liddlekitkat

Sarah shook her head. "No theyre just tank tops and why would i where an additional shirt under a shirt its spring time and i'd get hot. she started at Larrys own wardrobe. He looked maybe around 30 maybe a little younger but her dressed like a man in his 40s loose fitting dress shirts and pants. "you really don't have much of a sense of style" she looked through his selections. disney shirt, disney shirt, cartoon animals. "I mean i like cartoons or whatever but they should be faded so they look old not fresh like theyre new. I don't even watch current disney i'm more of a lion king person. maybe lilo and stitch"

"I didn't go any where." she retorts over the section. " she browses the shirts in the teen section. as the size crept up they got more "adult like". She picks up a 3 pack of tank tops (meant to be worn independently not under a shirt) a shirt t-shirt with a design from Green Day and a half off the shoulder swearshirt just in case it was cold. She saw him still looking at stuff and grabbed Another t-shirt with a california oversized tsher design and a plain black shirt because she felt it would be practical. She knew he said 3 shirts but she was used to variety and choice and was confident the 3 pack counted as one. She walked back over and dumped them in the cart with Larrys selection not even giving them a look. "this should tide should be good"

She shrugs, she never really shopped in walmart growing up so she decided to take his word for it. When he brings up the fosters she turns her lip up she hated that he assumed so negatively of them but she didn't know how to correct him without telling him everything. As they walk toward the teen section she made judgmental face as she touched the fabric finding it it cheaply made and childishly colorful. everything was bright with patterns she didn't want anything that would draw attention to her like this. "I would prefer pants" she picks up some straight leg blue jeans. They are on the tighter side if she ever had to put on a thicker pair of underwear they wouldn't fit. But thats not something she's thinking about. she walks around the section not to far from Larry within eyesight but not close enough for him to reach out and touch her. The teen section is next to the young adult section and she peeks over at larry who seems very interested in the skirts in the teen section. So she and grabs a some navy blue slacks and a a pear of tan joggers before sliding back to the teen section to look for shirts. Shes still within view but a few carousels away.

She rolled her eyes and shrugged, " if you say so. if they tried to say something you have a receipt. so they shouldn't be calling the police unless they can prove it. they're wasting the police's time not me." she retorts. "Only cheap stores make you check your bags at the mall anyway." She generally never shopped stores like that so she found the whole situation excessive. she sighed and nodded, she didn't really want him involved in her shopping choices but it was his money. " fine can you not bring up the underwear please." her face flushed red in embarrassment. she reached on the side of the skirt looking for pockets. annoyed to find that there were none. "can we get a different skirt this one doesn't have pockets"

As they finally left the bathroom she lingered behind as he seemed to be giving the stuff to a guy. She held her head down as the bag of pull ups was clearly visible and she didn't want to be associated with it. As they began to walk the notes that the pull doesn't really feel to different than her regular draws just a little thicker. but she was hyper aware but she shifts her body trying to get it comfortable. As they walk away she looks to him. "Why did you give him the stuff you already paid for it."

She rolls her eyes. "I know how to wash my body." as he reaches and pulls something out. She looks in confusion at the pull-ups designed for children and turns her mouth up. She couldn't refute his logic she had no idea what was going on and seemed powerless to stop it. But a pull up a child pull up at that surely there had to be other options. But aren't old people ones like big and white she reasons. that'd be worse probably she rationalizes. She takes them from his hands "Fine" she says irritably. she begins to put them on. "Did you get pants or something I can't walk out like this obviously."

She had a renewed confidence her life had taken a turn but it wasn't over. Still confused by her bodies actions she goes to the sink and with a paper towel and the soap she cleans her legs and private region. Once she was done she She continued checking her phones other notification given its been 3 days since she had looked at anything when she is disrupted by his knock. She unlocks the door allowing him to let himself in while she tucked behind the door so no one would see her in there. since he has left her panties and her pants together on the floor when she went to the toilet. She was in just a t shirt. She isn'tsuprised by him rushing her over to the sink. She interjects. "I already rinsed off" She hears him mention the doctor. And realize he must be serious about the legal stuff and he realizes that can't happen. And she needs to figure bout something before then. "I don't think all that is necessary yet. It's just been a rough week. It'll be fine if not we can do something next week maybe"

