gregs

I can feel with you, as I had the same problems. I was DL but only wearing them for fun, maybe two or three nights in a month. But as my bladder condition got worse and I needed to wear diapers even on days that I did not like to wear tham, i was feeling ashame, and I regreted. I tired to got to bed without diapers. So I had to stand up and go to the toilet several times a night. Because I just did not want to be dependant on diapers. After I could accept the condition, and started to wear diapers without thinking about it, the whole stress got away.

For me there was a day that I remember. It was a saturday and i was at home and on that evening I greed to go to a garden party with some friends. Just after lunch I started to need to pee about every 15 minutes. later it became every 5. So I choese to put on a diaper. I hoped that It would get better later, so that I did not have to go in a diaper to that party. But it did not. So even if I realy did not wonted at that moment, I had to put on a new diaper to go out that evening.

For me it went realy fast, but there is no clear "Point of no return". I was wearing diapers for years without any intend to be dependend on them. About 3 Years ago I came accros this board and got interested in the idea of realy beeing a bedwetter. So I tried some of the tips that folks wrote here. So after one month of wearing diapers consistently I tried to stop, and it was realy hard. The first nights i had to get up ever 10 minutes or so. It got better after some times. but weeks later the urge returned, and I went back to wear diapers all nights. And it got wears and wears.

How long did it take you to realise that your incontinece is not only termporary and will not go away? Are there any indications that made you aware, that it will be permanent?

Do you think your control has gotten weaker after you decited to wear diapers?

I went the same path. I could hold it, but still I had such a strong urge, that I had to go to the bathroom every 10 minutes. So on one point I decited to wear and use diapers. I can confirm that my stress level is reduced very much.

For me I deicided that it is much more convenient to release in the diaper than running to the toilette ever 10 or 15 minutes. Whene I started wearing diapers 24/7 I did not feel very well, I had trouble to accpet and I felt afraid losing the last bit of control. Today I can live with it.

I can confirm. I was in the situation myself, where I needed a toilet every 15 minutes. I took me a loong time where I was sometimes wearing diapers and sometimes in the mood "I can do It without". But this resulted in nothing but stress. When I accepted and got in the rythme of puttin on a diper in the morning, nomater what feeling I had that day, brought me a huge relife. Less stress, les thinking,....

I did not activly tried to achive incontinence. However I was playing with the idea, but for practical reasins, I realy did not plan to do this for the rest of my live. Within the past 12 month of heavy diapers usage (I dont say this is the reason) my urge grow stonger and stronger. I dont say, I have no control. But after 15 minutes I have a very strong urge to go to the tolilte. So that's why I would say I have acived at least a diaper depance.

I like diapers since I can remember and since I am 17 and had my own car I started to buy and wear them regularly. But not always and with long breaks. However, when I felt to and put my diapers on, it was always a pleasure. However, in the last two years, my usage has increased a lot and more and more I have developed a diaper dependency. Especially at nights, if I would go to bed without a diaper, I would need to get up 5 times or more to go to the toilet, before I could fall asleep. Now on more and more days I have to wear diapers, even if I really don’t want to. With this, I see my pleasure for diapers disappearing. There is no more fun in diapers. Who has gone thru the same changes or similar experiences?

I have ADHD too, and a DL since very early years. Now since about one year I try to become bedwetter. I belive that the ADHD is in samwhay related to DL.

I always had a week bladder and need to go to toilet more often than other folks. Especialy when I am drinking a lot. For some weeks it has gotten worse and I need to go like every 10 to 15 minutes. Its not leaking, I can perfectly hold it, but I have a very strong urge. Now my problem is, that I struggle to accent that it would be the easiest way to just put and keep on diapers. But somthing in me is resisting. So I try to go to the office in the morning without a diaper on (mostly I take some withme in a Backpack). After the first coffe I have to go to the toilet. 15 minutes later again and after finishing I just have the feeling of just getting back to the toilet. Finaly then I decide to put the diaper on. Sometimes I even resisted to take one with me and telling myself "I dont need it, I can hold it. I will drink less and than it will work". Usualy this ends in me gooing to the toilet at least 3 times an hour and rushing home in the lunch breakt to put on a diaper. I think this is even more disgusting every time than just put them on and accept it. Who had the same problems and how did you get over it?