Peasant

I did. But now I’m all cleaned up and winning again. 

I will say, as someone who's only been on Testosterone for 1.5 months, taking lower doses is definitely something you can do.  I take subcutaneous injections (into my fat) weekly and my dose is purposefully smaller due to my starting dose. That being said, I've already noticed some changes.  I'm attaching a photo of the chart my doctor gave to me about transition stuff. But keep in mind, this table changes based off your method intake. I've heard those that use daily Testosterone gel have much slower progress.  And, if you were to ever see a doctor, they'd work with you based off your transition goals to find the best dose and method for you. I've definitely seen some enby folks take testosterone and achieve an androgynous appearance. And there's things you can do to attain masculine features without medication.  Vocal training, weight lifting, and a natural testosterone boosting diet are all ways to achieve a "natural" transition.

I hear you John.  Work can and is often one of the most stressful areas of our lives.  It sucks when you can't see a way forward or past it.  I'd like to say that it gets easier....but in a lot of cases it just doesn't. I would say try to find something....anything you can to make things a bit more tolerable at work.  Maybe find a co-worker who you can commiserate with.  Maybe try a different shift if possible.  Perhaps listen to music or podcasts while you're working.... I would also add....try to figure out just what you'd be most suited for career wise.  I am really struggling with that aspect of my job right now but if you can find a career that suits you then perhaps it would be more tolerable.

awesome!! i remember when my bro started testosterone, he was insanely happy when his voice started dropping!! Wishing you the best in your transition ❤️   Side tangent: I've thought about... like... taking lower doses of testosterone, but not as a guy, but as an enby, to make myself more androgynous in appearance... but I'm also really unsure about it and don't want to do anything permanent until I'm fully sure it's what I want. Although one thing I do know for sure that I want to eventually get is top surgery.