She nods, locking the bathroom behind him leaving out. She conceeds and takes the pants off. She takes her bag off her back and after cleaning off the toilet seat she sits down. Hoping everything will come out. But when she sits and tries to release nothing significant comes out still. She gets frustrated as she hears an occasional trickling noise. She reaches in her bag and finally powers in her fully charged phone. She waited anxiously to see if there was anything from her parents. As the phone buzzed she finally saw it 3 missed calls and a text from both her parents. She didn't want to talk to her mom she would probably yell I think she was maddest. She took a deep breath and dialed her father. After a couple rings a familiar voice said, "Hello Sarah" It stung he only used her full name when he was mad. "Hey dad I'm sorry I'm just getting. My phone charged and a moment to talk" "Well it's been nearly a a month since you said anything that wasn't "can I have some money", he said the irritation was palpable. "I know dad I know I'm sorry I lost my job and then the apartment. Its...." He cuts her off, " I know exactly what happened cause I cut off the cards." " Dad I'm sorry I was dumb I just i got carried away." She said sniffling Her dad hated to hear how broken she was but knew he needed to be firm. " I know kiddo but these are the consequences of your actions, you stole from us you lied. Not no small amount tens of thousands of dollars. I don't know what you thought would happen." The "kiddo" made her feel better. He still cared she knew for sure. "I didn't think about it It was stupid." " Well you're going to have to figuring it out cause we aren't sending you another dime." " I know I know I deserve it. I'm going to figure it out." " You better cause we won't do anything until you pay every cent back. " " I know thirty three thousand five hundred sixty three dollars. I will figure it out I don't know how but I will" Impressed and proud that she knew the exact amount and taking responsibility. He caved a bit. "I know you will we shielded you from a lot responsibility growing up but you're going to have to learn the hard way." He paused sighed and continued. " Don't tell your mother but It's March 15th. If you can get yourself established and don't ask us for anything through the summer. We will call it even. You'll still owe me but we can figure out a payment plan. But I don't want to hear anything bad and you better never call from jail. I still know the judge over there. If I have to come get you for any reason you will be working on the farm with the field hands until every cent is paid back. And not riding the horses pretending to work like when you were a teen. I mean actual physical labor." She sniffled she was not built for physical labor. But at least he was willing to compromise with her, "thanks dad I won't let you down" she paused. " Am I still on your insurance?" "Yes and we aren't cruel you will be untill they kick you off at 26." He said curiously, " is something wrong. You better not be shocked up and pregnant" "Omg dad no I would never. No i just want to be able to get something checked out if I need to" "well yes and the health card should still work if you need to buy something medical. Let us know if it's something big. First though." " Of course Dad I learned my lesson. No spending all your money it will never happen again" " We'll see if I can believe that this time. And you're still on the family phone plan so don't hesitate to keep us updated. Your mom is still pissed but she's coming around." " I love you dad thanks for everything " " Love you too kiddo talk to you soon". With that they hung up the phone. She sat on the toilet still ol confused why she only heard dribbles. She would have to confess to Larry eventually he'll prolly kick her on the street. But maybe a few days of warmth and food would give her the energy to fight whatever was causing. Maybe she can get to a doctor when the weather breaks or maybe it'll all clear up. so if he does kick her out at least she won't be cold. She rummenated until she heard him knock on the door.

She shook her head. She liked colors but she didn't feel like thinking about it right now. "Just black for now. I don't know. I just need a moment to think. You can just go i'll be here when you get back " she says wiping the tears from her eyes.

