Emotional and sexual abuse in my very early teens, but nothing before. I wonder if it did in some ways shape my sexual and social habits, but to be honest?
What I am and what I do now makes me very happy. I don't want to delve too much into the why of the weird things that I do, mostly because I like enjoying them for what they are. Opening the can of worms as to my motivations and psychological workings would possibly lead me back to places I was when I was younger, and I don't like that person I was then. I like me now, for better or for worse, and I know I'm shaped by my past.
Sure, they may be coping mechanisms, but they're working great and I don't want to mess with that.
But that's just me. And I count myself as a mama, not an ABDL. Just...wanted to share I guess. Picking apart who you are is necessary sometimes, but not always. Just careful what wounds you re-open.