Reticence to use toilet?

[Aboo]

Hi guys, apologies for long time since interacting, had some health issues that took a while to sort.

During the period I was unwell, I began to notice something I had not been conscious of before. Whenever possible I will diaper up but, even when not diapered, I am really reticent to use the toilet. This has manifested in me going in weird and varied places. Never in public and, never somewhere that can't be cleaned up easily and hygienically but, I will go anywhere I can but the toilet.

Anybody else noticed this in themselves or, am I just the weird kinky thing I think I am? ? 

[Moochie]

When social situations dictate that I use a bathroom rather than my diaper for a poopy, I feel like a missed opportunity for the psychphysiological pleasure of a messy diaper.