[So this is ironic... ?]

6 minutes ago, vvp39 said:

You may as well get used to the idea, right now, that when your stepmother passes they well expect you to be the one to take care of them...and be emotionally ready to deal with that.

Well, they better be prepared for a RUDE awakening...

I'm all for helping out, but only for people willing to help themselves 

[So this is ironic... ?]

I appreciate everyone letting me vent about this and seeing that my points are actually valid.

I'm kinda used to being told I'm "being dramatic and/or paranoid", tbh ?

Unfortunately, the house is NOT owned by me, we are all renting

Its just so... frustrating,  you know?

I have 2 jobs, I buy my own groceries, pay for what I need, etc.

And if I need financial help, I pay people back.

But just some of these behaviors are ridiculous!

Like a couple of months ago, for example.

One of my jobs at the moment is at Spirit Halloween. 

If you tell them you wanna "stick around for build and tear down", that means you're there for the initial building and take down of the store(s). You can earn up to $16/hr during build and tear down, so you know I was gonna be there ?

So, needless to say, when we're setting up stores in Central Virginia in late July, it gets HOT? .

One day, I come home from a typical 9-5 during a build day ( which is basically me and the guys carrying and putting up walls that can be as light as 25 lbs to as heavy as 80 lbs), so when I get home, I'm drenched in sweat, dirt and dust.

All I wanna do is make my way to the kitchen, make a sandwich, and sit down for 5 minutes before getting a shower.

I'm making my sandwich, when I use the last piece of bologna that I bought.

So naturally, I go to the trash can to toss the packaging out, when I notice its full.

I think to myself: "I'll just get it later, I'm too damn tired right now"

When I hear my step brother from behind me say: " Yeah I noticed that the trash was full. Be nice if someone could take that out..."

... People...

When I say it took every fiber of my being to not turn around and call him out...

I literally just got home from carrying 80 lbs walls and building a fucking store for 7 hours (since we were given an hour lunch during build) in 95° heat...

... and he has been home ...ALL...DAMN... DAY...

I had to take a deep breath and walk away. 

He has Autism. I try to respect that. He and my younger brother are on the spectrum.

But here's the thing:

He is sharp as a tack! He's HIGH FUNCTIONING!  

And I've seen him take out the trash before.....

So what the flying fuck is getting in your way from doing it right now?!

Unbelievable! 

I love my family... but Sweet Jesus, this entitled attitude gets to be a little much at times...??

And I completely agree.

Unfortunately,  when the sad day of my step mother's passing comes, these kids are... in big trouble ?????

 

[Trying my best ?]

Hey guys

Just had to vent for a sec

Life overall has gotten kinda hectic for the past year or so

On October 8th, 2021 I walked into my uncle's (Craig) bedroom to find him curled up in a ball, with a belt wrapped around his arm, cold to the touch

Needless to say, he overdosed

I never really talked about it after it happened, because I figured my mother was the one who REALLY needed the support (seeing as how he was her little brother)

A few days after that (October 12th) is when I had to put my anxiety aside and finally get my driver's license.

I had had God awful anxiety over driving since I was 15, so I constantly put it off

After my uncle's passing, I didn't really have a choice but to get my license, seeing as how he would have been the driver if my mother was too busy

I managed to focus enough to pass my test and get my license 

However, after the test, I heard my mother and step-dad talking:

"Well, Kat, you know that he had a bad heart... and he knew that once Chan (me) got her license, it was only a matter of time before he wouldn't have her car to drive anymore. He just didn't seem to see a way out."

" I know, Bob. But it doesn't make it easier to deal with... You know, the day it happened, Craig walked up to me and hugged me from behind and said 'I love my sissy!'...

I was so mad at him (I don't even remember why now) and I shoo'ed him off of me and said 'Yeah, I know you do'

And that was the last thing I said to him..."

I wanted to try and comfort my mother, but I've never been good with such things...

I try not to think about how he must have felt, doing that one last hit...