as they walk she feels the wisping coolness against her thigh and as she finally looks down realize that her inner thigh is stained which means her crotch was already stained. She looked at Larry she was sure he knew but he hadn't said anything yet. She was confused and irritated what was happening why didn't she know she was leaking. she ruminated what could be going on she was sick last week but it didn't seem any different. Her concentration was only broke but the sudden change of direction and the cool blast of air entering the store that fully alerted her to just how much of her pants her damp. As they head to the family rest room, she looked at the sign on the door she realized he must've noticed. as they enter the restroom and he directs her attention to crotch and she looks down the stain looks bigger than which she saw it during the walk to the parking lot. and as she stared in shocked kind of tuning him out she noticed that the stain seemed to be growing ever so slightly Am i peeing right now why can't i feel it. she wonders she attempts stop it internally but nothing changes and the stain becomes more pronounced though not really expanding but about 10% bigger but 3 times as dark than when they entered. did it finally stop she wonders. she finally tunes back into larry as he says "stop lying". Her brows furrowed as she lets him finish piecing together what he was saying "scared", "been through a lot" "alone. As he tries to hug her she pushes his arms away. "I"M NOT A FUCKING BABY AND I'M NOT SCARED. AND I AM NOT A FUCKING LIAR." She stops her foot in anger crossing her arms, Tears were beginning to roll down her face. "And you don't know what i've been through. I went to the bathroom every damn time. what came out came out I don't know why this shit keeps happening" she says pointing at her crotch. Which as she points the stain begins growing again though only a little bit. Feeling broken and defeated cause she still is unable to stop it she starts to sob. in a broken and cracking voice. "please, I'm sorry i just dont know whats going on."

She thought for a second walmart wasn't particularly known for their clothing but they had gotten a bit more stylish the last couple years. but as he interrupts her thought to whisper his question. She shakes her head leaning her head to the side adding a little distance between his words and her ears. He's calling me baby again so i guess i'm in the clear. Because although she hated it now wasn't the time to make an issue. She looked out the window seeing that they were only a few stops, maybe 5-7minutes out. In a mumbled tone she responds, "We're basically there and I went both times like you asked okay I'm fine." her tone very frustrated. She take a deep breath to calm down, "but i guess i like pants and skirts." she chuckled a bit. "I do like overalls sometimes they're fun especially when i would paint." Her bladder was still lightly dribbling, her panties were now pretty damp and now the moisture was passing over into her pants cause a small spot to appear. She was still completely unaware anything was that over the next 5minutes till they reached the stop would continue to grow. the stain wasn't soaking so maybe not visible to the few people left on the bus but the discoloration would be seen by larrys keen eye.

She furrowed her eyebrows wondering why he was so interested in the age, she scanned his face he looked doubtful maybe something else she said revealed to much and he was questioning her knowledge or emotion. she decides to downplay it. "I mean he's definitely older right?" she says with a question asking tone "at least half his facial hair was grey". She shifts in her seat filling what she thinks is sweat on the back of her thighs

She listened, sister , took her phone that day. Something must've happened to his sister and he feels guilty. but as he expounds she watches the tears form in his eyes though they wouldn't fall. She puts her hand on his thigh and leans into him, "i'm sorry...i ...i didn't mean to trigger anything" she stammers. "And you're right your good nature has gotten me hot food and a place to sleep. no one else would do that. thank you.... thank you a lot" As they pass a couple more stops a few other passengers get off including the man he was suspicious of gets off and goes about his day. Her leg starts to bounce she feels a slight pressure in bladder, but she dismisses it as nerves. She looks out the window they're only halfway through the ride" She looks back at larry who's eyes have dried now. "Again i'm sorry it just seems like you always see danger. and i wanted to understand why." she pauses "I just don't want attention toward us that makes this" she says with circular gestures toward both of them, "look weird okay. The guy looked mid 50s, oval face, hazel eyes, speckled gry short facial hair. navy blue overcoat tan tshirt black jeans and sketcher navy and blue runners, I saw him and when he got up he looked about 5'10. Interjecting just wouldn't help cause he hadn't done anything besides look around maybe he was just keeping an eye on her like you. if he had tried to sit by her on this empty bus. or taking pictures i would understand cause you can act on that but that didn't happen. Its just making everything more suspicious" She sighed, she feels guilty cause she knows he has a good heart. but if anyone looked him like he just looked at that guy. she would be left exposed and on the street again. And she just didn't want to deal with that right now. she crossed her legs to stop the bouncing. She had already tried going to pee twice the little that came out in the restaurant should have been it. Nerves she thinks to herself i'll just go again at the store. they had about another 15minutes to go. Her bladder though was beginning to dribble just a few drops every few minutes that she didn't even feel it.

