Haylee

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I am new to topics like this one so if anything comes out wrong I apologize in advance. I know people can be sensitive to terms and phrases used and I am so afraid of phrasing something wrong and accidently upsetting someone without at all meaning to. So please if I say something wrong just correct me gently? I don't want to say anything the wrong way. I'm just curious though, is there such a thing as a female to male transexual? Again I know I know nothing right now about what the proper terms may be for any of this so if I get something wrong I am so sorry. Basically I guess what I am asking is I have seen a lot of male to female transexuals, but are there female to male ones too? My online Mommy and I were talking in depth a few nights ago about some umm... erotic type fun which I am too shy to share here right now, but she suggested that I might do really well if I was with someone in real life who had umm.... *blushes* male fun parts, but umm.. female top fun parts? Omgggggggggg I know I sound like a total dorkous right now I know I know I just don't know how to phrase it all right and this is so embarassing to talk about. But before that I had never really given any thought to the whole idea of having a Daddy/Mommy?? ummm... O.o; ... yeah... but the more she talked about how she thought I'd be really happy with someone who had breasts that I could nurse on but ummm manly bits that my adult side enjoys so much >.> Well yeah it got me dreaming and fantasing and such. Obviously I have a whole heck of a lot to learn and I pray I'm not coming across as a total ditz, but it was just something I was wondering about was all. *blushes* So, can I dig a hole to China to hide in now that I have made a total fool of myself not knowing how to phrase everything and ask all this? >.<

I've never had the chance to nurse in my real life, only roleplayed it online with Mommies I have had over the years online. With one of them it was something we talked in great detail about doing together when she came to visit me and was something I looked so forward to. But, our first visit together we weren't quite ready to make a step that intimate with each other we were still just getting to know each other obviously and since we are no longer together obviously it will never happen, with her at least. I have a new Mommy now but my new Mommy is strictly just an online only Mommy and, though she has offered to let me nurse in r/p with her she's not one that I think I could ever do it with in real life because the adult me finds the whole idea highly erotic as well and, I know she doesn't see me in that way. She sees me as her daughter, more or less, her baby girl, not her lover, and, though that is a very very special relationship that I treasure greatly, I still find myself longing and hoping and praying that someday I'll find another Mommy that can be more than just an online mother who can enjoy some sensual fun along with the soothing gentle comforting times that my "little side" would get from nursing as well. I dobt it will ever happen, Mommies are tough to find, especially for someone like me who lives a pretty much 24/7 lifestyle but, I can dream right?

Just thought I'd say hi since I am new to this board. I'm 30 years old, female, and married and live a pretty much 24/7 lifestyle.