I called in to work, letting them know what happened

I took the next few days off to help with everything

And then I took my driving test and passed 

But I still felt... weird, about the whole thing

I know thats not the best way to describe it...

I guess it never really hit me that I lost a family member, you know?

I never knew Craig before he was on drugs...

So, about a month after it happened, I glanced at his Urn and I asked my mother:

"I honestly never knew him before his addiction, Momma... 

What was he like?"

We were watching Fresh Prince of Bel Air on TBS at the time

She pointed to the TV and said:

"Picture Will Smith as Fresh Prince, but White

That was the only difference, Chan

He LOVED music

Could beat ANYONE in basketball 

Loved learning about and fixing cars

Would give the shirt off his back to help others 

And could make anyone laugh or smile because he was the biggest goofball."

And that's when I had to excuse myself because it finally hit me

I started crying because thats when I finally realized just WHO had left us... 

 

Things were calming down for a few months. Then in March, my stepfather walks in one day and says:

"Hey we're moving!"

I went BALLISTIC. 

Where?!

Why?!

How?!

Everyone else was ECSTATIC because they were moving to a river house.

I, on the other hand, can go without seeing the water.

So, that meant I had to up and leave a house I had known for the past 18 years

And of course

It wouldn't just go smoothly with us leaving a home we had all known for damn near 2 decades and having to give up a job I actually enjoyed while actually being friends with my coworkers...

Because the Universe just had to ask "where's the fun in that?"... ?

On April 15th, my grandma passed away

And that hasn't been easy either, considering that my Nana and my Grandma were my REAL mother figures growing up

Nana passed away when I was 12 

And now Grandma was gone...

It felt so surreal to me... it still kinda does

The family was told that she was in the hospital, but no one seemed too concerned about it...

I could only assume it was because she seemed to be on the mend for awhile (?)

She apparently got a really bad infection, which was causing severe pain

When she was lucid, she told her doctors that if the pain became too much, to just let her go

So, that's what happened.

I've felt terrible ever since

We were given a phone number to call for her hospital room... but I just couldn't bring myself to call

What if she was resting, and I was disturbing her?

What if they were running tests, so I couldn't talk to her anyway?

What if this was going to be the very last time I ever spoke to the last mother figure I had left?

...

Dear God, I wished I picked up that damn phone

I wish I told her that I missed her and that I loved her (even if we were never THAT emotional with eachother)

I wish I could have let her know how much her guidance meant to me...

But I didn't

And now I'm here, in my Dad and stepmother's house

Feeling teary eyed and nauseous from being too emotional all at once

But I gotta try and get some sleep because Chan (Big me) has to go to work tomorrow 

Sorry that was such a long winded rant

I just had to get it out somehow

If you stuck around through all that built up drama, then thank you for putting up with all this emotional verbal vomit ??

I hope yall have a good night and stay safe! 

P.S. 

Always say "I love you"

You'll never know when it'll be the last time 

❤

 

 

[So this is ironic... ?]

23 minutes ago, ~Brian~ said:

@Little Sherri

Sometimes in life, you end up running into situations where you have to analyze situations that seem to be silly in one way or the other. I have a friend for example, who for example, would end up trusting me and another friend, call us for advice, ask us for help, and all that good stuff. We tell him where to go to get the help he requested, and who to contact, but this is where it gets interesting.

Sometimes he doesn't want to listen: will tell him to call somewhere, or go see someone. He'll tell us " I don't like talking on the phone, I get nervous."  I don't mind people saying that as much, because we all get nervous when we're talking to someone we don't know. I've been using the services in the Vermont State for the last 50 years of my life. When I was a kid, someone would help me by doing it on my behalf, or asking me certain questions when it was necessary, or me talking to someone. I have no problem talking on the phone, because I did that for many years doing tech support on campus and in many situations where people would call me and ask for help.

