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Been writing this off and on for a while and thought I’d share. Intended to be a slow burn love story/abdl romcom. I don’t know why but I decided to write from both of the main characters POV’s, tried to sequence them identical to run parallel so if you want to read from the CG side of things skip to Chapter 1- the beginning (Elise). Don’t know if I’ll continue writing both POVs after chapter 2 but I sort of wanted to offer the insights from both sides. Stumbling In Chapter 1- The Beginning (Ashley) ‘Another 5 hours to go.’ Ashley told herself as she checked the clock for what felt like the 50th time in the past 3 hours. Something about the Friday shift really dragged out the day. Maybe it was just looking forward to the weekend and the anticipation of the time off but she could barely take it. She was freshly back from college for the summer and two weeks in and she was already contemplating something that would be at least a little more stimulating than sitting behind a register for 8 hours a day. The job was easy enough, that was for sure, just incredibly boring. Her aunt owned the business and her previous clerk had quit shortly before Ashley came back from school. The pay was pretty much going rate for any summer job and gave her some spending money. Her parents had booked a summer long cruise which gave her free reign of the house, kind of a bummer to have a house all to yourself but no friends to have over. They were all taking summer courses or off vacationing or whatever other thing college aged kids do over summer break so she was pretty much wasting her summer away and collecting a paycheck. The store was nearly dead quiet aside from the soft music playing through the overhead speakers but that was kind of to be expected. It was a specialty store and the specialty this store focused on was special needs and advanced healthcare. It was realistically a niche market to begin with and with the power of the internet, no one really came to stores like this in person anymore. In fact, online sales were 95% of the business. It was more confidential that way because who would openly want to come in and buy adult diapers in person. Ashley blushed at the embarrassing thought of having to carry a box of diapers out to her car for anyone passing by to see. It would be much preferred to have a plain brown cardboard box hiding the embarrassing contents shipped to your door. The other 5% of people were a couple of regulars, that if Ashley had to be blunt, were about to croak at any given second, coming in to get their resupply of depends or supplements. She assumed at that age they just didn’t care anymore and the older generation being the type to like shopping in physical stores. She had even tried to sign a few of them up for a subscription service to just deliver the goods at set intervals but they were pretty adamant on coming in person. Probably just an excuse to do something other than sit in their nursing home watching black and white westerns. There was an odd smattering of randoms looking to try something out before purchasing too, more rare but they usually already knew what they were looking for so Ashley’s aid was unneeded aside from pointing out which aisle they’re looking for. They did have a large array of display items, who they were displaying them for Ashley couldn’t tell. Oversized strollers, car seats, high chairs, and cribs meant more so for their clientele with special needs charges. Some of them were quite intimidating looking with a bevy of restraints and attachments for what Ashley assumed were volatile use cases. Ashley’s aunt owned the store more as a passion project. She was pretty well off from other assets and businesses so this store was just a drop in the bucket. Having so much money tied up in inventory and displays wouldn’t hurt her bottom line in the slightest so Ashley was kept around to keep the shelves dusted and storefront presentable. She had heard there was some tax right off to have an open to the public storefront as opposed to just a warehouse. She didn’t understand taxes enough and was only a year into her business accounting degree so it was all beyond her. She was sure her aunt, being as savvy as she is, had a good reason. There had been one meek looking girl that came in and bought a pack of diapers earlier, her quota for one customer per day met now. Ashley had developed a small eye for it but she couldn’t exactly tell if the girl was wearing a diaper or not with the short skirt the girl had on. She may have said two words in the entire visit and practically ran out of the store clutching the pack of thick nighttime diapers to her chest and jumping into the backseat of the car that took its time to leisurely pull away. It was kind of odd looking back on it now but who was Ashley to judge someone’s needs. The girl was about Ashley’s size, actually maybe a bit bigger but she preferred to say she was an equal. Ashley for all intents and purposes was bordering the classification of midget, or little person, she couldn’t keep up with what the actual politically correct term was these days. Something about having her hormone receptors blocked, there was some long winded medical term that got thrown around a lot that always slipped her mind. It had dramatically stunted her growth leaving her at mere 4’ 10”. It didn’t help that she was flat as a board and her platinum blonde hair that she preferred to keep short constantly got her mixed up as being much much younger. She had taken a lot of bullying for being the “runt” in her youth, from her peers intentionally and her teachers unintentionally. Maybe they were taking pity on her by lowering the bar but it wasn’t from her lack of trying. Highschool had turned around for her when she got to try out for cheerleading. Being a whopping 80 pounds, she was the perfect flyer to be tossed around for the fancy aerial maneuvers. She had lost her passion for cheerleading by the end of it though, most of the prettier girls got full ride cheerleading scholarships for college while she had relied on her academics. Although she had the skill she didn’t have the looks, however shallow that may be, to be a career cheerleader. That and most of the cheerleaders definitely fit the mean girl trope a little too well and Ashley did her best to avoid being stereotypical. She glanced at the clock again, another 4 hours and 50 minutes to go. She could only internally self reflect for so long. Her brain was actually wired that way from the factory, ADHD that is. She was much more mellow now having learned how to function with the constant need to do something even if it was doing something else in the middle of a task. If she hadn’t been chewed out multiple times by her aunt watching the security cameras, she’d be on her phone. Nothing like doom scrolling to distract the ADHD mind with 20 different genres of media randomized and optimized for your swipe. That “doesn’t look professional” though so she browsed through the few available websites not blocked on the computer. YouTube only allowed 5 and under channels, so that was only a last resort. She did have a soft spot for some of the cartoons but that didn’t really scratch the ADHD itch right now. Of course all of the social media sites were blocked. Nothing particularly interesting allowed aside from a few sites that had either been allowed because they were business adjacent or hadn’t been blocked yet because her aunt hadn’t seen the traffic. Her stomach gave a little grumble with the fast approaching lunch break. One saving grace was Elise and Gary. They worked in the back packaging online orders and managing inventory for the most part, probably just because there wasn’t a whole lot to do up front. As far as Ashley could tell, they had been working here since the store opened 15 years ago. They were both still young, probably started when they were Ashley’s age and had never left. She had asked them about it once and they both had just said because of the benefits and perks, whatever that meant. They were both what appeared to be power lifters in Ashley’s eyes. Elise was built like an Amazon, probably 6 feet tall if she had to guess, olive skin and black hair, Asian descent maybe. She was essentially the exact opposite of Ashley. Well endowed, tall, excellent physique, everything Ashley could dream of in a partner. Gary was a hunk but also a nerd, he pretty much built the website and manages all of the inventory. He’s huge, 6’ 4” tall and probably 250lb of muscle. The very subtle hints of grey just starting to touch his beard and hair. They both seemed very protective of her at times. Usually they’d come to hang out with Ashley and have lunch with her or if they had a short reprieve from the seemingly endless packages. Elise more so than Gary but he occasionally came up to chat with her if he needed a break. Not that Ashley was complaining to have Elise as company. She would be loathed to openly admit it but she had a bit of a crush. She had logicked herself out of being hopeful because of their 13 year age difference and Elise being such a bombshell she was way out her league but the daydreams never hurt. On her first day she hadn’t brought a lunch of her own and was intending to just grab some fast food from a neighboring joint. They both were appalled and looked at her like she had shot the family dog. They started packing her lunches and snacks, it was almost like clockwork when one would come out and give her some morsel of baby carrots, maybe some crackers and cheese, already de-stemmed grapes, a tidbit of information on the macros and a pre-sliced apple. They were pretty fun honestly and were definitely a pro to the job. Ashley being openly bisexual didn’t cause any problems as both Elise and Gary were openly lesbian and gay respectively. Maybe that’s what they meant by perks. Ashley’s aunt frequently donated to pride events and didn’t have qualms in the slightest about the community. There was far less strife about it nowadays but a friendly company had its ways of keeping employees around. Ashley kicked back from the desk and stretched a bit before standing, the computer wasn’t going to provide the scratch she needed. She figured she could do a lap around the store for the third time that day. Usually she’d do small sections just to get up and move but she was a little curious about the diapers the girl had bought earlier so she moved towards the diaper section. Normally she avoided them, it made something inside of her nervous or maybe it was anxious. She didn’t know either way but they had sort of felt like a drug, something that could be a problem or addiction if indulged. There was a sort of taboo about wearing them but not needing them that had triggered at least one small fantasy that she tried to push down. There was a sort of excited thrill building in her stomach, it was deep, raw, nearly primal. She didn’t know why she was intrigued, but there was some draw. If Ashley knew anything just from her own condition, she knew the girl that had come in earlier was an adult like her, maybe even a little older than her. That thought had been intriguing despite her best efforts to suppress the curiosity. ‘If those diapers fit that girl then they’d probably fit me too…’ was the thought that crossed her mind. There was honestly more variety than she remembered, granted she had only ever explored haphazardly, never really looking at the options in an attempt to find something specific. The variety had been overwhelming, like there were more options than seemed realistic or necessary. In her mind a diaper was a diaper, why were there so many options, what did one brand do differently than another when it came to disposable undergarments. She glossed over most of the stuff she saw from the other regulars, she was familiar with the boring plain white depends. The diapers the girl had bought were a solid powder pink, she didn’t get a great look at them but amongst the variety there were only a few pink options amongst the sea of white. She finally singled them out near the end of the aisle on the bottom shelf. It was more noticeable now seeing the hole in the neatly faced shelves that Elise or Gary maintained. She approached slowly like they were a snake that might jump out and bite her and squatted down to eye level with the packaging. ‘B2B Timid Little 10 pack, $54!’ Ashley read the price tag and was a little shocked at how expensive they were. Up close and without someone looking like they were about to sprint out the door in a panicked rush she could see the printed design a little better. There was a quilted appearance with little hearts filling the squares and what appeared to be ruffled lace patterns. The package had a large heart with the style name on the front, looking at the ends of the package she could see that the diapers had a similar heart with ‘BABY’ in the center. It was so infantile… so humiliating… so exhilarating. ‘Why would an adult wear something like this?’ she contemplated internally. She could feel herself getting hot in the cheeks and the warmth in her stomach was sinking lower and lower. ‘What if I wore something like this?’ The thought hit her like a freight train out of nowhere. The humiliation of being reduced to a baby, incapable of making it to a toilet or wetting the bed. All of the adult responsibilities being washed away by a simple undergarment. Even the most mundane adult task of going to the bathroom being stripped away. Thoughts flowed through her head faster than she could process them and before she knew it, she was reaching for a package. They were heavier than she expected and despite being tightly sealed in plastic she could tell they were quite soft. She looked over a shelf at an adjacent diaper package and saw a 24 pack that was similar in size to this 10 pack which meant these would definitely have much more padding. Even in the wrapping, she could tell the diapers had a thick plastic backing unlike the fragile appearing paper backed diapers that were popular with the elderly customers. “Hey, ready for lunch?” Ashley nearly exploded at the simple question from Elise who had somehow materialized standing over her. She let out a loud “eep” like she had been caught doing something she shouldn’t be doing and the package of diapers was almost launched into the air. If her heart wasn’t racing before it sure was now. “Pretty cute aren’t they?” Elise asked innocently. “I just stocked them last night.” She added. “U…um yeah, they are kinda cute.” Ashley stammered. “A girl came in earlier and bought a pack so I figured I could help you guys out and face the inventory so that it stays uniform.” She lied, a good lie, an innocent lie. In the moment she felt she had to protect her dignity and hide her curiosity with the taboo feelings festering inside of her. “Come on, I brought you chicken parm, I think Gary is trying to win you over to the dark side with corndogs so be warned. If you were trying to bulk…” Elise commented and Ashley started to zone out as she started to ramble about macros or something. She quickly put the package of diapers back on the shelf, lining them up a little haphazardly with the other two packs and rose to her feet to follow after Elise. Gary had already flipped the sign on the door to let would-be customers know that they’re taking their lunch break and had already taken up position in his usual chair in the break room. Even if it was just a microwaved dish, the room smelt of Elise’s fantastic cooking. True to Elise’s concerns, Gary let Ashley know that he had a corn dog for her. Her polite decline got a “bummer, lost again to the true cook” from Gary who shirked it off like it was her loss before taking another bite of his corn dog. There were already two cleaned off sticks in his Tupperware and four more untouched dogs to go. Ashley didn’t know where he put it all at times but had been assured he could burn those calories in a matter of hours. Elise used a fork to touch a scoop of the pasta to her lip to make sure it was warmed enough but not too hot. Maybe it was a habit, a tease, or maybe it was flirting, Ashley didn’t know, but Elise frequently did this for her. Another frequent from Elise came immediately after testing the temperature. She offered up the fork to Elise to take a bite. At first she thought she was just teasing her but it was a frequent enough event at this point that she usually just caved. Today was different though. Ashley was having flashbacks to the diapers as the fork was offered up to her. That loss of adult anonymity which burned her cheeks up again. “I can feed myself, you know.” Ashley bashfully said, turning away a little to hide her blush. “Come on, just one bite.” Elise countered as she pushed the fork forward again, presenting the delicious smelling chicken parm to Ashley once more. She caved. She always caved for Elise. She brushed her short hair back behind her ear and leaned forward to accept the offering. It was delicious as all of Elise’s dishes were. She chewed for a moment, relishing in the non-frozen food dish that she was living off of at home in summer bachelorette life. As she swallowed she noticed Elise prepping another fork and soon it was offered up to her again. “Come on, you said one bite.” Ashley was turning a new shade of red and her lip naturally curled into a pout despite her best efforts to break that childish habit. “I know. I lied. Come on, just one more and I promise I’ll let you eat in peace.” Elise said as she jabbed the fork forward again. “It’s really good isn’t it, I added a few extra seasonings this time.” Elise prodded. She caved again, this time a bit more aggressively snatching the food from the fork then holding out her hand to demand the fork. “It is really good…” Ashley commented as she chewed. “Manners, you shouldn’t talk with your mouth full.” Elise teased as she handed over the fork and glass Tupperware for Ashley. “God, aren’t you two cute.” Gary said as he took another bite of his corn dogs. “Oh shut up meat head.” Elise shot back before Ashley could swallow and throw in a chastising remark. “Last I checked you’re worse than me, counting calories and watching your “macros”” Gary fired back, making his own air quotes around “macros.” “It’s beneficial to maintain the proper physique. Some of us don’t have the metabolism of a 14 year old boy that can eat anything and not have to worry about tipping the scale.” Elise bickered. “Yeah yeah, anyways…” the conversation devolved into work talk. Some large order needing to be assembled to be shipped out. Blah blah, Ashley was more invested in her serving of chicken parm. “Oh yeah, Ashley said a case of those new diapers already sold.” Elise said. Ashley coughed up her food a bit, taken off guard by the comment of those diapers already selling. She reached for her water and Elise gave her back a few pats. “Wrong pipe?” She innocently asked. “Yeah…” Ashley managed to say after clearing her throat. “Well that’s good. Didn’t think registering as their new dealer would pan out so quickly.” Gary replied. “Right? As I was telling the boss, it’s a growing market and community.” Elise and Gary devolved into more shop talk as Ashley pushed her food around a little and ate a little more slowly. “When are you going to get the rest of the line out and all of the other products.” Gary asked which piqued Ashley’s interest a bit. “I’ll probably put a couple of lines that aren’t selling on clearance or maybe send them out for donations to the elderly home to make room. Then I have to go through one of the clothes racks, those heated vests haven’t been moving since it’s summer so that will make room for the onesies.” Elise explained. Ashley’s mind was a little stuck on the mention of onesies. She had no idea what community they were talking about that would require adult diapers and adult onesies so she was a bit lost. “Think you can help me out after lunch Ashley.” Elise pulled Ashley into the conversation but she was a little lost in thought at the moment. “Ash?” That got her attention, the little pet name that she hated hearing in school but coming from Elise it felt fitting. “Um sure, not like I ever get a ton of customers anyways.” She finally responded. “Great, I’ll go start bringing the boxes up front then.” Elise said before standing and putting her Tupperware away in her lunch bag. “I guess I oughta get back to it myself then.” Gary said, standing and stretching then throwing away the 7 corn dog sticks. Ashley had a little internal chuckle that he also ate the one he had brought for her. She finished quickly after they both left. Her mind was going a million miles an hour thinking about what she had agreed to. She didn’t know if she could handle being that close to her most recent object of fascination and her heart felt like it was going to beat out of her chest. She packed the Tupperware away in Elise’s bag and moved to go help her out. Elise was in the middle of wheeling out a fourth stack of boxes on a dolly and grouping them together near the diaper aisle. “Hey, if you want to start breaking these out of their boxes while I bring up the rest, that'd be a huge help.” Elise said as she moved back to the warehouse to get more of the new inventory. Ashley just gave a silent nod of approval before going to get her safety plastic box cutter from the customer service desk. Her hands trembled a bit as she moved one of the boxes down from the stack. She had to take a deep breath before she sliced through the tape on the box and another before she folded the tabs over. Her heart raced as more of the same pink diapers came into view. These were just a larger size but the same print. She started pulling the diapers from the box and stacking them in the aisle. She moved to the next box which produced another set of pink diapers that were cloth backed and much thinner than the first set she stumbled onto earlier. She kept moving through the boxes and breaking down the cardboard to be recycled while Elise brought more boxes out and then started to make room on the shelves, removing the less popular lines to make room for the mountain of new inventory. She only became mildly numb to the diapers but every new pattern had her flushing anew. Ashley did have to hand it to her aunt, when she went in on something she went big. Now was just going to be the challenge of making it all fit in the store. There had to be dozens of boxes left to go, and the variety of printed diapers already unpacked was enough to dominate an entire side of the aisle by themselves. There had to be ten different patterns of diaper prints in an array of thicknesses and types. Everything from diapers that seemed even thicker than what she had previously found heart pounding, to pull-ups, trainers, and even covers in cute prints. Her cheeks were rosey red the entire time and Elise noticed. “How about you go get a drink, I know you’re not used to all of this heavy lifting like I am.” She commented upon seeing Ashley’s cheeks and the slight pant caused by her heart racing. Ashley just silently nodded and went to get her water bottle. Her head was swimming with thoughts as she tried to straighten out her lines of thinking. She didn’t need diapers, she was pretty confident of that, having been out of