She raises her eyes curiously as he starts talking about where he grew up. but When he excuses her self she shakes her head. momentarily she puts her hands over her face annoyed. He's going to draw more attention. to us she says to herself. she watches as he makes eye contact with the teenager and older gentleman on the bus. He probably thinks that man is suspicious just for existing. Maybe he was in a scary situation before, she reasons on his distrustful demeanor. When he finally returns she listens as he begins talking but notices him eyeing her hands and the woman again. "Look i don't know what you've seen here or in Japan but acting suspicious of everyone makes you look suspicious too." she says in a soft but firm whisper tone looking him directly in the eye. Then looking back at her hands then him again, "And I'm not stupid i'm not going to take anything from strangers." she lets out a shallow breath and stretches out a her empty hands. "I get it the world is dangerous if you're really worried stay on to make sure he doesn't get off behind her. but even if he does what are you gonna do follow them? Then its just a man following another man who he thinks is following a young girl." She pauses briefly "People should care about other people thats what you said when you came across me. and I agree. But you can't just insert yourself in everything. But I guess thats just how you are maybe." she pauses and tacks on "uncle Larry." In case anyone on the mostly empty bus was eavesdropping

When they finally sit down she hears him sigh. she didn't understand his anxious concern and with a 20-30 minutes ride she figured it'd be a good time to find out. She tucked her bag behind her back so she didn't have to think about it. After they pass the second stop, "So you said your just coming back to the area. how long where you away. what were you doing there?" she says with a genuine curious tone.

She shakes her head slightly and shrugs. He never listens but whatever. " if thats what you want." she says getting up from the table. As she grabs her bag she notices him eyeing it. She cradles it keeping it close to her body. Its the most important things to her at this time and wants no issues. she begins to walk toward the door and feels his hand on her shoulder and audibly sighs. Hes either protective or possessive. She looks at the people as they leave and they pay them no mind but he seems hyper alert as if someone is bound to attack. maybe he worked in something security related or military. as they walk toward the bus stop she shifts her shoulder hoping that he would loosen up. but remembering the interaction on the way in she doubted it and didn't want to annoy him again. She takes an open spot on the bench and resumes watching the light. about 5 minutes later a bus pulls up to the light a few blocks away. and as she said 5 minutes after that it reached the bus stop.

She just nods at his suggestion. I know when i need to go to the bathroom she thinks to herself. "yea i will Walmarts about 15 stops from here it so it'll take a while." She looks out the window at the diner down the street. and sees there bus coming pass. "there's our bus so there should be another in about 45minutes " she points at the clock showing 3pm. She calls over the waitress and orders a side of elote, rice and beans and sweetened Jamaica as a drink. As she waits for her sides she consumes the tacos. "thanks I'm just excited for a fresh meal." When the food arrives she enjoys the rest of her food, savoring it till the last bite she cleans her plate. she looks up at the clock and sees that its now 3:35. "The bus should be coming soon so i'll head to the bathroom and we can wait outside." She felt lets irritable now that she had a full meal on her stomach. She says getting up to go to the bathroom she doesn't feel like she needs to go but since he asked and she has had a bit to drink she figures its worth a shot. she goes into an open stall and attempts to go but after waiting for 3-4 minutes and nothing but a small spurt comes out she figures theres nothing there like she thought. She washes her hand and returns to the table. "All good. when we see the bus at the light we can go outside so we don't have to wait outside."

Sarah groans she really wants something more to eat, she weighs telling him about her cell phone so she could get more food but she didn't feel the time was right she didn't know him enough just yet to feel safe with telling him. "Yea but 10 dollars isn't enough. but its okay." She points out the 3 tacos and gets 2 chicken al pastor and one steak taco "Yea i guess so i don't really have anywhere else to stay yet."

She picks up the menu holding it in front of her face blocking larry from seeing her face. Her stomach grumbles and she groans mumbling under her breath barely audible, "well i need food don't i." She flips the menu over a few times and goes back and forth they have a nice sized bowl that she would usually get but that was 11.50. but since it was the middle of the day they had a 3 for 10 taco deal that would have to do. "I know what i want," she says placing the menu down back on the table and sitting back in the booth slouching down slightly.

