Tisha

Chapter 22 Tish was shivering. She looked up ahead to see how many people were in line. At least 20 before she would enter the door but the line did seem to be moving at a steady pace. Even though she was freezing, she was thankful to be wearing her long coat to cover her diaper. It occured to her how silly this was since everyone in line was diapered like her but she didn't care. She hated this. Everyone in line seemed younger than her. That made sense to her as well given she missed the cutoff by only a few days. Some people were chatting, some were on their phones. She wondered how routine this was for many of them. She kept her head down and didn't want to talk to or see anyone. She hadn't slept. She spent most of the night crying and waiting for Jenn to reply to her frantic texts. A reply never came. She was unsure if she had ruined her friendship and if she would be spending every day in this line soon. She texted one more time: Jenn, I just wanted to say I'm sorry again. Can we just forget what happened and go back to the way it was? I don't want to lose you. Finally a reply was coming. Tish saw the 3 dots bumping up and down indicating Jenn was typing. The dots finally stopped. Tish hated when that happened, like Jenn was doing a bunch of editing before hitting send. The text finally came through: "No, we can't forget it." "That's IT?!", Tish said out loud and drew a stare from a few people around her. All that typing for a few words. Tish didn't know whether to be scared or relieved or what. She felt worse. The line started moving again and it appeared they were finally letting more people in. Tish took the opportunity to send one more text to keep the lines of communication flowing. "I know your busy but please lets talk when you can. I'm in line about to go in and I'm nervous." "You'll be ok. I gotta go. Bye." Tish was deflated. Not the response she was hoping for. Did Jenn really have to go? She seemed so short and dispassionate. It was hard to focus on her crisis with Jenn when she was about to walk in and have some stranger change her. She had already peed twice this morning but she had been holding her #2 for the last 30 minutes. She had planned on doing that right before her change and that time had come. It was kind of a gamble, she wasn't sure her body would even let herself do that in front of all these people and she needed to do it quickly or she might lose her spot in line. She hadn't thought about all this and now she was having stage fright. She knew it was now or never. She finally made it to the door and was anxious to see if this is where the line ended or if there was a lot more people inside. From what she saw it was just a few people between her and the attendant checking people in. It was finally her turn and she gave her name to the uniformed attendend when asked. "#1 or #2 or both?", the worker asked her. "What?" "Tish, c'mon we need to keep this line moving. Is your diaper wet or have you messed it as well?" "Ummm, both.", she said embarassingly. The woman recorded the answer on the tablet and then gave Tish a strange look and then glanced back at her tablet. "Ok Tish, I need you to wait here for a moment." "Is something wrong?" "No, I just need to get my supervisor as I don't know how to handle your situation." "My situation? I'm just here for a change like everyone else." "One moment miss." "But..." "I said one moment.", the woman cut Tish off as her finger went up into Tish's face, shushing her. Tish waited impatiently in silence, her frustration growing at this already not going smoothly. Another woman walked over, holding a radio which apparently indicated some higher level authority and approached Tish and pulled her out of the line and to the side. She didn't want to be pulled out of line. "Hi Tish, I just wanted to confirm that you are wearing a QC device." "Hah, you mean am I being held prisoner with my diaper locked on to me? Then yes." "I don't appreciate the sarcasm." "Sorry", Tish replied calmly. "Yes, I have to wear the QC device for a few more days. Is that a problem?" "No but we just don't get many people wearing a QC device in here and we have to follow our protocols. Also it looks like your assigned CTF agent Smith has you and your sponsor's account flagged here due to you not complying with the program." Tish's face turned red with more embarassment having this explained to her again. "Tish honey, this will all go easier for everyone, especially you if you cooperate with the program." "I know, I know. It was a one time mistake and we are on track now as I think my file will show.", Tish said confidently. She wanted to get this over with as she could feel a rumbling in her stomach. "That may be but we still have to follow protocol. We've notified agent Smith that you are here and he wants to check in with you before your change. He is finishing up a call and will be back shortly. For now we'll have you sit over here on the wait bench until he gets here. It shouldn't be long." "What!? I have to get to school!" "I'm sorry Tish. We can give you a doctor's note for that. Now have a seat here.", the woman put her hand on Tish's back and gently guided her to a seated position. This wasn't an option. Tish sat down on the hard bench and leaned back against the wall. She was the only one sitting there and looked over across the room at the rest of the people moving through the line she was just ejected from. She had forgotten all about Jenn for a few minutes dealing with this situation. She was startled when the supervisor woman came back over so quickly. She got up, expecting to go see agent Smith. "Oops, sit back down please. You'll need to wait here until Agent Smith arrived.", Tish plopped back down after hearing this. The woman then produced a pair of the padded mittens similar to the ones Jenn had used on her. Or she had used on herself. She instictively recoiled and the worker explained this was part of the protocol and to not be scared. Tish sheepishly held her hands out knowing there was no use arguing or fighting this. The thick padded mittens were slipped onto her hands and the woman secured the locking mechanism tightly around her thin wrists. Tish was trapped, but hopefully she wouldnt' be wearing these for very long. She knew if Jenn was was here she would tell her to just go with the flow. Before Tish knew what was happening, the woman then guided each of Tish's encased hands to her sides and clipped the mittens to little rings in the bench that seperated each seat. "Wait, is this really necessary? It's not like I'm going to escape. I really want my diaper changed ya know.", Tish joked. "Sorry dear, I'm just following orders. All flagged accounts get the same thing. You aren't special. This just ensures everyone's safety. Just wait her patiently and I'm sure agent Smith will be here soon." The woman walked away without listening to Tish's response. Tish pulled at her restrained hands and they only had an inch of movement. She was sitting on a hard bench with her back flat against the a brick wall, her feet flat on the floor and while resulting in good posture, it wasn't comfortable. Her hands rested alongside her legs, locked down at the edge of the bench. She tested her movement and wasn't easily able to stand up. She could only raise her butt off the bench a few inches. She wasn't going anywhere. Now that she didn't have her hands, she noticed how she needed to cosntantly touch and scratch her face or move her hair. She tried to blow her hair using her breath and shake her head until it was finally out of her face. She looked at the clock and it was already 7:30. She might be able to make it to class if Agent Smith arrived soon and she could get changed. The minutes ticked by. She sat at the edge of a large room and was probably 20 feet from another human. That was fine with her but watching the people that were behind her in line already bypass her and leave only upset her further. She felt so alone sitting there, waiting like a prisoner for someone to release her from her diaper. Her thoughts constantly waivered from Jenn to her upcoming change. She still had to confront both situations and there was no getting away from either. She didn't think she would ever make it through the next few days. But her attention quickly turned to an overwhelming sudden urge to finally poop. She had forgotten about that briefly while they gave her the runaround. She knew holding it that long wouldn't be a good idea when it finally happened, but she preferred that over going earlier and waiting in line with a messy smelly full diaper. She hunched over a bit and wiggled around on the bench in order to get comfortable. She looked up, wondering if someone was looking at her. No one noticed her there, suffering. The build up didn't take long before she felt it come. It was a strong urge and she didn't have to push much before it came rushing out of her and into the diaper. The mush wasn't firm and it spread quickly between her legs so she leaned foward and raised her butt off the bench to make room for the mess before it became worse. She quickly attempted to contain the majority of it in the back of her diaper. She didn't want anyone seeing nakedness covered in her own mess. She let out a moan as a couple more waves passed through her bowels and into her diaper. Her legs were shaking now, having become weak from trying to do this "half stand" routine. Sort of like holding a squat at the gym. She was going to give out and have to sit down. She eased herself down, and could feel her disgusting mess spread a little throughout her diaper. There was nothing she could do now to prevent that. She sat up straight, releaving the cramping in her gut from being bent over. She took a deep breaths to help the pain pass and looked at the clock on the wall. She had been waiting now for 20 minutes. There would be no way she could make her class now but that was the least of her concerns. With every movement of her body, she felt the slippery goo shift inside her diaper, moving across her skin. Her heart rate was up and she was breathing heavy. She wasn't sure what her emotions were. She thought it odd that she didn't feel like crying after this. Perhaps she had cried herself out last night thinking about Jenn. What it was, was anger. She had had enough for this morning. This wasn't right. She was playing by the rules now and this wasn't supposed to be the result. "Hey! I need help! HEY!", she called across the room into someone came over to her. "When is agent Smith getting her. I need changed... NOW.", "Tish, please watch your tone with me young lady. I have a long day and don't need selfesh brats like you to deal with. Grow up and realize you are helping humanity. We are in this together.", the lady said the wrong phrase to Tish and she exploded. "Oh F OFF with that. I'd like to see you here in a messy diaper, locked down and waiting for some stranger to change you and look at your privates. GET ME OUT OF HERE NOW, LET ME GO DAMNIT". The lady crossed her arms and stood there looking at Tish, waiting for the temper trantrum to stop. Several people were looking her way as well. "Are we done? This is your last warning." "I'm not a child. I'm an adult. You can't do this to me." "I guess we're not done.", the woman said. She then walked away and came back quickly carrying something. She held it up to Tish's face. It was the pacifier looking that she had seen in the QC kit that Jenn had. The memory of the taste of that thing immediately came back and she didn't want to experince that again. "No!", Tish yelled. "It's this or you can forget about a diaper change any time soon. I can leave you here all day. It will save us on diapers." Tish was furious, she thrust upwards in anger only to be yanked harshly back down by the tight mittens chained at her sides. In that moment she just wanted Jenn. She wanted Jenn to come save her and make everything ok. Jenn would tell her to stop acting like this. She didn't know if she would ever have that feeling with Jenn again after yesterday. "Well I guess we made the correct choice in restraining you. Now just calm down Tish and open wide for me.", The woman said as the device approached her face like would be done with a toddler. "I'm sorry. I'll be good. I don't need that. I'll be quiet." "It's too late for that. Open up. This is your last warning." Tish relented for now and let the woman push the large bulb between her teeth, opening her mouth a little wider to accommodate the size of it. The taste hit her tounge and it was that same rubbery mediciny sensation. She didn't know what all these theatrics were for, she was just going to spit the pacifier thing out as soon as the woman walked away. It was gross and humilating. The CTF worker shoved the pacifier into her mouth forcefully pressing the plastic shield covering her whole mouth and held it there firmly for about 5 or 6 seconds before letting go. "Now be a good girl until Agent Smith gets here.", the woman said before walking away. Tish quickly pressed on the rubbery bulb with her tounge to spit it out but nothing happened. She couldn't get it out. She felt the pacifier pull at her face and lips and she frantically tried to rid her mouth of it. Somehow it was stuck or glued on to her face! "MMMmmmmMM MmmmmMMM!!!!" She tried to scream through what she now knew was a gag to keep her quiet. It worked. It muffled her effectively enough that she couldn't be heard from across the room. She struggled for a few minutes more, until finally giving and up sitting back. She didn't even want to think about what her diaper looked like inside. With the commotion and shifting around, she knew she was covered everywhere down there. She just wanted out of this situation at this point and wanted to be clean. She could faintly smell herself now as the diaper coudln't contain the foul scent any longer. Her anger had faded, now replaced by sadness and lonliness. The tickle of a tear rolled down her cheek and she couldn't even wipe her eyes. She sat there in silence for about another 15 minutes, concentrating on breathing with this thing in her mouth when she heard her name spoken. "Tish Tish Tish, what are we going to do with you?", she heard a strong male voice say. Tish looked up from her seated position, desperate for relief from this situation and she saw CTF Agent Smith staring down at her from above with a look of dissapointment.

Chapter 21 "Hey", Jenn said through the window of her car as she walked out to get in. "Hey. So what is this talk we need to have. I've been worried all night about it." "Good to see you too!", Jenn retorted. "I'm sorry Jenn. I'm so tired. My diaper is disgusting. And I just want to go home and crawl into bed." "You mean my bed?", Jenn asked her. Tish turned 10 shades of red. Why did she say it like that? What did that mean? Was this what this talk was about? Questions buzzed through her head. "Umm uhh I don't understand.", she says worriedly. "TISH! I'm teasing you. Geez." Tish hadn't taken a breath in about 15 seconds. Her heart was racing. Why did she feel so self conscious right now. All she could do was look at Jenn. She wanted to cry. She didn't know what to say or do or think. "Can we go home?", Tish pleaded. "Yep. We can talk on the way!" "You said it wasn't bad. Somehow I don't believe you." "Well I just didn't want to alarm you or make you worry but I have to go out of town for a couple days for work." "Alright, and?" "And I leave Wednesday evening." "That soon?" "Mmmhmm". Tish's only thought was that she missed Jenn already. She had grown very close and even thinking about a night apart after what they had been through lately felt weird. "I'm gonna miss you, you know.", Tish told her but with a tone that questioned what else was coming. "Well you have to wear the QC shorts until Saturday right?", Jenn said this in a way where it finally dawned on Tish what she was missing. "Who is.. I mean, what are you saying Jenn?" It finally dawned on her. "Please don't make me go there. Please Jenn. Just let me change myself. No one even needs to know you are gone. It's only a couple days. I'll be good. I'll be good for you. I Proooomise. Please Jenn. PLEASE!", Tish was frantic and had already started to bargain and Jenn cut her off. "TISH!, I'm sorry but they already know." "WHY! Why did you tell them? Oh my god I can't believe you are making me do this." "Tish! Stop it please. I already feel terrible about it. I even called Emma, the woman we met with before and I asked, BEGGED practically for you to be able to change yourself. But, as soon as she looked up your file, off when the red flags. She saw you were already in trouble from Agent Smith's notes. She said there is just no way it would be allowed for you to change yourself. You'll have to report to the CTF." Tish was silent. She didn't know what to think. How could Jenn do this to her. "Tish, how about this. I'll leave as late as I can Wednesday so I can change you. That way you just have to go down there once Thursday morning. I'll be back Thursday evening for your evening diaper. Ok sweetie? Tish was mad., "Oh don't sweetie me. I can't believe you are making me do this." "Tish, c'mon. That isn't fair." "Call off your trip. Tell them you are sick. Don't let some stranger change me Jenn!" "You know I can't do that. Tish, if I didn't tell CTF about my trip and they found out, they would take you away from me for ever. You know that right?" "Tish? You know that right?" "I guess." "I can't help it Tish. I wish I could but it is just something you will have to do. It's just one time. Think of it like going to doctor. In and out. Besides they are so busy down there they will have you changed before you know it and you'll be out of there. It's an assembly line of diaper changes." "Uh huh" "Tish I'm so sorry." "It's fine." It wasn't fine though. Tish was furious. Her anger was directed at Jenn but she knew this was her fault. If she just would have played by the rules she probably could have avoided this. They pulled up to their home and got out. They went inside and neither spoke while getting ready for bed. Walking up the front steps to the door, Tish could already feel the wet diaper that clung to her, rubbing against the inside of her legs again. She sort of waddled into the house and didn't want Jenn to look at her. There was silence between them for awhile. Jenn took care of tidying up a few things and knew Tish needed some time to absorb this. "Tish", she yelled from the bedroom. Tish appeared, "Let's get your diaper changed." Tish laid down on the bed and let Jenn go to work on her. She turned her head to the side and stared at the wall as Jenn fumbled with her pants, her QC shorts and diaper. It was a process to get everything off. She laid there like a lump, purposely making Jenn work harder that she should. She felt the cool air of their home between her legs and she felt a chill go through her body. Jenn would normally use a warm a cloth to wipe her down but she was moving at a faster pace and just took out one of the wipes from their supplies and started cleaning. Tish felt Jenn's fingers on her and she normally enjoyed this attention but she hadn't calmed down yet. She just wanted this over with so she could pout. Jenn wiped her clean, cleaned her bottom and between her butt cheeks as usual in preparation for another 10 hours in her nighttime diaper. She spread Tish's legs and noticed the red areas from the diaper today. "Oh Tish, not again. Let me grab some lotion." Tish remained still as she felt Jenn rub the lotion into her thighs and into her crotch area. Jenn also focused on where the leg gatherings of the diaper met around her legs and behind. Depending on how the diaper got taped on, sometimes it could pinch or cut in to her skin. She always tried to apply the diaper the same way each time but things could shift around during the day. She gave Tish her customary pars on her diaper area, checked all of her work to make sure the diaper was fitted properly, and then refastened the locking shorts as directed. She let Tish lay there while she started getting ready for bed herself. Tish felt much better being cleaned up but it did little to help her mood. She just couldn't get over this news. It wasn't like her to go to bed angry or leave things unresolved either. She knew they needed to have a talk and she needed to apologize. She also felt uncomfortable just going into Jenn's bedroom after that comment from earlier. She got a bottle of water from the fridge and took just a few sips. Jenn came out of her room. She had put on some cute jammies that looked comfortable and came and sat down next to Tish on the couch and held her hand. "Are we ok?" Tish was relieved that Jenn spoke first. Breaking the ice. All Tish could do was just lean over and grab Jenn and hug her tightly. She put her head into Jenn's shoulder and cried. Almost uncontrollably. "Tish, what is so wrong. Is this all about me going out of town or is there something else?" She pulled back and wiped some tears from her face and sniffled. "Talk to me." "Jenn, first I want to say I'm really sorry about blowing up earlier. None of this is your fault. I know that. And I know I'm the one to blame for having to wear this thing.", she tugged at the thick padded waistband of the shorts that trapping the diaper beneath. "I feel so out of control and my whole day, my whole schedule, my whole life is now centered around my diaper, my eating habits, and you." "Me? What's wrong with me?", Jenn teased her. "Nothing. You are amazing Jenn. I just got so mad when you said you had to leave. I don't want you to leave." "Aww sweetie, I'm only going to be gone for one day. I'm going to miss you to you know. I feel like you are my responsibility. I don't trust anyone else to take care of you like I would.", she grabbed Tish's hand and held it. Tish smiled. "I'm just really mad at myself too. Why can't I just go along with this like everyone else. I feel so trapped and violated and confused about everything." "What are you confused about Tish?" "I don't know.", Tish didn't really have that answer ready to say outloud. "I.. well you.. your comment earlier about me sleeping in your room. It really bothered me. Do you not want me to? I don't have to if its weird. Just tell me." "Tish! I 100% honest to god was kidding. I didn't mean anything by it. Please believe me. The last couple of nights you haven't even snored... that much." Tish smiled but wasn't sure. Typically there is always something behind a comment like that but she gave Jenn the benefit of doubt. "I think you are getting used to being diapered at night. It will get better over time." "I hope so Jenn. I hope so.", she tried to be positive but that 'over time' comment just made her feel like this would never end. "You've had a long day. Tomorrow isn't your early day right? Well here's what I'm gonna do. I'm going to try and go in a little late and give us more time in the morning. How about that?" "Really, you won't get in trouble?" "Nope. We'll have time to change you and make breakfast and just not be so rushed. So let's go to bed and look forward to that." Tish nodded and Jenn took her thumb and brushed a wet spot from Tish's face where another tear had slid down her cheek. "My poor girl." Jenn took her by the hand and led her into the bedroom. She got Tish's extra pillow for between her legs and got Tish situated. She was always doing little things like that to make the day easier. Jenn was so thoughtful and caring as a person in general. Tish figured that is why she got into nursing and knew all her patients must be lucky to have such a person in their lives. It made her wonder at times if this was just how Jenn treated everyone she cared for or if there was a deeper connection between them. They had become great friends over the years and really supported each other. Tish didn't have many close friends in her life and had come to consider Jenn someone she loved as a friend and just allaround wonderful person. She hoped Jenn felt the same way but didn't want to sound sappy and weird by bringing it up. Tish needed close connections in her life and was so thankful for Jenn's friendship, but she also knew this situation was forced onto them so she didn't want to mistake it for more than it was. Tish found it hard to express her feelings in general and was typically a reserved person. Maybe that was why it was so hard for her to accept and deal with this new world she found herself in. If she opened up with people and talked about things more freely, perhaps her life and relationships would be different. --- As usual, Tish had fallen asleep first. She had already flipped over and found her way next to Jenn's warmth. Jenn smirked at noticing Tish's predictable patterns. She was a creature of habit, but it actually made it easier to deal with what they faced. Jenn tried to adjust herself to find a comfortable position to fall asleep in. She finally did but with Tish snuggling closer. She closed her eyes while listening to Tish's peaceful deep breathing. She wished she could sleep like that. Jenn's alarm went off early and she got out of bed, leaving Tish comfortably sleeping. She rolled to where Jenn had just gotten up from to feel the warmth of the bed from where her body had been. Jenn finished with her morning bathroom routine and came out to wake Tish up. She ripped the covers back. "Get up sleepy head." "I'm up, I'm up.", Tish said groggily. "Come on, let's make breakfast." The girls made breakfast together and enjoyed their early morning coffee. They usually didn't have this much time together and it was nice. Their schedules were usually so rushed in general and now with the diaper routine it was even harder to find time like this. Near the end of breakfast it was obvious that Tish needed to go to the bathroom and Jenn could see her fidgeting in her seat. "You know you can just go in front of me right?" "Jenn." "I'm serious, just forget about it and let go." "I can't. It's just too gross. Would you mind if I just went in the bathroom and did this and then you can change me?" Tish hated this part. She was about to poop in her diaper and it ruined everything. She wanted to continue this nice time with Jenn over coffee and enjoy her company. She felt infantile for having to talk about this and ask for a diaper change and have Jenn clean her disgusting mess up. "No sweetie, whatever you are comfortable with. Just know that I don't care either way. I mean, I'm gonna see it regardless.", Jenn smiled and teased but it didn't make Tish feel any better. Tish jolted quickly to the bathroom and Jenn gave her her space. Tish was in there for about 10 minutes doing her thing before Jenn finally heard her call out. "I'm ready." Jenn smiled at hearing this and went to perform her job. It wasn't something she was thrilled to do but she did like taking care of Tish. She had trained and prepared for this job for months leading up to the start of world full of diapered people to take care of but that didn't really prepare her for the shock of a real dirty diaper in front of her. It would definitely take some getting used to but she knew she could handle it. Besides, she always kept telling herself that this was harder on Tish. The other thing she had to get used to was the intamacy of the whole thing. She had known Tish for years and had grown close to her. Jenn had come to really admire and appreciate Tish and thought of her as a true friend who she would do anything for. Someone that should would be close to her entire life. She hoped Tish felt the same way. But now there was a brand new level of connection between them. Not just an emotional one due to all of this, but a physical one as well. She had to get used to seeing her best friend messy, seeing her naked, cleaning and touching her in the most intamate and intrusive ways. She relied on her nursing skills to help her but this was different. Each time she changed Tish, she tried to balance the care and touch she gave her against the intamacy and awkwardness of the situation. They never really speak about that part of it and it was just something that had to be done. She always wanted to respect their friendship and respect Tish's body but changing her required the most intamate acts a person could do to someone. Each time she had to clean Tish down there she wondered what was going through her mind. She wondered how she would feel being touched like that? Did Tish like it? Like the attention? Or did she dread being touched and probed and prodded? Would she if she was in that position? Jenn mainly just wanted to make sure Tish was comfortable and protected. She also knew there was a bit of a power imbalance in the situation too that complicated things. She was required to physcially lock her friend up in her own portable diaper prison, waiting to be changed only by her. She tried hard not to be overbearing. All of these thoughts constantly swarmed through her head all the time. Jenn sighed and told herself this would get easier for her too as time went on. She tried to clear her head before heading in to see what surprise awaited her inside Tish's diaper this morning. --- Jenn had been so sweet and caring this morning that Tish didn't want them to leave the house. She was sitting in her last class of the day anxious to get home and spend whatever remaining time she could with Jenn before she had to leave. She was just thankful she didn't have to work tonight. It made her sad to think about but told herself it was only one day. She'd go get her diaper changed tomorrow morning at the CTF office. She knew Jenn was probably right in that it wouldn't be a big deal, in and out. Treat it like a Dr. Appointment. These people see 100s of people's private parts in a dirty messy state every day so what was one more person. If Jenn could deal with it from her side, and from being a nurse then Tish could be embarassed for a few minutes. She told herself she would get through it. "Power through Tish, power through." When class had finished, she stopped off to get a coffee for her ride home on the train. She knew she would get changed soon so why not get a coffee and enjoy herself. She still had several stops before she arrived home and had been holding her pee since she boarded. But with her extra intake of coffee and the train jostling her around, it had gotten to the point of hurting and burning and she needed to let go. She sort of froze and put her hand on her knee, straining and coaxing the stream of pee to get started. She felt it hit her diaper and the warmth spread between her legs fast. She exhaled and felt relief as the flood spread throughout the diaper and her bladder started feeling better. When she looked up a man about her age that was sitting across from her was staring at her. It had been obvious what she was doing. Tish wanted to die right then and there. The man sort of gave her a smile and then looked back at his phone. Tish wanted to run away and her face had turned bright red from embarassment. When the train finally got to her stop, the man was still sitting there so she got up and exited the train as fast as she could hoping to never see him again. After she collected herself she found her bearings and started walking the short distance home. Little bits of pee trickled into her thick diaper as she walked and it felt strange to be able to walk and pee at the same time. She just wanted to get inside and see Jenn and feel comfort and safety and forget the day. "Hey I'm home!", Tish yelled out. "I'm in here packing. How are you? How is your diaper?" "Jenn! Stop. I'm fine." "I'm never going to stop asking you Tish. Eventually I will make you comfortable with talking about it." "Nope, never.", Tish said back. "Looks like you are almost packed." "Yeah, I wanted to get done so we could hang out. I have to leave in 2 hours." "That soon?", she whined. "Tish, you know I have to leave. Don't make this harder than it needs to be. I'm only going to be gone a day. By this time tomorrow I'll be on my way home." "Promise?" "Yes I promise.", Jenn gave her hugged and patted her padded behind. "Do you want me to change you now?" "Well I just had a coffee.", she said embarassed again. "Well then let that diaper soak up your latest coffee and then I'll change you." "Umm thanks. Jenn, I'm still nervous about tomorrow morning but I'm going to be brave." "You'll be fine. Remember. In and out, no big deal." "Got it." Jenn smiled. They sat for a bit and talked and Jenn looked at her watch, checking the time so she didn't miss her flight. "Tish, time to get you changed.", this time with more authority. "Just a bit longer." "No, now. Besides I know you peed again so no more games." "You noticed?" "I know all! Now no more stalling. You are trying to keep me here and just making me feel bad too." "I'm sorry, that isn't my intention." Tish got up and Jenn took her hand. Come on lets get that thing off of you. It must be soaked and uncomfortable by now. She laid Tish on the bed. This was old habit at this point. Tish had gotten used to Jenn not only taking her diaper off but also undressing her. Removing any shorts of pants she was wearing to get to the diaper underneath. Jenn didn't mind and Tish just liked Jenn to do everything associated with the diaper change. Jenn grabbed the pants she was wearing an unzipped them and worked them down her legs, exposing her diaper area. Tish threw her hands behind her head, exposing her flast stomach. She looked away as Jenn worked on her. Tish unlocked the QC device that held the diaper tightly in place and Tish let out a sigh of relief. After having that on all day she forgot how good it felt to be free from it. They could both smell the diaper now. There was no mistaking the smell of pee. Tish instinctively spread her legs a bit so Jenn could undo her diaper. The tapes came apart with their familair sound and Jenn pulled the diaper down and pulled it from underneath Tish's behind as she lifted up to assist. A look of peace washed over Tish's face as Jenn brought the warm cloth to Tish's diaper area. "You like this don't you.", Jenn asked suddenly. Tish's heart rate tripled. "Uhh what do you mean.", is all she could think to say. "You like the attention, me taking care of you. I can tell." "Jenn I'm so sorry, please forgive me. It's just that I get so down and lonely and..." "Shhh, you don't have to explain. Just talk to me ok? You don't have to hide things." "I mean, I'm not hiding. I just... it is so weird.", Tish mumbled and she felt Jenn's fingers slide through her skin, pressing on her sensitive spots to clean her. "You can enjoy getting taking care of. I can understand how you must feel alone and trapped and sealed off from the world. But you aren't alone you know. I'm here and taking care of you.", she continued telling Tish these things as she wiped her butt as well just in case. Tish lifted again to give her friend access to all her spots. Jenn pushed her back down, indicating that area was now taken care of. "Your rash is almost gone. Very good.", Jenn said as if she was proud of herself. She got the lotion she has been using from behind her and squirted into her hand. Tish knew the cold was coming and as Jenn touched her again she jumped. Every time was the same even though she knew what was coming. Jenn massaged the lotion into her, at the edges of her legs, into her crotch and thighs. Tish was breathing heavily now and realized silence overtaken them again. She tried to think of something to say. "That feels nice, thank you Jenn.", god she thought that sounded so stupid when she heard it come out of her mouth and she blushed and turned away. She felt ashamed to enjoy this, guilty. Her brain was not working, Jenn's tender touch had her flustered and her heart was pounding, her breathing intense. She felt closer to Jenn that she ever had. She already missed her and knew in a few minutes she would be locked back up and waching Jenn walk out the door an away from her. She couldn't think. "Tish, look at me." She did and she felt so vulnerable underneath Jenn like that. "It's ok. You deserve to feel good. You are having a rough go. I know." Tish nodded and accepted it. She wanted to cry. Jenn gave a reassuring smiled continued until she was satisifed it had all been rubbed in. Jenn decided she would give Tish extra attention tonight and make sure she was well cared for and felt safe. She felt bad she had to leave Tish in the hands of the CTF staff tomorrow but it couldn't be helped. At least this little pampering would hopefully make up for a bit she said to herself and laughed at the unintended pun. Jenn looked down at her exposed friend, the petite fit strong woman she had known for years was now her charge, under her guidance and control. It made her feel good in a way but she didn't know exactly how. It was a crazy thing they had been thrown into. The rules were out the window for how they should behave, they were finding their own way now. Tish noticed when the touch of Jenn's hands were gone and had been quickly replaced with another thick diaper placed under her bottom. She hated this part and what came next. The dichomoty of Jenn's tender care versus being placed back into a diaper was too much. Highs and lows which messed with her mind. She didn't want this. It meant one step closer to Jenn leaving, a night of a wet diaper, and a morning she had been dreading. Jenn tried to calm her and placed a hand on her chest to calm her quickened heartbeat. "Tish, calm down it is ok. Just breath." She felt the thick padding push her tender thighs apart as the monster was quickly taped into placed. She knew what was coming next. Jenn pulled the weird shorts up her legs and tucked all the edges of the diaper underneath it securly before bringing the thick waistband together, sealing Tish into her diaper. "Just a few more days of this device Tish and you'll be so much more comfortable." Tish was on the verge of tears. All this attention while on the verge of losing her friend for a day was too much. Jenn could sense the distress and sat in front of her on the bed. She took Tish's hands and sat her up, brining her close for a hug. She squeezed Tish very tight and could hear her sniffles. She then looked at her, their faces inches a part and told her it would be ok. Jenn allowed her forehead to rest against Tish's, to imply she understood and they were in this together. Tish's emotions where high, her arms were wrapped around Jenn as they shared this close embrace. She slowly tilted her head up and allowed her lips to touch Jenn's. The softness, the warmth... she kissed Jenn's lips for a few seconds. She could feel her breath and the soft wetness of her lips on hers. Her eyes were closed as Jenn pulled away. "Tish.", she didn't answer. "Tish!", Tish opened her eyes. "What are you doing!?", Jenn said as pulled sharply away and slipped from Tish's arms. Tish read her body language. It wasn't good. "I.. I.. I thought. Jenn. You have no idea. Please let me explain.", Tish stammered before Jenn cut her off. "I can't Tish. I can't.", she said over and over again, shaking her had having realized what just happened. "This is my fault Tish. I have to go.", Jenn made a hasty exit for the living room, grabbing her suitcase and belongings. She headed for the front door and Tish lept from the bed and chased after her. "Jenn, please please plase don't go like this... I'll do anything. Let's talk about this, please!", she was desperate. "Tish, I don't know what to say right now, but I just can't do that. I have to go.", Jenn got those words out as she exited the house and shut the door quickly before giving Tish the chance to keep her there longer. Her heartrate was moving as fast as Tish's was but her fight or flight response took over. She didn't understand what was happening and she had to run. As the door shut, Tish went to it and knew couldn't chase her, she was wearing only her diaper this whole time. She fell against the door, collapsing in a pile of tears, on her knees wondering what she had just done. Jenn paused, almost walking back in but she couldn't. She cried as she fumbled with her car keys and headed to the airport.