them for as long as she could remember. But there was a draw towards them. She wanted diapers. The revelation struck her hard and she took a moment to sit down in her chair. Why did she want diapers? What purpose did they serve her? What escape did they provide that was drawing her in so aggressively? She didn’t know how to put it into words yet and it felt overwhelming. Elise approached to give her an update. “Man, we need to get you to the gym girl! Tuckered out after only this much? I’m going to take down a few shelves so we can put some hangers up for the trainers and diaper covers. Take a minute and I’ll help you start putting the diapers up on the shelves before we tackle the other boxes.” Ashley was surprised with how easily Elise could openly talk about this stuff like it wasn’t anything new to her. She had been working at the store for a long time so it probably didn’t phase her as much as it did Ashley she reckoned. She took a couple of more minutes to cool her head then confidently stood back up to help. That confidence lasted all of ten seconds when she approached Elise who held out a package of the next size up from the diapers that started this internal debacle. “I’ll help out with getting your diapers put up then I have to run to the bathroom real quick.” It was so nonchalant and indirect but the words struck Ashley like lightning. They weren’t “her” diapers, they were just the task that she started. She knew that Elise didn’t mean it in that way but having them labeled “hers” made her chest thump. Elise swung the diapers her way to get her attention again and to get her to take the pack and set it on the shelf. She almost seemingly flinched like the diapers were trying to get her but quickly moved into action to take the pack from Elise with a quick “right, sorry.” Tag teaming the shelves went quick and they quickly had them all up and displayed. Ashley was a little winded from Elise’s pace but all of the disposables were neatly stored now. Elise took off to the bathroom and left Ashley alone with the diapers. She just looked over the variety for a few minutes, it was kind of a lot to take in. Everything was neatly organised on the shelves thanks to Elise’s guidance on how to place them in order. Near the top was what Elise had called the daytime diapers. Slightly thinner and cloth backed. It increased in capacity towards the bottom where the “nighttime” diapers were. The thicker plastic backed options. Ashley turned around and looked at the regular diapers and the pattern was the same with increasing absorbency in descending order. That seemingly OCD pattern that Elise would come up with. Her eyes wondered back to the pack she had been holding initially. Their pink printed plastic backed thickness teasing her. The pack was still a little haphazardly place, especially now that all of the others were displayed so perfectly. She crouched down again and readjusted the package so that it lined up like the rest. “You seem pretty interested in those pink ones.” Elise said, again, seeming to materialize out of thin air and startling Ashley to the point that she let out another screech of fright. “Do we need to put a bell on you? You move like a ghost! They were just crooked. I know your OCD butt would’ve done the same.” She justified as she stood back up, feeling a warm spot in the crotch of her panties. “I’m going to hit the bathroom too real quick” she said before heading towards the employee restroom. She locked the door behind herself and quickly undid her belt and pulled her jeans down. Sure enough, that little fright from Elise had startled her to the point of soiling her panties a little. Nothing major that could be seen on her jeans but she sat on the toilet to relieve herself and wadded up some toilet paper to dab away the dampness in her underwear. ‘Stupid, stupid, stupid’ she began to chastise herself. ‘You spend a couple of minutes around some stupid diapers and all of a sudden you’re stupid little baby pissing herself.’ She wanted to cry, she had all of these emotions boiling and festering inside of her. Crying felt like a good way to let them out but she pushed them back down and bottled them up. She didn’t want to ruin her makeup, no matter how minimal it was, and she definitely didn’t want to have to explain to the ever perceptive Elise why she had been crying. She finished her business, pulled her pants back up in a mildly better state than they had been moments before, washed her hands, gave herself a small pep talk in the mirror and exited to get back to work now that she had recomposed herself. Elise had moved onto the fabric and loose garments next. She handed Ashley a hook for the pegboard where the shelves had been previously, a handful of clip style clothes hangers you’d usually use for pants, followed by a stack of training pants that followed the theme of the Timid Little diapers that had her so worked up. A large heart with “baby” printed across the front identical to the disposable diapers renewed her blush and broke the composure she had just gotten back. They were thick cotton and even modeled the diaper tapes. In fact, some of them were even Ashley’s exact size. ‘Should’ve taken a pair of these with me to the bathroom.’ Ashley thought before ingesting that internal statement. ‘Stupid, you don’t need training panties, even if they are cute.’ “Are you just going to stare at them or hang them up? They are pretty cute I have to admit but there’s a whole line we have to get up.” Elise broke Ashley’s newest daze who quickly jumped to action, clipping the hanger onto the garments. A couple of each size were quickly hung up as Elise unpacked the next box and handed the items to Ashley. That was followed by the matching diaper covers, and then actual more adult undergarments like bra and panty sets but printed with the same patterns of hearts, lace and diapers tapes. Those were followed by bibs, and even bottles and pacifiers scaled up to adult proportions to complete the display. Ashley was in a tizzy by the diversity of the garments and accessories and there were more theme lines to complete. She checked her watch and they still had two more hours to go. The next themes went substantially faster now that they had found a rhythm. That was about when Gary came out. “Phew. Finally got that large order out the door.” He gave a small stretch and swung his arms like he had been working out, for all Ashley knew he was just based on the strain she was feeling after making it as far as she had. “Wow, look at all this. You’ve made some great progress already. Didn’t think the boss was going to go this extreme on new inventory.” Gary said as he perused the newly displayed inventory. Again, another person who was not completely shocked by the fact they were unpacking adult diapers and garments that looked like baby diapers. Or really any of the items that had come out of the pile of cardboard that was now taking up a corner of the shop space by itself. “Well, if I know anything about Auntie B… I mean Aunt Bethany, she has flair for the dramatics and loves going all in. I’m sure she’s a nightmare in Vegas.” Ashley joked which got a good chuckle out of the two staff members that had known her for almost as long as Ashley had been alive. “Well since you’re all done back there, can you help us out up here? If we’re quick we can get this all wrapped up before taking off today and we won’t have to worry about it on Monday.” Elise said as she opened another box and extracted a Timid Little themed onesie and showed it off to Ashley and Gary. ‘It’s so cute!’ Ashley screamed internally as her mind was coming to terms with all of this. She nearly fainted when Elise spun it around in her hands to check it out herself and exposed the ruffles across the bottom. In fact now that she was looking at it, it looked perfectly sized for her. Elise handed it to her to put on a hanger and Ashley couldn’t help but to stop and stare at it for a moment. ‘Extra small, this would probably fit me perfectly.’ Was the thought she had as she examined it. If Elise and Gary noticed her lingering eyes they didn’t say anything and just went about clearing off a clothing rack and unpacking the remaining boxes. Ashley was starting to process the want that was blooming inside her. She wanted to be cutesy, she wanted to let go of the adult responsibilities, she wanted to be cared for even if it meant going back to that simpler time of wearing diapers and onesies, of just being a baby. It was a complex realization that she didn’t fully understand. At the same time her internal self-deprecation went all in, telling herself it was stupid, it was just a fantasy, no one would actually be into this kind of thing, it was a ridiculous desire, she was dumb for even thinking about it. A brutal battle was waged in her psyche as she continued to diligently work and try to keep up with the two power lifters putting her meager athleticism to shame. Maybe it was her upbringing, growing up fast, constantly having to defend herself against the external threats brought on by her diminutive stature. She had been tomboyish growing up because it was practical and her parents were very practical. Jeans and tshirts, short hair, mostly gender neutral clothes now that she reflected on it. Barbie’s and dolls were a rarity and were quickly replaced with puzzles and books. She wondered if her mom had kept them in storage somewhere after she had “outgrown” that phase and been moved on to academic and brain stimulating outlets. She’d be lying if she said she wasn’t at least a little jealous of the girls who got to wear pretty dresses, play princess, wear cute clothes. She understood that dressing that way would only make her look even younger now but was that so bad? Those simpler times of not defending herself against the would be bullies. Her mind wandered as she worked. Each new garment that came out of the boxes spiked a new intrigue but mostly anything pink or frilly. She had day dreams of the pink shortalls, the long thigh high socks, the ruffle bottomed tights. She was lost in thought and the process of examining an article momentarily, putting it on a hanger, then displaying it on the rack. Her train of thought was only broken when she reached back for the next article and the only response was “that’s it, you did great Ash. Thanks for all of your help.” From Elise who had a big smile. The few words of praise and that little pet name sunk in. She had to turn away before her renewed blush gave her away. “Even with some time to spare.” Gary said as he looked at his watch and did some more stretches now that the task was complete. “I’m going to go wash up real quick.” Gary said before heading towards the bathroom. “It’s almost like a whole new store with all of this color.” Elise said as she took a moment to peruse the new inventory. She stopped at the clothes rack and pulled out the exact onesie Ashley had been eyeing. Unhooking it and holding it up. It was even Ashley’s size, not even remotely close to what Elise would need to fit her chiseled titaness form. She put it back on the rack and picked up the pink shortalls next and then another onesie covered in pink hearts. Ashley’s face felt like it was melting as one by one Elise examined almost every article of clothing Ashley had considered on herself. “It’s all just so cute. I don’t think I have the body for it necessarily but it sure is adorable. What do you think about this?” Elise asked as she held up the first onesie again. Ashley was speechless for a minute. Her brain reeling for words that in its currently fried state could barely find. “It’s… uh, um, it’s uh kinda cute… I guess.” She finally managed. ‘Nailed it. Shoot me now.’ Elise approached Ashley with all of the confidence in the world and held the hanger up to her Ashley’s neck, letting the onesie drape over her chest as if she was wearing it to get a visual. “Well isn’t that just precious.” She said with an almost devious smile that threatened to devour her. ‘Too much!’ Ashley’s brain short circuited and popped a fuse. Next thing Ashley knew she was on the floor and Elise was cradling her head in her lap. “Guess we worked you a little too hard huh?” Elise said with a smile so disarming that Ashley almost turned pudding right there, her voice so calm and soothing that Ashley felt tiny. ‘God! Is she flirting with me?’ Ashley thought to herself. ‘There’s no way, she’s like 32 and I’m like barely 19, there’s no way she’d be into a scrawny little cheerleader like me when she’s built like a goddess.’ “Hello, earth to Ashley. You okay princess?” Elise said, trying to get Ashley out of her own head. “You passed out for a second there. Are you okay?” There was genuine worry on her face. “Uh, um, yeah. It happens sometimes when I… when I overwork myself.” Ashley replied. ‘Smooth played that off well, I almost told her it only happens when I get overwhelmed or overly excited.’ “Is it vasovagal syncope?” Elise asked. “Sudden drops in blood pressure leading to fainting spells.” She clarified for Ashley who looked confused. Legitimate medical terms well beyond her memory capacity, symptoms being more so what she remembered. “Uh yeah, I think that’s what the doctors called it. It happened more when I was younger though, it’s been awhile since I’ve fainted like that.” Ashley said. “I know an acquaintance with the same condition.” Elise said. “Let’s get you some water.” Elise easily maneuvered Ashley around and stood up before helping Ashley stand. Her legs still felt a little wobbly after the faint, in fact, they were actually wobbling. Elise took note of it almost immediately and crouched down a little to be on the same eye level as Ashley. “I’m going to pick you up okay? I don’t want to hurt your feelings, I know it can be a sore subject but I want to get you over to your chair so you can sit down.” Ashley would agree that being carried is a sore subject for her. Being small as she was, some of the bigger kids liked to pick her up knowing she was an easy target. She had been thrown into the pool a number of times in gym class in junior high. Probably just dumb boys flirting and being bullies about it but she didn’t have many fond memories of being picked up. Elise on the other hand was being gentle with her, asking for permission like it was sexual consent. It disarmed Ashley completely and she gave a small nervous nod. Ashley quickly found herself hoisted up into Elise’s arms. Her legs naturally wrapped themselves around her waist and Elise adjusted her grip to support her bottom while Ashley’s head naturally nestled into her and her arms wrapped around to hug her neck. Elise didn’t so much make a strained grunt or noise as she easily carried Ashley the short 20 feet over to her small register station and sat her down in the chair. “Light as a feather.” She said with another disarming smile. Elise grabbed the large thermos cup from the desk and held it up, presenting the straw to Ashley to drink from. “Take a few sips please. Might just need to get some fluids in ya.” Elise said “I can hold it myself.” Ashley tried to protest as she lifted her arms to accept the cup but in doing so felt how sluggish and slow the movements were. It was like her muscles were still in the process of rebooting and she caved and leaned forward a bit to take the straw and down a few sips. “Take it slow, big gulps of cold water could shock your core and make you feel sick.” Elise explained as Ashley took a few more sips. Gary then reappeared from the bathroom after washing up a bit. “Did I miss something?” He asked innocently. “Nothing much, Ashley just fainted. Probably just worked her too hard is all.” Elise explained the current state of affairs probably a bit too calmly for the situation because Gary’s response came fast and panicked. “Fainted!?” He took what seemed like two strides toward them and was at Ashley’s side opposite of Elise. “Are you okay? Do we need to call an ambulance? The boss will have our necks if Ashley got hurt because we pushed her too hard.” Elise had moved her hand to Ashley’s neck prior to Gary’s minor breakdown. She specifically had two fingers on Ashley’s pulse and felt it increasing at the same pace as Gary’s breakdown. “Calm down Gary, you’re projecting onto Ashley and scaring her. It’s okay, she’s fine. You seem to forget that I have EMT training too. She’s going to be just fine.” Elise said. “Right! Sorry, I’ll let you handle this and go start to get the shop locked up.” Garry said as he left. The fingers on Ashley’s neck monitoring her pulse were warm and the gentle contact felt almost ticklish. She couldn’t stop herself from curling up into Elise’s hand that gently cupped her chin. “Let’s get some sugar in you as well, might just have a bit of low blood sugar as well.” Elise said as she reached for the jar of candy on the counter and pulled out a pink cotton candy sucker. She took her hand back for a moment to unwrap it then brought it back to monitor her pulse while offering the lollipop up to Ashley’s lips. ‘How did she know the cotton candy was my favorite?’ Ashley thought to herself as for the first time she didn’t resist leaning forward a bit and accepted the offering. “There ya go, good girl. You’re starting to get some color back in your face.” Elise commented. Ashley could definitely feel the color in her face now as her cheeks started to burn again while her tongue shifted the lollipop over to her cheek. ‘Stop calling me a good girl, I can’t handle the praise.’ Ashley thought as the two words echoed in her head and raised goosebumps across her arms. “Alright, you seem pretty stable now. I’m going to go take out this trash and get my stuff real quick. You stay right here for the time being and if you need anything just ask.” Elise said, which got a small nod of agreement from Ashley. Elise leaving her side felt…bad? It didn’t feel good. She was so sensitive and gentle that Ashley’s guard had been lowered enough to just accept the help and treatment. The steady presence, the calm reassurances, the soft voice that delivered kind praises. Ashley’s body wanted to reach out and pull her back but her defenses were going back up. Her adult persona was taking over again and she hesitated long enough that Elise had already slipped away by the time she thought about pulling her back. Now the internal voice started again. ‘So stupid, getting so worked up about just a onesie that you fainted. And you made Elise and Gary worry about you. It’s just a onesie and some stupid diapers. Besides, the chances of Elise being into you are about zero. She just likes teasing you and you have no chance with someone like her when you look like someone like you.’ Ashley really wanted to cry. It felt fitting but she stuffed those emotions back down and held back those tears despite her eyes starting to water up a bit. She instead chose to watch from her chair as Elise broke down the boxes and condensed them into a single box stuffed with all of the garbage. ‘I should really help her. I’m fine now.’ Ashley thought as she watched Elise efficiently condense the packaging. Ashley stood up to go help but Elise caught the movement out of the corner of her eye. “Do you need something?” Elise asked gently but directly before Ashley was even fully standing. “Um, I was just going to help you finish up.” Ashley said bashfully. “Nuh uh, you stay right there. If you’re going to have to drive home after work, you’re going to need your strength and I don’t want to have to worry about you making it home safely.” Elise said. “Besides it’s not enough work for two people, I’ll have it done in a jiffy.” Gary had supposedly finished up shutting down the warehouse because he came back and started carting out the garbage that Elise had already condensed. The tag team duo had all of the garbage shuttled out to the dumpster in a matter of minutes. ‘They really do work so well together. If I didn’t know otherwise I’d say that they make a great couple but I can see they have at least a really great friendship.’ Ashley pondered from the sidelines. Gary had grabbed his bag and was heading out the door shortly after waving goodbye to Ashley and Elise. Something about having to get to the gym for a training session so he couldn’t stay too late. “Feeling better?” Elise asked as she approached with her and Ashley’s bags that she had retrieved from the break room. “Yeah, much better. You sure know your stuff. The sucker really seems to have done the trick.” Ashley replied “That’s good. Now let’s get out of here, it’ll still be here Monday.” Elise said as she handed Ashley her purse and guided her to the front door. It was always those subtle little pushes and guidances from Elise that made Ashley’s heart flutter. ‘Can your crush on Elise get any worse?’ Ashley thought to herself. ‘Just stop thinking about it. It’ll never happen. Especially since you’re too chicken to even take a shot.’ Ashley literally face palmed herself from the internal thought train. “You okay?” Elise asked, hearing the smack and turning around. “Um, yeah, I uh, just forgot my water bottle in there.” Ashley said as she looked for an excuse and actually had forgotten to bring her bottle with her. “I gotta get home and feed the cat or he’ll tear up my furniture.” Elise said. “But you have shop keys too, just be sure to lock up and set the alarm from your phone.” “Right, sounds good. I’ll see you Monday?” Ashley said feeling a little fidgety. ‘Here’s your chance, take a shot.’ But she didn’t, almost physically couldn’t bring herself to say the words. “You will indeed. Enjoy your weekend.” Elise said before walking away towards her SUV with a wave over her shoulder. Stumbling In Chapter 1- The beginning (Elise) ‘15 more minutes.’ Elise told herself as she moved another box to the shipping bay. 15 minutes before lunch and then she could finally go see Ashley again. Not that anything was really stopping her but she didn’t want to feel like a helicopter. The girl was so innocent and adorably cute it almost hurt to scroll through the pictures she had saved mentally. Her petite frame, the beaming smile when she allowed herself to flash her pearly whites, the blushes she had when she was put on the spot. ADORABLE! She had been working at the store for two weeks now and today marked the completion of the third. Friday, the day that usually dragged on but today was a good day. She looked over at the mountain of boxes that had been delivered on Wednesday. She had already unpacked one to display for an impatient friend the previous day, she had the bill of lading after all and knew which one contained the ABDL diapers her friend was after. They were living out a fantasy that Elise hoped to join some day. Her little coming into a store to buy a pack of diapers for herself. It was a classic ABDL trope and her little loved the humiliating side of things no matter how much she denied it. Elise had staked two of her bonuses on the massive order now sitting by the warehouse. Bethany was the best employer she could imagine. She was open minded about all communities and Elise had approached her about hers after an age of deliberation. It was a nerve racking meeting, to open up about yourself in that way, to expose your inner fantasies to another. Bethany had agreed to try it out. Elise couldn’t tell but she could’ve sworn that Bethany hinted at also being part of the community that she was so infatuated with, at least in some aspects. The deal was, if they didn’t see a good ROI after buying in they would terminate the line of apparel, gear, and most importantly to Elise, the diapers. Every quarter, Bethany would take 75% of the revenue generated by the store and split it between Gary and Elise. She reasoned that the money was better off going back into the economy than sitting in some over-inflated bank account collecting dust. After all of the bills it typically amounted to quite a handsome bonus for Elise and Gary. For that, Elise was eternally grateful. Bethany was a sort of role model for Elise, and a mentor. She constantly helped Elise through navigating stuff that school never prepared her for. Buying her first house, navigating the stock market and investing, survival and beyond that thriving. Bethany could write a course on how to make it but she decided to take Elise and Gary under her wing to help them be successful. In fact, she wanted everyone around her to be successful, that’s why she had brought Ashley on as the front cashier for the summer so that she could get some real world experiences. She had paid out of pocket for Elise’s EMT license, something she had wanted as her initial career goal, and had even helped Gary set up a care home for his special needs older brother. Bethany never joked, when she said that Elise and Gary were like the children she never had, Elise took that to heart. The deal Elise and Bethany had made was for two of the quarterly bonuses to be put into ABDL inventory and marketing. The online sales were good for the rest of the business so they set up, sort of secretly, a secondary LLC through the warehouse for the new venture. Gary didn’t flinch at making a second website mirroring the first, he loved that nerdy stuff. He took Elise’s input on all of the cutesy designs and gave her access to populate it with all of the pictures and descriptions since she knew more about the subject matter. Gary was aware of Elise’s caregiver and ABDL side. A night of heavy drinking had divulged many secrets years ago and Gary supported her like an older brother. Gary had even been intrigued by the ABDL diapers with their printed designs thinking it was a good venture for the business to broaden their scope and reach. Elise shuffled the last box for the day’s orders to the loading dock. She handled most of the smaller orders that went direct to consumers while Gary handled the large bulk orders that went to care homes, hospitals, and retirement centers. That meant that she had the rest of the day to play with the ABDL stuff and getting it displayed on the shop floor. ‘5 minutes to lunch. It probably would hurt to go check on Ashley.’ Elise thought before she gave Gary the heads up that it was lunch time. He was in the middle of loading a pallet for a large order of supplies but looked like he could use a break. He gave her a thumbs up and she took the queue to head out to lunch. She went to the employee break room first and stuck her dish in the microwave so that it could warm while she retrieved Ashley. One of Elise’s growing favorite things to do was sneak up on Ashley. She wore athletic shoes most of the time so she could be comfortable but they also lent themselves to being light on her feet and quiet. She found Ashley in a place she had not initially expected to find her. She was squatted down at the end of the diaper aisle. In particular, she was crouched in front of the ABDL diapers she had displayed last night for her friends. A jolt of electricity shot through Elise as she watched the girl pick up, then set down, then pick up again the pack of pink printed diapers. ‘Is Ashley an ABDL!’ Her internal voice screamed as she watched Ashley manipulate the pack of diapers in her hands, analyzing every inch of them. She approached quietly for her favorite part. “Hey, ready for lunch?” The sight of Ashley exploding in fear like a child caught red-handed was to die for. Her cheeks were flushed red with a blush that could light a cigarette. “Pretty cute aren’t they?” Elise asked innocently, but she was really trying to gauge Ashley’s reaction. A lot of ABDL’s were highly closeted, they rarely ever broadcasted their fantasies for fear of being labeled a weirdo. “I just stocked them last night.” She added, trying to keep Ashley talking. “U…um yeah, they are kinda cute.” Ashley stammered in her adorable embarrassed way. “A girl came in earlier and bought a pack so I figured I could help you guys out and face the inventory so that it stays uniform.” That’s a lie Elise almost called it immediately. ‘You’re curious aren’t you? You want to know what a diaper feels like. You may have experimented before but between price and hiding in the closet you’ve never been this close to the real thing.’ “Come on, I brought you chicken parm, I think Gary is trying to win you over to the dark side with corndogs so be warned. If you were trying to bulk that’d be a good option with all of those carbs from the bread but the protein weight is too low for you to gain anything in terms of muscle. It really bothers me that he gets to eat anything he wants and can turn it into muscle at the drop of a hat.” Elise knew Ashley wasn’t listening to her. The first time she had seen the girl’s eyes gloss over was when she began to ramble about macros. It was an easy way to fill the empty noise while allowing Ashley to think to herself so that she didn’t feel uncomfortable in the silence. The microwave had finished warming Ashley’s serving of lunch so she popped hers in while she brought Ashley the dish. To think, she had thought going down a few doors to get fast food on her first day was a viable lunch. It was the fast track to gaining weight and the disgusting ingredients that they used was never going to fly with her or Gary who was a health food nut in training. She had started packing a lunch for Ashley too and including a bevy of healthy snacks to deliver throughout the day. She occasionally would have Gary bring one of the snacks out to her, again so that it didn’t seem like she was hovering, but she knew Ashley was probably bored to tears sitting at the customer service kiosk in a store that saw maybe 50 in person customers a month. The snacks would at least give her some calories and a reprieve from the boredom. Gary had picked up that Elise was interested in Ashley on day one. He had called her out on it in the privacy of the warehouse and had made Elise promise that Ashley’s wishes were top priority. That was a given obviously. Her caretaker side only cared about what was the best for her partner, even if it was only a potential partner or a one way crush. Elise was moving on to her second favorite thing to do with Ashley. She swirled up a proportional bite of noodles for Ashley and checked that it wasn’t too hot. She presented the fork to Ashley as she did most days. If it was up to her, she’d feed Ashley her entire meal and skip lunch altogether. She knew it was pushing the line of forcing her own fantasies onto an unwilling participant but she couldn’t help herself. Today was different though. Ashley was extra blushy and her usual retort of “I can feed myself, you know.” Felt more forced, like she didn’t actually mean it. “Come on, just one bite.” Elise offered as consolation. It was their usual song and dance. She caved. She always caved. It was so sweet having Ashley accept the bite. The way she pushed her hair back behind her ear, the way she snapped forward and snatched the bite she was craving while trying not to be embarrassed. Elise knew she shouldn’t but she couldn’t stop herself as she loaded the next fork while Ashley chewed. “Come on, you said one bite.” Ashley was turning a new shade of red and her lip naturally curled into a pout that melted Elise on the inside. “I know. I lied. Come on, just one more and I promise I’ll let you eat in peace.” Elise said as she presented the offering forward. “It’s really good isn’t it, I added a few extra seasonings this time.” Elise prodded at the tenderness that Ashley presented so well. She caved again, this time a bit more aggressively snatching the food from the fork then holding out her hand to demand the fork. It was adorable when Ashley had these displays of adult confidence while doing little things. “It is really good…” Ashley commented quietly while she chewed. “Manners, you shouldn’t talk with your mouth full.” Elise took the opportunity to tease as she handed over the fork and glass Tupperware for Ashley. “God, aren’t you two cute.” Gary said as he took another bite of his corn dogs. Elise’s gaze could’ve burned a hole right through him. She didn’t need a wingman trying to sell her to her crush. “Oh shut up meat head.” Elise shot back. It was venomous and the message was ‘shut up before I strangle you with your stupid corndogs.’ “Last I checked you’re worse than me, counting calories and watching your “macros”” Gary fired back, making his own air quotes around “macros.” The message was clear that he didn’t care about Elise’s little game with Ashley of cat and mouse. He could see the picture from the outside and knew they were into each other. They just both were completely oblivious and unwilling to accept their chemistry. “It’s beneficial to maintain the proper physique. Some of us don’t have the metabolism of a 14 year old boy that can eat anything and not have to worry about tipping the scale.” Elise bickered. “Yeah yeah, anyways, I just have to finish up the order for Whispering Pines care facility. They almost tripled down after their first order. They’re really impressed.” Gary began. “I’ve finished off all of the direct to consumer orders for the day so I have a bit of free time that I’ll need to fill up.” Elise explained. Her eyes flicked to Ashley who had completely dissociated from the shop talk. “Oh yeah, Ashley said a case of those new diapers already sold.” Elise said to bring Ashley back into the conversation and see her reaction. The girl choked on her food at the mention of the diapers. ‘She has to be an ABDL, she’s so oblivious to it though’. “Wrong pipe?” She innocently asked as she handed over Ashley’s water bottle. She was tempted to give her back a few taps but held herself back. “Yeah…” Ashley managed to say after clearing her throat. “Well that’s good. Didn’t think registering as their new dealer would pan out so quickly.” Gary replied after Ashley had re-settled. He knew that Elise was in the middle of her flirtatious ambiguous game. “Right? As I was telling the boss, it’s a growing market and community. I’m really impressed with the quality and the designs are perfect. There’s probably 25 boxes to unload but I’ve already got them in the system. Should only have to put them on the shelf and we’re ready to go.” “When are you going to get the rest of the line out and all of the other products.” Gary asked, playing along with Elise’s game, both of them noticing Ashley’s glazed eyes regain focus at the mention of more product. “I’ll probably put a couple of lines that aren’t selling on clearance or maybe send them out for donations to the elderly home to make room. Then I have to go through one of the clothes racks, those heated vests haven’t been moving since it’s summer so that will make room for the onesies.” Elise explained. They did have quite a bit of inventory that was either outdated or had been popular with customers that no longer shopped with them for various reasons but mostly because they didn’t need them anymore sadly. Ashley’s blush renewed at the mention of onesies which flipped a switch for Elise. “Think you can help me