Guess a DD update went bad and lost my last post. Here it is again. Thanks again to Creepymouse for the words of encouragement.
Month 3 Week 3 Day 3
Wednesday- Well I went hiking in a diaper yesterday as you probably deduced from yesterday’s Medline statistic. At first it felt like I was wearing nothing as it’s cloth backed and thin. I did leak into it a bit before starting the hike, but the whole way up it didn’t bother me. I didn’t pee during the hike itself at all however on the way back down the mountain the diaper began falling apart, sagging (maybe sweat but more likely poor diaper structure) it was chafing my leg in a terrible way. My leg felt like it was practically bleeding by the time we were done and I was almost limping to avoid the rubbing on that side. I have a cut on the back of my heel that I haven’t let heal and the last three hikes it’s been chafed and has bled, but admittedly the diaper felt twice as painful.
The Molicare Air Actives don’t sag as much as Medlines in the first place and probably have better structure too. If I get those I might feel better about short hikes in diapers.
Long hikes on the other hand and backpacking/camping trips become another matter. The Mount Humphrey’s trip I am doing in August (highest mountain in AZ) is a 5 hour hike. Normally a Molicare/stuffer could last that long but an Air Active or Medline couldn’t.
Seeing how I’ve hiked about 30-40 miles in the past two weeks, I feel pretty serious about jumping feet first into my hiking groups and going out during the weeknights and backpacking/camping during the longer trips that are hosted every weekend. As a matter of fact I have hiking plans until the beginning of September for almost every weekend (Saturday AND Sunday).
I tried searching for keywords like camping/hiking/backpacking and incontinence yesterday to see how other people coped and realized there were almost zero hits.
It’s probably a good time for me to start coming back to the reality that it’s not feasible to be incontinent with this lifestyle.
8:00 p.m. After work and a 5 mile Mountain Ridge-line Hike
Today I learned some hard lessons. I put on a pair of old briefs that didn’t make my scrap pile and went to work not knowing the consequences. (For my DD readers- I haven't worn underwear in about 120 days)
Number 1: My bladder has shrunk a lot. I literally couldn’t hold it more than 20-30 minutes without absolutely needing to go or risk peeing myself. My boss, knowing I wear diapers, seemed curious that I was nigh running out the door twice or three times an hour but as usual was very tactful and didn’t ask about it.
Number 2: I didn’t want to be in underwear. I missed my diapers and wanted nothing more than to be back in diapers but I didn’t pack any on purpose to make it through the day to start bladder re-training. It was slightly anxiety inducing and distracting being out of diapers. I tried telling myself that I was done with soaking pants and terrible rashes and I could remove my bed pad, but despite all the crap that I went through as a diaper wearer, I wanted it all back.
Number 3: Surprisingly, I was dribbling urine into my briefs throughout the day. I kept catching myself relaxing my bladder/sphincter as I’ve been accustomed to for the past 3.75 months.
Number 4: I don’t want to quit 24/7 and if I can find a way to wear 24/7 and hike/backpack/camp, I’m going to despite the difficulties, embarrassment and whatever other problems exist.
Probably needless to say, I got home and diapered up for the night.
Diapers: 2 disposables (Molicare) (2 b.c. I changed around 3am)
Leaks: 0
Rashes: 0