Thank you for your feedback! I really appreciate it. Yes, CTF is accepting applications. There are many diapers to be changed and processed. Here is their job description if you are interested. I read it a couple times and I think they are leaving out some important details ---- Hi! Interested in a job at CTF? You can be part of one of the biggest challenges and solutions that mankind has ever faced! Are you ready to do your part and help save humanity? Do you have a strong sense of authoritarianism? Do you enjoy following the rules? How about a general distrust of your fellow neighbor to do their part for society? Do you think the youth of today are too coddled and spoiled? If so CTF may be the job for you! Benefits include an overinflated government salary and pension, 4 weeks paid time off, lax management style, 401k retirement plan. Also included is unlimited diapers and changes for you or anyone in your immediate family or anyone you are sponsoring who is a minor participating in the program! Apply today! We are all in this together!

Hi, first of all thank you for reading and commenting. I enjoyed reading your thoughts! When you said "However, I don't like Jenn very much" I just LOL'd at that because she based on a real person, my gf who is wonderful and supportive I like to let everyone come to their own opinions of what the characters mean to them or how they feel about them etc. But I tried to write Jenn as someone nuetral to the situation she can't change and tries to make the best of it and goes with the flow. She wants to help Tish but plays by the rules. Whereas Tish rebels and pushes the boundaries. Also, some of your speculations about where the story is going. You got one thing right! You'll have to keep reading to find out which one though!

Chapter 20 Tish was sitting in her 2nd class of the day on Monday morning when she let her bladder release. She looked around a bit and everyone else was intently listening to the professor so she just let it happen. She felt the warmth spread between her legs and almost regretted the extra cup of coffee she had but she was tired this morning and needed it after the long weekend and her new early morning activities. She had noticed briefly that peeing was becoming easier and then put that out of her mine. Saturday was officially the weirdest, grossest, longest day of her life bue sunday she was able to relax a little around the house with Jenn and except for her 2 changes, it was uneventful. She wasn't ready to face the week when her alarm went off this morning. She gulped her coffee down and ate a little granola bar, encouraging her bowels to empty so she could get that out of the way. It was her 3rd messy diaper and even though Jenn made short work of it, it still extremely disgusted and embarassed her. She knew she would never adapt or get used to it. She took a deep breath, hoping the flow of pee would stop soon while trying to draw any attention to herself. She knew the diaper would hold but was still afraid it would leak at some point. She could feel the bulky material swell beneath the shorts tightly locked on to her diaper area and still had a sense of disbelief she was in this predicament. She tried to focus on the material being presented to the class but her mind kept drifting. 'Would her diaper leak?', 'Could anyone tell she had just peed?', 'Was anyone else peeing their diaper right now?' She snapped herself out of it and continued to take notes until class was over. She had a long break before her final class of the day and before her work started. She found a comfortable secluded spot to study to pass the time. "Doing ok sweetie?", a text came through from Jenn. Tish was so excited to see it. Jenn didn't usually text during the day so for her to take the time meant a lot to Tish. She texted back. Tish: "Hi! So far so good. I'm just scared of leaking and spending all day in this diaper will be hell." Jenn: "You won't leak I promise. I'm a diaper pro now you know!" Tish: "LOL, Ok I will try to be strong. Are we still meeting around 7pm?" Jenn: "Of course. Gotta run. Talk soon. xoxo" Tish smiled. This text made her day and for a moment made her forget about all her troubles. She breathed a sigh of relief. They had agreed to meet near Tish's work during her break so she could get an early change. Tish had to work until 9 or 10 on Mondays and she would definitely need to change by then to have any sort of comfort. Jenn agreed to come down to her work and change her about halfway through her shift. They had mapped out their schedules and routines for the week to make it as easy as possible for Tish. Ideally she wouldn't be in a diaper more than 12 hours at a time, but sometime is just couldn't be helped. Jenn had stressed to her to watch what she ate and drank and to make sure to only eat agreeable foods to avoid any stomach issues. She understood if there was an emergency that Jenn wouldn't always be able to just take off and come help her. She knew an option available was to go down to the CTF office if she needed a change but she vowed to never have to do that. She thought she would rather sit in a messy disgusting diaper for hours rather than have someone else see her like that. She didn't want anyone else taking care of her except Jenn. Tish knew that until they could get more diapers for the week, it would be a balance between getting changed early vs having to wear a wet diaper to bed, which she wanted to avoid. They knew they would have to play with their schedule and tweak things after her first full week in diapers. It would be a learning experience for them both with trial and error. Tish made it through her last class only having peed in her diaper one more time. The day so far wasn't so bad. She was surprised at her postivity for once. She wasn't particularly looking forward to work however. For some reason Allison annoyed the hell out of her. Probably just because she was much younger but Allison was her boss. She considered Allison to be just like all the other spoiled brats out there who had everything handed to them and could do anything without consequences. She decided to walk to work, which took about 15 minutes from campus, to clear her head and get in a good state of mind when she walked in to the coffee shop. A 15 minute walk was about the limit when wearing a wet diaper. She noticed it starting to rub and chafe her legs. She made a note to ask Jenn for more lotion to avoid that in the future. When she arrived it was quiet. Only one of the other girls, April, was working and Tish got along with her well even though she was a few years younger than her. She walked behind the counter and grabbed her apron. She looked at her co-worker who was facing away from her, making a coffee for a customer. Her shorts were so short you could see the edges of the girl's diaper sticking out. Tish rolled her eyes. 'Kids', she thought to herself. "Umm April." "Yeah?", April turned around giving several people in the store a view of her padded rear end if they had been interested in looking. "April!, you know your a little exposed there right?" The girl laughed it off like it was no big deal. "Oh Tish, who cares really at this point ya know?" Tish wished she could feel like that. At ease. But she was trying to remember what she was about to ask. "I guess... So where's Allison? No way she is late, I will never let her hear the end of it. She is on the schedule tonight right?" "Sorry Tish, just you and me tonight. Allison quit!" "WHAT?!", Tish tried to hold back her smile. "Why?" "Not sure, I think she got a better job or something. Said she had an opporutnity she couldn't pass up. So it's gonna be a little busy tonight." Tish didn't care how busy it was. If she didn't have the brat criticizing her and barking orders at her all the better. "Oh. Ahh well that is too bad.", Tish tried to hold back her enthusiasm. "C'mon Tish. Don't play. I know you couldn't stand her. But between you and me, she was a little stuck up for my taste." Tish gave April a hug and they both got to work. The evening flew by and before she knew it, Jenn was walking in the front door. She had a backpack flung over her shoulder. April asked her what she could get started for her and she quickly realized Jenn was here to see Tish. "Oh man are you getting a change? God I'm so jealous you have no idea how wet I am right now." "April!" "Seriously. I'm swimming right now." "April! Stop it." She turned to Jenn. "Is that Tish's diaper bag?" "Ok ok, let's stop teasing poor Tish ok?", Jenn pleaded. "I'm sorry. Tish knows I love her." "Aww. So nice you who. Well I'm sorry I can't do anything about your diaper April, but can I borrow Tish for a minute? I'll buy a coffee from you!" "Go ahead. Bathroom is in the back." Tish rolled her eyes at this uncessary banter regarding their diapers. She hated the open discussion about the topic. She just wanted to pretend it didn't exist and be alone with it and here was April giving all the gross details about the state of her wet diaper. But because Jenn was being so nice she decided not to say anything else and try to go with the flow. She felt a victory with Allison gone and April was actually a very nice girl. Jenn grabbed Tish's hand and pulled her towards the back. Tish watched over her shoulder at April as she was dragged away. April waved and smiled laughing and wishing she was the one getting changed. "Does she know you have to wear these shorts?" "No and please don't tell her! Please, it is so humiliating." "Tish, I wouldn't do that you know that. Now lets get you out of that diaper and changed. You have to get back to work and I want my coffee." Tish got down on the floor. It was a bit cramped in the small bathroom but they made it work. Jenn took down the pants Tish was wearing and unlocked the shorts, working them down until they slipped from her feet. Jenn could already smell the urine in the air and gasped a little. "Tish you are absoluately soaked. Why are you drinking so much.", she said as she pressed on her diaper area causing it to squish. Tish jumped a bit at being touched. "I don't know. I like coffee too much and I get thirsty." "Well it's up to you." Jenn had the diaper off and into the disposal bag in a few seconds. She had Tish wiped down, cleaned up and rediapered within a few minutes and was already putting the shorts back on. Tish grunted as they were refastened around her midsection, "Uhhg, I can't wait until I don't have to wear this thing." "I know Tish! But it's going to be a few more days because you obviously can't be trusted." "Whatever." "You know it's true. And all you did was create an uncomfortable embarassing situation for yourself, and more work for me. Now stand up and get your pants back on." Tish didn't respond. She knew Jenn was right of course. She had acted like a child about the whole thing and felt rediculous after having gotten used to a few days of changes. The shorts were really meant for either younger kids or trouble makers who might be defiant or non compliant. She felt embarassed knowing that she was probably the person over the age of 20 being forced to where the QC device. She felt like a toddler that would constantly take their diaper off. Jenn left her alone to finish getting dressed and reorient herself for work. When Tish reemerged from the bathroom, Jenn was already sipping her coffee that April had made her and a line was forming at the counter. "It's on the house." "Oh my gosh really?", Jenn said. "Aren't you the sweetest. I'd change you if I could I'm so sorry. Oh my gosh that sounds weird but you know what I mean." Both girls blushed and Tish watched and listened from the side. "Do me a favor and don't let Tish drink coffees all evening. She will only complain all night about her wet diaper and I want her to be comfortable." "You got it. Have a good night!", the joking around ended and Jenn went over and spoke to Tish. "Hey, your co-worker is really nice. I thought you said she was a bitch?". "No, that is Allison. But she quit apparently." "Oh well then you don't have to deal with her any more then! But hey, listen. Tonight when you get home we need to talk about something." Tish became immediately concerned and worried. "Uhh ok. What?", "We'll talk later but it's nothing bad." "Jenn, tell me now." "Tish. It's not a good time. I just want you to know we need to find time to talk tonight." "It sounds bad, but fine. OK." "How about I come pick you up later?" "Really that would be wonderful. You are the best." "I know I know", Jenn teased and and gave her a warm hug and a kiss on the cheek before leaving.", Tish caught April staring at them so she returned to work so that April didn't have to do everything herself for the few customers in line. Her mind already started racing about what Jenn needed to talk to her about. "Jenn seems really nice. So you two are pretty close then?", April asked. "I mean yeah I guess so. She's my best friend."

