Addicition/Depression

[007s3]

I believe i am addicted and depressed. Where i currently live affords me no opportunity to buy or use diapers but i recently went on "vacation" to SanDiego and i paid over $70 just for under jams and depend real fit. When i finally have the opportunity to wear i do but i feel that i shouldn't because i don't need to and not mention that i spent another $27 dollars in the gift shop on a Huggies little movers 2 pack baby oil and baby powder just in hopes that the gift shop girl would notice me. I feel that this is the only place that i can open up to seeing as how no one else know about my addiction.

[Fulldiaper]

It is quite common for ABDL's to have boughts of depression or withdrawal. Finding a safe reliable outlet is key. Good luck and SWAH (stay wet and happy)

[DaddyB1990]

Whilst it may seem like alot of money to spend, i wouldnt neccesarily class it as an addiciton... some people go on holiday and spend that sort of money (and more) on boose, clubbing etc etc.

[007s3]

Thank you very much for the replies. It means alot to me because nobody else that i know, know about my AB/DL tendensies. I feel that that is a big part of my depression. Usually when i am alone i feel the best. But right now in sandeigo i see all these other people and it just makes me feel so doen and depressed for many reasons. One amd primarialy because i dont and havnt had a girl friend in over 6 years and im 21. At time i feel that no body really cares about me. The only person that keeps me from offing myself is me because im to damn tough to do tgat, but that doesnt mean that i dont have moments of weakness. Like tonight i drank and i went to the hot tub and sat there by my self and drank for a while. Well i should say i felt alone as there were 8- 10 other people there. I couldnt manage to talk to any of them and it mafe me feel so alone while sitting in the middle of all these people. I was so depressed. There was one guy that actually talked to me. He said that he was a radiologst but i think he was a physcyatrist because sevral times he asked if i was alright and i didnt think i was looking that horrible. On his way out he even stopped to chat with me. That pritty much madd my night. Now this is really tough for me if you really knew me you would know something was really wrong because i am talking about it. And right now i have a suspission that my AB side stems from me wanting to have a wife and children. That probably sounds wierd but thats what i feel like right now. I really appreciate the responses as i reall have nobody i can talk to about this stuff.

[DaddyB1990]

This sounds like its at the point where you should be discussing this with a doctor, and possibly a therapist, I hope you dont take offense to this, but i have had several friends reach that sort of stage and from experience is best to get some professional help.

[007s3]

Dont worry i do t feel offended at all i am just looking for something and im not sure what. And im sure i could benefit from seeing a professional. But im just not in the position to see one.

[maly]

Hang on in there i know from personal experience those long lonely dark nights of the soul but it does pass.

I did get help but not before i had done some terrible things to my body, and the booze really does not help it is a depressant so will amplify those dark places. Nights and holiday periods were for me particularly bad. So try and get some professional help if you can.

Feel free to pm me if you want.

May all blessings be yours i shall remember you in my meditation.

Mal

[Dill_Pickle]

007s3:

Getting odd, good feelings from wearing diapers is NORMAL for people on this site.

[007s3]

Thank you guys for the responses I appreciate your input. I was stuck in a rut for a while and now I feel over it. But I do have to address my binge and purge deal I got. But thanks guys for the input much appreciated.

[Dill_Pickle]

007:

Don't purge...get a box, label it "Laundry" or some such, and save your stuff for next time.