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DiaperDean

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  1. I started thinking/wearing as early as 8 years old, a going desire to be stay in diapers shortly after. Started to use diapers around 12 and buy my own about 15. I never came into contact with adult diapers until I was 16/17. After that I wanted to be incontinent properly. So I recon even as the early teen years I wanted to be put back into diapers and be diaper dependent.

  2. I would refuse outright. There was a few mounts during my child/teenage years I could have said something about my desires to wearing nappies but due to my anxiety I always kept quiet. So, if all would stay the same to who I am now, then yes, yes I would love to go back and persuade my parents to keep me in nappies and never potty train me. 

  3. Being I class myself as Bigender I see myself as both. It differs on any given day, most of the time 50/50 upper half male, lower half female. Othertimes 65/35 chest and lower half are female. But, always having an outward appearance of a male...

  4. Over the last few day, today especially, I have been wanting nothing more then to wear diaper 24/7 and use them completely for their intend purpose. However, how my finances are as well as the UK economy is these days I cannot see this happening anytime soon. Being diaper dependent is a desire I have had since being about 8 years old and something that I think off a lot...I mean a whole lot. Not a day goes by without thinking about it, the only time I do not have at least one thought of having zero (Mainly) bladder control is when i am wearing. It has even crossed my mind if it can all be a form of 'Body Dysmorphic Disorder' to why I do not want any bladder control.

    I guess I am just rambling on about a topic that a lot of us shear due to other frustration, other than the whole incontinence desire frustration. Over the last several months I have been searching to understand how I actually feel about my body as well as how I see it. To start with, I do not see myself as Trans as the descriptions to not truly match (The reason why Dysmorphia enter my mind). For me, I see myself as both genders, in my mind it is roughly a scale of 40% male and 60% female. As odd as it may seem, I do not tend to feel as my whole body as one or the other. I tend to feel as my lower half should be female most of the time. Hence another reason why I am frustrated that I can not afford many diapers at the moment, when wearing a diaper I can look more feminine. This in turn feeds back into the incontinence desire because, well, I am diapered all the time to look feminine so not use it ?

    Although this post has not truly been all been incontinence related, it has indeed helped me by finally get alot of what is going around in my head down in a public setting for a fist time. 

  5. I have spoken to the doctor but only as a last minute thing at the end of my appointment regarding my anxiety. All I ended saying was sometimes I leak (I don't) and that I wear diapers sometimes to help with it and occasionally to help with my anxiety. Since then nothing has been said. Although, I have a different doctor each time which is bloody annoying.

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  6. I never really went anywhere, I have been away from the site but that is due to the lack of new posts. There always seems to be a large period in between posts I find. Diapers, I have not worn during the day for at least 2 months I reckon. I do at night when I stay away for work...Cannot have any little accidents now can we ? (I wish I was a bedwetter ?) I wear at night because it helps me sleep knowing that at little leaks caught. Prior to this, I was diapered 24/7 wetting/messing day and night for a good month I think. But, I think due to working outside with the heat finally started to get me.

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  7. Ahhhh, back in my nappies once again. I can never work out what it is about them, but I am so much happier, and happier in myself when I am working diaper and using them for for both wetting and messing. When I am without them I don't feel normal, if that makes sense...or maybe the would should be complete instead of normal, I don't know. All I know is that I am happier and a better version of myself when I am able to just wet and mess when when I do not have to think about it. 

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  8. Hello. I am a Manch born and bread, now living elsewhere. No up for meeting people at the moment but will happily chat. Don't be shone to send a message, I am always up for a natter.

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