Since starting my diapering journey 5 years ago (only recently becoming 24/7). I've never purposefully messed myself (with a few exceptions when I wasn't wearing diapers because IBS is a bitch). Today with the use of an enema I made my first messy diaper and I have a lot of mixed emotions on it.
Embarrassment that I willfully messed myself right next to the toilet. Euphoria because it felt good to mess myself in diapers. Frustration as I cleaned myself up. I guess long story short of this post is what was your first ever messy diaper like as an adult and how did you feel about it?