diapersi

I've been a bit quiet for a while and I thought it was time I actually wrote something about myself. I'm English so I should really call them nappies, but I prefer the word Diaper. I'll tell you my story, sorry if it long: I'm 18 and I've liked diapers for as long as I can remember. I have a vague memory of when I was a baby/toddler, I don't remember what age, I can remember lying down behind the sofa and filling my diaper. I wet the bed until I was eleven or twelve but I stopped wearing diapers to bed at about four, except for on long journeys till I was probably eight and round friends houses at night until I was five I think. I remember when I was five or six, there was a pack of diapers in my clothes draws, I was awake one night and got one out and tried to put it on (I didn't use it, but I thought about doing it, but didn't because I realised it would be difficult to explain), I can't remember how it went but I remember thinking after I had put it on 'Now how the hell do I get rid of this?' lol, I can't remember what I did with it. It was shit waking up in a wet bed every night/morning but I'd definately say I prefer that I didn't wear diapers to bed for my own confidence really. Anyway, I noticed that I liked diapers around the age of twelve and I actually got my first diapers when I was out in town with friends, we went to a supermarket and bought diapers just to mess around and stick onto buses etc, and I put one in my boxers and peed in it in town, I enjoyed it but I didn't mention it ever again, for fear of questions about why I would do it, and it's definately something I didn't want them telling everyone. They didn't though, if they had I would have killed them lol. Then a year later or so I went to the shop and bought a pack of Pampers Baby Dry size Six. I've been hooked since and since about fifteen I've had various diapers in my room at various times. Occassionally back in the day I'd like to just get away from it for a bit, but now my draws are permanently laden with diapers. Although I don't neccesarily wear them that often, I go through phases of wearing a lot then not at all. My love for diapers has affected my sex life, I'm a virgin and although I'm not ashamed, I'd prefer not to be, it's easier to just go and buy diapers and there's no chance of rejection with a diaper, and I don't have to try and 'impress' some girl. I have a hard time communicating with girls my age and find that purely on my side the sexual tension gets in the way of me being able to just be myself. Might be a bit weird that I just stuck that on the end, but I thought I'd come out and say it because it would be good to get some advice on how I can get over it and actually try and get a girlfriend, I've had one, and even then I was so embarrased about it I could hardly speak to her lol.

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So I've decided to get a bit more involved and to change my lurking ways, it's my New Years Resolution lol. Anyway I'm thinking about getting a subscription, because I've got a bit of spare cash and seeing as I've quite enjoyed the site I thought I should contribute financially. My question be to ye; What do you get for the subscription, and more to the point, do you think it's worth it? Hope my question doesn't cause offence, it shouldn't do but you never know, it could always be their time of the month!