What happens is, this friend we'll complain that he doesn't have what he needs to both of us, but when we tell him where he needs to go or who he needs to call, he doesn't wanna do it.This is not a good idea, because he has children of his own, and he needs to know and learn how to get the services that he needs so he can function .

just like when you got mad at your wife, or that you disagreed with her, and she said that she " couldn't hear you", this friend who is probably 30 years my junior, will tell us when we are in our late 50s that we are "WRONG WRONG WRONG" when we are trying to tell him something, and we know that we are right. There are times when we say that what he is doing is "WRONG WRONG WRONG" and he thinks that it is "RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT".

So basically my friend and I are talking to this young gentleman, and we end up saying that he is wrong we are right, or he says he's right and we are wrong, so we keep on repeating wrong right wrong right wrong wrong wrong right right right.

This will go on until he tells us that we are not understanding what is going on, then he'll get mad, and then it may get a little more ridiculous. I remember one time there was a computer question he asked me, about something Google account related. I knew for example, that you can only use one Google account at a time, and for each time you get a Google account, you have to install your apps all over again. For some reason, he had the mistaken idea that the account that my friend used to get his phone back up was a different one, and I told them it was the one that I told them, and he told me I was wrong wrong wrong, and I told them I was right right right, then my friend told them that I was right right right...

So, if you think your argument with your wife was silly and ridiculous, this one was even more silly and more ridiculous, because both of us were right, he was wrong, and he wouldn't admit that we knew more than he did. I respect that friend, but he needs to take responsibility for his own actions, and when we give him instructions and give him the assistance that he requires, he needs to take the initiative. We cannot do everything for him, and I don't mind helping someone, but The thing is you have to take responsibility for your actions, and not try to start telling somebody that knows what is going on that they are wrong, and make you look stupid.

I can see why you would think that someone to think that it is a childish argument, and you are probably right: if your wife is the one who plugs her ears, and does not listen to you, then who is the one who is acting silly? You? Or her?

In my case, this argument is funny because I know what people need to be able to function on their own, and I've done it for 40 some odd years. I also know who to call to get information, and if I'm not sure I know how to get on that phone and make a phone call, and get the information I need. I'm not the type of guy to sit around and wait for something to be dropped in my lap. I take the initiative and I go forward all the way. Sometimes I make mistakes, sometimes I act like a fool, and sometimes I may be right, and sometimes I'm wrong, but in my example, person who is 30 years my junior thinks I'm always wrong? He he he he

such is the life of a single bachelor trying to help someone else!

I could just see if somebody had an argument like that on the forms: if somebody said that they were wrong wrong wrong, then someone said they were right right right? Then Mike would have to come in and Mike would probably have to send both of them to the corner - he he he.

 

Brian

PS: did you send your wife to the corner? He he he

 

I know that exact feeling! ? you can't tell anything to some people ?

They blatantly refuse to believe they could ever be incorrect about anything!

Its frustrating when you just want to help them, but in those cases I've learned that if they TRULY need/want the help, they'll follow your advice (even if they won't admit it ?)

[So this is ironic... ?]

You wanna know whats crazy?

I'M the one that feels like I'm looking after toddlers! ME! ?

I've got 7 siblings in total.

3 of them are in their twenties (just like me), but act like they're 2 (and not in a good way)!

Ironically enough, their mother babies them to the point where I'M the only one acting like an adult!

That's just... weird, you know?

For obvious reasons...? ???

They don't wash their dishes, they don't flush half the time and they STEAL FOOD THAT I BUY!

They don't ask to eat it, nor do they replace it...

Sorry for the rant, but I had to get it out somehow

Does anyone else feel this?

Like they are looking after LITERAL toddlers?

Anyway, sorry about that

I swear, this website is starting to become my new journal, or something ??

Hope yall have a good day and stay safe!:3

[Any Halloween plans?^^]

Hey guys!

Happy September (or as me and my friends call it, Halloween Eve ??)

Just wanted to see what everyone was planning for Halloween this year?^^

My friends and I usually get together for a big bonfire in our Halloween costumes 

We'll listen to spooky music and chat the night away ??

But we also have candy out for the kids (and me ??)

Then we'll  go inside and watch Halloween movies and specials ^^

 

I also had an interesting idea, for us Littles that enjoy Halloween ^^

Wouldn't it be cool if we had our own ABDL theme Trunk or Treat?