Chapter 19 Tish found Jenn in the bathroom wrapped in a towel, as well as her hair wrapped up in a towel standing in front of the mirror. She peeked her head around the corner so that she could see Jenn without having to stand there naked in front of her. "Get in here I want to talk to you." Tish reluctantly went in and leaned her back against the vanity where Jenn was fixing her face and crossed her arms over her chest. "Tish, really, after what I just did I don't think you need to be embarassed around me any more." "No, but I just am. This is all so new. My new life." "Our new life. You seem to keep forgetting that. You don't think this is weird for me? We keep having to have this conversation!" "I know I know, I'm so sorry but I'm the one who...." "TISH! I just cleaned like 5 pounds of poop from your bottom!" Tish shut her mouth. She still didn't think the roles were equal but she knew Jenn was making a huge sacrifice. "My life is on hold.... For you!... Look, I know what I signed up for and I'm sticking to it. I can do this if you can. Just try a little to cooperate for me. Quit fighting me." "I will. I promise." "Uh huh. Well to start cooperating, go get a new diaper, the shorts and all the supplies and lay them on the bed and I'll come change you. You can be there waiting for me when I come out. "What about my hands?", Tish immediately pouted. "TISH, I'm well aware of your situation and know what I'm doing. I don't want to hear about your hands again. Now go do what I said. Please Tish. Please. For me.", she pleaded frustratingly. Jenn was exhausted from her morning, and exhausted from arguing and Tish knew it. She sulked away and was able to fumble everything together for Jenn. She decided to unfurl the diaper and lay it on the bed and try to spread it out. She climbed onto it so it was mostly in position and laid back. She felt so exposed but she didn't care, she let her arms fall to her sides, spread her legs so Jenn could get this over with and waited patiently. She didn't want to be put back in another diaper. A few minutes later Jenn came to the bed, wearing just a t-shirt and underwear. Tish caught herself staring then looked away. She laid her head back down and let Jenn go to work on her. It was basically the same routine as before... Jenn applied the lotion everywhere, and quickly had her diapered up snuggly. Tish wanted the experience to last a little longer. She did like the attention and didn't want this diaper locked on to her body again. Anything to delay. Jenn held up the shorts and prompted Tish to slide her legs through. She reversed the process from before, struggling to get the thick material up her legs and over the diaper until it was in place. She wasted no time in securing the band around Tish and locking her down. Jenn gave a couple of familiar pats to the front of the diaper area and said, "You're all done." Tish got up and felt the fresh diaper holding her. It already felt hot but at least it was clean. She stood there waiting for instructions, feeling like that was the thing to do. "How long do I have to wear this?" "He said a week, you know that." "No Jenn, this diaper." "I don't know sweety, probably until bedtime. Remember we have to make them last. Are you worried about leaking?" "NO!, You just don't know how it feels to be in a wet diaper all day." "You're right, I don't and I'm sorry about that but I'll try to make you as comfortable as possible. Don't think about that now ok? We have a long day." "Ok. Wait, what do you mean a long day?" "Uhh my family is coming over!?" "What!? That's still happening?! Why didn't you remind me" "I don't know, I figured you would remember, you're good at stuff like that! We have to clean up the house and make dinner." "Oh Jenn, no no, we can't!", "Why not?" Tish threw her padded hands up in the air in anger realizing she was still naked except for the diaper, "Because of all this." "So you are never going to be sociable again? How is this different than school, or work?" "I don't know. I'm just embarassed to be in front of your parents like this." "Tish, they are used to it. My sister has been in diaper's for the same 3 days you have." "She's coming too?" "Of course. Don't be silly. Just act normal and be yourself." "Fine, I just wasn't expecting company. I just want to hide under a rock until this all over." "Well you might be hiding for a long time and I don't think you want to live like that. And you want to hide from me too then?", Jenn quipped at her. "NO!... I mean... No I didn't mean it that way. You're my best friend. You know how I'm feeling.", she lowered her head and Jenn came over and gave her a hug and assured her everything was going to be ok. She then went to the mittens and unlocked them, similarly to how her shorts were unfastened earlier. Once she finally had her hands back she rubbed them and her wrists as if feeling them for the first time in days, rather than a couple of hours. "Ok Tish, get dressed and take your diaper down and deposit it. Go straight there, talk to no one and come back. OK?" "Ok, I promise." "Good Girl.", Jenn told her and kissed her on the forehead. Tish smiled and did as she was told. Tish could see the deposit station up ahead. She walked as fast as she could to get this over with. She was carrying her own mess and wanted to get rid of it. She saw there was no one in line and figured since it was later in the day everyone else in this area must have made their deposits already. When she approached to scan her barcode, the machine had a blinking light and then text rolled across the readout. "Out of order, Max Capacity has been reached, please use deposit station located at..." "Son of a..., Tish yelled loudly.", She looked around but no one heard or saw her thankfully. The next closest deposit station was about a mile away. She was furious. She thought about just walking there and getting this over with but she didn't have her phone and didn't want Jenn to worry. She made it back to their home and Jenn saw her walk back in carrying the bag of her waste. When Tish looked at her she just wanted to cry. After hearing the explanation Jenn took Tish in her car down to the CTF building to make her deposit there. "Jenn, I'm so sorry about this. We'd be on a routine and have made the deposit earlier if I just would have cooperated." "Yes, but it is ok sweety. It's only day 4 of this. We'll get in our groove down soon ok?" "Our groove huh? You are such a dork." Tish just smiled and was thankful how lucky she was to have her friend. When they arrived at the CTF building for their neighborhood, Tish remembered being here just a few short months ago signing her life away. It was not much busier, even for Saturday evening. There were several people lined up along the side entrance waiting, for only what Tish could assume to have their diapers changed. There was also a line to turn the disposal bags. Tish and Jenn waiting in line and took note of the people. They came in all shapes and sizes but the only thing thing uniting them all at this moment was they were all wearing diapers and they all were holdings bags containing their previous one. Once they finally made it inside they were able to successfully dispose of her diaper. When they were leaving she noticed on the far wall a long bench filled with people anxiously awaiting to have their diapers changed by some stranger. For the first time, she didn't feel like they were 'all in this together' because most of the people were not looking at each other or seemed to be squirming around. She knew the feeling of a messy diaper and it was no time to be friendly or rah rah. You are only focused on one thing at that point and that is getting changed and clean. The girls made a hasty exit and finally arrived home in about an hour and went straight to getting the house ready for their guests. --- When the doorbell rang a few hours later, Tish's heart rate shot up. She didn't want to do this. She and Jenn had been fratically cleaning their house and preparing dinner and they were short on time due to all of Tish's challenges earlier in the morning. She was in her room, trying on different outfits in order to conceal her diaper and look somewhat presentable. There was just no reason to bring attention to it, or the fact that it was locked onto her because they couldn't follow the rules of the program. She decided on a nice dress. Slipping it on she looked at herself in the mirror and she could barely tell anything was off. It didn't take away the feeling of the heavy bulk hidden underneath but she at least felt confident enough to go out and spend time with these people. "Time to get this over with.", she told herself as she went into the living room to greet her guests. Pleasentries were made and everything seemed normal so far. She saw Jenn's younger sister Beth and couldn't help but see a younger version of Jenn standing before her. She was wearing a long sleave shirt and a pair of jeans. They didn't conceal the fact that she was wearing a diaper and it made Tish wonder if she was as exposed. Over dinner they were all caught up on each other's lives, school and work situation and Tish was relieved the evening went better than she imagined. The subject of diapers and the state of the world had not even come up but it was clear it was being intentionally ignored which made it more awkard. Jenn was serving a dessert she had made to everyone and Tish noticed Beth squirming in her seat a little bit and her mother asked if everything was ok. To Tish's surprise Beth just promptly apologized. "Sorry about that everyone, nature called!", and gave a little chuckle like it was a completely normal thing to do. The look on Tish's face was disbelief that she did that at the dinner table, right next to them. "You seriously just peed right here at our table? During dinner?!", Tish exlclaimed at Beth. "Uhh yeah? What do you expect me to do?". "I don't know, like go in the other room or something. That is what I did earlier." She couldn't believe she was talking about using her diaper to these people. "Tish!", Jenn snapped, trying to defend her sister. "What? I mean, just because we are diapered doesn't mean you just go wherever, whenever. Especially at dinner! Have some dignity." Jenn's mom interjected and stopped Jenn from arguing the point. She was always the peacemaker between the sisters, "Jenn it is ok. But Tish, we told Beth to just do that very thing. To just get used to going whenever and wherever. You girls might be in diapers for a long time so I think the best thing is just to get used to it. Don't you? Don't think about it and it will become second nature. Besides, all the program material said not to hold it in, it's not healthy." 'You girls', she hated the way she was being lumped in with Jenn's sister as if they were children being looked after by the adults in the room. She did't want any of this to become second nature. Beth chimed in, "Tish, I'm sorry I offended you. It's not a big deal really. My friends and I have just been hanging out and supporting each other and we just go to the bathroom when we feel the urge. Besides, maybe it is one of us that helps find a cure to the problem! We are all in this together." Tish was about to scream when she heard that last line but she maintained calm. Beth's bubbly attitude was irritating her and it reminded her of Allison from work. What was it about the teenagers that drove her so nuts. All they did was consume social media and get brainwashed. She felt sad for them. "Beth I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to react like that. I am just a very private person and this is like my first social gathering after all this. I have to say I'm not handling it as well as everyone else seems to be. Like you seem to be." Jenn came around and hugged Tish from behind, "It's OK. We are all here to support you and we are proud of you, especially me." Tish was now the focus of everyone's attention, and she just wanted this evening to be over. Pooping in her diaper and having someone else clean her up wasn't something she thought deserved any pride. "If you ever need to talk or anything, you can call me ya know.", Beth said to Tish in a way that made her feel like the youngest, immaturest person in the room and she blushed. Tish thanked her, trying to turn the conversation away from her. She was already dreading what Jenn would say to her after her family left. They chatted for about another hour and it was getting late. As they were leaving Beth's mom asked her if she needed a change before they left. "No mom, I'll be OK for another couple of hours at least." "Are you sure? I'm sure Jenn and I could get both of you girls changed for the night before we leave." Again with the 'you girls'. Tish didn't know what to do or say. She looked at Jenn in fear of having to do any of this, having to expose the diaper locked onto her, having to go through this with Beth, or Jenn's mom. She felt like she was 5 years old and totally out of control. Jenn saw the look in her eyes and wrestled the conversation away from her mother. It was time for them to leave. "Mom, I'm sure if Beth says she is fine she will be fine. Plus we have our schedule here all figured out." "Well, I know you are new at this and taking care of these girls is a big responsiblity. If you ever need any help, either of you, just let me know." "Ok Mom, we will. We're fine for now.", Jenn moved them closer to the door. Jenn's dad, who hadn't said much during the evening could read the room a little better than his wife and suggested it was late and time to leave since they had about an hour drive. He knew Tish was embarassed and wanted to save her from any more of this. Jenn saw her parents out, shut the door and turned around and leaned against it. She let out a deep breath and looked at Tish and smiled. "Sorry for that. My Mom is just so mothering and I think part of her likes taking care of Beth this way. It is just her nature but you did really well tonight. I really am proud of you. I know this is so odd and weird and difficult for you." "You are really? I thought you'd be mad." "It was a bit awkward earlier but everything is fine." "How can your sister take this all so easily? I mean she is almost 18 and her mom is changing her diapers Jenn!", I mean what the hell!" "And I'm changing yours and you're even older! It is what it is. You can keep repeating how absurd and unfair the situation is but it won't change anything Tish. Are you going to be saying the same thing 6 months from now?" "6 months? It surely can't be that long. God Jenn, please tell me it wont be that long." "I don't know babe. I don't know.", Jenn replied without a way to help. "I know I just hate how everyone just rolled over and accepted this so easily." "I don't know why you can't accept it. What do they say in those 12 step programs? Accept the things we can not change?" "Uh huh sure." "Well one thing we can change is your diaper. You want to do that now?" Everything came back to that. 'Her diaper'. "Uhh.. How about after we clean up and stuff. Plus I'd like to pee one more time so I can at least fall asleep in a dry diaper.", Tish said, followed by a look at Jenn realizing these were the things she had to worry about now. This was her life. Jenn hugged her and kissed her on the cheek and they got busy cleaning up dishes and house.

Sorry it has been so long since my last post on this chapter. I hope you enjoy! Chapter 18 Jenn took a deep breath as she rested her hand on the doorknob of their house. She wasn't looking forward to the next 30 minutes. She was already exhausted from her stressful morning at work and wasn't in the mood for Tish's attitude which she knew existed right behind the door. She new she would be cleaning Tish's dirty bottom shortly but she'd rather do that than have to deal with her childish behavior. She walked in and the house was quiet. She expected Tish to appear before her demanding her diaper be changed. "Tish?" There was no answer so Jenn walked into the house a little more. She noticed the QC kit had been dumped out on the table and figured Tish had gotten curious about it. She smirked. She then checked the bedrooms and then noticed the bathroom door was closed. She approached and slowly opened the door. The air hit her nose and she knew Tish was in there. She could smell the poop. She cracked the door open a little more. "Tish... You ok in here?" Tish was sitting on the floor against the far wall, huddled. When she looked up and saw Jenn she started crying instantly. Jenn went over to her and knelt down to be next to her. She rested her head on Tish's and told her everything was going to be ok. "Are you mad at me?", Tish asked. "No sweety, we'll talk about all that later. Let's get you cleaned up." Jenn did her best to stay positive given the situation and the smell. Tish saw her face reacting to it and blushed. "I'm sorry! I've been in here for almost an hour. I started to smell it and I didn't want to stink up the whole house so I came in here. I thought these diapers were supposed prevent the smell?", Tish hung her head. "They mostly do Tish. But you've been in that diaper for a few hours and no matter what you do its going to smell eventually. You had a couple days of poop in you too and if you would have just done this two days ago you could have avoided such a big mess now this you know. This is your fault, not mine.", Jenn gave her stern but pitiful look. It wasn't her plan to admonish her but it had to be said. "Hey!" "Hey what? You know I'm right so just stop it right now. Now stay here while I go get all the suplies and we'll deal with that diaper.", Jenn's epxression indicated she was prepared for a challenge. Tish was dreading having her best friend in the world see her like this. Jenn got up and tried to hold Tish's hand and noticed the mitten, which was still tighly secured onto her wrist. "Is this why all my stuff was all scattered around out there? Got a little nosey and got yourself stuck huh?", Jenn could only smile and laugh at the situation she found Tish in. "Don't laugh! Just take this thing off me.", Tish held out her hand and Jenn smacked it away "Nope. Not until we're done. Now stay here." Jenn quickly shut the door and left for a few minutes. It felt like an eterity to Tish having to wait for her friend to come back and take off her dirty diaper. She didn't want this to happen. She felt like once this happened they would never get past it. It would be part of their memory for ever, haunting them. Once this happened it couldn't be undone. "Good girl coming in here and shutting the door.", Jenn said as she returned. Tish was happy that Jenn was pleased with her but wasn't sure about the "good girl" comment. Every thing Jenn did or said she analyzed and scruntized . She didn't like being condescended to but knew Jenn didn't mean it that way and gave Jenn the benefit of doubt. "Umm thanks." Jenn set her box of supplies down and told Tish to stand up and get into the middle of the room. As soon as Tish was where Jenn wanted her she felt her t-shirt being lifted off her head like a child. She protested and Jenn shushed her. "This is gonna be messy. Do you want your shirt ruined?" "No" "Ok then.", Jenn tossed the shirt aside and Tish was left completey naked except for her diaper area. It was cold in here and she went to cover her breasts. Mainly from embarassment and to protect whatever modesty she had left. Jenn dug around in the box. "Let me see your hand." Tish excited reached out her trapped hand in anticpation of getting the damned mitten off finally. "No... You're other hand." Tish swapped hands and reached out hesistantly and Jenn began to slip the other mitten on her. She recoiled. "Why?" "Give me your hand Tish. Right now!" Jenn's tone made Tish hold out her hand immediately and let Jenn take it. The padded mittens were now covering both hands. Jenn cinched the cuff down tight around her wrist rendering the girl helpless. Tish just looked up at her, wanting an explantion. "Well you already had one on, might as well put both on and get some use out of these since you were so curious", she joked. "And this way you won't be worried about interferring while I change you, will you?" Assuming that was a rhetorical question, Tish just held up her padded hands up indicating a no, and decided to keep her mouth shut and get this over with. Jenn guided her to the floor and pushed her down until her back was flat against the cold tile floor. She ignored Tish's huffs and moans and spread her legs how she wanted them. "You know, it's a good thing you didn't try on both of these mittens. If there had been an emergency or fire or something you wouldn't be able to get out. So why don't you just leave these things alone from now on." "You're right, I'm sorry." Jenn then pulled from her pocket, something that looked like a credit card from and pressed it against the thick waistband of the shorts and Tish felt the snugness around her hips loosen. Tish wondered how it worked. The smell worsened now as Jenn worked the shorts down over the diaper and down her friends legs. Her diaper was exposed to the air. Tish tried to sit up to get a look at her diaper, wanting to see what shape it was in but felt Jenn push her back down. "Stay". Jenn found the edges of the tapes and started to pick them loose. She wondered if she would have to cut the tapes as they were super sticky, but she finally managed to work them loose. Cutting the tapes would require her to file a report since it would be a deviation of the required process. She didn't want to give Agent Smith or anyone else from the CTF a reason to scrutinize them any further. She looked at Tish who now had her eyes closed. She almost looked sweet, lying there. Jenn knew she was extremely scared and embarassed but there was nothing to be done about it. They were in this together and they would have to get used to it. She said under hear breath, 'here we go', before removing the front of Tish's diaper, opening it and letting it fall open between her legs. Jenn got her first look and tried to keep her composure. She nearly gagged at the site and smell of what was before her eyes and she had to take a minute to look away and breath through the fabric of her shirt. She made a note to bring some surgical masks home from her job for them because she could barely handle the odor. A human is not supposed to smell such things and Jenn knew that was natures way of saying, 'get whatever is smelling away from you immediately'. During her career as a nurse she had been exposed to just about every gross thing that could come out of a human being, but she had to admit this might be the worst she had dealt with. She turned back to the job before her. "Oh Tish.", she let out involuntarily which only causaed more tears to run down her friends face. Tish kept her eyes shut tightly. She couldn't bring herself to make eye contact with Jenn. She could feel bits of mess stuck to her private parts and legs and wedged up her behind. Another tear rolled down her cheek and she wiped it away with her padded hands. The mess was worse than she knew though. She was absolutely covered. Her mess had spread to every corner of the diaper and her tiny body. "Ok Tish just relax. It's going to be ok. I'm here." Jenn's nursing expertise now took over. Using large wipes, she cleaned her friend down, front to back. It didn't take long for Jenn to wipe up about 95% of the mess into the diaper, remove it, tape it and get it into the disposal bag. Jenn continued to wipe the remaining spots of poop from between Tish's legs until it was mostly gone. Jenn thought it actually wasn't that bad now that it was done. After getting over the intial shock of seeing the messy diaper, it was only really a matter of 30 seconds of grossness until her friend was returned to somewhat normal. The smell had already subsided and the hard part was over. She could do this she thought to herself. Not so bad after all. She suspected Tish wasn't didn't have the same opinion. Jenn kept working on her friend, getting more wipes trying to make sure all signs of poop had been removed, "I think it will be easier and better to spray you down in the shower real quick to get the rest, besides you need a shower anyway." Jenn got behind Tish and helped her to her feet by lifting under her arms. Tish saw the supplies on the floor and the bag with her messy diaper in it, taped shut. Something about see it there on the floor like that was so weird. She hated that she had to see it there, her own filth, bagged up and waiting retreival and examination by some stranger. As she stabled herself, she heard Jenn turn the shower on. She held out her hands, implying she wanted use of her hands back. "I'm capable of washing myself from here Jenn.", trying to sound l ike she was reclaiming control. "Tish, just get in there and let me make sure you are clean.", she said annoyed. Tish stepped and didn't know what to do with her hands, avoiding the water. "Those can get wet, they'll dry quickly. They are actually designed to be worn for long periods of time so you better behave!", Jenn joked and winked at her but she wasn't in a joking mood and didn't like the insuation that she could be punished like that. Tish let herself get under the water. It felt nice to have the warm water wash away the filth from her body. Jenn stood in the door of the walk in shower, trying to avoid getting wet. She was still dressed in her hospital scrubs so she didn't really care. She turned the water down a little to avoid the spray and made sure the temperature was good. Jenn got Tish's body wash from the shelf. It was much nicer than what she bought herself. She thought it was foolish and a waste of money to buy this luxury brand and had told Tish this before. But it was her money and her life. Jenn squirted the soap into her hands and started bathing her friend. It sort of came instinctively to her. She started on her back so that Tish was facing away from her. Tish felt Jenn's soft hands on her and it felt nice. She decided to quit complaining for a few minutes and enjoy the attention. She still felt weird being naked and helpless like this but the attention felt good. Jenn reached around and let her hands run over Tish's neck, chest and breasts. She was senstive and it shocked her a bit at how forward Jenn had become with all this. Her hands moved to her arm pits and down her sides and to her tummy. Tish was beginnnig to get very self consious now. "Jenn, really you don't have to do this if you don't want to. I mean..." "Shush", Jenn told her as she reached for more soap as her hands went between Tish's legs. Tish faultered a bit as she was touched by Jenn. Her knees went weak and she took a deep breath. "I'm sorry hun but let me make sure you are clean. We can't have any of this nasty stuff left over down here, it's not hygenic at all. Just spread your legs for me and hold on to the wall for a minute ok?" "Uhh ok.", She did as she was told and widened her stance. Her heart was racing and she didn't know what to do. All she could do is stand there and try not to act weird while her friend bathed her. She didn't want Jenn to know how this made her feel. She felt so guilty for taking any pleasure in this. "God", she wispered to herself. "What?", Jenn asked. "Umm nothing.. I, I'm fine.. are you almost done?", Tish couldn't take much more of this. She felt Jenn's hands now slide up and down her butt crack several times, ensuring any bits of poop had been washed away. She had never been touched like that and she had not realized she had not been breathing. She exhaled when Jenn removed her hands and she and she was staring blankly at the wall. She almost collapsed and Jenn held her. In all, Jenn had worked on her for about 20 seconds. It was quick and methodical but Tish was confused. She didn't want it to be over but didn't know why she felt this way. She knew this whole experience was bringing them closer but she still felt so guilty. Jenn took the shower wand from its holder and turned it to full strength and rinsed Tish off. She used it all over her body and between her legs and butt to wash away all the soap and debris. Tish gasped when the jets of water hit her sensitive areas. She had done that to herself many times before but now that Jenn was doing it, it felt different. She was flushed red and Jenn asked her if she was ok. "Yeah, the water and the steam are just really hot and I think I'm just overwhelmed and embarassed with all this ya know? She stared at Jenn wondering if that explanation was satisfactory. "I know, you've had a long morning. Let's get you dried off." Jenn grabbed a towel and wrapped her in it. Giving her an assuring hug that everything was ok. She towelled Tish off and let her sit down on the toilet. Her behind hit the cold plastic lid of the toilet seat. It felt so different than the padding she had been wearing for the last 5 hours or so. Tish could only watch as Jenn picked up her things and cleaned up after her bath. She was just given a bath by Jenn, she couldn't believe it. "Ok, follow me." "Where?" "Quit asking so many questions and just do what your told. Now come on, I've had a long morning too you know." Tish huffed and followed Jenn into the living room. She was getting frustrated at Jenn for being short with her. She wanted to know what was going on and what was happening, and Jenn seemed to be keeping her in the dark. She thought Jenn just must be tired and having a bad day too so she didn't say anything else for now. Jenn set her things down and then turned on the TV and continued the episode of The Office that they had been watching, then set the remote on the coffee table. "I'm going to get a shower and get cleaned up. You sit here and watch TV and when I'm done we'll put your diaper on you and you can go down and make your deposit." "WHAT!? Jenn you can't leave me like this?", holding up her hands encased in the mittens again while pointing out she was completely naked. "What if I want a drink or something? I'm thirsty." "You'll have to wait. I don't want to hear any more whining. You'll be fine for 10 minutes. I turned a show on for you." "At least let me put on some clothes!" "Tish, you are going back into a diaper in 10 minutes so that wouldn't make sense. Not efficient at all. I'd be half done with my shower by now if you would quit arguing with me. "Fine". Jenn started walking into her room and into her own bathroom but before she did she shut the door to the main bathroom. Tish watched her and she knew what she was doing. "You really think I would try to sneak again and use the bathroom?" "Yes, I do. You can't be trusted which is why we are in the mess." "WE?" "Yes, WE!. Because of you I'm having to do a lot more work now and the CTF is probably going to keep checking on us. I don't know why you couldn't have accepted this like everyone else." Jenn walked into her room without giving Tish a chance to respond. Tish heard Jenn turn shower on. She sat on the couch and waiting. She was bored and felt like a child. She watched TV for a few minutes. She hated the episode Jenn turned on and instinctively reached for the remote. "Jenn! Damnit.", she didn't know if Jenn heard her or not but not even being able to change the episode, get a drink or do something as basic as look at her phone was just too much for her now. She crossed her arms and sat on the couch and waited until she finally heard Jenn turn the shower off. "Tish, come in here please!" Tish rolled her eyes, huffed and walked into the bedroom, wondering what would happen to her next.

