littlemiss

packrat, I'm not sure how much this means coming from someone as new to this as myself, but I am so proud of you! It takes a very brave human being to want to expose such a vulnerable part of themselves. Even if it is to the most important person in your life. The fear of rejection/humiliation is one of the most motivation factors in how we present ourselves to others. I know that with myself, I unfortunately care very much about the way other people see me. I have spent a good part of my life hiding the biggest part of my life from the world. That is what I value the most with AB; the fact that I don't have to hide anything. Someone else is taking care of me and protecting me while in this "role play". It sounds to me that your wife loves you very much. If I were in her position, it might take me a little while to accept and understand your special interest/desire. But after learning about it and understanding why it is so special to you, I would be there for you, even if it were not for me. You might want to think about how to handle the issue that you kept this from her for so long. That may be something that will be hurtful to her and you might want to be prepared to discuss that aspect with her. Make sure she knows that even though you didn't share this with her from the beginning, doesn't mean that you don't love or trust her completely. Remind her that it is your own insecurity that hindered you from sharing with her earlier. This might make things go a little easier. Best of luck to you! You sound like a fabulous person, I see this working out for you. ~M

I would like to correct myself. I said that I wonder if I stop being comfortable with AB/DD, if my bf would seek out another partner. I did not mean that I foresee myself "stopping", or that I am in any way uncomfortable. I just meant that I worry that I, someday, might not be enough (or what I am comfortable with may not be enough for him). This is only my own insecurity with myself and has nothing to do with AB/DD or my boyfriend in anyway. I think that the hardest part of being an AB is the fact that I am not comfortable with myself sometimes. This may just be the best thing for me though, because now I can be a baby an not worry about all the stresses of being an insecure adult. I am very thankful for being introduced to this "outlet" and for having such an amazing and supportive boyfriend to share in the experience with. Sorry for any confusion. ~M

I'm sure that it had to be very difficult for my boyfriend to share with me. He began with letting a little out at a time. As I showed him that I was okay with what he was telling me, he began to share more. It started with little jokes and hints. I didn't know anything about the fetish, so when he came out and told me he likes to be the baby and wear diapers, I looked it up on line. It took me a little while to get used to it all. First he put me in a diaper and I really didn't mind it too much. Long story short...I would be his baby anytime he wants. And the same goes for him...I'm learning how to be a good mommy with trial and error. ~M

Wow, Safety Word! I would have never thought of that. Great idea! So far things have felt very safe and comfortable. But that is a great thing to have just in case. Thank you! Love the advise. ~M

It makes me sad that you can not completely share with your wife your desires and fetish for diapers. May I ask you... do you ever wish for the companion of another person to share in your diaper wearing? Have you seeked out a "mother" or "father" to take care of you? I ask because I sometimes wonder that if I ever were to stop being comfortable in AB/DD, if my boyfriend would seek out someone else to share with. I just wonder if the connection to your wife is greater than your desire to wear diapers? (I hope my questions are not too invasive.) ~M

Fabulous!!! I also was recently introduced to all of this by my boyfriend a few weeks ago. I was so very skeptical about it. But I knew that it meant alot to him, so I gave it a try. I am so glad that I did because I realized that I too enjoy it. I am really glad that there are other people out there that are as in love as I am and are willing to try new things for their partners. But even more excited to hear that by being open minded and accepting of new experiences, they are finding out things about themselves and enjoying it. I am really excited for you! I have had so many questions and everyone here has been amazing and supportive! If you ever need anything, please let me know. I would be more than happy to share with you what has helped me so far. I have worked really hard to make a comfortable environment for my boyfriend to open up and share it all with me. And it has been amazing. We are so happy!

It means alot to me that you are sharing. Do you mind if I ask, how did you "know". Did you experiment at age 6? Can the people who have always known and the people who try it and liked it be as equally passionate about it? Was it difficult growing up knowing this about yourself and not having a public support system? It seems very sad that people accept multiple sexual partners and violent bondage fetishes, and scowl at the thought of an adult tapping into their primal desire to be nurtured. Is that difficult for you? How do you cope with having to keep this part of your life a secret from the outside world? Im just an endless hole of questions. I hope you dont mind. I just am so fascinated, and excited about this new form of expression that I can share with my partner. ~M

Love the Story idea. Would it be better for him to write/tell me a story while in roll, about things he wants to do with Mommy? ~M

Thank you. I'm pretty sure that I am the lucky one to have him We both are really into cars. This is kinda far out there...but I wish they make baby car seats for AB's. I want to take my baby for a drive to help him fall asleep. It sounds like a good way to let him give me the control (I am really bad at being the Mommy-too much of a push over, I guess). ~M

Portland, OR. US Its in the Northwest, right below Washington State, along the boarder of the two states. Very green, lots of forestry and parks and rivers. ~M

Absolutely love the ideas!!! Thank you so much. ~M

I dont necessarily feel like I was coaxed into this. He pretty much just began to mention it to me, a little at a time, and I expressed how if this was a big part of his life, then I wanted to try and share it with him. I tried a little, and liked it!!! I do think that I will take the initiative. I think that we both will benefit from testing out different levels of play. It was two weeks ago that I discovered that this kind of fetish/play existed and I have little idea on how it works, and how to keep it psychologically health for both of us. When you say "play", do you mean like games? Hide and seek, peak-a-boo, tickle monster...that sort of stuff?

That is such a great idea to have us both read the stories on here together. Thank you for the ideas and the help. Im beginning to feel better and more confident about this. Is it common for someone who knew nothing about this fetish (even that it existed) could find it so comfortable and intriguing? Or do most people just "know" that this is what they like from a young age (pubescent)? ~M

Thank you guys so much. I really appreciate the advice and support. Sometimes I just need someone to guide me along with encouragement. I think Ive been too worried about making him happy. I just need to enjoy it myself (which I do very much) and he will feed off of my confidence and trust. He seems to be too worried about me being comfortable, that he is just afraid to be completely open about his desires. Tonight I think I might be able to break the ice alittle bit. I plan to give him a bottle while he is the baby. I'll fill my special little guys baba with his favorite drink (chocolate milk). What do you think? Good idea? ~M