contain it. Loose stool was oozing down my legs onto the seat basically smearing everything around me and I was completely helpless to stop it . of course immediately what I have done or what happened as you wish to phrase it , became evident to all the other 3 passengers in the car. i could describe the reactions as total disgust (Isaac) to total shock ( Britney ) I guess mom was less shocked as a mother of 3 she seen and lived it all basically but I definetly could she was taken aback . I knew she would try to contain the situation as much as it was possible but at this point it wasn't really a possibility . i really wished the ground would just swallow me right then and there. Britney as most little children still didn't master the art of keeping honest remarks to herself - I thought big boys and girls don't have accidents in their pants but they go in the potty I couldn't even think of a response . Not to mention if they would know that I tend to not make it to the "potty " an awful lot of times lately ... - well sweetie pie you know even big boys and girls can have accidents when they are sick . So Isaac maybe if you could roll down all the windows and drive a bit faster ...? Isaac murmured something about having to get the car cleaned , as I didn't know where to look. Definetly not at any of them . I felt my neck my face burning with shame and humiliation. Frankly we did reach the house a few minutes later but by then it was beyond too late . mom told me to stay put as she rushed in to get an old towel to " minimize more damage " while Britney demanded more and more agitatedly to be released from her seat and car. I couldn't blame her as the smell was repelling , and I wished I could escape it too but as I was the source I had no chance of that . Isaac stepped out of the car but didn't seemed like he felt it was his place to take any action. mom returned with a towel and told me to take my pants and shoes off and wrap it around myself. Then I really panicked. Taking my pants off would definetly expose what I been trying to hide all this time .

Chapter 9 to my surprise and relief the first week or so went by quite smoothly , I can't say completely uneventful but no one found out. I was selfconscious about wearing and espcially having to put a diaper on in front of Chris . Of course I knew he seen it even put it on me but I wasn't fully aware of it then thanks to the alcohol. However Chris seemed to sense my inconvience without me having to put it into words and tried to give me as much privacy as it was possible so I'd be able to change alone . Putting a diaper on in the bathroom wasn't a good idea from 2 reasons 1 being that it was a shared one with mom and Isaac at best and a few steps from our bedroom and during that short time I could have ran into anyone especially giving that the overnight diaper was a thick one , not possible to discreetly hide like my daytime protection. Second reason was that I couldn't master putting the diaper on standing up , only laying down while that was I guess somehow manageable in the bathroom doing it on the bedroom bed was much more comfortable . disposing them wasn't much easier to manouver but we still managed undetected. i completely underestimated how much all of this had to do with Chris , his planning and executing , him running interference when needed, mapping gas stations and stops when we went somewhere . I didn't realize all that till he had to go back to the city for 1 day for a final audition or closing a role not sure he doesn't tend to talk about job possibilities till he signed a contract . By that time Beaty was on the edge , her and joe fought daily about the girls mostly but other things too. Beaty did most of the shouting so wether we wanted to hear or not we did. In a way it was a good thing for me cause it distracted mom from paying close attention to me. But by now even joe was losing his patience . I guess the last straw for him was Beaty almost actually spanking Britney not just treathing , after she has an accident . Joe claimed in his family these kind of things were rare and reserved for severe occasions , I guess so was in ours with mom and dad. Though mom never spanked me dad however did. Mostly when I acted up or sneaked out. The last time was not too long before he died when I had to move back home after being dismissed from college . Growing up when mom and dad went on vacation dad "empowered" Chris and Beaty to punish me when needed. Beaty used her given authority over me but Chris only went as far as treathing he will but he never did. I don't think he would have. Beaty always told mom the reason I was always in trouble was that she intervened on my behalf rather than letting dad give me a lesson I wouldn't forget . But circling back to the day that changed it all. As I said before Chris was in L.A. , he said he'd drive up early morning and back at night though everyone told him to just stay in town for a night , which normally he would have . He said he didn't want to since it was a family holiday and he felt bad enough leaving as it was. I wasn't concerned with him leaving. It was a week into our vacation "routine " was down and as I already said , I failed to realize how much of it going smoothly was to do with him. So I wasn't more stressed than any other day . the day started as usual. Then to keep joe and Beaty from fighting mom decided