Back to Babyhood for Bad Behavior.

[Danny]

Looks at you "Yes I have, but I need to find the right time. I spend all my time with this programme. Maybe a few more years. We've had our troubles but we are strong"

[Wannatripbaby]

"That's good."

I decided to change the subject, not really knowing what else to say about it. "So, do you really think this... Regression thing will fix me?"

[Danny]

Looks at you "it depends if you cooperate with the programme.  At the moment, I can't say because you've had a few meltdowns. But now I can understand why"

[Wannatripbaby]

"But you're saying if I cooperate than I'll be able to cope with my anxiety without drugs?"

[Danny]

Looks at you "maybe but it'll take a lot of work.  People who become addicted to drugs take a lot of time to get off them for good"

[Wannatripbaby]

Here goes nothing, "Well, if this... regression therapy will help me, then I'll stay in a diaper tonight instead of my normal panties." There. No turning back now. I'm all in.

[Danny]

Looks at you "don't worry.  You'll be diapered every night. But I'll be training you to use the toilet again when I feel you're coming to the end of your time with me"

[Wannatripbaby]

"Yeah, like using diapers will somehow reverse my potty training! That's just silly." I still have full control of myself. Diapers can't take away my bladder control... right?

[Danny]

Looks at you "it depends how long the programme lasts for each client.  It took one of my clients almost a year to retrain himself"

[Wannatripbaby]

"Wait, WHAT!" I sit up in the bed. "Surely a week can't take away my potty training, could it?" I'm fine with wearing these things here forna week. But I don't want to be FORCED to wear them after I get out!

[Danny]

Looks at you "you'll be surprised. and no, you won't be forced to change them, but maybe until you've got full control back"

[Wannatripbaby]

"I... sorry. That just kinda took me by suprise." How long will I be wearing these things? Will I have to wear them to school? God, that would be horrible!

[Danny]

Looks at you "I'll potty train you when I feel you're ready to go back to being a big girl"

[Wannatripbaby]

My concern about the idea of wearing diapers outside was overshadowed by the absurd images I got when I imagined what potty training will look like.

I started giggling like a school girl.

[Danny]

I wonder what's so funny as I get you back into a diaper "so what should we do now? "

[Wannatripbaby]

"I dunno. You're the boss." I was kinda tired, but also very excited. For the first time in 8 months I had hope. Hope of getting better. Hope of finally putting Trent out of my life once and for all. I felt like I could fly. I wanted to leap out the nearest window and soar up into the clouds. For the first time in memory, I felt like everything was going to be alright.

[Danny]

Looks at you "maybe you should get some sleep.  Big day tomorrow but those plans can wait. Night night myrtle" I say after cleaning up and helping you into your bed 

[Wannatripbaby]

After you get me into the crib and give me my sleeping pills I wrap my arms around you and nuzzle my head into your chest. "Thank you, Dan. For everything." It had been so long since I hugged somebody. Since I've had any kind of positive physical contact with another human being. I just wanted to soak up as much as possible.

[Danny]

Looks at you and smiles "it's fine. I hope this good behaviour continues. I just hope it's not all for show" 

[Wannatripbaby]

"Uh-uh." I say rather infantile-like.

[Danny]

Looks at you "okay baby girl. Good night" I say as I let you get some sleep and I ring my girlfriend and explain what's happening tomorrow and she agrees 

[Wannatripbaby]

With the help of the sleeping pills and the absence of the heaviness I've been carrying around so long I sleep soundly until Dan comes to get me.

[Danny]

I go to bed about 11 pm and wakes up at 8 am and comes to check in on you 

[Wannatripbaby]

As soon as the lights come on I roll over on my side and grumble. I was never mich of a morning person.

[Danny]

Looks in on you "good morning my little one. It seems you're a bit grouchy this morning so I'll let you wake up properly before your breakfast" I leave the room  without even checking your diaper