Am I becoming incontinent from wearing a lot?

[Goerge]

I posted this in the wrong category, so reposted it here.

Every time I have a poo I uncontrollable pee on the bathroom floor. Also even though I have been very thorough with wiping with wet wipes, 10 minutes later I'm staining my underpants with skid marks which is unnoticed, the worst part was I was with one of my support workers on holiday and I sat on her white clean bedsheets I marked the sheets. That was embarrassing. 

With my urine difficulties I'm needing to use the toilet very often, my bladder feels uncomfortable until I pee, then I have it a small gush in the toilet when not wearing a nappy. I have to use the toilet every opportunity I get which has been noticed by my support workers in the group home. I made my bladder super sensitive from long binges wearing 24/7. Because I'm wetting in little gushes and dribbles when wearing nappies I don't really pay much attention and can wet in all positions, with sleeping I always wear a nappy because without a nappy on and up and down using the toilet all night. I just wake up and straight away first thing I do is pee and go back to sleep, its not disturbing my sleep like it used to do with having the strong urge to pee.

I'm going to chuck in the towel and just go 24/7 again but differently full time this time which isn't a problem for me. I'm going to for for both wetting and messing my nappies. I'm very good at wetting straight when I feel the urge and leaving my anal sphincter unclenched when having a poo, I don't even push and and not automatically reflex clenching. I always have have a BM in the early morning so that I'm not messing in front of anybody which I'm still embarrassed about. Will this happen if I continue to abuse my body like this? And I don't want to start clenching and exercise my anal sphincter. I'm pretty good at cleaning up after a BM with dry wipes and Emollient cleaning foam, I always use disposable gloves and put my nappy in a sealable nappy bad and toss in the outside bin. I love the smell of clinical smelling IC wipes.

I feel shame wearing nappies and doing this to my body sometimes and I know I would hate incontinence but I can't stop from doing this? I have binge and purge cycles. 

Does this sound like I'm becoming IC? 

 

[Goerge]

I want to become double incontinent. For over 20 years now I have struggled with this intense desire to become incontinent. Binge and purge cycles. I'm nearly 40 and I want to live my life as an incontinent person, Even if I don't become incontinent from wearing nappies I'm going to continue wearing 24/7 as this really improves my mental health and wellbeing and I love nappies so much.

I'm in a good place where I am and already wear openly here, plus I'm on antipsychotic injection and in a group home. I don't need an excuse to become IC anymore. I want bowel IC so I decided when I need a BM I'm just going to go without clenching my sphincter muscles. I already have urge IC and I think post void dribble from years of wearing.I had a small BM this evening infront of a group home resident and he didn't say anything, It was very easy having the BM and just slipped without any clench relax, only the stairs it clenched.. I then went and changed. From now I'm on both 24/7

All my group home residents and staff know I have ''IC'' issues and wear nappies, it's kinda hard to hide when you sharing a house with other people. When on a purge and not wearing I already have to find toilets very often to relieve myself. I do have a small bladder, and when I've got the shits I 'need to go' straight away. I won't leave the house when I have the shits. My mental health community nurse has already wrote it on their NHS computer systems I have 'toileting problems'.

So from now I'm I'm 24/7.

[stevewet]

On 4/28/2024 at 12:18 AM, Goerge said:

I want to become double incontinent. For over 20 years now I have struggled with this intense desire to become incontinent. Binge and purge cycles. I'm nearly 40 and I want to live my life as an incontinent person, Even if I don't become incontinent from wearing nappies I'm going to continue wearing 24/7 as this really improves my mental health and wellbeing and I love nappies so much.

I'm in a good place where I am and already wear openly here, plus I'm on antipsychotic injection and in a group home. I don't need an excuse to become IC anymore. I want bowel IC so I decided when I need a BM I'm just going to go without clenching my sphincter muscles. I already have urge IC and I think post void dribble from years of wearing.I had a small BM this evening infront of a group home resident and he didn't say anything, It was very easy having the BM and just slipped without any clench relax, only the stairs it clenched.. I then went and changed. From now I'm on both 24/7

All my group home residents and staff know I have ''IC'' issues and wear nappies, it's kinda hard to hide when you sharing a house with other people. When on a purge and not wearing I already have to find toilets very often to relieve myself. I do have a small bladder, and when I've got the shits I 'need to go' straight away. I won't leave the house when I have the shits. My mental health community nurse has already wrote it on their NHS computer systems I have 'toileting problems'.

So from now I'm I'm 24/7.

My medical records state I am incontinent and enuretic and in receipt of pads and slips via the NHS supply chain 

[Goerge]

I'm having the urge to pee every 10 minutes and going straight away without doing the clench reflex. I'm only releasing small gushes when I go with some after dribble. repeat this every 10 minutes if I drink water continually during the day.. My bladder is defiantly over sensitive now. When I pee I feel like my bladder isnt irritated but after 2/3 minutes my bladder feel irritated and wants me to pee, but I have nothing to pee.

[stevewet]

7 hours ago, Goerge said:

I'm having the urge to pee every 10 minutes and going straight away without doing the clench reflex. I'm only releasing small gushes when I go with some after dribble. repeat this every 10 minutes if I drink water continually during the day.. My bladder is defiantly over sensitive now. When I pee I feel like my bladder isnt irritated but after 2/3 minutes my bladder feel irritated and wants me to pee, but I have nothing to pee.

I let my pre flow without trying to hold it