Chapter 17 Jenn rushed down the hallway where an array patients has been put. There had been a 10 car pileup this morning and she was tending to patients. Amazingly, no one had died but there were many injured people that had arrived at her hospital and everyone had been called in to help. It had been several hours since she left the house this morning and she hadn't slowed down for a moment since arriving. She turned the corner and found the next patient she needed to attend to and found a young woman lying on a gurney. Jenn was taken aback for a moment because she looked very similar to Tish. She looked at the girls chart and saw she had just turned 18 and was from out of town on a trip with her family. She was lucky to not be severely injured. Jenn thought of Tish and how thankful she was that they were both healthy despite the state of things in the world. Jenn started performing her normal duties, checking vitals, fluids and checking everything off her list as she would always do. She needed to check for any bruising or broken bones in case the patient needed immediately care. She asked permission to touch the young girl in various areas. When she came to her mid-section she realized the girl was thickly diapered. It hadn't even occured to her but now she thought to herself, 'of course the girl would be diapered'.She was only 18.' Jenn had certainly come across patients who were diapered but it was rarer than one would think. Most patients were older and even then you weren't really looking under everyone's pants. Everything had kind of calmed down in the world since this whole thing started and if it wasn't for Tish she wouldn't even really notice there were 1000's of people around her wearing diapers all the time, making constant deposits. In the craziness of the morning she'd given no thought of Tish. After seeing this patient she felt bad about about that and made a point to call her as soon as she had a break. "Hopefully she is still asleep.", Jenn thought before turning her attention back to the patient. "Oh.. sorry I didn't know you had a diaper on.", Jenn said trying not to embarass the girl. "Do you mind if I just take a look down here to make sure you aren't injured?" "No, it's not problem.", the girl didn't seem embarassed at all when Jenn confronted her or examined that area. Jenn poked around her abdoment and legs, trying to avoid her diaper area which she could tell was a bit wet. "Any pain in your uh, diaper area?" "No, but as you can see I really need to change soon. My parents will be here soon and my mom can change me." "Oh.. Ok, we have a limited supply here if needed but we'd have to inform the CTF that you used one and they do cost money. So if you can wait for your parents that would be best." "I understand, I'll try not to leak.", the girl joked and she didn't seem to have any of the angst or anger that Tish had towards the situation. Jenn wondered how she would feel about herself in that situation. It seemed so odd this 18 year old girl.. woman was waiting for her mom to come change her wet diaper. "Ok, you look to be in ok shape. We'll keep you for observation for a few hours to make sure there is no concussion or anything then get you out of here. Take care." Jenn left the room feeling awkward and embarassed be she didn't know why. The patient didn't seem to mind at all. Her thoughts drifted back to Tish and she had a few minutes to take a break and wanted to check in on her. She went to the break room and got her phone from her locker. She looked at the clock and saw it was already noon. She wasn't allowed to carry her phone around the hospital and she had been so busy she hadn't even had time to eat. She pressed her fingerprint to the the screen and it lit up. 4 missed calls. 4 missed text messages. "Uh oh.", Jenn thought. She quickly scrolled through the text messages. 10:30 "Jenn, I need you. Where are you?" 10:45 "You have to come home. NOW". 10:46 "Jenn, call me back. PLEASE call me back" 11:00 "WTF WTF WTF, I'm so angry with you right now." Jenn set her phone down, rolled her eyes and and sighed. She knew exactly what must have happened and she did feel bad, but there wasn't nothing to be done about it. She tapped the phone button and it rang. Tish picked up the phone and was already crying on the end. "Tish? Talk to me. Are you ok?" "No", sobbing. "Are you hurt or something!?" "I'm fine, I just need you to get home. You are on your way right?" "No sweetie, not yet." "WHAT? Why not!? Jenn, I had to do it. It was awful." "Do what?" "You know damn well what. Jenn, please you have no idea. I'm sitting in it, its awful and I can't get out!" --- 2 hours earlier. "She left me!", Tish said outloud. She didn't know who she was talking to but she couldn't believe Jenn had just left her like this. What if there was an emergency? What if she had to leave? She knew the answer was that she'd leave wearing her diaper but she just wasn't thinking rationally. She was scared. She didn't want to be alone right now. She felt like a prisoner in her own home and her own body. After contemplating the situation she picked up the note and read it again. She knew it wasn't Jenn's fault and Jenn warned her that she was on call. But how could she leave her like this with no escape? She could ask herself a million questions a million different ways and it wouldn't help. Tish grabbed the empty coffee cup and went to the coffee pot. 'Great... cold coffee.', The warmer had already shut off so she had to resort to putting her coffee in the microwave which never was the same as freshly brewed. Tish wrapped her hands around her warm coffee cup and sat down on the couch and took a sip. She sat indian style on the sofa and looked down the padding protruding between her legs. The diaper, safely concealed under the shorts was thick, wet and clammy. She shifted to try and get comfortable. She wondered how it could hold so much and looked at the clock. Surely Jenn would be home any minute to change her. She immediately remembered Jenn said she wasn't getting changed until she went "#2" in them. She hated how Jenn referred to it that way. Like talking to a child. Althought she didn't know what phrase or terminology she would prefer, but maybe it was the way Jenn was so non chalant about it. The way she had taken charge of the situation made Tish feel like a helpless child Tish refilled her coffee and looked in the fridge. She wasn't hungry. She usually would be but she had other things on her mind. There wasn't much for her to do. There's no way she would leave the house, and didn't feel like sitting alone watching TV. She tried to pass the time by picking up around the house, brushing her teeth, making the beds. She saw the QC kit on the floor and got curious about that. She wasn't sure if Jenn wanted her messing with it but she didn't care. She was bored. Dumping the contents of the bag out on the table, she examined everything. There was another pair of the shorts, and a couple pairs of pants that looked to work the same way. She sighed, knowing she would probably have to wear them all at some point. She set those aside and untangled a mess of straps. It was clear these were restraints of some kind and they looked like something out of an insane asylumn to her. She didn't know how they went together but there were cuffs for wrist and ankles if needed. 'Would someone really need to be tied down and forced to use their diaper?', she thought it seemed rediculous until a moment of self reflection reminded her of her own disobediance and constant fighting of this situation at every turn. 'What is wrong with me?', She moved those aside, knowing Jenn would never use them on her. This stuff was meant for people not to be trusted. She failed to think how she was, at that very moment locked into a diaper due to not being trusted. There were a couple other items left to look at. "Oh my god! Is this a pacifier?", Tish held this device up and looked at it. 'Why?', she thought to herself. 'We aren't babies for crying out loud." She touch the piece that went in the mouth. It was quite large. It had a little give to it went squeezed. She held it up to her mouth and looked around, as if to make sure no one was watching her. Why was she doing this? Partly she was curious; Jenn had kept the details of her sponsor training secret from her, but mostly she was bored. She opened her mouth and let the device slip in. It filled up most of her mouth and had a bit of rubbery taste to it. She knew she wouldn't like having this in her mouth for very long. She got up and looked at herself in the mirror. The front pacifier thing had a blue front which covered her mouth and part of her face. Combined with her tiny white t-shirt and thick diaper, the woman she was a few days ago had vanished. She tried to talk with it in and only caused a bit of drool to fall out of her mouth and hit her shirt. Feeling foolish and dumb, she quickly removed it and wiped it off and then her mouth. Uhhg. The aftertaste didn't set well and she was glad to have it out. She set it back and then looked at the last item. 'Gloves?' She slid her left hand into one and realized it was a soft padded mitten. There was a stiff band around the wrist part could be sinched down by pulling it tight. She did just to see how it worked. "Oh!", She was almost proud of herself for realizing the use for these. Once a person's hands were in these, they weren't getting out. 'What the F?', who came up with this stuff? She knew Jenn could be home any minute so she decided to put all the stuff back. She reached to undo the cuff around her tiny wrist but failed. She pulled and fought the smooth material securing the mitten with her free hand, but she couldn't see how to undo it. She started to panick again. She struggled, used her teeth, pulled and yanked with all her might but the material wouldn't give. She gave up. She was exhausted. She still didn't know what to do. She was stuck. How was she going to explain this to Jenn? She didn't have much time to think about that though. Between her exertion fighting the mitten, and her morning coffee, her tummy has started to make noises. She knew this was inevitable but her mind fought it. She still thought she was either going to wake up from a dream, or someone would save her at the last minute from having to do this. She got up and paced for the next few minutes. She wanted Jenn. It was a funny thing she thought. This thing she was about to do was one of the most private things in an adult's life, yet she wanted Jenn here with her now for it. She just didn't like feeling this alone. She was nervous now and she could feel her heart rate had gone up. She wasn't pacing any more. She had stopped and was leaning against the kitchen counter. She looked down at her trapped hand and the white padding of the mitten and laughed at her predicament. It was the least of her problems now. A wave of coldness washed over her, like having a feverish chill. She didn't feel well. All the nervousness about this over the last day had put her stomach in knots. She knew it was going to be bad. In a last ditch effor she tried to get the shorts off. With only hand available it was even more futile. She was about to cry. She made her way to the living room and had to kneel down. Her stomach was not feeling good at all and she felt the pressure building. She was determined to hold it as long as she could. Jenn would be back soon and would help her. Her breathing was intense now. In, out. Long slow breaths to fight through the cramps that were building deep in her gut. She was now kneeling on the floor in child's pose, hunched over. If anyone had been in the room they would have her a little whining moan coming from her fighting the pain. She had started a rocking motion, curled up on the floor waiting for whatever was going to happen. It was out of her control. At this point she just wanted to go so the cramps would subside but things were taking an uncomfortably long time. Finally, after what seemed like an hour, but in reality was only 10 minutes she felt the familiar tension in her gut and she knew with her next breath her diaper would be full. She didn't care at this point, the pain was so awful. She took a deep breath and exhaled and she felt the hot mush leave start to leave her body in waves. She moaned loudly through it as it happened and she lost control. A tear streamed down her face from the relief of going. She could feel it fill the diaper. The substance was amassing between her legs, looking to fill any area of the diaper it could find. She felt the mess pressing into her as the tight diaper wasn't forgiving. It spread faster and farther than she expected. It was hot and burny. She had gotten herself so worked up over this moment, what should have been a normal bowel movement had turned into massive mess of poop and diarhea. She held her stomach as it continue to be expelled from her. Another wave hit her and she let out a muffled cries as the cramps kept coming. She had to be done. Please be done she thought. After several more cramps and having to push the last bit out her stomach was calming down. "Oh god, its over. It's over. Thank you, thank you, thank you." she said outloud to herself. The relief came and she knew the next feeling meant she was done pooping. She would have to pee right after. She always did. She let it come and felt the warmth spread throughout the diaper. There was no where for it to go but throughout every nook and cranny as it mixed with her mess. With her mind now able to focus, she could feel everything. She wanted to throw up at the thought of what she had just done. It made her feel sick and ashamed of herself. She hated this and what the world had done to her. It wasn't fair. She stayed where she was on the floor, afraid to move for several minutes. When her tummy was finally settled and her body had evacuated all her contents into the diaper, she slowly rose. Her knees were week and she barely had energy to stand after suffering through the ordeal. The mess shifted and she felt it move against her. She could feel it touching every part of her and she knew that couldn't be healthy. She slowly limped to the counter to find her phone, click on recent numbers and dialed Jenn. --- "You know damn well what. Jenn, please you have no idea. I'm sitting in it, its awful and I can't get out!" "Tish, if you had any idea what I have been through this morning, not to mention the people I have been treating, you'd be a bit more patient. People nearly died today and have all sorts of injuries and all you can do is yell and me about your dirty diaper!" There was silence on the other end of the line. Tish was speechless for a minute. But once again she knew Jenn was right but it didn't seem to take away from her own problem. "You're right, its just you have no idea... and I'm all alone...", Tish cried. "Tish, try to be strong for me. I should be home in about an hour OK and I'll take care of you." .. sniffles.. "OK, I will. Please hurry" "I will."

Chapter 16 Tish ran into Jenn's room and leapt into the bed. She felt like a child almost. Giddy, like she was spending the night at a friends house away from home. She felt so alone in the world right now after her breakup, and trapped in this dystopian world that she thought was created just for her. "Ok ok. Calm down and let's get some sleep. Remember, pillow between your legs." "Oh yeah." Tish situated herself under the covers and got comfortable. Jenn reached over and turned out her light on her nightstand and they were in the darkness together. "You feel better now?", Jenn's voice came through the darkness. "Yeah I do. Thanks for this. I needed it. Can we just sleep in tomorrow for awhile?" "Sure, but remember. I'm on call this weekend but I doubt they'll need me. Get some rest." Tish closed her eyes and drifted off. Her breathing deepened and Jenn was glad to give her friend some peace. She still felt bad for her reaction the previous night but they got past it. Luckily Tish wasn't snoring yet and Jenn wanted to fall asleep before that started. It wasn't long until both of their days had come to end and they were fast asleep. Tish opened her eyes and sat up and looked at Jenn's alarm clock. 3:00am. Her bladder was full and burny. She had to go. Usually she would pee right before bed but with the excitement of sleeping in here with Jenn and the diaper she didn't think about that. She laid there for about 15 minutes, not wanting to wake Jenn, hoping she could start peeing to relieve the pressure. It was hard for her to pee like that. In an unnatural state. Eventually the pressure was too much and she had to sit up. She propped herself up on her hands and got to a position more conducive to her bodily function and the pee started to flow. She exhaled as the pee kept coming and coming. She didn't remember drinking this much. Could this diaper hold so much so quickly? So far it had. "You're peeing aren't you?", Jenn asked. Tish about fell out of bed she was so startled. The flow instantly stopped from fear and embarrassment. Jenn scared the hell out of her and she didn't like being caught doing something like this. Especially in Jenn's bed. "You f'ing scared the hell out of me." "I'm sorry, but... were you?" "YES ok! I tried not to wake you but I couldn't go lying down. I tried for like 15 minutes. I'm sorry." "It's perfectly ok. You don't need to be embarrassed. Do you need to finish or something?", Tish asked as she put her hand on Tish's leg. 'God this is so humiliating', Tish thought. "Umm. Yeah. I'm just gonna get a drink of water. You need something?" "No. You know you don't have to leave right? I'm not going to judge you." "I know, but please just give me some time with this." "Ok sweetie. Hurry up and get back to bed." Tish stumbled her way in the dark to the kitchen. She escaped Jenn's irritating questioning for a few minutes and was glad for it. She got a glass of water and when she filled her cup it made her start peeing again at the sound of flowing water. She soaked this diaper and she could feel the warmth still spreading around her. Eventually the diaper took it all in and swelled, and now and felt too bulky and clingy. Not the ideal configuration for going back to sleep but she would try. She climbed back into bed and got her pillows in place. Jenn was already asleep and had her arm stretched out on Tish's pillow. Tish scooched closer and rested her head on Jenn's shoulder, taking the opportunity to snuggle up to her. Jenn woke up around 6, typically when her alarm would go off. She did that often, even when she didn't have to work that morning. She was a little disoriented and let out a yawn before realizing Tish was laying on her. Her arm was trapped under Tish's head and felt like it was asleep. Tish was laying on her side, pressed into her. Tish's other arm was draped across Jenn's stomach hugging her. Tish had also thrown her leg over and had it nestled between Jenn's legs under the covers. Jenn felt a little smothered and awkward at the closeness but didn't mind it for some reason. Jenn laid there for a bit. She didn't wake Tish up right away. She thought it was a sweet that Tish found her way over to her side of the bed. She also didn't mine the closeness. Jenn's work schedule and busy life had made it hard for her to get close to anyone over the last couple of years. She loved what she did for a living but she often felt lonely at times. She wondered if taking care of Tish and doing this for her, was her way of compensating for that a bit. She stared up at the ceiling, listening to Tish's breathing. She enjoyed the intimacy if that is what you could call it, of Tish's friendship. Maybe this was a inevitable side effect of the situation they found themselves in. Jenn laughed to herself after realizing this was the most intimate relationship she'd had in a long time.. 'Changing her friend's diaper would certainly count as intimate', she thought. Jenn took a few more minutes, closed her eyes and let her head rest on her pillow. She could feel the warmth of Tish's body and the weight of her arms and legs draped over her. It felt nice to be close to someone like this, even to have a simple touch. She sighed realizing it was her own fault for her own lack of relationships with other people. And now here she was feeling guilty using Tish as a substitute. "Psst", Jenn tried to rouse her roommate. Tish stirred and hugged her a bit tighter, instinctively communicating it wasn't time to get up yet. "Hey goof. Wake up." Tish's eyes opened and looked up at Jenn and she smiled and then realized the position she was it. She untangled her legs from Jenn's and scooted back in a bit of embarrassment. "Oh my god. I'm sorry. Was I suffocating you?" "Umm no but my arm is asleep. I've been letting you sleep for awhile." "Really?" "Yeah looked really peaceful. I hated to wake you." "Jenn sorry. I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable. I'm used to hugging my big pillow while I sleep and I guess I just sorta came over." "So I'm a big pillow? That is what you are saying?" "Jenn, no. That's not what I meant". "I'm teasing you. And I wasn't uncomfortable... at all. You can stay in bed, it's still early. Gonna put some coffee on and go to the bathroom and I'll be back. "NOT fair.", Tish rolled her eyes and got back under the covers. She just wanted to get back to sleep and take advantage of this Saturday morning and finally get some rest. She was just about to drift back to sleep when she heard something. The doorbell was ringing. 'What in the world.', she thought, hoping Jenn would send whoever it was and whatever they were selling away and come back to bed. Jenn came in a few moments later. "Get up and get dressed, we have company.", Jenn told her with a concerned look on her face. Tish climbed out of bed peeked her head out of the room and saw someone standing outside the front door, waiting. She quickly got to her own room and put on some sweat pants and t-shirt to cover herself. The look Jenn gave her wasn't good but she had no idea in the world what the problem could possibly be. When she emerged from her room, she understood exactly what Jenn's look was about. Standing in their living room was agent Smith from the CTF. "Good morning to you both, sorry for the early intrusion this morning but you were first on my list." "What's this all about?", Tish questioned him directly. "It's Saturday morning for crying out loud!" "It is and I promise I wouldn't be here except for a discrepancy I need to clear up." "Discrepancy", Jenn asked. She had an idea what this was about but didn't know where it was going yet. Her heart rate had quickened a bit. "Yes. As you see here we have a record of your deposits. Looks like so far you are on a timely basis and everything is in order, it's just that none of your deposits have included a bowel movement. Tish hated that description and would have rather he just said #2. It sounded so weird to her. But what concerned her more was being questioned about this. Surely they couldn't be asking about this already. It had only been 3 days. "Either you have the worst constipation of anyone on my entire list or...", he hesitated and then continued, "... or we have a little problem. I'd like to question you each individually. Tish if you don't mind just waiting in a different room so I can talk to Jenn about this." "Wait, agent Smith, I do have a medical problem. It can sometimes take me days to go. I'm sure tomorrow I'll be fine and every..." "Tish, just stop.", Jenn interrupted her. "Agent Smith, I'm sorry. Tish is just trying to protect me. It's my fault. Last night she used the toilet for her #2. I wasn't watching her and she panicked and I wasn't able to stop her.. It was her first time and it was a mistake. I'm sorry it won't happen again." "Jenn!" "Tish, honesty is the best policy here. We filled out your entire medical history, your routines, all of it. They would know if you had any medical problems so just stop it and tell him." "Is this true Tish?" Tish stammered but then finally shook her head in the affirmative. She felt like she was 5 years old and had wet the bed and her parents were upset with her, deciding what to do next while she waited. Agent Smith was taking notes on his iPad that apparently had a detailed log of Tish's bathroom habits and clicked a few buttons. "Very well. Since this is a first offence I am going to let you off with a warning. I just want to let you know it is within my purview to have you confined to one of our centers to have you monitored for 72 hours if there are any more problems." "What? I'm not going anywhere.", Tish said and got a look from Jenn that told her to shut her mouth immediately. "Thank you Agent Smith for only giving us a warning. I want you to know I talked to Tish about this and there won't be any more issues from us. You can expect a full deposit tomorrow if you know what I mean." Tish huffed and put her hands on her hips. She couldn't believe Jenn had just said that. Jenn tried to lead the agent to the door, hoping to end this visit as soon as possible but he interrupted her. "Yes. Only a warning and no removal from the home, but I do think it's a good idea for you to use one of the QC kits." "Agent Smith, is that really necessary?", Jenn asked in a tone that Tish didn't like the sound of. "QC Kit? What is that?" Ignoring Tish, the agent responded to Jenn, "It's either this or we would need to monitor Tish for a few days at the center, and also a refresher course for you on proper sponsor guidelines as well. I'm willing to try this measure first but that is my decision." Jenn looked at Tish, nodding at her to let her know everything would be ok. "What is happening? What is a QC Kit? Someone tell me what is going on?", Tish didn't know whether to cry or scream. She hated being left out of the loop like this. What were they going to do to her. "Tish, it's not a big deal. Just something to make sure you use your diaper. We went through all this in my training." Tish backed away, not knowing what was going to happen next. If it wasn't a big deal why was Jenn acting so funny? Jenn came over and sat her on the couch and talked to her for a moment. "Agent Smith, I'll see to it she uses the QC Device. If that will be all?", hoping once again that he would leave. "Actually no, I do need visual confirmation she is wearing it before I can leave.", he held up the iPad showing he had boxes to tick off and that he also had superiors he had to answer to as well. "Fine", Jenn said. And that was the first time Tish heard any irritation from Jenn, especially to this person who could make their lives miserable at any moment. The agent took off his back pack and removed a black nylon bag from it that had a draw string. He loosened it and pulled several things from the bag and laid them on the table. These items were not foreign to Jenn but she didn't ever think she would encounter them again after completing her training. "Do you need any assistance?" "No agent Smith, I know how they work." Jenn rummaged through the items that were in the bag looking for a particular item. She held up what looked like a pair of shorts that were made of a thick but semi-stretchy material. They were a gray bland color; size small. She looked a Tish. "Tish this is a quality control kit. QC. You are going to have to wear these shorts over your diaper." "Ohhhhh kay...", Tish was still wondering what the big deal was. Jenn approached her with the weird looking shorts. "Tish, let's get these on and see how they fit." Tish rolled her eyes. The last thing she wanted to do was take her sweatpants down again in front of this guy. She was convinced all he wanted to do was ogle at her diapered behind. She tried to move so that Jenn was between her and the agent before she reluctantly slipped her sweat pants down. Her diaper was obviously wet and her face turned red. It was made even worse when the CTF agent came over and stood next to Jenn as she worked the shorts up Tish's legs. "Ok stand up for us." 'Us? What was this us stuff!?, Tish wanted to protest but Jenn was just trying to get them through this. Jenn grabbed the thick waist band of the shorts and worked them up Tish's legs and then over the diaper resting over her little hips. It was a tight fit but she eventually got them on. The leg gatherings hugged Tish's thighs like a pair of her yoga shorts, concealing the diaper within. Jenn grabbed the thick waistband and gave a few adjustments. The band went around her waist and was thicker thicker than the rest of the garment and stuck out a little. The edges were soft but sturdy. The front of the shorts next to her belly button were left open and there was some sort of fastener there. Tish felt like she was being manhandled around and didn't understand any of this as Jenn jostled her small body around. "It's too tight.", She protested as she tried to push Jenn's hands away from her. She had had enough for this morning. "Yeah they can be a little stiff, they will loosen up a bit over time. The material does stretch but this is the only size that will fit you.", Agent smith interjected. He also saw that Tish was resisting a little and offered Jenn some assistance. "Jenn, if she resists you have the restraints available to you as well remember. Shall I get those out for you?" "WHAT!? Jenn is he serious!? Don't even think about touching me asshole.", Tish lashed out. "Jenn, don't let him near me. Please, what is going on?" "Tish, calm down. I'll handle this but you need to be calm for me ok?", She put her hands on Tish's cheek and got right into her face and looked at her eye to eye like a mother would do with a panicked child. "Ok? Can you do that for me?" Tish nodded. She understood but was still scared. "Agent Smith, no I don't think that is necessary. Tish will do as I ask, she is just scared. Be patient with us for a moment if you wouldn't mind.", Jenn pleaded with the agent with all the diplomacy she could muster. "Very well, but I am on a schedule. If you could finish quickly, I'll be on my way. Jenn returned to Tish and her hands with to the front of the shorts. Jenn brought the ends of the waistband together. One side sort of slide into the other and she fastened them by pushing the ends together and Tish heard clicking until the wide band tightened over her hips and Jenn couldn't close them any tighter. The shorts pulled at her hips a little and caused her whole diaper area to tighten up. Tish let out a little grunt at the last click at the pressure increased . Jenn ignored her and pulled down on the shorts ensure they were no way they could slide down or come off. Tish's hands immediately went to the front to try to loosen them and quickly realized they were locked on her. The fastener was smooth and seamless and there was no apparently way to undo it by herself. She looked up at Jenn, simply staring at her demanding an answer to what this was. Jenn knew Tish was about to go nuclear and she didn't want that to happen in front of the CTF agent. She grabbed Tish and hugged her and whispered into her ear. "Shhh shhh. I know its scary but trust me you are safe with me. I promise. I promise. Whatever happens just please don't say anything else until he is gone ok? Please sweetie.", Tish heard her. And she nodded and Jenn could feel her head bobbing up an down on her shoulder indicating she would agree. "If I may?", Agent Smith said. He came over and replaced Jenn. He inspected the pants, the locking mechanism and then tested the shorts by pulling them down by the waistband. He tugged on them so hard Tish's knees had to give a little. He spun her around and performed the same test from the back. The thick band ensnaring here was almost like a handle that he used to control her and she felt like a rag doll being shifted left and right, front and back. Tish now had tears freely flowing and she stood there in shame with her head lowered. It only took a few seconds for him to inspect her and then it was over. Agent Smith made some notes on his electronic pad and then proceeded to leave. "Jenn, I'm going to start her off with a week using the QC kit. I will be making random inspections to ensure you are using it so please make sure she knows that. The rest of the kit is there including all the accessories, two pairs of pants and another pair of shorts. If you need anything else let me know." "I think we have everything we need. Thank you agent Smith." "It's no problem. I hope after a week or so we are all back on track and I can stop seeing you girls so much." Jenn bit her tongue at this point too. She wanted to slap this guy for what he was doing to Tish but this was his job and Tish had in fact broken the rules. They both had. She did think it was extremely unfair he was doing this on the first offence but she was warned she would have extra scrutiny as a sponsor. The agent finally left and Jenn shut the door and locked it and breathed a sigh of relief before turning around to see Tish sitting on the couch looking. "Come here.", Jenn told her as she reached out her arms. Tish went into Jenns arms for much needed hug and didn't let go as she cried onto her friend. "Jenn, why are you doing this to me." "Hey it's not me. I don't want this any more than you do. We broke the rules and this is what happens." Tish looked at herself and inspected the shorts she had on. "Now that he is gone we can take these off" "Tish, now come on. You know better than that." "What's that supposed to mean? Take these off of me, they are too tight. I need to change anyway, I'm soaked from peeing all damned night. I want this thing off, NOW!", Tish was becoming agitated and actually yelled at Jenn. Tish pushed and pried and pulled at the shorts. There was no way she could slide them down, even over her slender frame. They held the diaper tightly and securely on to her. She felt like she could feel every inch of it gnawing at her. In a panic she went to the kitchen and got the scissors and tried to cut at the material. Jenn just watched her fumble with it knowing it was futile. "Tish, you are going to hurt yourself. Stop.", Jenn said, deflated and unsure how to calm her down. Tish could barely find a spot to get the blades in because the shorts were basically sealed to her skin. And the fabric seemed impervious to the scissors. She tried to cut the material but it was useless. She threw the scissors into the sink and screamed. Jenn knew she was about to pop and decided to let her finally yell outloud. There was no sense in trying to reason with Tish at this point. Her brain wasn't working. "Tish, it's no use. Those shorts don't come off. That is what they are designed for. We have garments like that at the hospital too. You know for patients who try to take their clothes off or are having a fit. Sorta like you are doing now." Tish gave up, mainly due to exhaustion. She heard Jenn patronizing her and she didn't like it. She marched up to Jenn and got in her face, "Are you going to take these off or not." "Not until you calm down." "I AM CALM!" Jenn just looked at her with incredulity and put her hands on her hips. She didn't need to tell Tish has foolish she sounded. Tish picked at her shorts again and tried to get to the diaper underneath. The tried to work her fingers up the leg gathering but that didn't work either. It was of no use. Her diaper was off limits. "Jenn. This is crazy. I can't even f'ing breath in these things. Come on! GOD!" "Tish, you are overreacting." "Oh really? Please Jenn you have know idea. Do you?" Jenn really didn't but during her training she knew these devices would be needed for people who wouldn't comply with the program. They were mostly told it would be the younger kids who wouldn't comply or simply forget or try to sneak out without a diaper. She never thought she'd have to use a QC device on her best friend. She hated it for her but at this point they were stuck. Tish's tone of voice was at least now a bit more calm and rational. Approaching that of a conversational tone at least which gave Jenn a chance to explain the situation to her. She told Tish that only she or a CTF agent could remove the shorts allowing her a diaper change. She also explained that if the shorts were tampered with or removed in any way that CTF would be alerted. When locked, a signal was sent somewhere. Likewise when they were unlocked, a signal would be sent to track her. A deposit would be expected shortly thereafter. This method of enforcement seemed ingenious to Jenn. Not only did it actually ensure the diapers were used for their intended purposes, but the CTF could track a person's bathroom schedule, when to expect deposits, how long a person was out of the diaper and on and on. Tish was exhausted from what just happened over the last 20 minutes. She fell onto the couch and wanted to cry again. She looked up. "Jenn.", was all Tish could say. As if saying, 'Help me.' "I know, I know.", Jenn sat next to her and hugged her. "My sweet girl. What are we going to do with you huh?", Jenn rubbed her back. Trying to do anything to show her she wasn't alone. "Now that you are calmed down we can talk about what is going on ok?" Tish nodded. "I'm going to unlock these shorts..." Tish cut her off and hugged her, "Thank you thank you so much." "Wait a minute. I wasn't finished. I'm going to unlock the shorts... AFTER you #2 in them." "Jenn, come on." "Come on what? Were you not planning on pooping in that diaper because I'm pretty sure if the next diaper we deposit isn't full of your crap, we are both gonna get in trouble. And you have to admit, this will make sure of it right?" "But..." "No buts for your butt. Look at you already trying to get out of it. I think you thought you could somehow avoid doing this forever somehow. You told me yesterday you were ready and for some reason I believed you. Well now it is happening and there isn't anything you can do about it. We're getting this over with, today and that is final." Tish just looked at her like she was crazy. What was this 'we' stuff? She was the one having to do this. She was mad that Jenn included herself in this as if they were equally going through this hell. "Don't look at me like that. You know I'm right. I think if you weren't trapped in that diaper right now you'd be figuring out some scheme to cheat again. It's just as well. You can get this over with and I'll get your cleaned up and into a fresh diaper soon. Let's just break the ice and get through it together." Tish was sick of Jenn trying to be so positive. Her morning was ruined. She just wanted to lay in bed and sleep in and now she was being forced to do this. In reality not much had changed for her except there physically was no way out. That made it worse somehow She knew Jenn was right, she probably would have tried to back out of doing this if she could. Knowing now that it was inevitable made her nervous. It was completely out of her control now and she didn't like that feeling. Her most basic bodily functions was at the mercy of someone else. She didn't know how to feel exactly. It was a mixture of anger and helplessness all wrapped into one mess of emotions. How could a person deal with this. How was everyone else getting throught it all. "Hey, it's still early, why don't we go lay down for awhile huh? You'd like that right? Let's be lazy and just shut the curtains and go back to bed for a bit." "I don't know." "Come on, I'll start the coffee and when we get up an hour it will be ready for us. Besides, the coffee will make you poop faster right?" "Jenn, stop!" Jenn took her by the hand and they plopped back down in bed. Jenn shut the lights off and shut the curtains. It wasn't totally dark but the room was nice and the pillows were cool when they rested there heads on them. Tish turned away from Jenn and rested on her side. "Oh you are going to be like that huh? Well you can't be mad at me forever. It's for your own good and you know it.", Jenn teased her a bit and scrunched up against her, sort of spooning her and giving her a hug from behind. Tish felt Jenn's body behind her. Her mid section was pressed against her thick diapered bottom, which served as a barrier between then. Tish didn't respond. She wasn't in the talking mood but she wanted Jenn to know it wasn't all her fault. She removed her hand from under her head and found Jenn's hand hugging her waist. She grabbed it and slipped her fingers through Jenn's and pulled her closer. It was a bit of comfort she desperately needed at the moment. Even though she was still miffed at Jenn for her part in confining her like this, she still needed her right now. She closed her eyes and fell back asleep. --- Tish opened her eyes and and woke from sleeping so hard. At first she thought what had happened this morning was a dream until she felt the tight thick wet diaper pressing into her. She reached down and felt the shorts covering the diaper and quickly realized it was no dream. She was groggy and didn't know what time it was. So rolled over to see Jenn but the bed was empty and sort of made up nice and neat. The sun was bright, shining through the edges of the curtains and she knew she must have slept longer than she thought. She sat up in bed, noticing her wet cold diaper again. She felt disgusting already and the urge to pee again after getting up was already gnawing at her so she sat on the edge of the bed and let it happen. She felt the pee escape into the diaper and soak into the thick material encasing her. It soaked it up as usual but she could still feel the warmth from it it which at least had replaced the cold damp feeling. She was pretty sure the diaper couldn't hold any more pee at this point it was so full. She got out of bed and immediately felt her full stomach. She knew she would have to #2 soon as she usually did in the mornings. There was no escape now and it was only a matter of time. She went to find Jenn so she could get this over with and get changed. The house was silent and Jenn was nowhere to be found. When she got to the kitchen there was a note next to her coffee cup that Jenn had set out for her. "Good morning Tish. Sorry but there was an emergency I got called into work. I didn't want to wake you, you looked so sweet and peaceful sleeping. I'm sorry we couldn't spend the morning together. I'll be home as soon as I can. -J". Tish was frozen and blankly stared out the window into the street in sort of a trance as Jenn's note slipped through her fingers.