it would be nice to go out for a drive and get lunch somewhere . then I did start to to get a little nervous as till now everytime we went out Chris drove, and made sure to stop for me to use a restroom . but that part I did managed to avoid as mom thought it would give Beaty and joe a little break if they had Haley while her Isaac and me drive with Britney . Which meant "potty stops " . breaks I despretly needed. So I thought I was out of the woods as mom was mostly preoccupied with Britney and Isaac and I never had to much to talk about for long periods of time and a week in neither 1 of us was trying. But I figured if I managed to get through the whole 4th of July picnic without any accidents , well major accidents anyone would have noticed, I could get by easily going unnoticed at a short outing without Chris . The problem came after we stopped for Mexican food. I did experience some digestive problems after certain Mexican meals but as I haven't had any in so long and things seemed to go just fine I guess I wasn't being careful. We were already driving back to the house, Isaac was driving while mom was trying to sooth Britney who kept complaining about not getting a prize as she unlike Haley didn't manage to avoid accidents 2 days in a row, when I felt a sudden cramping urge. only this urge didn't originate from my bladder but deep in my colon. Oh no no no , I tried to calm myself and think of something else but anyone who ever had a sudden onset diarrhea knows that's not something you can just ignore. i guess my face reflected what I was feeling cause mom suddenly turned to me - Jonny are you feeling okay ? - to be honest , not really . I don't think tacos was a good idea. - are you gonna be sick ? - by that point I wished it would come out of that end - no but I need to use the bathroom - and soon , really really soon. I never had to estimate wether my protection could hold this type of "accident" but based on what happened at Chris's party with an overstretched bladder I assumed if it couldn't handle the content of a bladder it will most definetly fail at the full content of my colon . And even if by some miracle it would , it would still be one of the most embarrassing events of my life. - well we will be at the house soon honey - how soon is soon ? - I tried to keep my voice from becoming desperate though my situation sure was - I m not sure - mom was not exactly a gps expert - but it's not long I already knew it is too long ... To be continued soon

Chapter 8 ( so in this chapter I will try to move the plot along without losing important scenes I hope it will work) As we left the consultation room I was quite desprate to go to the men's room and make sure that I didn't need to change my protection . I handed Chris my coat and took only my bag with me in case ... annie waved at us from the other side of the hallway - you know she seems to like you right ? - Chris asked me in a low voice - what ? Who ? - Annie . What did that concision hurt your eyesight? She is clearly interested in you - I don't think so - what are you serious , she is totally your type . What's up with you ? Normally you would have asked her out ages ago , actually why don't you ask her out ? - I don't know it's weird , and isn't there a law or something against it ? - no , you are no longer a patient . Oh god just do it - as we got near Annie Chris lightly shoved me towards her - hi - hi - I hope it's not weird or something but I was wondering if you would like to grab a cup of coffee sometime or something ? - sure though I thought that you might be avoiding coffee - yeah kinda of - I started to regret taking Chris's advice as I felt really stupid - maybe frozen yoghurt ? - Annie added with a smile - yeah that's sounds great , maybe after the 4th of July sometime ? We are going up to a family vacation but I'd be great once I m back - let me give you my number I automatically reached into my pocket only to realize that my phone was in its usual place in the pocket of my jacket however I wasn't wearing my jacket . I heard Chris clear his troath behind me as he passed me his phone - I will send you the contact Annie saved her number in Chris's phone as I quickly excused myself and entered the men's room to a do my bussiness and b assess the damage done to my protection . Luckily my assumption was correct and not more than a few drops escaped into it meaning I had to reason to change . Relief though only lasted a few seconds as I realized this was only the first test ( and still the less likely to end up embarrassing ) of the day as we still had lunch out lined up. Surprisingly the lunch went well and it was really a nice break from my boring routine , Chris was an attraction as always but as he cleverly mapped the men's room out as we arrived and discreetly pointed it out to me , I used the attention directed at him to skip out basically unnoticed several times and avoid any possible accidents . i must admit that outing boosted my confidence , and also the impending date , I guess it's a date , with Annie . ...................................................................................................................................................................................................................................... the last couple of days before driving up to the summer house went quite uneventful for me , Chris as always was