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You are!

Yes sometimes a white lie is better in this situation after all I'm sure we both accept that its not entirely normal to want to do this to our bodies.

Other than clients, I told some of my straight friends that I have a medical issue whereas I was able to be open with most of my gay ones who just thought I was pretty crazy but happy to go along with it. I was single when I started this but now I have a partner who is thankfully very supportive, I couldn't start a relationship without being totally open about my desire and he occasionally wears but is genuinely turned on by having a submissive IC partner which is great, I count myself as being very fortunate.

You are doing very well for just over 6 weeks 24/7. I'm afraid I was still pushing at that stage and it took me a lot longer to just let it fall out naturally. Back then I was just starting to gain confidence in actually wearing a soiled diaper that I was less concerned about voiding naturally. I think it took me at least three or four months to get what the programme calls a genuine reflex BM!

I remember the programme saying to repeat to yourself from Day One, "I am Incontinent,"  but again I didn't have your level of self confidence at that stage. I gradually came out at first telling people I had an illness leaving me the option of recovery if I backed out.

Can I ask ,have you told people other than on the forum that you are IC? How did they react?

Its strange how people's minds work in different ways to help them achieve their goals. I'm interested in your comment that going in a diaper actually saves you time and that therefore helps justify your aim.

For me with my desire for humiliation and submission, I took the view that I was somehow disabling myself by becoming IC and it also would take me more time to change and clean myself in a toilet similar to how I imagine it is so much harder going to the toilet if you were disabled. For instance if I have to change a wet diaper it takes me on average 7 minutes in the toilet now whereas as a man just peeing would probably take two at most. Whereas changing a soiled diaper which I will do two or sometimes three times each day takes me 12 - 15 minutes depending on how messy I am. This makes me feel genuinely inconvenienced and disadvantaged compared to an able bodied person.

I used to hate carrying unnecessary bags etc with me when I went out. Now its 2nd Nature to carry my back pack with three diapers, disposal sacks, barrier cream, disposable gloves toilet rolls, wet wipes, anti-bacterial hand wipe and enough water to keep me hydrated. Its a genuine hindrance which I now love. I suppose its a little different for a woman who is used to carrying a handbag.

Anyway the journey continues, please do keep me informed of your progress.

Hi Jessica, I tend to agree, I wasn't sure about becoming bowel IC when I started this adventure but it came surprisingly easily. I see from a mother post of yours that you are dual IC. Can I ask is that due to a medical condition or through choice like me?