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Heck yea love this one as much if not more than the first one.

I want to thank everyone for their kind words and encouragement over the past few days. Thursday was his funeral and thankfully my Unit let me take leave extremely fast so that i could go home and be there for that. It was a very emotional trip home but it did help me out a lot I haven't cried since the funeral. Im not sure if that is because i finally got to say my good bye to him, time, or the late nights of drinking we did back home just sitting around talking about all the crazy stuff we used to do with him either way it has made me feel amazingly better.

Yea it was the first time I had ever made a video like that and i didnt open up the image files before i added them so it added the thumbnail images as the ones on there if that makes any sense. Thanks for enjoying the song.

Thank you everyone very much. The visitation and funeral is this weds and thursday, so two days of just breakdown crying. but its something that needs to happen.

Thank you both very much for your kind words.

Timothy by As Cities Burn.

I play guitar and sing. This is one of my songs let me know what you think.

I was driving home yesterday when a friend of mine sent me a message on Facebook that said "Call me ASAP". In the back of my mind i thought to myself something must have happened to my best friend but figured it was something trivial. When i called him he was very quiet at first and then began to tell me that my best friend had just killed himself. This was the person who helped me become the man i am today, he was my brother the person who i hung out with every day before i joined the Army he was actually the person who talked me into the joining which has been the best thing in my life. I owed everything to him and every time i went home on leave i spent the whole time hanging out with him catching up on whats been going on drinking and talking about girls, our lives, and out future. He was the person who could talk me into doing the stupidest things in the world, the reason for my first concussion, my first over night stay in a hospital, my first vice, and so much more. Iv never lost someone close to me much less my best friend a person that I made the best memories of my life with. Iv never cried like this before and i don't even know what to do. I tried to call his dad today and couldn't stop crying after dialing the number long enough to connect the call. Sorry for rambling and what not just needed to write out some of the things.

For those of you who don't want to read lol.

Haha for someone who says "I myself have no interest in the fetishes posted here" he sure does have a lot of AB stuff and most of them captioned.

I do love me some zombies as well. But i will have to say MW3 took me a while to like but its not bad.

Yea thankfully through all the tests i have had run they have ruled out an heart problems which is a relief, they are starting to think that i damaged alot of the muscles in that area and im starting physical therapy

Yea I'm going to go make another appointment in Monday. I'm sure there starting to hate me up there but nothing they have given me has made this better they gave me some steroid pack the other day. I feel good until the Percocet wears off then that beautiful pain comes right back. I guess I now know why its called a medical practice. But then again like house you have to mark things off your list and just kind of guess if you are right in a field like that not trying to say anything bad about drs I just hope they can figure out what's wrong with me soon I don't want to be stuck on pain meds too much longer bc if I am I know the military will just kick me out like they do everyone else that gets hurt especially with the fact that they are trying to cut us down so much I don't need to be giving them a reason to give me the boot I love my job.

Yea it wasn't the smartest thing Iv ever done waiting a month but I thought I had just pulled a muscle at first and it would go away but it never did then last week I was at work and for about 10 min it felt like someone was just constantly stabbing me in the chest so I figured it was time to go to the dr. I always get nervous going to the dr they always make me feel like I'm saying the wrong thing.

Thank you i didnt even think of that i mean i do have pain under my shoulder blade as well cant believe i didnt think of this. I swear i turn 25 on tuesday and im falling apart lol

Well i have been having horrible chest pains for about a month now and i finally decided i should go to the Dr. and they have run a bunch of test and still dont know whats wrong 4 Drs have given me all different diagnosis i need house lol. But anyways i had a CT scan today and they pumped some fluid in me and the lady told me you will get a really weird taste in you mouth and you will have a hot flash (never had one of those before but WOW that thing sucked) and then she tells me your also going to think your wetting your pants but your not so its ok. Now i didnt believe the last part but holy crap she was right i totally thought i had wet my pants when she started pushing those fluids in. it was the craziest feeling lol.

For the longest time i felt ashamed about this side of me, I would often go through fits where i would throw everything i owned away and hide from everyone. But in the past year or so i have come to realize that this is who i am and i cant change or stop the feelings that i have and ever since then i have been the happiest that i have ever been although i realize i will probably be single for the rest of my life because of it as well and thats not cool but oh well life goes on.

I was the middle child but i didn't actually meet my older brother until i was 17 so i'm not sure what i would be? I always knew about him though but my sperm donor wouldn't allow him to come meet me.

Thank you both yes the views from my windows have been nice although I have everything I own in my truck with me as well so I can't see out of all of my windows. Stopping at places has made me extrely nervous I would die if someone broke into my truck ever since one of my guitars was stolen coming back from Iraq I keep thinking that's going to happen again but other than that the trip has been good so far sunday it's on to Virginia/DC can't believe how cold it is up here already it was in the 90's when i left Texas.

Well maybe 4 haha. So I started my trip from Texas to Connecticut today and man 2200 miles is starting to look like a long not so fun trip although I have realized it is helping me get reacquainted with some older albums(well maybe not older to everyone) that I had forgotten I loved so very much. Iv made it all the way to Georgia today and tomorrows leg will take me to North Carolina. No bathroom breaks definately make the trip easier.

I dont know if you are still looking, not even sure how i remembered guess its that whole brain thing. saw this and it clicked someone was looking for it http://www.adultbaby-shop.de/shop/en/Latex-Punishment/Dummy-Gag/Dummy-gag-harness-option-lockable.html

Yea i have kept it hidden for three years here, although that is with very little time to be my true self. The good news is my next duty station i will have my own room which will be very nice i don't even know what i am going to do with all of that privacy. I do see me getting very bored very quickly lol.

Being in the military and living in the barraks we often have "Health & Welfare" inspections which is when before PT in the morning after our first formation they round all of us up and search our rooms. Now there have been many times that I have been scared to death now I have all of my stuff hidden because I have a roommate (we share a 90 sq ft room with a sink and a bathroom) that I have had for the past 3 years got lucky he's my best fried but anyways I have always wondered what would happen if all of my things were found?