out after lunch Ashley.” Elise pulled Ashley into the conversation but she was a little lost in thought at the moment. “Ash?” That got her attention, the little pet name she had started using innocently, she loved the way the girl snapped to attention when she heard it. “Um sure, not like I ever get a ton of customers anyways.” She finally responded. “Great, I’ll go start bringing the boxes up front then.” Elise said before standing and putting her Tupperware away in her lunch bag. She was excited, beyond excited. She had been able to subtly rope Ashley into helping her out and she’d be able to witness Ashley’s reactions personally. With food in her belly and renewed energy, she moved quickly. She had got a few of the stacks of boxes moved up front by the time Ashley finished her lunch and came to help. It would be good to get her something to do other than sit there bored to near death. Bethany was a huge proponent of “no phones out while on the clock.” Not exactly a problem in the back where they stayed busy but she wished she’d cut Ashley some slack with how dead the storefront was most times. Hopefully that will change a bit with the new products. “Hey, if you want to start breaking these out of their boxes while I bring up the rest, that'd be a huge help.” Elise said, giving some direction to Ashley. She practically had the bill of lading memorized at this point and was strategic with how she had been bringing the boxes out so that everything would line up. Call it OCD but Elise would call it efficiency. Ashley just gave a silent nod of approval as Elise moved through the swinging doors for the next stack. She already knew what box Ashley would probably be opening and was excited to see her reaction. Ashley was almost unmoving as she held the pack of diapers. ‘She’s hooked’ Elise thought as she set the next stack down. Ashley’s eyes were always focused on the next design she pulled out analyzing and exploring. She finally had all of the boxes brought up front and started working on re-sorting inventory. She knew which lines needed to come down, which could be reduced to one or two display cases with the remainder of the inventory in the back warehouse, and which lines could be donated and got to work. Her eyes frequently fell on Ashley who was always in the middle of looking at a pack of diapers like she was shopping for herself and weighing out the options between different bottoms. The items just so happened to be diapers. Ashley had already made her choice though. Elise saw her eyes wander back to the timid little diapers already on the shelf. It seemed to be Ashley’s standard she was comparing against. She gave herself a small smirk of approval. “How about you go get a drink, I know you’re not used to all of this heavy lifting like I am.” She commented, she knew it wasn’t from over-exertion but from getting worked up about all of the diapers. She watched as she walked away, she was a little pigeon toed and her walk didn’t have the grace and fluidity of an adult. It was staggered and uneven and she didn’t swing her arms in sync with her steps. ‘She’s slipping down whether she notices it or not she’s entering a little space mindset and regressing.’ After a moment of reprieve and a sip of water she returned. She was more fluid now, her trance-like state having dissipated from the short disconnect. Elise desperately wanted to scoop her up and put her in a chair to just sit on the sidelines to watch but knew Ashley wouldn’t go for it and she wanted to see more of that regressed mindset. “I’ll help out with getting your diapers put up then I have to run to the bathroom real quick.” Elise knew the choice of words she used. Contextually one would assume it was just the given task. But the blush that returned to Ashley’s cheeks and the small smile meant she took it in the way that she was claiming ownership. She offered up a pack of diapers for Ashley to put on the shelf. The larger size of the diapers Ashley had been monitoring this entire time. She didn’t take them immediately so swung the diapers her way to get her attention again and to get her to take the pack and set it on the shelf. She almost seemingly flinched like the diapers were trying to get her but quickly moved into action to take the pack from Elise with a quick “right, sorry.” Tag teaming the shelves went fast and they quickly had them all up and displayed. Ashley was a little winded from Elise’s pace but all of the disposables were neatly stored now. Ashley had been more focused after they got away from the pink printed diapers. ‘Seems like she’s settled on her preferred choice.’ She thought to herself as she looked at the display of color entering the store. Elise took off to the bathroom and left Ashley alone with the diapers. She didn’t particularly need the bathroom but she was dying to check something on her phone. She sat down and pulled her phone out and opened up her spreadsheet. She knew she was a bit OCD to have dozens of spreadsheets tracking everything and she opened her ‘NURSERY’ spreadsheet. She typed in the search bar ‘timid little’ to check her inventory. She had been buying ABDL products for years and tracked everything down to the last diaper. She had a full pack of the nighttime diapers on hand already stocked in the changing table. She also had two packs of the lighter duty daytime diapers. Her diaper bag had two left from when she had babysat for her friend Kelly and her little Jasmine. She took a mental note to restock the bag to its typical four and maybe throw some pull-ups in the mix and a nighttime spare to be prepared. She closed the app and opened the live feed from the shop security cameras. Her and Gary had access just in case the security system had a false alarm so they could check without having to come down to the shop. Bethany was pretty hands-off with this business for the most part since Elise and Gary handled everything for the most part, even their own payroll. Ashley was exactly where Elise had expected to find her, crouched at the end of the diaper aisle looking at the diapers she couldn’t keep her eyes off of. She wrapped up and washed her hands. ‘Twice in one day, how lucky can I be.’ Elise thought to herself as she moved silently back to Ashley. “You seem pretty interested in those pink ones.” Elise said, standing right behind Ashley. She nearly exploded again at the fright which made Elsie grin mischievously. “Do we need to put a bell on you? You move like a ghost! They were just crooked. I know your OCD butt would’ve done the same.” Ashley shot back. Elise had intentionally been holding herself back from adjusting them just to see Ashley’s interaction with them, it did pain her OCD admittedly but the thrill of Ashley’s blushy little face held her back. “I’m going to hit the bathroom too real quick.” Ashley announced as she rose and waddled away in the adorable little walk that Elise was coming to recognize as Ashley’s small side coming out. Her walk was a little more bow legged this time and Elise recognized the discomfort. ‘Oops, might’ve gone a bit too far with that second jump scare.’ She grinned to herself, knowing Ashley had made a wet spot in her panties. Elise moved on to sorting through the rest of the boxes, scrolling through her mental list of the packages. ‘Training pants would be good to put up next… hehe’ she internally giggled. ‘And with Ashley’s little accident it’ll be so cute to see her blushy little face when I hand her a pair.’ She hand over all the hangers and hooks they’d need to put on the pegboard at the back of the display shelves to hang the garments as well as a pair of training pants in Ashley’s size. Elise could see the gears turning in Ashley’s head and the subtle shift of her legs as she was reminded of the supposed wet spot in her panties. “Are you just going to stare at them or hang them up? They are pretty cute I have to admit but there’s a whole line we have to get up.” Elise broke Ashley’s newest daze who quickly jumped to action, clipping the hanger onto the garments. Elise metered out the garments and Ashley hung them couple of each size were quickly hung up. Elise stuck to the theme and produced matching diaper covers, and then actual adult undergarments like bra and panty sets but printed with the same patterns of hearts, lace and diapers tapes that Ashley was swooning over. That was followed by bibs, and even bottles and pacifiers scaled up to adult proportions to complete the display. Elise enjoyed Ashley’s reactions to each new item that completed the set. She had to analyze each item but Elise paced herself to let Ashley enjoy it. The next themes went substantially faster now that they were past the inject of Ashley’s fascination. ‘She probably has a humiliation kink. That’s why she is so fascinated with the ‘BABY’ text boldly displayed’ Elise thought to herself as she analyzed Ashley’s psyche. Then Gary came out to join the fray. “Phew. Finally got that large order out the door.” He gave a small stretch and swung his arms. Elise knew that the order he had packed could’ve easily been drawn out for the rest of the shift but he wanted to participate in the newness of the product line. “Wow, look at all this. You’ve made some great progress already. Didn’t think the boss was going to go this extreme on new inventory.” Gary commented. “Well, if I know anything about Auntie B… I mean Aunt Bethany, she has flair for the dramatics and loves going all in. I’m sure she’s a nightmare in Vegas.” Ashley joked which got a good chuckle out of Elise and Gary. They knew for a fact that Bethany was a problem gambler. Elise loved the innocent little moniker Ashley had for their aunt. “Well since you’re all done back there, can you help us out up here? If we’re quick we can get this all wrapped up before taking off today and we won’t have to worry about it on Monday.” Elise said as she opened another box and extracted a timid little themed onesie, dying internally at Ashley’s adorable face lighting up at the sight. Elise handed it over to Ashley to examine. She did have to hand it to Ashley, she had adorable tastes. The ruffles on the rear were to die for and the pink matched the blush on Ashley’s cheek. She started clearing the clothing rack with Gary which gave Ashley enough time to realise it was in her size and fantasize about it. Ashley snapped back to reality as Elise moved to start emptying more boxes. She hung the garment but Elise had noticed how long her eyes lingered on it as she went to work hanging everything else that was handed to her. Elise figured that Ashley, in all of her tomboyish charms, actually wanted to enjoy the more feminine side of life. The cutesy things, the pinks and pastels, internally she wanted to be a girly girl. It was probably some of her upbringing favoring the simplicity and ease of boy clothes but she probably missed out on the cute dresses and skirts. Her small stature and frame also probably voided a majority of those aspirations. Elise knew how cruel kids could be, being the opposite of Ashley but an outlier to the average, Elise had heard her fair share of ‘giraffe’ insults. Ashley probably avoided the girly girl items because it would only make her an easier target to the bullies of the world. Elise felt for her but she wanted Ashley to enjoy that side of herself. As Elise dug through the boxes she started imagining the outfit combinations she could put on Ashley. There was such a great variety and everything seemed perfect for Ashley. Even some of the black options would suit her in a gothic Lolita kind of way that had Elise day dreaming of Ashley in a full blown petticoat and maid uniform. She was lost in the though as she reached the bottom of the final box. “That’s it, you did great Ash. Thanks for all of your help!” Elise said enthusiastically to the girl who was waiting for the next item to examine and hang. ‘Praise kink, check.’ Elise thought as she saw Ashley go a little mushy at the words of encouragement. “Even with some time to spare.” Gary said as he looked at his watch and did some more stretches now that the task was complete. “I’m going to go wash up real quick.” Gary said before heading towards the bathroom. “It’s almost like a whole new store with all of this color.” Elise said as she took a moment to peruse the new inventory. She stopped at the clothes rack and pulled out the exact onesie Ashley had been eyeing. Unhooking it and holding it up. Ashley’s eyes were wide. Elise knew that Ashley was smitten with the onesie in her hands, she had even chosen the one that would fit Ashley, more so of an announcement that she agreed Ashley would look perfect in it. Elise perused the remainder of the racks, stopping to examine every article that had given Ashley pause. ‘She is helplessly adorable.’ Elise meandered back around to the first onesie again. “It’s all just so cute. I don’t think I have the body for it necessarily but it sure is adorable. What do you think about this?” Elise asked as she held up the first onesie again. “It’s… uh, um, it’s uh kinda cute… I guess.” She finally managed to formulate words. Elise loved the subtle teases that plucked at Ashley’s heart strings. Elise approached Ashley with all of the confidence in the world and held the hanger up to her Ashley’s neck, letting the onesie drape over her chest as if she was wearing it to get a visual. “Well isn’t that just precious.” She said with an almost devious smile that threatened to devour her. She knew she shouldn’t have, the girl was so worked up and so oblivious to the flirting that it was a bit too on the nose but she couldn’t help herself. “Oh crap.” Elise said as she saw Ashley’s eyes glaze then flutter and her body start to go limp. She easily caught Ashley and lowered her to the ground then moved to rehang the onesie before crouching next to Ashley and put her head in her lap. ‘Vasovagal syncope. She was too worked up and I flipped the breaker on her.’ Elise noted internally. If she hadn’t had her EMT training she would’ve been more worried but she knew it wasn’t a massive problem and that Ashley would wake up on her own momentarily but she was still internally panicking. “Guess we worked you a little too hard huh?” Elise said with a smile. Her own panic subsided and going into caregiver mode almost involuntarily. “Hello, earth to Ashley. You okay princess?” Elise said, trying to get Ashley out of her own head. “You passed out for a second there. Are you okay?” There was genuine worry on her face despite her best efforts to mask it. “Uh, um, yeah. It happens sometimes when I… when I overwork myself.” Ashley replied. ‘Or when you’re overstimulated and overexcited.’ Elise added in her head “Is it vasovagal syncope?” Elise asked, already knowing the symptoms. “Sudden drops in blood pressure leading to fainting spells.” She clarified for Ashley who looked confused. Elise only knew the medical terms because she had studied them, most only knew the symptoms though. “Uh yeah, I think that’s what the doctors called it. It happened more when I was younger though, it’s been awhile since I’ve fainted like that.” Ashley said. “I know an acquaintance with the same condition.” Elise said. An online friend from the ABDL forums she chatted with from time. “Let’s get you some water.” Elise easily maneuvered Ashley around and stood up before helping Ashley stand. Elise took note of Ashley’s wobbly legs almost immediately and crouched down a little to be on the same eye level as Ashley. “I’m going to pick you up okay? I don’t want to hurt your feelings, I know it can be a sore subject but I want to get you over to your chair so you can sit down.” She knew that someone of Ashley’s stature probably had some trauma about being picked up. Ashley gave a small nervous nod. Elise knew she was nervous, but she could see the worry melting away slowly. Elise lifted her with ease. She might’ve been 90 pounds at worst. A walk in the park considering her usual gym sessions target weights double that or more. Ashleys legs naturally wrapped themselves around her waist and Elise adjusted her grip to support her bottom while Ashley’s head naturally nestled into her and her arms wrapped around to hug her neck. Elise was just happy that Ashley couldn’t see her face. Her smile would’ve given her away immediately. She was so adorable! She moved the short distance to the small register station and sat her down in the chair. “Light as a feather.” She said with another disarming smile after just barely managing to mask her glee. Elise grabbed the large thermos cup from the desk and held it up, presenting the straw to Ashley to drink from. “Take a few sips please. Might just need to get some fluids in ya.” Elise said. She knew that Ashley going down like that would take a bit to regain her muscle control. “I can hold it myself.” Ashley tried to protest as she lifted her arms to accept the cup. Elise gave her a knowing look of ‘not right now you can’t, just accept the help’. She held the cup for the momentarily defeated Ashley as she drank. It was blissful, she seemed even smaller now in her weakened state and she was more agreeable to the aid being presented to her. Elise knew that Ashley probably spent a lot of time trying to prove she could it on her own and had developed a sort of independence necessity. “Take it slow, big gulps of cold water could shock your core and make you feel sick.” Elise explained as Ashley took a few more sips. She wouldn’t mind it but it’d probably break the girl if the sudden shock of cold water ended up on Elise or the floor. Gary then reappeared from the bathroom after washing up a bit. “Did I miss something?” He asked innocently. “Nothing much, Ashley just fainted. Probably just worked her too hard is all.” Elise explained the current state of affairs probably a bit too calmly for the situation because Gary’s response came fast and panicked. “Fainted!?” He moved fast, if Elise didn’t know any better she would assume that Gary had some caregiver energy in him and he was soon at Ashley’s side opposite of Elise. “Are you okay? Do we need to call an ambulance? The boss will have our necks if Ashley got hurt because we pushed her too hard.” Elise had moved her hand to Ashley’s neck prior to Gary’s minor breakdown. She was monitoring Ashley’s pulse to make sure everything was alright. Gary was exasperating the issue with his worry. “Calm down Gary, you’re projecting onto Ashley and scaring her. It’s okay, she’s fine. You seem to forget that I have EMT training too. She’s going to be just fine.” Elise said to calm both of them down. “Right! Sorry, I’ll let you handle this and go start to get the shop locked up.” Garry said as he left. Her pulse stabilized again. Then her own pulse shot through the roof when Ashley nuzzled her cheek and chin into the palm of her hand. All she was missing was cat ears and a purr as she seemed to melt into the touch. ‘Is she flirting with me!?’ Elise nearly exploded but kept her cool, noting that Ashley with a cat ears headband was a must. “Let’s get some sugar in you as well, might just have a bit of low blood sugar as well.” Elise said as a distraction from her own blush. ‘Pink cotton candy, that’s the most frequent wrapper I see in the trash can up here when I empty them.’ She took her hand back for a moment to unwrap it then brought it back to monitor her pulse while offering the lollipop up to Ashley’s lips. ‘This is to die for!’ Ashley leaned forward to accept the sucker and took it between her teeth so gently. Elise just wished she could offer up a bottle or pacifier like this too. “There ya go, good girl. You’re starting to get some color back in your face.” Elise commented, watching the blush return at the praise. ‘1000% has a praise kink.’ As Elise noted the goosebumps on Ashley’s arms. “Alright, you seem pretty stable now. I’m going to go take out this trash and get my stuff real quick. You stay right here for the time being and if you need anything just ask.” Elise said, which got a small nod of agreement from Ashley. She didn’t want to leave but knew it was approaching closing time and she should help Gary out. Elise noted the abandoned puppy look on Ashley’s face and almost went back but she couldn’t coddle her forever and always despite her wishes to do so. ‘Make it quick, you played with Ashley all afternoon setting up the new inventory. Just push a little longer and you can get back over to her. Gary and Elise had worked with each for long enough that words weren’t always necessary. They knew what the other could accomplish and Elise was moving as fast as she could which drove Gary to push a little bit harder than normal to match pace. Out of the corner of her eye she noticed Ashley standup. She wasn’t about to let her help with so little left to do and just coming off a fainting spell. “Do you need something?” Elise asked gently but directly before Ashley was even fully standing. “Um, I was just going to help you finish up.” Ashley said bashfully. “Nuh uh, you stay right there. If you’re going to have to drive home after work, you’re going to need your strength and I don’t want to have to worry about you making it home safely.” Elise said. “Besides it’s not enough work for two people, I’ll have it done in a jiffy.” Gary had supposedly finished up shutting down the warehouse because he came back and started carting out the garbage that Elise had already condensed. It didn’t take long to wrap up before Gary had grabbed his bag and was heading out the door while waving goodbye to Ashley and Elise. ‘Musclehead needs more gym time, must be strong like ape.’ “Feeling better?” Elise asked as she approached with her and Ashley’s bags that she had retrieved from the break room. “Yeah, much better. You sure know your stuff. The sucker really seems to have done the trick.” Ashley replied. “That’s good. Now let’s get out of here, it’ll still be here Monday.” Elise said as she handed Ashley her purse and guided her to the front door. Elise loved to gently guide Ashley along like that. ‘Say it! Just say it already. Ask her out! Get to know her some more. Maybe you can help her navigate the ABDL stuff that seems so foreign yet so alluring to her.’ Elise monologued internally. Elise was locking the door when she heard a soft smack“You okay?” “Um, yeah, I uh, just forgot my water bottle in there.” Ashley replied. A truthful lie but not the whole truth Elise recognized. “I gotta get home and feed the cat or he’ll tear up my furniture.” Elise said. “But you have shop keys too, just be sure to lock up and set the alarm from your phone.” Elise lied. She wasn’t in any rush to get home. She just need some privacy in the shop to do a little shopping herself. With all of the new inventory she was dying to pick out a few things for her nursery, not that she needed much really. She was also curious to see what Ashley was really up to. “Right, sounds good. I’ll see you Monday?” Ashley said while fidgeting nervously. ‘She’s going to go shopping too through all of the new inventory. Now I’m dying to know what she’ll get. No, you shouldn’t snoop. You already know what she’s interested in anyways.’ Elise thought. “You will indeed. Enjoy your weekend.” Elise said before walking away towards her SUV with a wave over her shoulder. She decided her shopping spree could wait till Monday or tomorrow if she was feeling antsy.