quite busy . The only problem I encountered was how to pack my "things" . Obviously I don't mean clothes or shoes but the disposable things . If I put them in my suitcase there is hardly space for anything else but if don't then I m left virtually walking around with them in plain sight . after a lot of debate I decided to ask Chris's advice , I mean after all we will be sharing a room it's not like he won't be seeing it all , as much as I wish he wouldn't . He was in his room packing and talking on the phone as I tapped on the door he beckoned me in , putting the phone a bit to side as he asked what do you need? Usually it would be borrowing his stuff like shirts or aftershave but I didn't feel at all comfortable to being up packing my protections while he was on the phone and I could be overhead so I just said I will be back later and retreated to my own room. A while later I heard a knock on my door - what's up ? - as Chris entered I showed him my dilemma - I think the easiest unless you can calculate exactly how many of which you will need - to which I shook my head , technically the diapers I could while adding a couple of extras just in case , but I still couldn't say the word diaper out loud and the absorbant protection no way of knowing as I hoped the bare minimum but let recent events show things don't tend to go as I calculate them - it's easier if you just leave them as they are I will look for some bag which won't make the content obvious to tell and we will figure how and when to bring them in . on Friday we loaded the car with our bags and my protections and headed off towards the summer house . Chris sticked to the plan and stopped 3 times during the drive , once quite close to the house itself in case the bathroom would be occupied at arrival . During the drive he told me that he talked to mom and Beaty and our room would be next to moms whole Beaty joe and the twins will take the other bedroom and kids room , meaning Chris and I will be sharing a bathroom with mom and Isaac while Beaty joe and the kids get the second . I wasn't so sure that being right next door to mom is the best since the walls were paper thin but I had to admit it was still a better option than sharing a wall with Beaty and joe. - besides joe and Beaty are all about getting alone time to work on things while mom and Isaac are just a week away from going away alone for 5 months , which couple do you figure is more likely to get procreating ? - Chris asked raising his eyebrows - ohh Ewww don't - just having that image of mom doing it was enough to give me nausea , it was weird enough we were all here without dad as this house was his dream his making and mom was sharing their bed with a new man , I needn't to think about what happens in that bed, I'd hoped nothing . i was worried about getting the bags in unnoticed but we got lucky. We were basically only greeted by mom and Isaac but mom returned to the "scene" almost right after and Isaac retreated to the kitchen to his wine, he looked like but the time Chris and I as the last to arrive have he already had enough family time. I could relate to him somewhat . the scene which was clearly heard over even in our bedroom where we tried to unpack ( or in my case hide ) our belongings , seemed to be another huge fight between Beaty and joe. They been fighting a lot since Beaty went back to work . Which led joe home as a full time dad . That probably left him incharge of the potty training which now , at least based on beatys views, ended in a late disaster . Espcially for Britney who still has several daytime accidents . One of which probably occurred not much before we arrived and created enough distraction for us to slip in almost unnoticed . Mom tried to calm things and reason with Beaty such as fraternal twins are as good as 2 totally different children and either way this was no major disaster worth shouting , but as usual when she flew into a stubborn rage fit there was no talking to . It's not like Beaty and moms relationship was a smooth 1. When Beaty was growing up she and mom fought about everything to the point Beaty applied only to colleges on the other coast to be away from home for years where she barely visited . Since the girls where born and dad died their relationship has seemed to reach a quiet zone but fights still occurred . my feelings regarding the twins potty training were mixed . First it took up a lot more bathroom time than before , and brought it up constantly as a conversation topic making me go pink and squirmish reminding me about my own troubles , on the other hand I felt sorry for them , as Beaty clearly tried to take over now that she was home and the more joe tried to mellow her attitude the more fights it seemed to result in . discipline wise it seemed clear that Beaty took after dad. Joe seemed much more calm yet it seemed clear he has had it too with the whole thing and I guess the fights in particular . regarding the girls mom and Chris seemed dispatched consoling them when the yelling a broke out , though Beaty hasn't directly yelled at the girls she was yelling at joe right in front of them which seemed to have to same effect. i did feel bad for them while trying to keep myself distant as I knew my own situation wasn't far from theirs . ( we are getting nearer the action but I don't want to ruin the tension build up so it will take a little bit longer )