michael-p

Thank you Little Tomås Thank you so much, Yes, my wife tried them with me years ago, but while it was really stimulating to see her in a diaper, I knew her heart was not into it. She seemed uncomfortable with them and I felt a little like I was subjecting her them (as opposed to introducing). We also have three tenants living in our house with us - and me keeping it hidden is plenty difficult.

Been a DL my entire life. Always known a community is out there and that I am not alone, but have never met or talked with another person who enjoys diapers. This is a huge part of who I am. My wife is the only one who openly knows; my family and a few of friends have found out, but we're all content in our denial (or at least I hope so). Simply telling my wife was the hardest - and - one of the worst experiences of my life! Having dated for about eight months I fell head-over-heals in love and promptly dumped her - cold. No explanation, barely a conversation and I was out. Then spent six horrible months totally devastated, a feeling made even worse knowing that I had intentionally hurt the first person worthy of spending a lifetime with. And all this was because I knew that this little secret would have to come out eventually and I lacked the strength to face the only outcome I could envision - rejection. I eventually came to my senses - apologized, told her about this special need, and how much she meant to me. Even once she knew (and totally accepted me for this) and we were back together, I kept it mostly hidden. Things are better now, and it is part of our everyday life, but I don't flaunt it or ask/need her to participate. What I've always wanted to do -no, what I need- is simply meet another person who is a DL. Someone (or it could be a group of people) who has gone through life sharing similar experiences and needs. To be perfectly honest the anxiety of putting myself out there – even to a this community, is immensely difficult, but might end up allowing me to let go of the oppressive shame I've always felt about needing to wear diapers to feel complete.