Or if there was a few collective people (or even a whole neighborhood!) That would let us Trick or Treat, just like when we were younger?

We could go in a big group or even have a couple caregivers in charge and we could go out and get free candy, just like the good old days ??❤

Anyway, just thought that would be neat^^

 

Everybody have a good day and stay safe! 

[So... Does anyone else get jealous of little kids, or is it just me? ??]

On 9/2/2022 at 6:06 PM, Snugglebear_69 said:

Nope, not at all. Much happier being an adult little than an actual infant. This way I get to do all the fun adult things, be intimate with my Daddy, have diaper sex and so much more that I couldn't do if I was actually an infant. I take my current situation as a MASSIVE win!

That's awesome! I'm glad you have someone by your side to share this side of you with ❤

I never really saw it from that perspective, tbh

I suppose being a full grown adult at least allows us to be able to articulate what we want and need, which is extremely important in any relationship ^^

I hope I can be that lucky and find the right person for me too someday ^///^

On 9/2/2022 at 9:58 AM, DailyDi said:

I'm jealous of the things kids have today: cool electric toys, bedwetter pants, cartoons on all the time.

Man, don't I know it! ? 

Between all the streaming services and the advances in both entertainment and medical technology,  these kids HAVE IT MADE!!! ?

[So... Does anyone else get jealous of little kids, or is it just me? ??]

54 minutes ago, le Hollandais said:

Actually, I'm jealous of adults who have yards private enough, or whose neighbors live far away enough the they can go out of doors in nothing but a diaper and a T shirt.

That's a good point too! Hope I can have a place like that someday^^

[So... Does anyone else get jealous of little kids, or is it just me? ??]

10 minutes ago, BabyJeggySpideyBoy said:

You're DEFINITELY not the ONLY one buddy! I'm jealous of little kids/babies all the time. I'm especially jealous of how they get to where cute little outfits because of their tiny bodies. I was NEVER able to wear them because of always struggling with my weight and so I think I always missed out on that aspect of my life, not to mention the diapers. And I was always envious of how they would get to be carried by their Mommy or Daddy. Especially when they were tired from walking all day. And they always gets to wear the cool outfits and I'm like "man, why do all the babies and little kids get to have all the fun?!?!?!"?????????

EXACTLY!!!

I wanna be able to just walk around in a diaper and my Pikachu onesie all day ? 

I'm also jealous of the unconditional affection they get!

Cuddles, snuggles, hugs, forehead kisses,etc.

I didn't get much of that growing up, to the point where its kind of a struggle to normalize it now

It honestly takes my mind a few minutes to be like "holy shit, they just hugged me" 

And by the time I realize it, its over!!! ???

[So... Does anyone else get jealous of little kids, or is it just me? ??]

Hey guys!

I figured I'd just ask the community in general a question that's been in the back of my mind for awhile now.

Am I the only one that gets jealous of little/younger kids and infants?

Like today, for example

I was just walking to my car, about to go home from work

And I see a mother step out of her car with her child (couldn't have been older than 4 or 5)

The little girl was crying her eyes out over being scared of something (I work at Spirit Halloween, so it could have been one of our animatronics ?‍♀️) 

I'm watching this mother hold her child so tenderly and shushing her and I don't know why but I started to feel teary eyed and my chest started to hurt

I gripped my car door harder and clenched my teeth

My stomach started to get upset too

I got in my car and took some deep breaths before starting it up and heading home

But I sat back and thought about it:

This isn't the first time I've experienced this feeling 

I was hoping I wasn't the only one (?)

Anyway,  just kinda wanted to throw this out there.

At least for the sake of getting it off my chest

I hope everyone has a good day and stays safe!^^ 

?

 

[Tips for Littles without a Caregiver (anything helps!^^)]

On 8/24/2022 at 9:00 PM, Rachael-Little said:

Yes, I have toys also in my nursery, which is really just an extra bedroom where I keep my diapers and baby clothes 

I can't wait to have my own place one of these days!

