Ashamaness

This hits home... is she chronically ill? If she’s able to kick her out of the bed I guess not though.

Wow, look at the ball of yarn unravel lol. ? Thanks everyone. You’re really sweet. Yeah, it really is. I’ve been to munches and afterparties and have several little friends. I’ve even converted more than one normie, haha. (Sorry for bragging) I’ve been really lucky like that. And yeah, you’re absolutely right. It just kind of got complicated when I suddenly lost the desire to do little stuff. I think part of it might have been situational though. That’s actually really interesting because I think it was related for me too, but not about my being trans so much as my being gay, relative to my natal sex. Or rather, it’s like the initial AB needs came from a really intense experience when I was little, and the DL fetish came from me thinking I’d go to hell for being into guys ?. So accepting both kind of just invalidated my little side pretty solidly. Thanks!

XD Okay fine lol. You got me. I think with little stuff I do love it. As much as I like to pretend to myself that I’ll be able to just live without it, every once in a while the need for it flares up and punches me right in the happy illusions. Use it! Haha I’ve written a lot about things in my blog already, though it’s mostly for helping my family understand why I’m trans (not that it’s helping) and telling stories about important moments in my life, and I tend to allude to little stuff rather than being open about it, though ironically that part of me has always been something I’ve actually been very open about.

Thanks so much for the super nice replies everyone! I love how this could turn into a GIANT YARN BALL OF CASCADING APPRECIATION! That seems like it’s super healthy to me, lol. @Sophie ♥ I don’t know where I sit with little stuff either. I could explain more but I don’t need to hijack the thread haha. I’ve often considered hopping on board and writing a story here, but I don’t really know if I’d finish it cuz I’ve been kind of squashed on a lot of artistic fronts lately. Anyway, y’all got me to reply again ? ? look what you did!

So, this is probably going to be kind of long. This is my first comment on the DD boards. Maybe my last, I don’t know. I’ve been lurking here for years now, maybe close to a decade. A couple of years ago I discovered Little Luzy while it was still in-process and fell in love with y’all’s writing, S&P. I’ve been through an awful lot in life, and it’s always stories that keep me going. When I discovered Luzy, I was really sick, for a really long time. I’m not ashamed to say that I used to keep a tab open on my phone and check for updates four or five times a day. Whenever I found something I’d immediately text my partner at the time and we’d read it together. And then I got better. Life went through a massive upheaval. I thought I found a way out of this side of me that I don’t know if I’ll ever manage be unashamed of. Tonight I came back to it though, just to check for more of your writing and found this story, and I don’t know why this is the one that finally made me have to make an account, but I just had to. I just want to say thank you. I think sometimes it’s impossible for us to know the kinds of effect we have on others when we put ourselves and our writing out into the world. Anyway this has been long and sappy. Just tonight reading your story helped me feel a little better. I love your work, and I’m grateful you keep on making it.