She takes the open seat on the bench and places her elbows on her thigh and rest her head in hands. She could hear her stomach softly growling. she would occasionally look up at Larry who was standing tall with a soft yet serious gaze. She felt small again like a young child who had let down their parent. She was already pass 21 she had her nights drinking, partying, and working. Yet somehow she acted so childish that he thought she wouldn't even know what that was. how could she have failed so miserably. Yet as she looked up at Larry again, she felt she definitely didn't have it as figured out as he did. He didn't look that much older than her late 20s she guessed but he did seem way more mature and responsible. He wouldn't have lost his job, apartment, his things, she reasoned. little girl, baby, young lady. Echoed in her head for a few moments. that's what she had been acting like even down to wetting herself, she groaned softly. she was getting hungry and frustrated with herself. of all times for her to start having accidents, when her life was already falling apart felt unfair. But she hoped it was over. and maybe things would go back to normal. especially if she was to convince him she was an adult again. She started to get anxious and absent-mindedly started to bite her thumb nail almost looking as if she was sucking on the tip of her thumb. he didn't believe me the first time why would he now after all this. What if he just kicks me out, i hope he wont be mad, i hope he'd still be willing to help. he seems to know adulting rules i ignored growing up . but he'll prolly just be mad and then i'll be alone on the streets again. Before she got to deep in thought the waitress lets them know a table is ready and she quickly stuff her hand in her pocket. and follows the Larry and the waitress. Unbeknowst to her, her bladder was almost full. She had caught a pretty bad cold while she was staying in the shelter that she didn't know was a bladder infection. It disrupted her bladder's nerves and she now doesnt feel it unless its already completely full and ready to leak. It also isn't responding to signal to release her bladder making it difficult for her to go when she tries. But her bowel nerves are still healthy. meaning she can only tell if she needs to do both. It may be a while before it heals though it may never completely heal.

She had started to roll her eyes when he began to talk but the single swat refocused her. She gritted her teeth as she scanned the environment. She knew the area well but as she looked at the area and began to see what he saw older building, gravel lot, couple bikers, discolored signage. She sighs, "yes sir" She slightly resented being called an investment as if she was a stock that he expected some sort of return on investment for. She takes his hand as they walk toward the entrance. She takes a look at the people hanging out around the lot she probably looked like a petulant child to them. As the walked she noticed for the first time the height difference. He did shadow over her like her father used to, and suddenly she felt very small. But that thought fades as they enter the door and she greeted by the rich smells of the restaurant.

She forces a smile. and sighs he repeats himself like a record. I don't know who hes trying to convince me or himself. when they step off and the bus and the bus passes on to the next stop she lightly tugs her arm away. "I know where we're going." As she looks up at the neon red sign "Don Tito's Mexican Fare" she had frequented here a lot when she was on a latin kick a while ago. Cheap and flavorful she remembered. She walks toward the restaurant.

She forces a smile, "well i'm not a baby so i guess try something else. and i'm not scared, i was scared but i'm not scared anymore", she says with a soft sigh. as they ride on the bus she keeps an eye on the road and out the windows daydreaming she hated public transportation she prolly had road the bus more in the last month than she had ever road in here life. she wish she had been more appreciative of her material things before. as they neared the taco spot she could feel her stomach growl.

She smiles with a soft sigh as they find a seat on the bust, Baby this... thirteen that. she thinks to herself. Over and over and over. it bothered her for some reason she couldn't quite put her finger on. Yes she knew she was an adult but his insistence on calling her a child felt almost like mocking. Even if she was a child why does he keep telling me these random ages she pondered to her self. After they sit for a few minutes, "I'm not a baby... I'm not..." she says under her breath frustratedly, but she pauses. She wanted to continue but remembered she needed to keep up with the story atleast somewhat.

She gives a soft smile toward him but turn her head away from him and rolls her eyes. He was so nice. but was overwhelmed by the constant insistence of her being a child or a baby. She knows he means well, and felt compelled to play along since he was so willing to help especially when she was so in need. "Well thanks for thinking of me when you were in there. And I'm glad they could help, Do you know how long till the bus arrives." she asks getting bored.