Chapter 15 It was a long night. Tish found herself tossing and turning throughout it. She had slept like a baby in Jenn's room last night. She giggled at the thought of how that sounded. She set her alarm to get up early. She wanted to show Jenn she could stay on track this morning. Some sort of gesture to show her she was sorry. She peed once during the night, having had a large drink at dinner last night right before bed. And as usual when she got up and started moving around she let her bladder relax again and flooded her diaper. She stood there for a few moments while the coffee was brewing, letting the warmth spread throughout the seat of her diaper and between her legs. "You were peeing just now right?" Tish jumped and about knocked over the coffee pot when she heard Jenn ask her the question. "Uhh uhh.. yeah sorry about that." "Why be sorry? Do what you have to do. I just caught you though didn't I?" "Yes, are you trying to embarrass me?" Tish turned away and Jenn approached her from behind and wrapped her arms around her and gave her a hug. "I'm sorry about last night. I was too hard on you. I thought about it all night. I could have handled it better." She felt Jenn's chin nestle rest on her neck and the squeeze of her arms around her. She enjoyed the closeness but was relieved to not have an awkward morning with her friend. "Jenn, it's my fault. I derserved it. You had a long day and then I made it worse. I'm to blame." Tish turned around so they were facing each other. "In fact, I think I probably got off light given the circumstances. I was afraid of how we would be this morning. You know I can't stand you being mad at me. It kept me away all night Jenn." "Yeah, you got off light you turkey.", Jenn gave her a proper hug now and Tish let herslef relax in Jenn's embrace for a moment, savoring the attention. "I'm glad your up early. Why don't we get this wet diaper changed and we can have a little coffee together.", Jenn said as she patted Tish diapered bottom playfully. Jenn broke the hug and took Tish gently by the hand and let her into the bedroom. "Lay down now and I'll take care of everything. I should have just done this last night instead of leaving it to you." Tish layed down in her usual spot waiting for Jenn to come take care of her. She'd only had a few changes so far but for some reason Tish felt protected in someway, and eager for Jenn to take care of her. It didn't take Jenn long to remove the nighttime diaper and the cool air hit between Tish's legs after being concealed all night within the thick padding. Tish was more relaxed this morning. Not as tense as last night. She let her legs fall open naturally, a little less reluctant about Jenn seeing her exposed like this. She even let her eyes meet Jenn's as she walked over. "What?", Jenn asked. "Nothing." "Ok, weirdo. Let's have a look how this redness is doing shall we." Jenn put her hands on Tish, this time taking more liberty with her examination. She pushed her legs apart, examined her entire crotch and diaper area and even her behind by pushing her legs up and back a bit. Tish let her do as she pleased. "Oh good this looks much better down here. I was worried you'd be really sore today and I want you to be comfortable. I'm going to try my best to make sure you are always comfortable OK Tish?" "Thanks.", Tish gave a one word answer, not sure what to do or say while being poked and prodded like this. She figured Jenn's nurturing side took over and that she treated her like any other patient she had to deal with at work. But part of her wanted to be special and not just another patient needing a task checked off their list by nurse Jenn. Jenn grabbed her bottle of lotion and squirted directly on to her friends private area this time. She methodically applied it like she had done last night, but this time making sure her entire diaper area was covered to avoid any more rashes. The remaining lotion she had on her hands she wiped into her own hands and forearms before prepping another diaper from the supply. Jenn motioned and Tish raised her small butt up a little as she felt the new diaper being slipped underneath her. She wiggled into it, settling on a good position and looked at Jenn giving her the nod. Jenn taped her as sucessfully as she had done before and they found their way to the kitchen to enjoy a quick breakfast. "I didn't even ask earlier but I'm assuming you didn't need to #2 this morning?" Tish about spit out her piece of toast in embarassment. "God Jenn, no. Not after last night." "You really need to stop being anxious about all this. It's no secret at this point. I mean I just changed your diaper, can't I ask you that question now?" "I just wasn't ready for it was all. Not sure I'll ever be, to be honest." "Well, you are going to have to get used to it. I want to know what you need, and how are you feeling, so I can give you the best care I can. That's why I ask, not to make fun of you or embarass you. You know that right? And don't keep things from me like your rash. Something like that can get worse before you know it." Tish hesistated and felt unfamiliar to this level of care and concern. Never once did John even show this level of thoughtfulness to her. He kept popping into her mind throughout the day but she had to be honest that dealing with the diapers and Jenn seemed to push the thoughts of him into the background. "I'm lucky to have you." "You bet your diapered butt you are! Now we both need to finish getting ready. I have work, you have classes today yes? You also need to take both disposal bags from last night and this morning and check them in on your way OK?" "Yes Ma'am". Jenn got up and walked behind Tish and gave her a kiss on the top of her head. "And don't call me Ma'am. Makes me sound old." "Got it." Jenn threw a smile at her and then vansished into her room and Tish took a few moments to enjoy her hot coffee and her toast. She sipped and knew she'd have to pee soon because of it but she decided not to let her diapered life control her habits. If she wanted a drink, she'd have a drink. She'd be dealing with a wet bottom soon enough so why take away one of her only few pleasures in life. She was still having her coffee and reading on her phone when Jenn came out. She looked put together and ready to go. She work dark blue scrubs and carried a designer backpack with all her things. She had it all together and Tish pondered on that compared to where she was at in life. "Hey don't sit there until the last minute. Get to class OK? See you tonight." "Ok ok. Have a great day Jenn." "You too hun. Oh and don't forget! Two deposits this morning.", Jenn said as she rushed out the door. "Thanks!", Tish said, but wasn't sure Jenn could hear her. She actually would have forgoten if Jenn hadn't said something. "I'm a mess.", she told herself Before she finished getting ready she put both bags in front of the door so she wouldn't forget. She finished her morning routine and picked out some clothes to wear. It was winter time but not terribly cold. She wondered what summer would be like trying to find clothes. How would she get to the beach? Maybe this whole thing would be over by then. She was procrastinating now. She picked out some loose fitting pants that didn't accentuate her figure. She huffed. She went to the mirror and looked at herself. She looked at her figure in the mirror. Her petite trim figure was hidden. She didn't have to work at it but she did anyway. Usually by running, but that was out of the question for now. The diaper was just out of place on her. Nothing fit and nothing looked good. She didn't feel attractive or cute any more. The whole diaper scheme to find some magic cure for the world seemed horrible at first to her, but it was unintended consequences, like her wardrobe and social life that made everything so much worse. She stopped looking and got dressed. Her diaper would be noticable under her pants if anyone cared to look, and they probably would. She was used to getting looks and even secretly enjoyed that but now she didn't want anyone even noticing her if possible. She packed up her things, grabbed the used diaper bags and headed to the corner. 'Great... a line today?', she quipped. There were 5 people in line at the deposit station. A couple of adults and a few people perhaps younger than her. The adults were probably dropping off for their teen children who were already on their way to school and she didn't recognize anyone else. She didn't like standing here, queued up in front of passerbys trying to check out the diapered people. She kept her head down until it was finally her turn and deposited both bags. The screen gave her 2 check marks indicating a successful deposit of her apparently much needed waste. 'All yours idiots.', she miffed at the machine as if insulting it would help her circumstances somehow. She made it to class as usual and things were uneventful and by the time she got to work she was pretty wet. She had gotten a little braver and began to pee wherever she was at. Sometimes she was even able to let it come out while walking. She didn't want to lose control though so she always made an effort to concentrate on peeing rather than relaxing too much. While putting on her work apron, she realized she had been in this wet diaper for about 8 hours now. She would paused like that every once in awhile and contemplate the situation. It was only day 3 and her life seemed so different than the previous day, and the day before that. It still didn't seem real. 'At least my front is covered.', she thought and tried to look back at her behind, probably poofed out for all to gawk at. She began work and the after school crowd showed as usual. There was always rush when classes got out in the afternoon. College kids need their coffee and she was no exception. She enjoyed the work and didn't mind making a little extra money while attending school. Person after person come through the line. She knew many of them had to be diapered like her but she didn't care about any of them. "Tish! Hey I didn't know you worked here." "Hey Beth.", tish calmly replied hoping to calm the ever so positive Beth down before the conversation continued. "So how did your diaper rally go?" "Oh Tish don't be a party pooper. It wasn't a diaper rally. We were there to show support for the cause. You should have come it got a little interesting." "Oh why is that?" "There were actually a few people there in sort of a counter protest. Saying how this system is unfair, targeting the youth, taking away their freedoms and on and on. Mostsly fringe types I suspect. Can you believe how selfish people can be?" Tish was amazed at what she was hearing. This was the first time she had heard of anyone that remotely felt like her. "Uh huh. Yeah probably fringe like you said. So did you all get into a huge brawl or something. Clash of the diapers", Tish laughed at her own joke but then realized it wasn't that funny. "Nooo silly, we basically stayed on our area and they stayed on their. No drama." "So who were these people because I thought the whole world was on board with everything ya know?" "No clue. Why do you care so much?" "Just making talk, geez. So what can I get you? A cappuccinoor something?" "Nah how about a grande iced coffee. It will go right through me but I'm protected.", she back away showing Tish her diaper covered in the same style of yoga pants she always wore. "Yep your are definitely not shy about it are you?" "Hey, c'mon now. What's the point. Everyone knows already and I'm stuck in them just like you. Besides, they aren't all bad right? Don't ever have to worry about finding a bathroom in time and helps when going out to the bar, know what I mean?" "Yeah I hear ya there.", Tish lied. She didn't go to bars very often and had no intention of going to one soon. All she really wanted to do was finish work and get home to see Jenn where she found her only comfort in life right now. She made a bit more small talk with Beth before ringing her and sending her on her way. Tish watched the diapered girl bounce out of the shop and walk off with her group to who knows where. She was mad after this encounter. She didn't know why. Why was Beth dealing with this so well. She had friends, a group, and even seemed to LIKE wearing a diaper. Maybe she was all talk and this was her way of coping with it all. Hell everyone is different and Tish didn't want to judge her. But something about her overly positive attitude just drove Tish up the wall. Speaking of, as soon as she turned around Alison took her to the side. "Hey, I need you to work late tonight and close ok?" "Really? Sorta had plans tonight.", she lied again. She wanted to get home and hang out with Jenn. "Look I'm really sorry but I can't close tonight and one of the other girls is in trouble. I know its short notice but would you mind? It's overtime pay." "In trouble? What does that mean." "All I know is she had to go to the local CTF office. She got a letter in the mail and her parents took her down there. I don't think she was using her diaper like she was supposed to. I'm not sure when she will be back or if." "Really?", Tish said, and a wave of nervousness hit her. She felt vulnerable and exposed having used the real bathroom last night. But she knew there was no way they could possibly know her bathroom schedule, even if it was only a few days. Besides she had been turning in soaked diapers daily so far so it's not like she wasn't participating. "Fine, it's no problem. I got you." "Tish, thank you so much you are a life saver.", Alison went back to work and Tish sighed. She didn't want to work until 9pm. She texted Jenn to let her know she would be home late and to figure out dinner on her own. Tomorrow was Saturday so it wouldn't be that bad. She could sleep in and finally get some downtime. She hoped Jenn would be home but she was often on call and had to work weekends. Tish looked at the clock. 4 PM. It would be a long night. She let her bladder relesae and peed a little. It was actually getting easier and the stress of that wasn't like it was at first. Just as a little started to dribble out, she saw him. Agent Smith coming for his afternoon coffee. She still didn't trust this guy and thought the only reason he was in there was to hit on her or spy on her. She clenched her muscles and any pee that was about to go into her diaper stopped for the time being. "Agent Smith, the usual?" "Yes Tish.", uhhg she hated that he called her by her first name but was afraid to correct him. It wasn't that big of deal. She got his beverage while he asked how she was doing. "Fine", she kept it short. She got him in and out of there in 5 minutes and she kept the chit chat to a minimum amount while trying not to tick him off. He still had power and she knew it. No reason to poke a bear. And besides, he wasn't being a jerk or anything. Maybe this was the only job he could get and was a loser? She doubted that based on his appearance, and thought it was much more likely he liked the job because of the power it gave him. A "bro" or something like that. She knew a lot of cops became cops because they like the power. It was settled, this guy was on a power trip. Tish's shift continued for the next couple of hours uneventfully. She had drank way to much coffee and peed too many times. She actually wondered how much one of these diapers could hold. She hadn't seem to find a limit yet but knew there must be one. The coffee shop was quiet from 8 to 9 so she was able to sit on a stool and study one of her school books for awhile before having to start the cleanup routine. She was engrossed in study when she heard a voice. "Can I get a coffee?" "Jenn! Oh my god!" Tish about cried. She didn't know why but came around the counter and hugged her friend. She felt a bit embarassed at her overly eager reaction but told Jenn about her long day and how she just wanted to get home and relax and hang out. "Sorry, I'm just so bored. And..." "And what? Go on." "My diaper is super wet. Too much coffee. I think I might have overdone it. It's been almost 12 hours ya know." "I know, and thank you for telling me. Any rubbing or itching down there after so long?" Tish felt like she was being interrogated again all of a sudden and wanted to change the subject. "No I'm fine. What are you doing here?" "Oh I worked late since you were working late, and I came to pick you up and then we'll get some food. Sound good?" "That sounds amazing. I'm so excited. Let me get your coffee, decaf of course, and I'll get this place cleaned up and shut down and we can go. Anywhere you want too, my treat, really my treat!" Tish's whole attitude had changed. The thrill of Jenn coming to see her and pick her up made her feel so warm and... well she couldn't place the feeling. Safe, she just felt safe. --- When they got home they spread their takeout on the on kitchen table and Tish sat down. "How about we change you real quick? Would you like to get out of that wet thing?" "Jenn, I'm starving and I think I'm going to pee one more time soon. I'd rather do it now ya know?", Tish explained it more plainly that she expected herself to. All of a sudden she was talking openly about her diaper, her need to pee and when. Jenn's company calmed her and she felt a little more comfortable expressing. "Find by me, just don't leak on the furniture." "Hey!" "Well they don't hold an infinite amount you know." Tish thought this was funny as she was literally just thinking about this earlier. "I know. I won't leak." "Hey did you know there was some sorta of protest on the campus during that rally?" "Protest?", Jenn asked. "Yeah a girl at school said it was a whole thing, signs and everything. People against the CTF fighting for their rights and all that." "Oh no Tish. Don't even think about it. You are gonna lay low remember? After everything that happened last night. You promised me, straight and narrow path, no trouble." "I know I know, I just thought it was interesting." "Put it out of your mind Tish.", Jenn told her and she did. They enjoyed dinner and cleaned up. Tish looked at Jenn and she knew what she wanted. "Ready for a change?" "Yes please.", Tish though this was rediculous. She hated having to ask and act this way but she knew Jenn didn't care. "Actually, I need a shower. If you untape me I'll lay out the fresh diaper and you wont have to do anything but put it a new one on me ok?" "You don't need to #2 after all day?", she said in a bit of a patronizing tone. "No. Honest." "Ok, well I'll untape you in the bathroom. C'mon" She had Jenn sit down on the cold tile floor before removing the diaper. She was glad she did this in here. The diaper had swelled to the point of almost bursting from the amount of urine it had soaked up. "Tish, this diaper it at about it's limit. Holy cow girl, you can pee a lot." Tish blushed and layed there naked on the floor not saying anything for a moment. "Ok, shower time for me. Thanks Jenn." Jenn got up and helped Tish up as well, but instead of leaving she sat down on the the closed toilet lid and used it as a chair indicating she wasn't going anywhere. "Jenn? Can I get my shower now?" "Yes, go ahead." Tish was confused. What was happening. She threw her hands up in frustration wondering why Jenn wasn't leaving. "Tish, I'm staying here to make sure you don't use the toilet. Go ahead and get your shower and I'll just read on my phone here for a bit." "Jenn, c'mon. You don't have to do this. Really?" "Really? C'mon", she echoed back at her in a mocking tone. Tish was in shock. She coudn't believe Jenn didn't trust her. But after thinking about it she hadn't given her any reason to trust her. Even though Jenn had been changing her diapers, it seemed odd having to shower in front of her. She felt even more on display and exposed for some reason. She compartmentalized the diaper changes into a different part of her daily routine. That was the time she alloted for anxiety and embarassment in front of Jenn. That was the time she knew to plan for and how to handle it, but now she was unexpectedly being ask, actually told to be vulnerable at other times. Her shower time was the one part of the day should could escape the diaper, escape the world and let the relaxing water run down her body and wash the day away. She felt robbed of this experience if Jenn was going to be right there. Tish turned the water on to the temperature she liked and got a fresh towel from the closet. Jenn sat there looking at her phone, scrolling through whatever social media was interesting to her. Tish took her top off slowly and sort of chucked it over in the corner. She looked at Jenn. "So you are just gonna sit there and watch me shower? Really?" "No weirdo, I'm going to sit here and mind my own business until you are done." Tish felt weird for implying that now, of course Jenn wouldn't be watching her. Why did she even care at this point. She let these thoughts run through her head as she stepped into the glass shower and felt the warm water hit her body. She faced away from Jenn, who was sitting about 5 feet from her but she felt trapped, like on display in a cage. This wasn't Tish's first time in front of other girls by any means, she had always done sports and showered many times in front of other girls in high school and earlier in college after games and practices. But this was different. Why did she feel so vulnerable and uneasy right now. The whole situation was weird. She continued soaping up and just decided to get it over with. Every once in awhile she would look over her shoulder to see if Jenn was looking. She never caught her staring which made her feel reassured everything was ok. She decided to wash her hair. It would only take a few extra minutes. She had a short pixie style cut the last few years making it easy and quick to wash. Jenn checked the time, already noticing this shower was taking Tish longer than she had promised. Tish always underestimated how long things took. Jenn looked up and saw Tish's hair and face full of soap and smiled. She took a moment knowing Tish couldn't see her and looked at her friend. She admired what she saw and wished she had Tish's body. All her years of sports and running had given her lean legs and a toned bottom. Jenn broke her gaze and went back to her phone, waiting for Tish to finally finish and then she heard the water finally turn off. "So that was 5 minutes? More like 15." "I'm sorry I'm sorry, this is my relaxing time and you aren't making it easy sitting there watching me." "I wasn't watching you!" "Fine ok. Can you at least hand me my towel so I can cover up?" Jenn threw her her towel. "I don't get why you are so embarassed. I've changed your diaper for crying out loud, and you are worried about a shower? Besides you know you look great, and I've always been jealous you know. I just don't have your motivation to work out." "Well thanks I guess but you you look just as good. Quit being like that. You know I don't like when you are down on yourself like that. Especially when there is no reason to be." Jenn smiled. "But anyway this is my private time is all, when I get to unwind and relax. It's the 15 minutes a day I'm not trapped in that damned diaper and I guess I just feel so self conscious and on display all the time now. You can understand that right?" "Make sense. So then don't break the rules then and I'll start to trust you." "Fine." "Fine", Jenn playfully retorted back. Tish wrapped herself in her towel, glad to be covered up for a few minutes and combed through her hair and brushed her teeth before bed. Jenn left her alone, satisified she would behave herself. She exited the bathroom and headed for her room to pick up some pajamas to sleep in. "Hey, where you going. Get in here." "Gonna grab some clothes, be right there." "Tish, now. You took to long in there. I want to change and get ready to relax too you know." Tish turned towards Jenn's room, and huffed at being ordered around like this. She wanted to at least put on a shirt befor coming in here. Jenn already had the fresh diaper on the bed waiting for her. She didn't like seeing it there like that, knowing it would be on her shortly and there was nothing she could do about it. Jenn stood there and her body language was clear that she was in a hurry. Tish was still wrapped in her towel and didn't really want to drop it. "Tish, c'mon. What is the hold up here." Tish relenquised the towel and let it drop. She was just naked in front of her in the shower so why did this matter so much. She figured it was all just too personal. She tried to cover her breasts as she laid down and Jenn just rolled her eyes but didn't say anything. Finally Tish relaxed and let her arms drop to her sides exposing her small breasts again. She didn't care at this point. Her mind was so focused on her nudity and the weird experience of the shower she wasn't expecting Jenn's touch so quickly. She jumped and reached her hand down as if to stop her. "Tish! What are you doing. Relax OK?" "Sorry, I don't know what is wrong with me." "It's OK, just take a deep breath." Jenn didn't know what her problem was but knew she must be in a state of constant anxiety about all this. She tried to put herself in Tish's spot and did think about how hard it would be if Tish was doing all this to her. She applied the lotion as she did in the morning, noticing the rash was almost gone. Tish let out a little moan. "Doing ok? This rash is looking better." "Umm yeah, I'm ok. Are you done?" "Yes sweetie, all done.", Jenn said as she secured the diaper in place. Tish got up and sat there in just her diaper for a second and Jenn sat next to her. "You need to be more comfortable around me OK? Don't be shy or embarassed. We are going to have a long time together with all this and you know its going to get worse right?" Tish knew she was referring to her first #2 cleanup. She was dreading it and knew it would be happening soon. Jenn was right though. She needed to let her gaurd down and just get used to Jenn seeing her and touching her. It would be hard for both of them but Jenn was being so caring and supportive so she took comfort in that. "Ok, get put on some clothes and lets watch some tv for awhile before bed. How does that sound?" Tish nodded and found Jenn already on the couch. She came out of her room in only her tiny white sleep shirt, her diaper and socks. Jenn smiled, "No pants?" "No, I get too hot at night." "Gotcha. Well you look cute in just your diaper and socks." "Jenn, please stop it." "I'm just teasing you, but you kinda do." "JENN!" For the next hour they watched a couple reruns of The Office and Friends. Their typical 'fall asleep' shows. They were each taking an opposite end of the couch with their feet kind of touching in the middle. Tish had fallen asleep within about 15 minutes of them laying down and Jenn watched TV for awhile before getting tidying up for the morning. She sat down in front of Tish on the cushion and poked at her exposed tummy. "Tish, wake up. Time to go to bed." Tish stirred and smiled when she saw Jenn over her. "Don't tickle me. Sorry I must have just fallen asleep" "Uh huh, no you've been asleep for almost an hour. Let's go to bed." Jenn got up and Tish saw she had changed into her jammies as well. An old t-shirt and pair of pajama shorts. She rolled off the couch and headed for her room and told Jenn goodnight. "Tish" "Yeah?" Jenn gave a look and nodded towards her own room, indicating Tish could come with her. Tish lit up and smiled. "Really? You don't mind? I hate being alone in there." "I don't mind but you gotta sleep still. No flopping around." "Hey! I don't flop." "You flop." "Pfft."

