Laconic Droid

This morning. Nothing much to say really, woke up, was going to head to the potty but then figured I'm diapered, it's my day off, why bother? Now I'm just catching up on the news, having a coffee and enjoying myself.

Thanks everyone. You've all resonated with me. Pura - I agree the first step is self-acceptance. I mean, I've been wearing off and on for 20 years and I am afraid to accept myself for who I am. sparkelz - Agree that it isn't so much the diapers, it's the fear of being found out. oznl - Man that voice is strong, isn't it? Wearing diapers to reduce anxiety about not wearing diapers impacted me. BabyBoi91 - Your comment is spot on. This doesn't have to be black an white - I wanna wear as much as possible, but equally important is not beating myself up wearing or not wearing. It isn't a failure either way.

Tl;dr - This is another rant about personal acceptance. For as long as I can remember (which is after I was potty trained) I've always wanted to wear diapers. It's one of those things that is so ingrained in me that I know it isn't something that I can repress or stop. It's also my biggest source of shame - it's the one major thing keeping me from being myself and something I hide. For those of you who are 24/7 or not - How did you deal with the internal feeling of shame? My fantasy is to just be a diaper wearing guy because that is what I am. But I make up excuses to myself about why I shouldn't just wear all the time and use my diapers for their intended purpose. I live alone, work from home, and have supportive friends but I can't get over my feeling of shame. What are your thoughts on this topic?