PeytonJ

I consider myself a pretty open-minded person. I do tend not to think about things before acting on them, but more or so because I at times just want to live in the moment, and not take into consideration the repercussions of my actions. Aside from being "spontaneous" at times, I am typically a pretty serious person. Since I was little, I've been told that I am mature for my age. I completely agree with that statement. Even in elementary school my expectations for the other kids were the same I had for myself. Act like an adult, instead of acting like a kid. It's taken some time for me to realize that people have the right to express themselves anyway they want. I simply choose to express myself in a more mature way than most people my age. However there are times were I can be immature, though it doesn't outweigh my maturity level.

I love to write, however when it comes down to writing stories I feel completely clueless. Sometime in the future I want that to change, because writing is a great way for me to express how I am feeling. Also it's just plain FUN! Usually I am great at replying to a role-play I'm involved with; it's just a lot easier for me, for some odd reason. One would believe if I am capable of writing a decent post to a role-play, then I should be able to write a story. I do plan on changing that one day, but for now I have other things to focus on. Definitely on my bucket list though!

Throughout the year I've had the great pleasure of learning more about myself. Most people would find that experience helpful, but I can't help but feel more vulnerable after learning so much. I suppose it goes like this, the more I learn the more I don't know myself. I do believe in the saying, you learn something new every day. At least I have that going for me. I love learning, whether it's about me or things going on in the world around me. Not exactly sure how many people here find themselves fascinated with watching people, but I am one of those people. Some might find it a bit unsettling that someone enjoys watching their expressions and actions, but I think the reason I like it so much is due to the fact that we as humans are so unpredictable. However when I am doing this, I tend to pick them apart and find everything wrong with them. I would like to think it's because I am a major perfectionist, but it might just have to due with me not liking the person, therefore I feel like I have to do something rude enough to get them to leave me alone. I'm fairly picky about who I choose to be my friend. If I don't like the person I won't lie. My feelings towards them will be expressed, whether they like it or not. This is an incredibly bad part of me, but one day I will get over it. I just have a lot of things I need to work though before that comes...

When it comes to online relationships I don't really do them anymore. Let me clarify that. I don't do mommy or daddy relationships. I've done them in the past and I realized that it's just not something I fully enjoy. I am okay with meeting people online and befriending them. Actually I love meeting new people and learning about their lives and where they live. In fact I had a great time meeting someone from here and I we've really been great friends. I hope sometime I can go over to were that person lives. I consider that friend like a family member even though I met them here...

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