Sorry for the long delay in getting a new chapter out! I needed some motivation! Hope everyone enjoys! Chapter 14. Tish successfully made it through her classes without incendent today and was now back at work for day 2 of her new life. At times the thought did pop into her head that she might be able to do this, that she might be able to get used to it. But then she would either have to pee herself or notice the constant bulk of diaper soaked in her urine and it disgusted her. Unlink everyone else on the planet, she knew she would never get used to this. Thankfully she hadn't had another run in with Allison today. The little brat would be more than she could handle today. Instead she focused on her job for the next several hours, always watching the clock. It was a busy day and that was fine by her as it made the day go by quicker. At times she thought she might just turn into a robotic version of herself. Sleep, diaper change, school work, home repeat. She would just accept the fact that shewouldn't have a life for awhile and that might help her get through this ordeal. Block everything out and keep expectations low. This type of thinking depressed her even more. She wasn't the type of have a defeatist attitude She didn't have much longer to linger on this as her next customer's voice was all too familiar. "Hello Tish, I'd like a large latte please", Agent Smith ordered. She was polite as she could be, wanting to do what Jenn asked of her. She rung him up and started making his drink. "How is everything going? If you have any questions just let me know." It took all of Tish's willpower to say this next part but she did. "Mr. Smith, I did want to apologize about your visit. I know you are just doing your job but it is very hard to be scrutinized like that by a stranger." "Don't worry about that at all Tish. My job is to help everyone through this. And I appreciate you saying that." "I'm sure you have a lot of people not complying with the rules and the last thing you need is me being a bother.", Tish stated inquisitively. "Actually, I haven't had any real issues so far. I do a couple of home visits but most of my work is at the office and fairly routine. You and Jenn are my only flagged account but it looks like you both have everything under control." "Flagged account? What's that mean?" "It's because Jenn is so young and a last minute sponsor. It's really no big deal. Just a littel extra scrutiny from time to time but I don't expect any problems from you two." Tish could tell if that was a demand or an observation. "Oh", Tish said blandly, disappointed that she was his only 'problem' account. She didn't want any extra scurtinization. She was an adult, not a child. "Well what would really help is more diapers. Any chance we could get more soon?" "Not yet, right now everyone is on 2 per day schedule. I'll let you know if more become available though." "Well thanks, here is your coffee.", she handed it to him and motioned to the next customer to get this interaction over with. "Thank Tish! See you tomorrow!" Tish was glad to be rid of him and she hated how he presumed to be on a first name basis with her. Who did this guy think he was? And she figured she would now be seeing him on a dialy basis at her coffee shop. When she was freed up with her next customer Allison appraoched her. "Hey, I saw you talking to that guy again. He's actually good looking! Anyway, I just wanted to say, way to go, on being a team player Tish! You gotta remember, people come in here for a nice drink and enjoyment and our bad day isn't there bad day ok?" The anger was building up, "Yeah I know Allison, thank you.", The nerve of Allison giving her a pat on the back for serving a cup of coffee. And she was sick of people telling her this guy was good lucking. She couldn't care less. But Tish bit her tounge, took Allison's comments and finished her shift. By the time she finally made it home, her diaper was very wet. She didn't ever remember peeing this much throughout a normal day in her prior life but maybe she did and never paid attention. The 2 coffees she normally had at work weren't helping either. The other issue she was trying to put out of her mind over the last several hours was her stomach. It had started making noises. She knew what was coming. She knew her body and she was about 12 hours overdue. The house was quiet. She didn't like it. It made her feel lonely. She wanted Jenn to be home but it would be another hour or so. She decided to straighten the house up and get dinner half prepared. Something to take her mind off being alone and the noises coming from her stomach. She tried to put that out of her mind for now but it wasn't working. She continued with some housework over the next hour until Jenn finally walked throughthe door. "Tish?" "Hey, welcome home. Dinner is ready we just need to warm it up. You hungry? "Yeah, I had a long day. I'm super tired so thank you for making dinner. I noticed you cleaned up too." "Yeah, just a little thank you for everything you do for me. I know I'm the last thing you want to deal with right now.", Tish said sullenly. "Tish.. don't be that way." "I know, I just feel bad. Would you mind heating dinner up while I get a shower? I'll lay my fresh diaper out and get everything ready so you just have to tape me up and then we can relax. How about that?" "Sounds good Tish.", Jenn said and stared as Tish stood there awkwardly waiting. "You need to untape me." "Think you can do it yourself carefully and not rip the tapes again?" Tish nodded eagerly, amazed that Jenn was trusting her to do this so soon after what happened the day before. "I'll be careful. Promise." "Fine." Tish scurried into the bathroom and shut the door. She was about to empty her bowels into her diaper at any minute. She could not hold it any longer and was beginning to panic. She waivered back and forth for a few seconds on what to do. Get this over with? Or... She looked at the toilet and contemplated it for a second. She thought to herself, 'just once isn't going to hurt. No one will know. I'll use my diaper for real tomrrow.' She reached down and gently pulled at the thick tapes securing the diaper snuggly to her and pulled them apart, one after the other until she felt the pressure of the soaked beast lessen. She let the soggy mass fall and it hit the floor with a thud. "Everything OK in there?", Jenn yelled. "Yep all good." Now naked, she rushed and plopped her bare butt on the toilet. It field weird sitting here for the first time in over 2 days. She relaxed and exhaled as her mess rushed into the toilet like it should in a normal person's life. She hadn't gone in 2 days and she was glad this large nasty mess was not inside her diaper, all over her right now. She got up and wiped herself like she normally would and looked into the bowl. 'Ewww.' She folded the diaper up and sealed it. And realized she forgot the disposal bag. God how could she be so stupid. This plan wasn't thought very well few and now she was panicing again. 'Ok ok, I have to hide this', she thought. Her hand went to the lever to flush the toilet out of instinct and she was met with the sound of the flush. It seemed louder than normal in the quiet house. 'Oh god!', she thought. She quickly got to the bathroom door and locked it at the same time Jenn started knocking. "Tish? What is going on in there. Did you flush the toilet? Why is this door locked?", Jenn jiggled the door knob. "Jenn? Sorry I can't hear you I'm in the shower. Be out in a few sweetie!", she tried to play it off. Tish finished cleaning herself. It felt so good to wash the stink of the day off of herself. She couldn't help but be constantly self conscious that she smelled like pee to everyone around her, even though the diapers hid the smell very well. She shut the water off and stepped out. "KNOCK KNOCK", "Tish, open this door right now. I mean it." "What? It's open." "No it is LOCKED.", Jenn said followed by some more banging. Tish went to the door and unlocked it and cracked the door open to peek out at her friend, hiding herself and the damaging evidence behind the door, "Sorry I guess I locked it out of habit. Is everything ok?" Jenn pushed passed her friend, who was standing there completely naked and dripping wet. "Where is it?" Tish tried to cover herself. "Don't play dumb with me." She walked up to Tish and moved her out of the way, revealing the rolled up diaper. She picked it up the heavy wet lump and examined it and then looked at Tish, then at the toilet. "You didn't!?" Tish hung her head in shame. There was no way she could lie. She never could. She sucked at it. "You used the toilet. Tish. I gave you the slightest bit of freedom after a really tough day for me. And this is what you do? You lie to me?" "Jenn, please don't be upset. No one will know. Tomorrow I will #2 in it. I promise. And we'll deposit it and everything will be normal ok?. Ok? Ok?", pleading that her friend wouldn't be upset with her. "I'LL KNOW! How can I trust you now? This is important Tish and you are treating this like its optional. It's not optional. It sucks I know but that is life. This is your life now." Jenn put her face in her hands in frustration and the stress of the day. Tish forgot about her nudity and went to Jenn. "Jenn, I'm sorry. I just couldn't bring myself to do it." "Tish, I don't want to hear it. I don't want to talk about this right now. Get dried off and get your ass in there and lay out your diaper. I'll be in shortly.", Jenn sternly said before slamming the door. Tish sulked to Jenn's room where her diapers were. Laying next to them was the disposal bag she needed. She put the wet diaper in it and sealed it up. She'd walk it down to the corner after dinner or in the morning. She laid out her next diaper on the bed and put on her favorite t-shirt. At least she'd be partially clothed when Jenn came in. She laid down on the diaper and got it situated under her like she liked it so far. She hoped Jenn would make this quick. "I'm ready.", she yelled into the kitchen and living area of their home. She didn't get a response for awhile. She waited a few more minutes. "Jenn, I'm ready!" "I'll be in shortly. Just stay there and be patient Tish." Tish laid there siliently on the fresh diaper, waiting to trap her for the next 11 hours. She stared at the ceiling, and listened for hints of Jenn coming in. She hated this feeling. She knew she screwed up, she pissed of her best and only friend, and now she was forced to lay and wait here like a child in silence for Jenn to come change her diaper. Jenn finally did come in about 10 minutes later. It seemed longer to Tish. Tish looked at her and could see the disappoinment on Jenn's face. She looked away as Jenn went to work. "Oh Tish, you are red down here! You didn't feel this?", she said as she rubbed the inside of Tish's thigh by her crotch. "Not really. It's kinda burny though now that you mention it." "Hang on, I have some lotion." Jenn returned and squirted a fair amount of her favorite lotion into her hand. She spread Tish's legs wider so she could apply it. Tish blushed at the embarassment of the position she was in. It was all too much still. She jumped at Jenn's touch. Jenn rubbed the lotion all over her legs and crotch and private area. It all happened to fast for her to really react. Once again she liked the attention but couldn't get over the anxiety and weirdness of Jenn doing this to her. "There, that should help. With how long you have to wear these wet diapers, I think we'll need to keep using this lotion at every diaper change, ok? "Ummm ok, if you say so.", Tish said in agreement. Jenn brought the thickness up between Tish's legs and secure the diaper. "Ok Tish, there you go. Your dinner is ready for you." Tish stood up, feeling a bit better. At least Jenn was talking to her. "What do you mean, my dinner? Aren't you eating?" "I already ate while you were in here waiting. I just needed some alone time." Tish felt heartbroken. She wanted them to enjoy the meal she made together. "Go on. We'll talk about it in the morning." Tish sulked out of the room. She didn't feel like eating now but managed to get a few bites in before cleaning up the dishes. It was still a bit early and she stopped by Jenn's room one last time and tip toed in and sat on the bed. Jenn let her. "Jenn I'm so sorry. It's not going to happen again. I Promise." "I know Tish, but you've promised before. I just hope they don't find out. And I want you to take this seriously. Is that possible?" "Jenn, Yes. I know I screwed up." "Well go to bed. I'll see you in the morning." "Ummm..." "Ummm what?" "Well I was hoping I could stay in here with you again?" "Tish, I don't think its a good idea ok? I'm sorry but you need to sleep in your own bed." A wave of emotion hit Tish. Why did she feel so sad? "I'm sorry Jenn. Goodnight.", she said as she hung her head and slowly walked out. "Goodnight Tish". Jenn watched Tish leave her room and felt bad for her. Was she too harsh? She knew she couldn't understand what her friend was going through but rules were rules. She shut her light off and let her head hit the soft pillow and stretched out on her bed. Tish finished getting ready for bed, brushed her teeth and went to her own room. Her bed was still unmade from two night before. She shook the sheets and blankets out a little and climbed in and let her head find her pillow as well. Between her tears and the thick diaper between her legs it took her awhile to fall asleep, but she eventually did.

Thank you for the feedback.. I'm glad the the developing relationship is coming through. Hoping to post a new chapter soon. So so busy -Tish

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Chapter 13 'Knock Knock', Tish rapped on Jenn's door quietly. "You can come in.", Jenn replied and Tish peeked through the cracked door into the darkness of Jenn's room. It was bigger than hers and she had her own bathroom too. It didn't really bother Tish much, that is just the way it worked out a long time ago when they moved in. Her room was always tidy so as she crept through the dark she knew she didn't have to worry about tripping over anything, unlike her room. "Everything ok?", Jenn got up and looked over at the alarm clock reading 12:30am. She assuming Tish was going to asked to be changed. She hated thinking she would have to tell her no. They had to make these diapers last but to her surprise Tish asked her something else. "Can I sleep in here tonight?", she asked in sort of an embarrassed and shy manner. "Ummm, Sure", Jenn hesitated while trying to absorb the request. "Are you done being mad at me?" "I'm sorry I yelled at you. I didn't mean it. I'm sorry I just can't sleep and feeling pretty down and alone. Is it too weird... would you mind?" "Sure hun, no problem.", Jenn scooched over and made room for Tish on the queen sized bed and patted where she should come lay. "Just no snoring." "I don't snore!." "You do." "Pfft. Good night." Jenn turned on her side, facing away from Tish and smiled. She thought it was sweet Tish asked to come in. If she could provide a little comfort to her she would. She knew today ranked pretty high as one of the worst days of her friend's life. She closed her eyes but for the next 15 minutes, all she could feel was Tish fidgeting and flopping around next to her. She finally had enough, "TISH! Go to sleep!." "Uhhg, I'm sorry but it's my first night wearing a diaper. It's hot and uncomfortable. Why does it have to be so thick? Ahhhh!" Jenn flipped over and looked at her friend. She took her hand and held it in the dark. "It's gonna be ok you know... I promise. Let's try putting a pillow between your legs and see if that lessens the pressure." Jenn got out of bed and walked across the room. Tish was able to see the silhouette of her friend by the faint light coming through the window. She could see Jenn's thin form in the darkness and could tell she was wearing only her t-shirt and panties. She caught herself staring, thinking how she wouldn't have the freedom to dress like that or be comfortable for a long time. Jenn pulled the covers back from her friend and shoved a pillow between Tish's legs and fluffed it up for. Her eyes had adjusted to the darkness and Tish's white diaper was visible to her now. It was thick and Jenn thought to herself that she was glad it wasn't on her. She would help Tish as much as she could but she felt a bit guilty thinking about herself in the moment. Jenn finished tucking her in and crawled back in bed. They were now facing each other. Tish reached out and grabbed Jenn's hand this time, and gently held it for a few minutes before quickly fell asleep. Her breathing deepened. Jenn carefully slipped her hand away from Tish's grasp and rolled to her back and looked up into the quiet darkness and sighed. The darkness wasn't quiet for long. Tish's loud snoring filled the room. Morning came fast, too fast. Jenn's alarm goes off first due to her work schedule. When she woke, Tish was laying in the middle of the bed. Having rolled next to her but still sleeping. She hadn't left Jenn much room but it didn't hadn't woken her. Jenn smiled and slipped out of bed and into the bathroom to start her morning routine. When she finally emerged, complete and ready to go, she found Tish still passed out on her bed, but now tangled up in her sheets and blankets. This elicited a smile and she just shook her head at the sight in front of her. Tish had rolled onto her stomach, exposing her thick diapered bottom. It was obvious she was wet too. Jenn stared at it and wondered if Tish had gotten out of bed to do that, or just peed right there next to her in the middle of the night. It was weird to think about her friend relieving herself like that in her bed. It was something they would both have to get used to. Jenn tugged at the blanket, pulling it from her friend. "Hey, get up! Time to get ready. You have 30 minutes until I leave." Tish groaned until Jenn sat down next to her and said, "Do I need to bring out the tickle monster again?", her hands started getting closer and Tish immediately jumped out of bed. She didn't want that and didn't want to have to be mad at Jenn for doing it. "I'm up, I'm up!". "You are a crazy sleeper! And you DO snore. I'm going to record it so you can hear.", Another "pfft" from Tish. "How are you feeling this morning?" "I had a couple bad dreams about John. I woke up once in the middle of the night and remembered it was real." "I know sweetie. I'm sorry. Is that when you peed?", Jenn was curious about this and Tish blushed. "I'm sorry, I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to wake you up.", she tried to explain and almost got emotional. "Tish, its fine. That's what they are for right?" "Yeah, but it is really hard to go laying down. My body isn't used to that." Jenn changed the subject having received the information she was looking for. "No time for breakfast today. Go get ready. Diaper change time in t-minus 15 minutes." "I know, I know, I'll hurry. Tish finally got up and started moving around. Her diaper squished as she walked around. It was cold and clammy again after a full nights rest. The first thing she usually did in the morning after getting up was to pee. By the time she made it to the sink to brush her teeth, she already felt the urge. Her instinct was to head to the toilet but caught herself. She dabbed some toothpaste on her brush and let her bladder release as she was brushing her teeth. She was surprised she could do both things at once and laughed inside at the thought of this being a bit of a timesaver. She laid her clothes out and got as far as she could in her process before Jenn walked in. "Gotta go. Ready or not it's changing time." Tish saw Jenn starting at the diaper. "What?" "Did you poop? It's ok if you did you know.", Jenn assured Tish and herself at the same time. Ever since she took her first sponsor training class, she knew she would have to face this moment. Changing someone else's messy diaper. When this 'feature' of the program was revealed to the group of potential sponsors, she remembered a few people getting up and walking out, unable to deal with the thought of performing such an act. The trainer explained the situation and why it was necessary for someone else to do this, rather than the person themselves. Jenn had been a nursing student for many years, and a full fledged nurse for 2, so she was accustomed to seeing every sort of thing imaginable about the human condition, bodily fluids, blood, wounds and more. She'd even changed diapers before during her early years as a nursing student. Mainly the elderly. People needed care so it is just something you got used to. But now, having to change her friend's diaper, and clean her, and see her. The thoughts swarmed through her head about the coming scenarios. She knew it would be the weirdest experience of her life. But she knew it would be far harder for Tish. She was still committed to help but she worried it could affect their relationship. Tish didn't answer. She was dumbfounded by the question so Jenn asked again. "I.. I uhh... usually go in the mornings. I think I'm nervous.", Tish try to explain quickly. She hated having to discuss this so openly with Jenn. "Tish, you're stalling and you know it. Sooner or later Tish you know you have to. And now I don't have time to wait." "Fine. I'll be ok. I can hold it till tonight if I have to. I just don't want to talk about this or think about it right now." Jenn removed the wet diaper. She was a bit relieved to not have to encounter a diaper full of Tish's poop. She was already running behind and didn't want to deal with it. Even though she told Tish it was ok and that she was ready, she wasn't quite sure she was. She continued, this time ensuring the diaper was removed and disposed of correctly. She wasted no time in cleaning Tish, wiping her down, and slapping another diaper back on her as quickly as she could. The quality of her work wasn't affected by the speed at which she moved. Tish wished Jenn would have taken her time and been more gentle, like before, but she knew it was her own doing for delaying things again this morning. She committed to be on time tomorrow. When the diaper was tightly sealed in place, Jenn gave it a couple pats right on her diaper area indicating she was all done and Tish should rise. The familiarity with which Jenn did that surprised her a bit. "Ok Tish, you are all done but you are going to have to get on a regular schedule, you know that right?" "I KNOW!", she yelled. "Ok then. Your diaper is bagged up. You'll need take it down to the disposal unit yourself this morning." "Oh.. ok I can do that. Thank you.", Tish didn't know why she thanked Jenn but though it was the polite thing to say at the moment. "Have a good day and I'll see you after work. And don't think about John, he's and ass.", Jenn said as she tried her best to exit the house quickly after a tense moment. She stepped outside and sighed. Somehow they would get through this together she thought.

