Sampson

I'm not even sure what I want to do with this account.  Not sure if I want to actually be active, or just continue to lurk.  As tempted as I am to continue to lurk, that's what I always do and I want to be more active here and on other sites.  But, my perpetually anxiety addled mind makes it hard for me to make that leap.  

What do I say?  How do I say it?  I hope I don't phrase things poorly.  Is this person actually interested in me, or are they feigning interest in order to get something from me?  Are they going to just get what they want and ghost me?  Should I do little babble?  Can I do little babble?  If so, where and when is it appropriate?  These are just some of the things that flow through my mind.  By the time I've sifted through all of these thoughts, I just end up scrapping the idea of even saying anything at all.  It's not worth the stress I end up placing on myself.  

Gonna do some more thinking and soul-searching, and try to figure things out in my head.  Try to see if the potential positives will outweigh the stresses I've built up in my head. 

Also, I finally got around to putting up the icon I commissioned a few months back.  

Well, I successfully quit cigarettes.

Finally got around to posting the first part of a story over on FA.

Wanting to be active and yet being paranoid and anxious all the time can be frustrating.