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Chapter 4 – The Shopping Trip   A few days later, I woke up slightly differently than usual. As I adjusted my eyes, I rolled over and almost fell out of bed. I yelped but managed to save myself from falling. It had been Leo’s turn to sleep in the crib and my turn to sleep in the spare bed. It was strange but having no bars on my bed felt unusual to me. ‘Are you ok?’ asked Leo from the crib. ‘Yeah, I’m fine’, I chuckled, ‘I’m not used to sleeping in a normal bed’. ‘Speak for yourself’, laughed Leo, I had a great night’s sleep in here. I wish I had a crib of my own. You’re so lucky to have your own nursery back at home’. ‘Thanks’, I replied, ‘I wish I was there right now’. ‘Why do you say that?’ asked Leo ‘As much as I’m enjoying myself, I’m always on edge around Becky’, I confessed. ‘I know what you mean’, Leo replied, ‘I would never have come on this holiday if I’d have known how horrible Becky was’. I had done my best to stay out of her way since the ‘Bouncy’ incident but I had a funny feeling that today was going to be a tough one. Our mothers came in and changed our diapers before taking us downstairs for some breakfast. We usually took it in turns to sit in the highchair. Leo went first whilst I watched some TV. Suddenly, Becky came downstairs with a flowery summer dress on and sat on the sofa. ‘Hey cuz’, said Becky. ‘Hi’, I murmured. ‘Have you heard? We’re going shopping today’, she smiled, ‘that’ll be fun, won’t it?’ ‘Sounds good’, I grumbled. ‘You’re not very talkative today’, she said. ‘I don’t have anything to say to you’, I replied sternly. Becky giggled, ‘someone’s a grumpy bum this morning’. I ignored her and continued to do so until Leo was finally let out of the highchair. ‘Jamie, you’re turn’, called my mother. I raced into the kitchen and allowed her to lift me into the highchair before strapping me in and tying a bib around my neck. Just as the tray clicked shut, Becky appeared. ‘Morning’, she smiled at my mother, ‘would you like me to feed Jamie?’ ‘That’s ok sweetheart’, replied my mother, ‘you can go and watch some TV if you’d like?’ ‘Honestly, I’m more than happy to feed Jamie’, Becky insisted, ‘that way, you can go and have a shower ready for our shopping trip’. My mother thought about this for a second, ‘are you sure Becky?’ ‘Of course’, Becky replied. I began to panic, ‘no Mummy, I want you to feed me’, I begged. ‘Aw it’s ok Jamie’, my mother replied, ‘you spend some time with your cousin while I go and get changed’. I watched helplessly as she walked out of the room before turning to face Becky. ‘What are you up to?’ I asked suspiciously. ‘Nothing’, Becky grinned, ‘you said you had nothing to say to me so I thought we should do some bonding over breakfast’. She brought over the baby bowl of cereal that my mother had prepared and placed it on the tray of the highchair. Becky scooped up some cereal before bringing it towards me. ‘Open wide baby cuz’, she giggled. I opened my mouth and accepted the cereal. She then proceeded to feed me another spoonful. I was very puzzled. ‘Was she actually being kind to me?’ I wondered, ‘has she changed?’ I soon realised that she hadn’t when she stopped feeding me and looked at the spoon. ‘I can barely get any cereal on this silly little spoon’, she said before going over to the drawer and rummaging through it before pulling out a table spoon, ‘this is much better’, she grinned. Becky came back over and scooped up the biggest spoonful of cereal that she possibly could onto the table spoon. ‘Open wide’, she said once again. ‘I can’t fit all of that into my mouth’, I exclaimed, ‘that’s too much’. ‘I think Auntie Becky knows how much food my baby cuz can fit into his mouth’, she smiled. She pushed the big spoonful of cereal towards me. I opened my mouth as wide as I could but it still wasn’t enough. Bits of breakfast cereal began to fall out of my mouth and all down my bib. ‘Ooh what a messy baby’, Becky giggled whilst scooping up another large spoonful. Even though half of it had gone down my bib, my cheeks were still full of cereal. ‘Becky please’, I begged, ‘I can’t eat this much in one go’. ‘Shh, don’t talk with your mouthful’, Becky replied and guided the next spoonful towards me. I had just about managed to swallow the first spoonful before the next one was shoved into my mouth. Once again, most of it when down my bib. After another two spoonful’s, the bowl was clean. I sighed with relief, but Becky wasn’t finished yet. She began scooping all of the cereal off my bib and putting it into my mouth. I was beginning to feel nauseous. By the time breakfast was finally over, I never wanted to eat another bowl of cereal again. ‘How was that baby?’ Becky asked. ‘I really hate you’, I grumbled. ‘I know’, she grinned before letting me out of the highchair and ordering me to go and get dressed. After getting dressed, the six of us were ready to go shopping. I was super excited to have my shorts back again. Not having my diaper on show was one less way for Becky to tease me. Our mothers began to set the stroller up ready for Leo. However, while this was happening, Becky grabbed hold of my hand. ‘What are you doing?’ I asked. ‘Keeping my little cuz safe’, she smiled, ‘I wouldn’t want you to run off’. ‘I won’t run off’, I replied pulling away from her. Becky kept her grip tight, ‘Jamie stop being silly’. ‘GET OFF ME!’, I shouted and yanked my hand away. ‘What’s going on?’ my Auntie asked. ‘I just wanted to hold Jamie’s hand and then he shouted at me’, Becky replied innocently. My Auntie looked at me, ‘is that true Jamie?’ ‘Well…yes…but’, I stammered. ‘I think maybe you should be the one riding in the stroller if you’re going to be so fussy about walking’, my Auntie declared. ‘No, I don’t wanna go in the stupid stroller’, I argued. ‘JAMIE’, my mother shouted, ‘do as your Auntie says please and stop being so rude’. Once again, everyone was staring at me as if I was the ‘naughty’ child. I knew that there was no point arguing and so I went over and sat in the stroller. I sulked as my mother strapped me ensuring that I couldn’t get out. She then took a pacifier out of her bag. ‘No Mummy’, I begged, ‘I don’t want my pacifier’. ‘If you’ve got nothing nice to say, then you can keep quiet’, she replied before promptly putting the pacifier into my mouth. To make matters worse, I was sucking on a pink pacifier that had somehow made its way into my collection. ‘That colour really suits you’, grinned Becky. I glared at her and continued to sulk in the stroller. Becky then grabbed hold of Leo’s hand. ‘You’re not going to give me any trouble, are you?’ she asked. Leo nervously shook his head, ‘n…n...no Auntie Becky. I’ll behave myself, I promise’. ‘Good boy’, she smiled. With that, the six of us set off towards the shop. Leo’s mother and my Auntie were getting to know each other whilst my mother pushed me in the stroller. I looked over at Leo who was very quietly holding onto Becky’s hand. We hadn’t even reached the shops yet and I felt like I was already in another nightmare. As we approached the shops, a few people began to look at us. By this point, I was used to being seen in a stroller and sucking on pacifier in public and so it didn’t bother me too much. I envied Leo though who was still holding Becky’s hand. To the untrained eye they could have passed for boyfriend and girlfriend whilst there was no escaping the fact that I looked like a big baby. When we finally arrived, my mother knelt down in front of me and took out my pacifier. ‘Now can I trust you to behave with your Auntie and cousin whilst me and Leo’s Mummy go shopping?’ she asked. ‘Yes Mummy’, I nodded. She unbuckled the straps and helped me out of the stroller. It felt good to be standing up again and I began to finally blend in with everybody else. Our mothers waved goodbye as they walked off with the stroller, leaving me and Leo with my Auntie and Becky. ‘Okay guys’, cheered my Auntie, ‘let’s do some shopping’. We entered a large shop entitled ‘Alternative Clothing’. As I looked around, it pretty much looked like an average clothes shop except the prints on the t-shirts were a bit more random and obscure than most shops. ‘Now then you three’, said my Auntie, ‘you can pick out a new piece of clothing each, my treat’. ‘Thank you, Auntie’, I smiled. ‘Just make sure they’re cute’, she said winking at us both. Leo and I giggled. ‘I’ll just be over here if you need me’, she replied and walked over to look at some coats. Leo and I began looking at the t-shirts whilst Becky went off to look at the beach clothes. I was browsing for a few minutes before I found one that made me smile. It had a big picture of a dinosaur on it that read ‘Always Be Roar-Some’ on it. Leo discovered a t-shirt with little pictures of rockets all over it. He could get away with wearing it as a sixteen-year-old but it also looked quite babyish at the same time which seemed perfect. We held onto our t-shirts and continued browsing. Suddenly, Becky came over carrying a new swimming costume. ‘Perfect for the beach, don’t you think?’ she said holding it up. ‘Yeah, looks good’, replied Leo. ‘What have you dorks been looking at?’ she asked. I ignored her name calling and showed her my t-shirt. ‘Is that the best thing you could find?’ she scoffed as she read the words on the front. ‘I like it’, I argued. ‘Whatever’, she replied, ‘I’m sure you could find something better than that though’. She began to look around at the various clothing nearby. Leo and I continued looking at the t-shirts. Suddenly, Becky came back over. ‘What about these?’ she said grinning. Leo and I looked at her unimpressed as she stood there holding two frilly summer dresses. One was pink and the other was yellow. ‘Very funny’, I mumbled. ‘What’s wrong with them?’ asked Becky, ‘I thought they looked cute. My Mum said you needed to pick something cute’. ‘Becky, those are for girls’, I replied as if it wasn’t obvious, ‘do me and Leo look like girls?’ ‘Well, no’, she said smiling, ‘but you’re supposed to be babies and the last time I checked, babies didn’t care about what clothes they wore’. ‘I’m not wearing a dress’, I argued. ‘Oh yes you are’ Becky snapped back, ‘unless you want me to tell your mother how much you said you hated me this morning at breakfast’. I suddenly fell silent. I was already in a bit of trouble with my mother and had promised to behave. I started panicking when I realised that Becky had both of my hands tied and I had no choice. ‘Fine’, I said through gritted teeth. ‘Sorry, I couldn’t hear you’, she replied holding her hand to her ear. ‘I said fine’, I grumbled, ‘I’ll have the silly dress’. ‘It’s not silly, it’s pretty’, Becky argued before turning her attention to Leo, ‘I’m guessing you’re happy with a dress as well’. I could tell that Leo was actually quite frightened of Becky and nodded in agreement. ‘I think you’ll have the pink one Jamie’, Becky decided, ‘it’ll match that cute little pink pacifier’. I ignored her before reluctantly putting the dinosaur t-shirt back onto the rack. Becky handed us our dresses just as my Auntie arrived. ‘Have we decided everyone?’ she asked. ‘I’m getting a new swimming costume ready for the beach’, Becky smiled angelically. ‘Ooh very nice dear’, my Auntie replied before turning to us, ‘and what about you boys?’ I felt absolutely ridiculous holding up the pink dress. ‘I…I want this…please Auntie’, I stammered. She giggled before realising that I was serious. ‘Jamie, you do realise that those dresses are for girls, don’t you?’ she asked confused. I looked over at Becky who had a devilish grin on her face. I knew that one wrong move could get me into trouble and so I could do nothing but play along. ‘I know Auntie’, I replied nervously, ‘but I…um…think it’s really pretty’. ‘Jamie, you can’t buy a dress sweetheart’, my Auntie told me, ‘why not pick something else’. ‘Please Auntie’, I insisted, ‘I really want it’. Even though I wanted nothing to do with the dress, I could see that my Auntie was slowly coming around to the idea. ‘Well, if you’re really sure that’s what you want’, my Auntie said slightly concerned before looking at Leo who was still holding the yellow dress. ‘You as well?’ my Auntie asked dumbfounded. ‘Yes please’, Leo said whilst trying to sound as convincing as possible, ‘I really love this dress’. ‘I guess it will make it easier to check their diapers’, Becky chimed in just loud enough for a few people to overhear. My Auntie thought about it for a second, ‘I guess you’re right Becky’. No more was said about it and my Auntie took the dresses from Leo and I as we headed to the checkout. We stood there slightly awkwardly as the man at the checkout scanned the two dresses. Becky was standing next to us so it looked as if the dresses were for her but it still made me blush knowing that Leo and I would be the ones wearing them. After paying for our items, we met up with our mothers. ‘Hey you guys’ said my mother, ‘did you buy anything nice?’ ‘Oh, just you wait until you see what they brought’, my Auntie said mysteriously. ‘Ooh you’ll have to show us and surprise us when we get home’, Leo’s mother chuckled. ‘It was definitely going to be a surprise’, I thought. However, little did I know that I would surprise myself when I wore that dress for the first time…

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