Chapter 12 "What are you doing here? Did you follow me home or something you creep?" "Huh?", the man said. "No. I'm a CTF agent. Are you Jenn or Tish?" Jenn approached the door to find the two of them talking with a bit of confusion and stepped in to take over the conversation, "Tish, this is a CTF agent. I'm assuming this is a check in?", she asked the stranger. "CTF?" "Yes Tish, Changing the Future, duh.", This was followed by the biggest eye roll Tish had done all day and she exclaimed, "Oh come on." "That's right, Tish... And you are Jenn I presume? Her sponsor?", he asked sternly and Jenn replied. "My I come in? This will only take a few minutes. Jenn let the man enter and they both walked by Tish like she wasn't there and continued talking. Tish didn't want this person in their home and was mad Jenn let him invite himself in. He was asking her some basic questions regarding the first day, how it was going, nothing out of the ordinary. Tish had plopped down on the couch, waiting for them to finish their conversation and for intruder to leave. She was so embarrassed to see this guy again. "Thanks for answering all my questions Jenn. Looks like everything is in order here. I did have you flagged in my list here to check on given the situation. We don't have many sponsors as young as you. I'm sure you were told there would be some extra scrutiny at the start just to make sure you have everything you need and that everything is going ok? No trouble with Tish or anything yet?" "Hey Mr. CTF, I'm right here if you'd like to talk to me.", Tish blurted out but was ignored. "No Mr. Smith, we are doing just fine. I have everything I need. Tish just has a little first day jitters and getting used to things. As you can imagine this isn't easy on everyone.", Jenn tried to hurry the conversation along to lessen the time it gave Tish to say something stupid. "Very well, I'll be on my way then. But first I will need to do a quick diaper check." "Is that really necessary? I can assure you I just changed her.", Jenn stated as if it was the most common thing in the world. Tish blushed and having then man know she just had her diaper changed. "What?", Tish said. "Diaper check? What is that? You aren't checking anything on me." Agent Smith looked at Jenn, "This isn't going to be a problem is it? If so we can do the diaper check down at one of our offices." Jenn knew that was more of a threat than an offer to help, "No, there won't be a problem. Tish, stand up please and drop your sweatpants down. The agent is just going to make sure you are wearing it. We talked about this and I told you there could be random checks from time to time.", Jenn said it in such a reassuring and safe way before reaching her hand out to help Tish off the couch. Tish stood there with her hands on her hips, "Just get this over with.", She then slowly placed her thumbs in the waistband of her baggy gray sweatpants and and lowered them down over her hips. She wanted to cry but she was too angry at the moment. She looked down at herself, seeing the thick puffy diaper protruding from between her legs. The sweatpants bunched up around her feet when she looked back up at the agent. "Satisfied?" Agent Smith approached her and knelt down for a closer inspection. Tish had no idea what he could possibly be "checking" but she wanted this to be over. "Tish, please turn around for me.", the worker demanded. She shuffled her feet which were caught up in her sweats until she was facing away from him. She almost stumbled. She knew he was looking right up her legs and crotch at the huge diaper that had its grip on her. Finally a tear did run down her cheek as the emotions overwhelmed her and she couldn't take it any more. She felt like a science experiment. It wasn't fair. It wasn't ok. "Make sure you get a real good view ok? And I know you are only doing this because of earlier today. I'm sorry ok? Come back tomorrow I'll give you a free coffee." "Miss, I can assure you this inspection has nothing to do with the incident at your work." He turned to Jenn, "This isn't her first diaper is it?" "No Sir, her second. Already made our first diaper deposit down the street at the nearest collection bin." "Very good, did she #2 yet?" Tish was about 5 seconds from hitting this guy. "No sir, just wet a few times, I suspect her first #2 will be tomorrow." "Ok, thank you. I'll just make some notes here real quick. Tish you may get dressed now.", He said, finally addressing her directly. Tish opened her mouth to say something she would regret but Jenn just stared her down and shook her head to stop her from making the mistake. As the agent was finally leaving, he spoke Jenn privately for a few moments at the door. Several looks were made towards Tish and she didn't like being talked about like that as if she wasn't in the room. Jenn finally showed him out and and returned to Tish. "See, aren't you glad I made you diaper up?" "No. Why?" "You know why, quit playing dumb. We would have both been in trouble if you hadn't been wearing it and he showed up. Probably a warning or fine or something." "Pfft", Tish said indicating she didn't care much. "Jenn, do you have any idea how humiliating that was? Some random guy checking me and looking at me like that? Probably a pervert or something too. Are they supposed to get that close like that?" "That was the rude customer?" "Yep. Small world I guess. He has it out for me now. I know it." "Oh please, stop overreacting. He was only here 4 minutes. It's not like you were naked or anything. We knew this was going to happen and we have to get used to it." "You can get used to it, I'm going to bed." "But he was pretty cute right?" Tish gave Jenn one more of her famous eye rolls and then yelled, "If you think he is so cute, why don't you ask him out, and you can both take turns checking my diaper!" She then slammed her bedroom door shut, ending the conversation.

Chapter 11 "Tish! What's wrong? Are you ok?", Jenn asked as she rushed to her side. "John just broke up with me!", She sobbed and leaned into her friend. "Why, what happened?" "He said he knew coming over here he wasn't sure about all this any more. This whole situation is too weird. He said he didn't know how to handle it but would try. I told him to give me a minute to get cleaned up but he kept asking to see it. I told him over and over again I didn't want him to see me in my wet f'ing diaper but finally I gave in. I mean, he'd see it eventually right? "And?" "He just stood there. Looking at me in shock or something. Like I was some freak. I felt so horrible. He couldn't believe his girlfriend was standing in front of him with a wet diaper. Just like that he sat down and said he doesn't think he can do this. He said it was only going to get worse and this wasn't his idea of a relationship and blah blah blah. I quit listening and basically told him to leave then if that is how he felt." "Oh my god Tish, what an prick, Tish I'm so sorry." "I don't know Jenn, I just.. I just didn't think today would be this hard. In hindsight, probably good he wasn't my sponsor after all huh?" "That's true. I'm just sorry he did this to you. What can I do for you?" "Nothing. I'm just so lucky to have you right now. Thank you for everything you are doing for me." "Do you need to be alone right now? Do you want to tell me about your day?" Tish did want Jenn to stay and she proceeded to explain the day, the struggles, what went right, what went wrong. The incident at work. Jenn didn't expect it to be so hard for her and though she would try to be more compassionate and understanding. "I'm sorry your day was so bad. But I promise it will get better. And trust me, I know it sucks now but if John is so quick to leave you over something like this, he doesn't deserve you. You are way to good for him", Jenn said as she looked directly into her friend's eyes, assuring her she was right. "I know, I know." "Well, you said you peed several times. Why don't we take your diaper off, you can get a shower and cleaned up while I make us some dinner." "Ummm, I'm not wearing my diaper. I was so mad after he left I took it off." Jenn pulled the blanket away and Tish tried to cover her naked self. "You took your diaper off? Tish! You know I'm supposed to do that! It is day 1 and you already screwed this up. Where is it? Tish pointed to the bathroom and Jenn went to retrieve it. She returned with it, examining the tapes. The smell of Tish's stale urine hit the air and Tish covered her nose in disgust. She didn't want to see what she had done. Jenn was furious. "Tish, you've ripped it. These tapes are supposed to be gently undone and I have to fold the diaper up and re-tape it very specifically. Now you've completely botched this and I have to try and fix it. "What's the big deal?" "Tish, we agreed to do this. I am responsible for you and making sure we do this properly. They already were hesitant about letting me sponsor you and now I'm going to turn in your first diaper all mangled up. Great impression Tish, just great impression." "I'm sorry." "Always sorry, yeah I know. Just go get your shower, I'll deal with this." Tish sulked away and left Jenn to try and patch up the diaper. She did the best she could, rearranged the tapes, and put the soiled garment in one of the supplied barcoded bags and sealed it tight. She walked it outside and down to the end of the block and found the nearest collection unit. She had planned on making Tish do this every day but she needed to cool off. These disposal units were installed all over the their city. Luckily for them they didn't have to drive to one. Other cities and countries had different collection methods but these seems to work the best for their city's population and infrastructure. When she approached, she scanned the barcode, the top of the unit opened up and she dropped the diaper in. She wondered how many other wet and messy diapers had been put through that hole today, not to mention all over the city. She walked back to their house and tried to calm down. On one hand she knew her friend was going through a lot, and on top of that just got dumped by her boyfriend, but on the other, this had to be taken seriously. She thought about what she would say to Tish in the few minutes it took her to walk home. When she opened the door, Tish was sitting on the couch, as if waiting for a parent to come home knowing you are in big trouble. "Jenn, I'm really sorry. I'll take this more seriously ok? But you just don't understand how hard it was today, and now John, and Allison, and that rude customer, and now you are mad at me. And... ", and she started crying. 'Well there goes my plan for what I was going to say', Jenn thought to herself. "Ok Tish, it's ok. Calm down", Jenn sat next to her again and hugged her tightly. This is what Tish wanted from John but it was Jenn who had to end up holding her. They sat like that for a few minutes while Tish's sniffles and tears subsided. "Are you still going to make us dinner?" "You know you are really something else!", Jenn quipped. "Yes you brat, I am going to make you dinner. I guess you have had a pretty hard day.", she smiled at her. "But first, don't think you can fool me. I know what you are doing, no stalling. Back into my room and get those clothes off. You should be in a diaper right now. "Jenn! Seriously. This is stupid. I don't have to wear it every second of the day!", Tish shouted in disbelief that Jenn would press the issue so early on. "Not arguing with you about this Tish. In my room. Now. Let's go.", Jenn put her hand around Tish's back, guiding the reluctant girl into the bedroom. Tish plopped on the bed and relaxed. The second time was easier. She knew what to expect. For some reason, this time she surrender to it all and let Jenn do everything. She laid there on the bed, with her hands behind her head, relaxed while Jenn unbuttoned her shorts and pulled them down her legs. She still got very embarrassed when her panties were pulled down but at this point, this was the least of her concerns and she knew she was just going to have to get used to it. She jumped when her friend touched her private area and sort of instinctively closed her legs but Jenn made a 'tisk tisk' sound at her and completed her tasks without failure. Tish allowed the process to continue and for a brief second, between the anxiety and hesitation of all of this weirdness, she caught herself thinking it was nice to be taken care. She still couldn't believe any of this was real and that Jenn was ok with all of it. Before she knew it her first diaper change was over. Jenn poked her fingers in Tish's sides, causing her to jolt and flop around. It was no secret how ticklish she was. "Hey!" "Tomorrow is going to be different right? You are going to follow the rules for!", She dug her fingers into her friends small tummy, pinning her there. "Ahhhhh stop, stop, ahhh hahah.", Tish laughed and screamed at the same time. "Right?" "Yes YES, ahhhhhh hahh aha I'm going to follow the rules. I pro... I promise!", Tish sputtered out once she could finally muster a word or two. "Good girl.", Jenn relinquished her evil fingers. "Now put some pants on. You pour us some wine and I'll make dinner." Tish didn't say anything but she thought she was about to pee that diaper right then and there from the tickling. Her older brothers used to hold her down and tickle her until she screamed and cried. She remembered hating that so much from her childhood. Jenn wasn't that bad but it bothered her a bit and it brought back those feelings of being trapped. She had been feeling something similar all day but couldn't put her finger on it until now. It was that same feeling from all those years ago, but now trapped in this situation, trapped in this diaper with no escape. Helplessness was what she felt and she didn't like that feeling. She sighed and tried not to give that much thought and did what Jenn requested. They finished dinner and were both doing dishes when the doorbell rang. Tish looked at Jenn, "I bet it's John! He wised up." Jenn was skeptical and didn't want Tish to be disappointed. Tish raced to the door and opened it, not seeing who she expected. She looked up and sort of froze. She didn't know this person but sort of recognized him. The man, who was probably a 10 years older then her, looked down at her from above with a funny smile on this face. He wore a solid black jumpsuit style uniform, like something you'd see a maintenance worker wear, except his was clean cut, well fitted, and professional looking. He carried a clipboard and and had a bag slung over his shoulder. On his chest was a nametag which prominently displayed the name "Smith". Under it was small label identifying his position: 'CTF - Agent 3' His devious smile was finally replaced with words, "Oh well look who we have here... if it isn't my rude little barista."

Chapter 10 Tish looked up at the clock. Her shift was over in 2 hours. "Excuse me?", a voice called out. "Oh sorry, can I help you?" "Yes! I've been trying to get your attention. Order to go for Smith.", He was wearing a uniform and pointed at the name tag on it, as if she needed to see it as well as hear it. "Sorry geez. Your coffee is right here sir.", Tish said as she handed the man his coffee he gave her a dissapointed look and walked out. The next order immediately came through. It was nonstop today. Tish worked a small coffee shop near campus in the afternoons. She was a bit older than all of her coworkers. Her manager was even younger than her. It seemed other people her age had already moved into internships or something more profressional but she liked what she did. Her coworkers could be a bit immature at times but she liked the fast paced environment and she got free coffee. Today was different. She'd be working for about 2 hours and was ready to go home. The stress of the first day of the rest of her life had taken its toll. She peed in her diaper a couple more times since her incident in class. The 2nd and 3rd times weren't any more pleasant for her. She knew she shouldn't have had a coffee but she needed the energy. She figured her first diaper change would be coming soon anyway. She didn't want to think about that and it sounded silly to think to hear that phrase in her head. 'Her diaper change' The other girls seemed to work circles around her today. She didn't know how they did it. They were all diapered, of course, just like her. A couple of them giggled a few times and she wondered if they were peeing and if this was all just a big joke to them. Maybe they didn't have a life but she did. She was on her feet all afternoon, pumping out coffees, dealing with rude customers like the man who had just yelled at her. She knew she was tired and stressed out. and took it out on him. Perhaps she needed to apologize but she would never see him again so it didn't matter. She would try to do better on the next order and press on. As the afternoon wore on and the foot traffic died down she was able to actually catch her breath and watch people. Watch the other girls at work, watch customers come in and out. She made a little game of guessing who was trapped in a diaper and who wasn't. She thought she had it figured out most of the time. Some people could hide it and some couldn't. Some flaunted it. All sorts of body styles and shape. Men, women, boys and girls all coming and going. Some seemed to walk normally and others had to waddle about. But for the most part, everyone went on about their lives as if it was any other day. When her shift was finally over, she clocked out and headed home. As she left her boss Allison stopped her, "Hey Tish, how are you today?" Allison was this bubbly little blond girl. How she got a manager position Tish would never understand. But now Tish had to deal with her. "Oh about as well as you'd expect I guess." "Well I expect you to be polite to the customers. You've always had stellar performance so what is the problem today?" "Really? Is that a serious question? It's uhh, just been a bit of a long day ya know?", Tish motioned to the thick wet diaper resting snug between her legs." "Oh, but I thought you were past the cut off!?" Tish didn't want to have to retell this story but informed Allison how she just missed the age cutoff. "Allison, can I ask you a question. How are you and the other girls just OK with all this? I mean, you act as if its all no big deal. Walking around all day in a wet diaper. How the hell do you handle it?" "At first I was terrified and mad and grossed out, but my feelings are really minor to saving the human species right? Plus all my friends just kind of made a pact to get through it together and make a thing of it. We are all in this together right?", she said in her perky upbeat attitude. "Yeahhh sure. Anyway, sorry about today Allison, I'm sure I'll be more chipper tomorrow after the first day and all." "Ok, because I don't want to have to write you up Tish. I won't this time it is just lucky for you that customer didn't file a complaint. Have a good night." Tish was finally allowed to leave. As she sat on the train home, she was fuming that she was being talked down to by Allison. She knew she was just doing her job but being reprimanded by this teenager and constant postivity was too much. Tish thought Allison was just so brainwashed. Everyone was it seemed. The nerve of thinking she is 'saving the human species'. Tish rolled her eyes and thought the next time she heard someone tell her 'we are all in this together' she was going to explode. She sat on the train, which finally stopped near her home. The reverse of the morning train ride, only this time sitting in a wet diaper. She could feel the cold dampness a little more now after several uses. She kept her head down again, not wanting to talk to anyone. She was so ready to get home and this thing off for awhile. She had made plans to see John today and she was looking forward to her boyfriend's embrace later. After a short walk, she finally made it to her house and through the doorway. As she stepped through she thought she was alone but instead heard voices. It was Jenn and John sitting in the kitchen having a chat. She sort of froze there, not expecting anyone to be home yet. 'Uhhhg' she thought to herself. This wasn't part of her plan. "Hello?" Jenn and John, greated her. John gave her a quick kiss and a hug. It had been several days since they had seen each other. "What are you guys doing here? Is this some sort of ambush?" "No silly, I just gome 10 minutes ago and John was going to surprise you." "Oh, well I'm surprised. I was just expecting to have the house to myself for a bit before you came over was all." Jenn chimed in, "Hey I need to take care of a few things. Why don't I give you guys some time. I'll be back later." "You're leaving? You aren't even going to ask how my first day was?" Tish felt like she getting the cold shoulder but knew Jenn was just trying to give her and John some privacy and time to talk. Jenn could tell she had been through a lot today, "Hey, I know today must have been hard for you but spend a bit with John and we'll have plenty of time to talk later ok? I'll be back in an hour or so. Jenn gave her a hug and left the house. Tish now had to face John alone. The anticipating of seeing him for some reason was gone. She was now apprehensive. Had Jenn told him everything about her diaper? Would she have to explain to him? Would he want to see her like that? She turned around and he was there. Looking at her. --- When Jenn returned about an hour later she thought she would offer for them all to have dinner together but John's car was no longer there. She wondered if they had both left somewhere. Once inside there was nobody about, until she heard something from Tish's room. She opened Tish's bedroom door to find her friend crying.

Chapter 9 Tish stood in the hallway where Jenn had left her standing. She was frozen and she didn't know what she was doing. She snapped herself out of it. She knew this day was coming for months, but now it was different. Unlike what she imagined. She seemed paralyzed but she had to take a step. She practiced walking around the house in the thick diaper encasing her. It rubbed in all the wrong spots. How could she get used to this. It chaffed her legs and she knew she would have to be careful about that. She tried on several pairs of shorts until she found something semi concealing. She knew everyone would know what she was wearing but she didn't want to advertise it. She found a long shirt the hung below the waist of her shorts enough to satisfy her and finished getting dressed. She had to be at class in less than an hour. She didn't know how she would make it there on time. She did though. The ride to school on the train felt like forever. She constantly felt like she was being stared at. She tried to keep to herself and not look at anyone. She figured the whole world was trying to figure out who was and who wasn't wearing a diaper but she had no interest. Class, Work, Home, Repeat. That was going to be her routine for awhile. She didn't care to talk to anyone else but John or Jenn. She didn't want to interact with society unless she had too. She finally made it to class. Walking at a normal pace in a normal fashion meant the diaper rubbing at her thighs but she didn't care. She wouldn't give the world the satisfaction of waddling like a toddler. When she finally found her desk and sat down she exhaled a sigh of relief. She was exhausted. Walking was hard, and the secure diaper felt heavy on her. There was no way to take your mind off of it. It was there and not going away. She exerted herself and now she felt gross and sweaty down there. This was an unexpected side effect she didn't like. There was nothing about this she liked. For now, she was just glad to be sitting. For the next hour she wanted to concentrate on anything but the diaper. She would pay attention to the professor and take notes and try to be a normal girl. One hour at a time, one day at a time she told herself. "Hey Tish!" 'Oh god, Tish thought. Someone is talking to me.', It was Beth. Oh god she didn't want to deal with Beth's positive attitude. The girl she had gotten to know in class bopped over to her. Tish could do nothing but stare at her midsection. It was obvious this girl was thickly diapered like her. She was wearing yoga pants over her diaper which showed the contoure of the thick monster. Tish wondered why in the world she would dress herself like this. "What do you think? Barely noticable eh!?", Beth joked. She then turned around and she had something written on her behind. 'Doing my part!' was plastered across her rear end using colored tape or something. "Oh, Ummm Cute, well I guess you are a little braver than I am.", this responded, not wanting this interection and unsure what to say. "Oh c'mon don't be a sourpuss. Seems like everyone I've seen this morning is very postive. There is even a rally this afternoon to show support from the college. Everyone is getting together. Diapered or not. Why don't you come? "I'm wearing a F'ing diaper! What is WRONG with you?", Tish shouted at her. She saw a few people turn their heads but then look away. "Tish, when you want to talk to me like an adult, let me know.", Beth calmly replied and sat down across the room from where she normally sat. Tish felt horrible talking to Beth that way but she couldn't understand it. She madea point to apologize the next opporunity she had. Was she the only person the whole world who felt this way? She didn't have much time to think about it. The instructor walked in and everyone had taken their seats. For some reason she expected the instructor to acknolwedge that some people in here were diapered or call attention to it, make some sort of statement or something, but that didn't happen. He started the lecture as if nothing had changed. This made her feel even more alone for some reason. Trying to take notes and concentrate was more difficult than she thought. She was constantly shifting around and fidgeting in her seat, trying to get comfortable with the thick material pressing on her between her legs while sitting in this tiny seat. She needed room. A guy, not much older than her was sitting behind her, he tapped her on the shoulder and whispered, "Hey, can you sit still, it's a little hard to concentrate back here." Tish wanted to scream. The nerve of this guy. But she turned around and embarrassingly offered an apology, "Sorry, I'll try." The instructor noticed the distraction and called out to her. "Miss? Is there a problem over there? If you don't mind the rest of the class would like to hear what I have to say." She shook her head and the class continued. She sat there the rest of the class, as still as she could watching the minutes tick by until they were dismissed. When class was over she made her way to the professor to apologize and explain the situation. It seemed like her list of apologies was growing. "I just wanted to apologize for earlier. I'm uhh, well you know just getting used to this and I'm not doing well." He took a few seconds to realize what she was talking about, "Oh I see. Well, in my class I expect a level of pressionalism. I don't care what your situation is and I expect you to deal with it like an adult from now on. You are dismissed.", he stated before turning around and cleaning the board for his next lecture. This day wasn't starting at well at all for Tish. She now had her professor talking down to her like a child. 'Dismissed? Dismissed!, Tish came to him looking for a little sympathy and perhaps an accommodation. But he treated her like a child. Infuriated, she stomped out to find her next class. This time however, she took her time and walked slowly and carefully to give her legs a break. She had 3 classes today before she had to go to work. She didn't know what she was dreading more. Sitting through boring lectures or making it through work like this. Somehow she managed to get through the morning. It has gotten a bit easier for her but she was now staring at the clock. She had 15 minute left before her 3rd class was over and she knew she was in trouble. She'd been holding it for about 30 minutes. The sensation to pee was getting stronger. She kept telling her self she only had to wait 15 minutes and she'd be ok. But she realized it didn't matter. In 15 minutes she'd still be in this diaper. She just wanted privacy. She didn't want to be surrounded by people the first time she used the diaper Her plan was to make it through class, get to a bathroom, find a stall and sit and do this in private. The seconds ticked by slowly. She knew she wouldn't make it. She thought about getting up and leaving early but didn't want to make a scene. She looked to the left and right of her. She'd have to climb over several people to get out of the lecture hall. That would be worse she thought and she didn't want to anger another teacher. She was breathing fast and heavily now. The pain in her bladder was too much and she knew it probably wasn't healthy to hold it like this. She grabbed the edge oh her desk with both hands so tightly her fingers turned white. Why was this hard? She had been preparing herself for this. She knew it was eventually going to happen. Thousands of people, probably on this campus alone, maybe even in this class, had already peed their diaper today, or worse. She felt like she was the only one who cared. It didn't seem real and she felt ashamed at what she was about to do. All of the thoughts during the many months leading up to this came back to her. How unfair it was, how she just missed the cutoff, her situation with John, the absurdity of this plan which she knew was all for nothing. It had finally come to this. A tear rolled down her cheek as she relaxed a little. A quick stream of pee squirted into her diaper and it made her jerk a little in her seat. It was a foreign feeling to her. It tickled her a little and she took a quick breath and tried to hold back. She was lost right now. Unaware of her surroundings, the lecture, the people. She could only focus on herself. Biology had taken over all her mental processes. She felt like she was in a trance until she felt something touch her hand. She opened her eyes and saw a soft hand on top of hers. She looked over. The girl sitting next to her was looking directly at her. "Relax. It will be ok.", the girl calmly said and nodded. For some reason the calm reassuring look from this girl she didn't know,put her at ease. Another tear strolled down her face as their eyes met. Tish released her grip from the desk and the stranger actually took her hand and held it. Tish relaxed and the pee gushed into the waiting diaper. The relief was welcoming and overwhelming after holding for so long and Tish exhaled. "Good, that's it... just let go. You got this.", the girl whispered. Tish felt like she had peed for a minute but it wasn't nearly that long. She wondered if the whole room was staring at her. She looked around and saw that they were listening to the lecture and were oblivous to what was going on in her seat. Lucky the class was large and she could remain unnoticed in a sea of people. She felt the wetness spread beneath her. The diaper raced to soak up her flood of urine and she couldn't believe the diaper had worked so well. She could felt it swell up a little and expand between her legs. 'Great.', she thought to herself. When she was done, she kind of froze. She was trying to contemplate what she had just done. This was her life now. More thoughts rushed through her head. None good. "Pssst", a whispered sound jolted Tish out of her state. "Can I have my hand back?", the girl said. Tish had gripped the other girls hand very tightly and had not yet let go. She smiled and apologized and let go. Another apology she thought. "It's ok. You need to focus on class now. Go about your day as normal and it will get easier." "It will? How do you know?" "I've peed my diaper 3 times already. I'm a pro, trust me!", the girl quipped and smiled before returning her attention back to the class. Tish did as well. She looked down between her legs and smiled. Thankful for a this friendly person next to her who offered a few minutes of support. 'Maybe it will be ok.', she thought.

Hi, @DainaGirl if you look in my previous story towards the end you can see I did some AI art of the characters. I think I'm not going to add AI art to my stories based on the poll results. I think people like to envision the characters for themselves. My work is using stable diffusion and I am the project manager so they set me up a test computer and I've had it for awhile so once I started tinkering with it, well you know what happened then Anyway, if you would like to share some artwork with each other I'm happy to do so. I've got some pretty great results but does seem a little nebulous and tedious to get them and how to do the prompting etc. I'm also happy to share how I was able to get the diapers to come out so well, but maybe you already know. Thanks for the feed back.

Currently writing a story called "Changing the future" Would my readers like more of the AI artwork to go along with the story?

