Baby Rachel

I guess its one of those things you don't really find out, its just a feeling. Its like me and my connections with the spirits of mother earth, I never really found out, I just felt connected to her. Its like my knowing that I am a girl inside and not this nasty boys body that I am stuck living in for the time being. Its just something some people know, and others find out because when the ignorance of their upbringing has closed them off to the wonderful things in life, the thought doesn't cross their mind. In my case I always kinda knew that I am an AB transexual lesbian, the AB part being the only one of those three that I "Discovered" as opposed to always knew. Its just a matter of thinking about something and knowing in the depths of your soul that it is right for you. No one can take that away from you, that feeling of rightness. They will try to persecute and treat you badly for it, but they can never take that feeling away. When I am diapered up, sucking on a pink binkie and thinking of what my body will eventually be I get these feelings of contentment, as if nothing in the world could be more right. I would imagine it is the same way with love for another human being, but I am not well versed in that regard for I have never had a significant other. I guess its all a little different with everyone, but that is just how I feel.

i see a twilight zone fan, this was an amazing story, and the twist was amazing. Very well written and the plot twist rocked, thank you for the wonderful story.

Here Here sister

diapereddyke, thank you for what you have said, for it brings happiness to my heart personally. There are times when I feel down about being in this body, and sitting here unable to do a thing, and then I speak to people like you and i feel much better. When I run into those who have already gone through the horrid process and have come out feeling good, it gives me hope. Hope is such an important thing for me, it is the only thing keeping me going sometimes.....hope is a wonderful thing I would like to thank you for giving me this hope, you are a wonderful human being, and thank you.

I am editing my previous post because I misread you entirely. You have my deepest apologies for i spoke before i fully understood. All I can say to you is Rock On Girl....lol I feel so silly

yeah, electro is very expensive, but i want to get rid of this facial hair so bad.

just remember, be happy in yourself i told my parents not long ago, and while they didnt like it, they want to see me happy. your parents will be the same if they truly love you. im still in the beginning stages, not even on hormones yet, but i can still do what i need to do. and then there is baby dressing, thats fun too....lol

The important thing is to be happy in yourself. I finally had a term for what I was a couple of years ago, even though i had known about transexuals before. sadly the media destroyed it in my mind or i would have discovered myself earlier, and maybe done something about it earlier than now. but i do what i can, trying to get my life started. I am a woman (albeit an AB one) and that is what i need to be to be happy in myself. For me it is the fact that every time i look in the mirror i hate what i see, the body makes me sick. Im not going to be stupid and harm or kill myself, for im not suicidal, for that wont fix anything. I just know this body isnt for me, and I have to work hard to get where i want to be. im lucky that my parents havent disowned me for it. while they do not like it, they are supportive of me and have not questioned my decisions since i was 13. they let me make my own choices, and while they would rather see me not have to do this, they still support my for they want to see me happy. I know i am very lucky with my small build and feminine features, but i still have much work to do. It will be tough to be an AB transexual lesbian in this world, but its what i have to do to be happy, so i will fight for my happiness. I AM A ADULT BABY TRANSEXUAL LESBIAN AND I'M PROUD OF IT. i feel no need to let other's dictate my life, i will be what i want to be and be proud of it, for it is my life. that is just my view on the matter though.