Dawg Piles

My most embarrassing moment was when my mom found my pack of briefs. This is probably the most embarrassing moment in any childs life. Well, it was pretty much downhill from there. I had to go to therapy (nothing like talking to ppl who think ur a crazy). That was a bad few years of my life. One embarrassing accident was when I was at a church barbeque. It was awesome. I wear my brief there just b/c I wanted too. If I wear them in the day, it's b/c I sweat a lot and hate the feeling when it's cold, yet I'm still active. Not like a wet diaper but that's another story. In any event, I must have played every game availible, football, dominoes, basketball, everything. A great long day at the park, what kid could ask for more. well, forgive me for not knowing that the park wouldn't have a bathroom and the only one I could go to was a portable miles away or my friends house even further away. I had to go BM but thought I could hold it and I did. At least I thought I did. During a quite long domino game some ppl started commenting on a bad smell. I smelled it too, then I felt it. OH BOY. I don't even remember what lame excuse I used to get out of the game (but they bought it b/c I was young and adults really don't like it when youth start beating them at their own game). I ran to the nearest stream and checked my diaper. Well the contents were frightening. I had no place nearby to change and to top it off my friend was wondering about me and went to find me. Well I don't like being in a messy diaper, but at least it wasn't uncomfortable. My friend came over I pulled up the nasty thing ( I grabbed a nearby stick and fished out the gist of it. boy that was gross). He and I walked to the portable as he needed to go and he needed an excort was we were both mid-low teens. He went in first and I after. What I ended up doing and discarding the dirty one in there and savagely trying to clean myself up (I needed a shower). for the most part I was clean but I knew I smelled bad. Luckily for me my family was leaving but I was scared of the ride back. The car was hot so I rolled down all the windows. My mom quickly smelled the disaster in my pants. I told it I was sick (which I was. If I get diherrea, I get it bad). She understood. We drove home and I took a much need shower. sorry for the long post. I realized that the embarrassing parts are sort of skewed but I don't want to delete this as for future reference

Well, I remember reading an acrticle about dl behavior. Usually it's an endless cycle of binging and purging. Well, binging time has come and of course I'm in full swing. I've been an unsure dl since I was 8 or so. Just experimenting and what not, further feeding my likes for diapers. I would have officially become a dl around 16 when I visited websites, chatted, and bough briefs. I then had sort of a correctional stage from then on, where I didn't want to do it or wanted to but convinced myself I didn't want to. I've come to realize I do like them and that's it. I don't wear them usually, just every time I feel the need to, I have one, maybe wet it, throw it away, and I'm cool for months. Usually I find having a relationship and doing, well u know, gets my mind completly off of that. So I had gone months w/o having to binge on diapers. But, as a christian, sex b4 marriage does feel sort of bad and I try to limit this (though it's quite hard). Well in any case, my I told my ex girlfriend about diapers. It wasn't some big dramitc thing. I just told her that for the longest time I liked them and I didn't want her to feel weird or anything, it justs one part of who I am. She was of course a bit surprised (I don't know what the tipical DL would look like, but I suppose I didn't fit that bill, maybing being black or atheletic or a university scholar, idk which). We talked for a little bit as it was new to her. I was surprised that this interested her, though I just figured it was just a new experience for her. After which, we ended up breaking up, but she was curious about the whole thing. Strange thing is, we still hang out, and I think I might have "convinced" her to like diapers. However, this was unexpected. she always was a closet freak. I supposed I like that, but hmmm. IDK if DL should be something that should be "spread" rather one just was in the club from the get go. By no means did I discourage her, but I told that it is really hard to be one. I have problems feeling like I'm a child though I rather not be treated like one b/c I like diapers. I don't even like the word diapers that much. This stems back from me having bedwetting accidents when I was child and later when I was in Track. I've come to terms with it now. If I meet someone I like, I jsut ahng out with them. If they seem cool, I go ahead and tell them. It doesn't really bother me if they like it or not, mostly b/c I can be pretty scary as a 6'3" black guy with a mouth to boot. I'm a philosophy major, so this really impacts my realistic view of diapers in general. I love all types of forums and love listening and learning from others. If I can be of helpt to anyone, feel free to drop a line. I'm quite adept at conflict managing and even just listening to ppls stories. I even used to frequent the dl chatrooms on yahoo and even had a reputation (though long gone now. and I figure I was liked b/c I was a kid). It's nice just to have a place to listen and share with others.