Hi, I’m Oli! I’m 39, live in Essex (UK), and I’m little at heart most of the time. Being little isn’t just roleplay for me..it’s how I feel safe, happy, and free. It helps me manage the ups and downs of adult life, my mild cerebral palsy, and the challenges that came with adoption and growing up in care. When I’m in little space, I’m soft, playful, giggly, and full of wonder. I thrive on cuddles, structure, and knowing someone loving is there to keep me safe. My dream is to share my life with a nurturing Mummy who genuinely enjoys caregiving and wants to build a cozy, happy, and lasting bond. --- ✨ My Little Side Nappies are a must..they bring me comfort, security, and grounding. I’m not full-time yet, but I’d love gentle encouragement toward being fully dependent. I love routine and structure: cuddles, playtime, bottles, bath, stories, and bedtime snuggles. I get excited about dinosaurs, Marvel, space, Disney, make-believe adventures, and cartoons. Coloring, plushies, giggles, bounces, and simple happy moments make me feel at peace. --- ✨ Big Me Even though I’m little most of the time, I’m also a responsible grown-up when needed: I work in IT and balance my career with my little side. I’m a geek at heart: gaming (Final Fantasy, Baldur’s Gate 3, Spider-Man, Kingdom Hearts, Persona 5, Uncharted, Witcher, etc.), sci-fi, fantasy, and superheroes. I’ve been lucky to travel to magical places like Disney World, the Maldives, Thailand, and the Caribbean. Music is my escape: from indie and rock to metal and emo classics. I enjoy keeping active and hitting the gym when I can. --- ✨ What I’m Looking For I’m seeking a warm, genuine Mummy who: Loves nurturing, caregiving, and helping me stay little. Can offer structure, stability, and cuddly guidance. Is excited about creating rituals and routines (bath time, bottles, storytime, bedtime). Eventually shares my dream of a nursery and a full time lifestyle, though I know that’s a big step and takes time, compromise, and love to build together. --- ✨ What I Offer Loyal, affectionate, and emotionally supportive. Playful, imaginative, and eager to make you smile. Responsible, tidy, and reliable when I need to be big. A partner who’s ready to pour love, care, and joy into the right relationship. --- If you’re a nurturing, patient Mummy who’s serious about building a deep bond, I’d love to hear from you. Let’s take our time, get to know each other, and hopefully build the soft, secure, and love-filled life we both dream of. https://www.tumblr.com/dippersaurus https://fetlife.com/users/11814312 https://t.me/DailyCrinkles

“Daylily” will focus on regression and babying, and will have little to no actual sexual content. This series features the same main character as my earlier story, “Delilah.” It will also be publicly available on my patreon. All characters are adults. This is still fetish content, so 18+ readers only please. Delilah’s Daddy unsnapped the straps of her booster seat and helped her out of the car. She put her arms around his neck and allowed herself to be lifted out and set on her feet. Her pink and white sneakers crunched on gravel as she touched the ground. He kissed her cheek and handed her sea-turtle plushie, which she clutched to her chest. Turning away, he went to fish her backpack out of the back seat. Delilah smoothed the skirt of her onesie against her slim thighs and fiddled with her pacifier clip. Daddy had let her pick out a new onesie for the occasion, and she’d chosen sky blue with a pattern of yellow flowers. They had both had fun getting her ready; her hair was up in pigtails, and Daddy had selected blue and yellow hair ties to match her onesie. She had loved how she looked when they left the house that morning, but now she felt anxious and self conscious. Being babied in public was new to Delilah. She knew that this secluded house, shielded from the road by a thick row of evergreens, was hardly “public.” Still, she felt exposed, standing in a stranger’s driveway dressed like a little girl. They were parked in front of a board fence that separated the driveway from the yard. “Daylily” was painted in cheerful yellow letters on the sign that hung from the gatepost. She stood on tiptoe to see over the fence. Fruit trees obscured the house, but the yellow siding was visible through the branches. Dandelion yellow. Daylily yellow? She wasn’t sure. Delilah did not know much about flowers. She heard Daddy behind her. “Here, let’s get your backpack on, sweetie.” Delilah let her Daddy slide the straps of her jellyfish backpack up her arms. The main compartment in the bell of the jellyfish held her snacks and an emergency change of clothes, as well as the gameboy and three bags of candy she’d shoved inside when Daddy wasn’t paying attention. Plush tentacles hung down her back and swung as she moved, brushing her bum. He took her hand and smiled at her. “Ready baby?” Delilah nodded. Her small hand trembled in his steady one. The gate creaked as Daddy opened it and lead her through. She held her sea-turtle firmly by one flipper, swinging him against her leg as she walked. A path of stepping stones led them through the fruit trees and towards the house. The leaves whispered in the breeze as they passed under them and Delilah could hear insects buzzing. Outdoor toys were sitting in the shade of the trees; a playhouse, a blue plastic rocking horse, a toddler slide. Swings hung from the largest branches. As they stepped out from under the trees, the house came into full view. Delilah stopped. It was large and sprawling, and spilled over the slight hill that it sat on like a riot of yellow daylilies, daffodils, dandelions. Behind the house, Delilah could see the tops of playground equipment and something shining - was that water? Her heart was beating fast. What would they be like? How was she going to handle being little without Daddy there? Daddy let go of her hand and rubbed the small of her back, making the tentacles of her backpack sway. “Are you still nervous, sweetie?” “Little bit.” Delilah laughed uneasily and sucked in air through her teeth. She turned around to hug him, wanting to hide against him. Which wasn’t easy - she was four inches taller than he was. “You’re gonna have so much fun, sweetie.” He squeezed her gently, rubbing her hips. Her diaper rustled under his palm. “And you’ll have lots to tell me about tonight.” “But I’ll miss you." “I’ll miss you too, sweetheart.” Daddy scooped her up, holding her against his hip. Although Delilah was tall, her build was tiny and birdlike. Her Daddy, short and heavy-set, could lift her easily. “But it’s just for the day.” “I know.” She put her arms around his shoulders, her sea-turtle flopping against his back. His beard tickled her cheek and her diaper squished under his hand as he supported her butt. Delilah blushed. She hadn’t realized she was wet already. He carried her the rest of the way to the house. Flowerbeds flanked the front door, and lilies and peonies looked up at her as Daddy climbed the steps. She reached out and trailed a hand along the railing. It was warm under her fingers. It was going to be hot today. She could already smell it. They had reached the top of the steps. Daddy kissed her and tickled her tummy, and she giggled and smiled despite her nervousness. He picked up her pacifier from where it was hanging against her ribs and placed it in her mouth. “Do you want to ring the doorbell, baby?” Delilah nodded, suckling her pacifier to help calm herself. The doorbell was shaped like a sunflower, the button was the black seed head. She took a deep breath, and rang.

Hey everyone, I'm a hobby writer and would love to get some feedback regarding my current story (incomplete). I'm aware that there will be an excess of spelling mistakes and errors as I often write on my phone and transfer it into my working document as I go. Cheers LOVE PLUSH.pdf

Hi everyone! I just wanted to share a link to the Littlespace Online community. While it is targeted more for Caregiver/little dynamics, littles, and middles (an ageplay mindset older than diaper-age typically--but not always!) we would be more than pleased to see more AB/DL running around the site having fun. We have some nifty things like free adult coloring pages, raffles, giveaways, a personals ads area, a live chat room, how-to guides, informative resources, an online store, and more. We've been around for about a year now and have over 5,500 members so we're pretty active! It's a great adult community of friendly people so if you're looking to branch out a little please do check out the site. We're also open to promoting podcasts and things related to ABDL and ageplay so we might be a great resource there too! http://www.littlespaceonline.com/ I hope to see you around soon!