Nicola

Hi, I'm a male in my mid 60s currently living in the UK and have always had a fascination with diapers, although I was aged in my 40s before I actually started wearing them. From about 10yo I wanted to wear womens clothes, and enjoyed dressing up in secret for years. In my 20s I wanted to wear and use diapers, but I was too afraid to even try it back then. About 20 years after that I had an elderly female relative pass away, and I was tasked with clearing her posessions, among which was a large packet of Tena Slip maxi. I kept those, as well as a lot of her clothes, which I still wear, but it took me over a year to actually wear the Tena slips. I felt ashamed wanting to do it, but eventually gave in to my desires and from then on i've not been able to stop. I still like to dress up, but now I really like the sissy look. Some times I like to be an AB, other times I just like to wear a diaper, either on its own, or go out wearing one, which I will wet while I am out. I wanted to mess in them too, but that took a long while to happen as well, I know that's offensive to some but i can't help myself wanting to do it, although I don't like the cleanup afterwards much. I was briefly put back into diapers as a teenager, and I think thats where it stems from. I would luv to be forced to dress and act as a 2yo little gurl, but I have no one to do that with, so after a great deal of soul searching I have joined up here. I luv the cartoons by "Prissy" as a lot of those depict what i want to happen to me. I welcome personal messages, particulary about the things I like, and also telling how other people got started. nicola.