Chapter 8 1 Month ago. "I don't know what I'm going to do Jenn. Now they are saying John can't be my sponsor unless we are married. WTF! Well THAT isn't happening and I really don't have anyone else. My parents are in Florida, so I might have to use the state services. I've just heard so many bad things about how inconvenient that is going to be. Long lines, some stranger watching me change a diaper or something. God, I can't believe this is happening. We had this all worked out but at least I don't have to move now, I didn't really want to move out on you, I would miss you too much." "That is sweet of you Tish. To tell you the truth I never really wanted to you to go live with John. I just don't think you guys were ready for that and this program shouldn't be the thing forcing you into that. Seems rushed. Plus I am selfish and want you here! Maybe the state service won't be so bad. I can help take you back and forth. We'll make it work ok? "You sure you are going to be ok with this? I mean, me living here, being in diapers all the time. It just sounds so crazy and it will be here before we know it. It's going to be really weird. I can get my own place if you'd ra.." Jenn cut her off, "Tish, don't be silly. The whole world is going through this. You are my friend and I love you. I'd do anything for you, you know that. Now let's go start unpacking your stuff." Tish had been planning for sometime for John to be her sponsor. They had discussed it several times and it took some convincing on Tish's part to get him to go along with it. They had only been dating for about 8 months but Tish pleaded with him that it wouldn't be so bad. Maybe it would even bring them closer somehow. He finally relented and it made sense that she would move in with him, given that he lived about 45 minutes away. But when they found at recently that the rules prevented it, those plans how now been upended and they both decided to keep their living arrangements as is. Tish was hurt by their decision and didn't know what it meant for their relationship. About a week had passed since then and Tish came home one evening after working late and discovered a bunch of pamphlets and materials on the kitchen counter regarding the sponsor program. "Jenn, what is all this stuff?" "What does it look like! I'm your new sponsor!" "What? HOW? I mean... wait. are you like... sure? How?! You know what this means and all that?" "Yep. I do. I've met with the local office twice now, have been through the interview process and they approved me. I told you I'd do anything for you, so I started wondering if this was possible. Even though I am just under the cut off age for qualifiying, they took into account that I am a nurse, and that we live together so we got approved. They said we may have a little more scrutiny than others but that is ok. As long as we follow the rules there won't be a problem" "Jenn, I don't know what to say.", Tish teared up that her best friend would do something like this for her. She knew it was a huge time committment but that it would also change their relationship in ways she couldn't imagine. "You could say thank you?" "THANK YOU, THANK YOU SO MUCH", Tish exclaimed and ran over to her friend and gave her a big hug "You are welcome. My training classes start next week. There are 8 of them I have to attend in a pretty short time frame since I'm a little late getting started so you owe me!" "Yes, whatever you want! I can't believe this. Thank you so much. I'm still can't believe it." Tish was so excited and happy that Jenn would do this for her she hadn't really thought through what it had meant yet. She didn't know exactly what would be happening to her or what she would be required to do yet. But she trusted Jenn. She just didnt' want it to be weird or embarassing for either of them. She sighed a breth of relief and knew whatever would happen between then would be better than some cold exam room in some medical building where she would have to wait in line with strangers. Stories had been surfacing, whether they were true or not who knew, that these state run services would experience delays. People would literally be waiting in line around the block in wet and messy diapers to get their morning or evening change. She didn't think that could really happen but she didn't want to find out. She could now relax in the comfort of her own home instead of having to deal with all that. That evening before bed Tish walked into Jenn's room and sat on the corner of the bed. "Jenn, I just want you to know how much this means to me that you are doing this for me. It's going to be weird isn't it?" "I suspect so. But weird we can get through right?" "Right. Well I just wanted to thank you one more time. I still think this whole thing is BS, and I can't promise you I'll ever accept it or be on board with the 'we are all in thsi together crap', but I recognize what you are doing for and I love you for it. Thanks for being my best friend." "Love you too Tish. Now let's get some sleep." "Good night.", Tish told her friend as she went back to her own room and found the softness of her pillow. She thought about the month ahead. Usually a month seemed long to her but she felt like it was a day away.

Chapter 7 BEEP BEEP BEEP! Tish rolled over and looked at her alarm clock. 6:00am. She had no desire to get up. Every morning when she woke she had to check herself to make sure that she wasn't dreaming. Each day that ticked by brought her one day closer to today. The many months of build up and drama, fear and anxiety of this day that would change her life for at least the next year was finally here. In a short time she knew would be wearing a diaper like she was 1 year old again. She knew she wasn't alone and there were a lot of scared and angry people out there now in the same position she was in. It didn't help. Some of them were probably already wearing depending on their mornning routines and where they were in the world She wondered who the first person to have to use their diaper was. She didn't want to think about that. Every time she did she felt disgusted and put it out of her mind. "Tish! I know you are up! Get out of bed and start getting ready!", she heard Jenn yell at her through her door. Tish rolled out of the bed and her feet hit the floor. She looked down at herself, looking at her underwear. She knew tomorrow that view would be different. Every little thing reminded her of what was about to happen to her. Her only hope was that it wouldn't be as bad as she was expecting it to be and she and Jenn could fall into some sort of routine quickly. "I'm up! And I'm not a child Jenn!", she snapped back. She knew Jenn was just trying to do what was best for her. Jenn didn't have to do any of this for her. She didn't have to become a sponsor. It was a big responsibility and a huge inconvenience for her. She was very grateful to have Jenn during this and tried her best to ignore some of the comments like that but it was hard some times. Tish was under a lot of stress with what was happening to her and her patience was short. She knew there were things about the program Jenn couldn't tell her yet and it made her mad to not know. She slowly made her way to the kitchen where Jenn had a bagel and coffee waiting for her. "Thanks.", she said. "C'mon now. Don't be like that. You knew this day would come eventually. It is here, we will get through it. Now eat your bagel and coffee. You know coffee always makes you need to poop so drink up." "JENN! Oh my god, stop it!" "Tish, I made a decision. I'm not going to use a bunch of euphamisms or beat around the bush about this. I think the best way through all this is to just call it like is and be blunt. Our lives are about to change in a big way and it will be easier if we are just honest and open about everything. The more honest we are with each other the more I can help you." "Oh is that what you learned in your secret meetings?" "The sponsor training. And yes." "Fine, you are right. Coffee does make me go. Thanks for making it." Tish finished her bagel and grabbed a second cup of coffee before heading to the bathroom to finish getting ready. She had done her business and had just finished her hair and was brushing her teeth when Jenn came in and leaned against the doorway to the bathroom. Tish was standing there in her bra and underwear and she turned to see that Jenn was already dressed for work in her scrubs and Tish thought she looked great as always. "7:05 Tish. It's time." "I know. I know. " She mumbled with a mouth full of toothpaste. She couldn't delay this any longer. She spit it out and rinsed her mouth out and followed Jenn. She didn't know where they were going but they walked into Jenn's room where the diaper and supplies were laid out on the bed, waiting to ensnare her. She looked at it in fear. "Jenn..." "It's ok. Just come here." Tish walked over and Jenn gave her a huge hug. Normally she might feel a bit weird having Jenn hug her like this in just her underwear but she didn't care. She wanted to cry. "I can't do it Jenn!" "What do you mean you can't do it? You have to do it. We've had this conversation a million times." "I know but now that it is here, I can't wear that. I won't." "Tish. I don't want to hear this again. Lay down. Now!" Tish was a bit taken aback and shocked by her friends tone. "Jenn, you do NOT speak to me that way. What the hell?" "Tish, I'm sorry. I don't mean to be harsh with you. But do you know what is going to happen if you don't do this? I'm going to be forced to report it. And I will. And whether you believe it or not, they WILL come here and put that diaper on you. And if you continue to resist they can arrest you, detain you, even worse." "You'll report me? Seriously? How could you do that to me?" "Tish! OH MY GOD. I am your sponsor. They know the status of everyone in the program. I signed a million forms to do this... FOR YOU! My ass is on the line here just as much as yours is it. Do you think I want to yell at you? Do you think I want you to get into trouble?" Tish felt the weight of Jenn's words hit her. In the back of her mind she knew she would have to go through with this one way or the other, but something in her had to fight one more time. In doing so she made Jenn so mad she regretted it. She stood there looking at Jenn look at her like the child she said she wasn't and didn't know what to say. She wanted to apologize but was frozen at being yelled at like that. "Now please Tish. Lay down. If you want just close your eyes and I'll be done in a few minutes. Jenn pushed her gently back on the bed until she lost her balance and fell back. She hit the soft bed and did as Jenn told her. She closed her eyes and waited. "Good girl!" She quickly sat up and stared wide eyed at what she was just called and Jenn just pressed her back down and moved her arms above her head. "Stay like that until I tell you to move." Tish couldn't believe this. She felt so vulnerable and helpless right now. Jenn was treating her like an object. A huff. "Don't huff at me. You are making this WAY more difficult that it has to be. And we are running out of time. So shush and don't move. Tish releneted and tried to relax and took a deep breath. She felt Jenn touch her for the first time. Her panties were being pulled down before she realized what was happening she felt the material slide through the crack of her butt and down her legs. She was now exposed. She'd never been so embarassed. Jenn flung the tiny underwear into the clothes basket across the room. "Won't be needing those for awhile.", she joked to herself but loud enough so Tish could hear. Tish didn't give her the satisfaction of responding. Jenn took the diaper and unfurlled it. It was heavy and thicker than she remembered from practicing in training. She thought about having to wear it and was glad she didn't have to. She told Tish to lift her hips and she slid it under her friend and told her too relax. Tish let her behind fall onto the soft material. Each moment of this felt like an enternity. She didn't know how she would make it through a week of this let alone a year. She expected Jenn to fasten the diaper on her but that didn't happen. She jumped when she felt something cool between her legs. Jenn was spreading some sort of lotion or cream on her private area. She wasn't ready for the touch but tried to stay still like she was told. Jenn rubbed the cream into her parts and bits, finding every nook and cranny, even finding her behind. Tish's breathing increased and she tensed up. She hadn't been touched like that in awhile and didn't know how to react. It felt good but it was wrong. Her friend touching her like that down there, in preperation to be confined in a diaper all day. Jenn noticed Tish's hesitation and and told her it was ok and try to relax. She looked at Tish's taught tummy, as it quivered beneath her. "Tish, just relax now. I'm almost done. I know this is weird but this will keep you from getting any rashes or infections down here." She continued to slip and slide her fingers around down there and Tish was almost feeling a bit of arousal and couldn't believe it. She breathed through it and it was over. Before she knew it she felt a thick material being pulled up and between her legs. She instinctively spread her legs a bit to accommodate the bulk. Jenn seemed to expertly conform the diaper to her friend and fasten the dense wide tapes together in front for a snug fit. She checked her work, running her fingers along the waist and leg gatherings to make sure nothing was pinching like she was trained to do. "All done. Let's get you up and have a look at you now." Tish sat up with Jenn's help and stood. When she did she just looked at Jenn in disbelief. The diaper wasn't just thick, it was heavy and sturdy. It had her. She looked down at the bulky padding disappearing between her tender toned legs. She took a few steps. "Jenn, how in the hell am I supposed to walk in this? It's huge!" "I know Tish. You'll get used to it. These are designed for all day wearing and they are supposed to be comfortable. It just might take a little adjusting to it at first. Don't let the first day give you a bad impression ok? Try to stay positive.", Jenn tried to console her knowing this was going to be hard. Tish went to the hallway to look at herself in the full length mirror. When she saw herself she just stared, not believing what she was seeing. She looked like she was encased in a plastic puffy prison. She turned to the side and saw a barcode on the diaper indicating it was hers. She figured it would be scanned at some point once collected. She couldn't care less about how all that worked. Jenn was right though. Although the outside of the diaper seemed a bit rigid and cold, and even the whole thing hugged her tightly, it wasn't totally uncomfortable. It was like someone wrapped her up in a snug warm blanket. Her problem was the size of it. Tish was a petite woman and she knew this diaper would be visible under just about any clothes she had. She wasn't prepared for this and a wave of anxiety flooded her. She wanted to cry. "What's wrong Tish? Is it pinching? Uncomfortable?" "No! That's fine. It's just, how am I going to hide this thing?" "Hide?" "Yeah, like everyone is going to know I'm wearing this." "Tish, I'm pretty sure everyone is going to know everyone is wearing them. This isn't something you have to worry about hiding. Pretty much everywhere you go someone will be wearing a diaper." "Easy for you to say, you can wear your normal cute clothes. What am I going to wear?" "Well for today, how about some baggy shorts? Will that be ok for work too? It is supposed to be warm day right? Maybe this weekend we can find you some new clothes. School and work, Tish thought. She had to go to her class soon and then to work. She was so preoccupied with what she was wearing she hadn't given any thought to her day. She just looked at Jenn as if to ask for help without saying anything. "Tish, I'm so sorry but I'm running late. You can finish getting dressed. I know today is going to be very hard for you but I will be thinking about you. Remember, you aren't alone. Call me if you need anything ok? I'm sorry but I'm getting late and gotta go, I'll see you tonight and we'll talk about everything and figure out a plan!", Jenn gave her a friendlykiss on the cheek as she grabbed her keys and ran out the door. As Jenn walked down the steps in front of their home, she knew Tish's day was going to be hard. She felt bad for her and worse for keeping certain things from her. She took a deep breath and just rememered her training. The door shut and Jenn was gone. Tish just heard her friend say she she wasn't alone but she was left standing their, in the middle of their apartment, still in just her bra and diaper feeling like the loneliest person on earth.

Sorry for the delay on this everyone. Have had a busy and stressful month or so! Hope to pick these back up at a regular pace! I hope everyone is enjoying this story so far. Chapter 6: 3 months ago (before present day) "Tish? They are getting ready to vote. Do you want to watch." "No! Just come tell me what happens. I don't care.", Tish threw her head back into her pillow and laid on her bed. The truth was she most certainly cared. Her future was in the lives of 100 people. Either way it wasn't right. "Fine Tish, I'll just turn the TV off and you can find out later. I don't care either." "No! Wait... I'm sorry I'll come watch it with you.", Tish got out of bed, it was late and she made her way to the couch in only her t-shirt and underwear. Normally she wouldn't walk around like that but she was too tired to think right now. The late night vote had finally arrived and a good percentage of the population of the country was on the edge of their seats right now. Namely those aged 18 to 21. Everyone else already knew their fate but in recent months a small group of congresspeople had started making trouble. At least that it was Tish called it. Some of the more conservative members started suggesting that the age should be raised for the definition of 'minor'. There were all sorts of rationales laid out but the general argument was that it just wasn't fair to the younger group. Tish knew the real reasons were that these jerks thought that someone her age wasn't mature enough and needed some sort of moral guidance. The idea of chastity for younger people was some sort of moral crusade for them. At first the group didn't gain much traction but support gradually grew and there were concessions being made. They had enough people on their side to throw a wrench into the whole program and the other side couldn't appear to be the ones who let that happen. Tish hated politics and this was why. They all got what they wanted and she gets screwed. In the end, a bill was proposed raising the age to anyone who was under 21 as of a certain date and all minors had to participate at least for a year in order to 'provide a good statistical model'. Tish knew they just wanted to control her and this was an easy way for them to do it. She remembered arguing constantly with Jenn about it. "Tish, c'mon you really think these people are conspiring to deprive you of sex? Keep you pure or something? They are just following the science." "YES! Open your eyes Jenn. These wackos have always tried to control people's bodies. That is ALL this is about. That and money. They are all getting rich on this somehow. Trust me! "Ok Tish, ok. I Trust you." The conversations continued like that for weeks and month's leading up to this vote and they were both tired of fighting. Luckily, congress was split down the middle on this issue so there was a chance she would be free from this idea. She felt so foolish gloating over not having to participate when it was first announced and now she knew she might have to eat her words. Tish sat next to Jenn on the couch with her elbows on her knees, and her hands covering her eyes like a child would do, watching the vote tally grow. It was growing in her favor! Jenn put her arm around her and told her to hang on, whatever happens it will be ok. The votes trickled in until it was 49-49. "Please please please.", Tish said outloud as a tear fell down her check. Jenn wondered how many other people were sitting in their homes right now doing the same thing. Millions she imagined. 51-49. The vote had passed. "Noooooo. Is that it? Like, that is the vote? It is over?", Tish asked dumbfoundedly. Jenn held her tight and looked at her. "Tish, I'm so sorry." Tish kind of leaned into her and rested on her shoulder in disbelief. "Don't say it Jenn. I already know. You told me so." "No sweetheart, I wouldn't say that to you. I know this is hard, and I'm sorry. I'm here for you. Whatever you need." This made Tish cry even more. Jenn was so nice and she felt so defeated and ashamed at how she acted before, and had been acting. Was this some sort of cosmic karma getting back at her? She didn't believe in any of that nonsense but that is how she felt in the moment. Tish finally went back to bed and cried herself to sleep. She woke up early. She has been tossing and turning all night. She once thought it was all a dream until she realized it wasn't and that sinking feeling hit her after the realization set in. Her only hope was that this older age group wouldn't take this lightly and that there will be some sort of revolt or fight. She planned on calling a couple friends later to talk about it, but mainly hoping to commisserate a bit so she didn't feel so alone. Tish finally climbed out of bed and slipped some shorts on and went out to make coffee. Jenn was still sleeping. She felt like the the only person in the world at the moment. She flipped through her phone reading the latest articles on the decision and hopped on various social media sites looking for what she knew was the inevitable push pack and anger. She was surprised that it took a lot of scrolling through comments to find people who were outraged, said they wouldn't comply etc. But the majority of comments were supportive. Surely these couldn't be people in her age group that. She figured most of these comments were bots pretending to show support to change the narrative and she decided to prove it. She knew social media didn't represent the majority. "They" were controlling the narrative. She scrolled through her contacts and deicded it was late enough to call her friend Beth who she went to school with. "Hey Tish! It's early, are you ok? Oh do you need ride to class or something?" "Umm no, I just thought I'd call and see how you are doing with the decision and all." "Oh, yeah right. I mean, yeah it's going to be weird huh?" "That's all you have to say!?" "Well, I'm not sure what you are asking me. Like, I'm glad to be doing my part and helping ya know? We have to all help to solve the problem right? It's so important." Tish wanted to barf and through her phone through the window. Where was the anger, the outrage and frustration she was looking for. "Beth! How are you not enraged and mad at this decision. I mean, c'mon you are going to be wearing a diaper soon. What the hell!" "Sorry Tish, I wish things were different I do but the world has bigger problems than my own desires or comfort. It won't be that bad. I think you should think about that and focus on how you can help. Everyone is in this together right?" Tish was flabbergasted. She didn't feel like she was 'in anything', or 'together'. What was Beth's problem. There was silence on the phone for a few seconds. "Tish? Are you still there." "Yeah, I.. I'm just scared I guess and wanted to someone to talk to.", This was of course a lie. Tish was mad, not scared. She tried to recover with something so Beth wouldn't think less of her. She hated doing that. She wanted to stand her ground but also didn't want to become a pariah. "Well there is nothing to be scared of it right? It's going to be weird for sure but we will all get through it. But hey I gotta get ready for class. I'll see you this afternoon OK?" "Sure Beth. Thanks again." "No problem.", Tish heard a click and sighed at not getting any help. She had a few other people she planned on calling but decided it was pointless. She aggresively through her phone into the couch cushion and sat down. She sipped her coffee in the quiet of the morning, unable to process the mixture of emotions coursing through her.

Chapter 5 "Let's just do this online worksheet or whatever so you can tell me what I have to do and how screwed up my life is gonna be." "C'mon Tish, stop being like that." Jenn grabbed her tablet and entered the URL listed on the page they had retrieved from the box. The following screen popped up. 'Changing the Future' A helpful guide to start your first week! "Cute" They progressed through the worksheet. It wasn't anything that Jenn didn't arleady know, having gone through the training, but it was a way to introduce Tish to the ideas and concepts slowly. "Tish are you shaved down there? You'll need to be completely smooth." "What!? For real?" "Yes it will be more hygenic that way. If you'd like I can help you with that." "NO!.. I mean.. I can do that myself.", Tish checked her composure. "Ok Tish, but you know I'm going to see you right? Like tomorrow morning. You do realize I'm going to put a diaper on you before you leave for work." "I know that! You don't have to remind me." "Ok." "So what about your umm bathroom habits, do you usually #2 once per day? What time?" "God this is so embarassing." "Just answer" "Yeah usually in the morning, why?" "Well you get two changes per day so we really need to plan this out. Mainly this is for your comfort but we have to sign you up for a collection time too. They expect to get samples every day and they will be checking if you don't. So you are going to want to take care of your business before you get changed for the day if you know what I mean. You don't want to be stuck all day, right?" "Stuck?" "Yes, it's not like I can just come change you in the middle of the day silly." Tish's head was swimming. There was so much to this that she hadn't considered yet. Jenn touched 8am and 9pm for Tish's collection times and submitted it. She could always adjust it if needed. "I mean, can't we get more diapers for when I need them?" "They are only alloting for 2 changes per day right now. They said hopefully in the future they will be able to ramp up capacity but everyone in the whole world is being treated equally. Rich, poor, regardless of country. Everyone gets 2 per day. The good news is they are supposed to last at least 12 hours." Although, that is what they told Jenn, she knew in reality there would always be the have and have nots. She was pretty sure there would be certain groups of kids who could change any time they wanted. They probably even paid for full time sponsors for convenience. Jenn knew the way the world worked. Those types were playing a game she and Tish weren't invited too. Tish was about to cry. This seemed impossible to her. How was she going to live bundled up like that? How could she go to work? To school? Excercise or go out with friends, see her boyfriend. Her head was swimming with a thousand questions she hadn't considered. "How am I supposed to face John like this Jenn? How?" "John is very supportive Tish. It will be OK. He knows what you are going through. I don't know how it will all work but we'll figure it out ok?" They finished going through the online questions and the system spit out a basic weekly plan. They really didn't find it helpful but Tish did get to find out some more details about her routine. Jenn thought she would introduce a few more details tomorrow. Tish was deflated and worn out. She just looked at Jenn. "Come on now, don't look at me like that. I'm sorry this is happening to you but we have to do it. Why don't you go shave down there and take a shower. I'll come check on you in a bit." 'Check on me', Tish though to herself. 'I think I'm capable of taking a shower and shaving' Tish proceeded to her nightly routine. She washed her hair and body under the hot shower. She loved this part of the day where she could wash her stress away and forget about everything but tonight was different. She turned her attention to her private area. She already routinely shaved down there but it felt weird knowing that Jenn asked her to do this and make sure she got everything. She spent about 5 minutes on herself before turning off the shower and stepping out. She was drying off and about to put her underwear on when Jenn came barging in. "Whoa whoa, not so fast. Let me take a quick look." "HEY! Take a look at what?", Tish tried to cover herself quickly with her towel. "Your shaving job. I know you Tish and you rush things and don't pay attention. Now come here, this will only take a sec." "No way. It's fine. Trust me." "Tish, please don't be difficult. There is a very good reason for this. I'm just doing what they instructed us to do. Why don't we just break the ice now and get this over with. Then tomorrow it won't seem so weird." "Oh it wont be weird? You mean when you are putting a f'ing diaper on me?" "Language!" "Fine, but make it quick. God this is so embarassing." Tish walked over and dropped her towel to the floor revealing her body to her best friend. She'd been naked in front of other girls plenty of times during sports and stuff, but this time seemed different. She felt so vulnerable. So helpless. "God Tish, I wish I had your body. You have nothing to be embarassed about.", Jenn touched the inside of her thigh, and then the other, prompting her to spread her legs a bit more. Tish blushed and didn't know Jenn could be jealous of her in that way. "Stop it. You aren't so shabby yourself, you know." Jenn smiled back at the thoughtful gesture and then touched Tish, feeling her private areas and checking the smoothness. Tish took a nervous deep breath at being touched like that by her best friend and jumped a little. She didn't know what to do or say. It was Jenn who spoke first. "Easy Tish, stand still for me. I'm sorry this is awkward, I know but you look pretty good down here I must say. That will make changes much easier trust me.." Tish rolled her eyes at being inspected like a child who wasn't able to clean herself. Jenn stood up, "Ok Tish, I'd like to have you ready and diapered by 7:30am so you can get to class on time, and then to work. You need to get up early enough to do your #2 ok? This first time we diaper you will take a bit longer because I have to explain some things. I'll see you in the morning ok?" Jenn quickly left and went to her bedroom. "Whatever.. ok Jenn.", Tish uttered even though there was no one there to hear it. She was still standing in her bathroom, naked, staring at her feet feeling unsure of what just happened between them. She slipped her underwear on knowing this would be the last pair she would be wearing for awhile. She wondered just how long it would before she got to wear them again.