That way, I can build my own Halloween/Spooky themed nursery ??

21 hours ago, Cute_Kitten said:

Maybe get a cute keychain stuffy to hang on your bag/ purse if you carry one, that way you always have a plushy friend with you wherever you go. 

Thats an AWESOME IDEA!!^^ I kinda have a similar thing going on at the moment

I've noticed that if I keep a small toy in my backpack (right now its a small Bart Simpson bendable figure) it really helps calm my nerves ^^

[Tips for Littles without a Caregiver (anything helps!^^)]

53 minutes ago, Pampertimmy said:

I like having baby/toddler toys. I have a full nursery and playroom but if you can’t do that, maybe just have a box of baby toys at home you can bring out and play with when you can be little.

It's my DREAM to have a fully built nursery!

Unfortunately, can't do that at the moment ?

But I do have a box of toys I keep under my bed for those moments where it all seems a little much ☺️

[Tips for Littles without a Caregiver (anything helps!^^)]

Hey guys!

I just wanted to see if anyone had any tips for Littles who don't have a caregiver (like me ^^)

This is NOT a personal ad or anything, just wanted to see if there were any tips or tricks that y'all may have that could help someone get through the day 

Me personally, I have pretty bad anxiety 

So when I know I have to leave the house, I make sure I:

1)Start my day with cartoons (Handy Manny, Doc McStuffins,etc.)

2) Keep a paci in my pocket, just in case 

 

Who knows, maybe we can help each other out with tips and tricks that we may not have thought of before 

Have a good day and stay safe, girls, boys and joys!^^

 

 

 

 

[Any favorite cartoons?^^]

17 hours ago, DailyDi said:

Awesome choice! 

Bob's burgers is one of my favorites too!^^ 

Just saw the movie and it definitely didn't disappoint!

[Any favorite cartoons?^^]

Hey guys!

Been gone for awhile, decided to try and get back on here since it makes me feel happy ?

Anyway, wanted to break the ice ^^

Any favorite cartoons?

My more recent favorites are Gravity Falls, Craig of the Creek and Owl House ^^

 

[Looking for a mommy in richmond <3]

That sounds cool ^^

If nothing else, it's always good to have someone to talk to about this kinda thing.

?

[Needing advice]

That'd be great!

What do you think I should do?

[Needing advice]

Hey guys.

I basically upset two very important people in my life and now they aren't talking to me.

They're both members of this community, but they apparently haven't been online since I upset them.

I've messaged them over and over, apologizing multiple times, but still nothing.

I miss them so much....

As weird as it sounds, they were the only people I felt like I could emotionally confide in.

I feel completely lost without them.

I know that sometimes 'sorry' can't fix everything, but what else can I do?

I know I may just have to move on, because let's face it, it's completely possible that they'll never message me again, but it's just not as easy as it sounds...

Thanks for your time, guys.

Have a good one and stay safe and healthy out there!❤️

[The Magical Place (Complete)]

This was an amazing story!!! I felt a real connection to the princess character (even though I'd never be caught dead wearing a frilly dress! ?) 

The "organized chaos" that is both her and my room, the subconscious need to try our damnedest to not burden others unless we absolutely have to, the constant internal struggle of wanting to be there for everyone and not having any time to be our true selves and/or let our other side show...

Not gonna lie, currently bawling my eyes out rn.

But that's what good authors do!!

They'll make you feel as though what you're reading is truly happening...❤️

[Miss my Mommy]

Hey guys. It's TomBoyAB.

I'm sure you can guess what this post in particular is going to be about.

My Mommy is going through A LOT in her life right now.

She just got out of the hospital after a major car accident where some of the people most precious to her passed away.

She was also seriously hurt in the incident.

Due to all of this happening, she is extremely overwhelmed, and with good reason.

She said that with all that's going on, she feels as though she can't take care of me anymore.

I've just kinda been numb these past few days.

I have been trying to immerse myself in other things to distract myself (shopping, books, movies, fishing, work, etc.)

It just hurts too much to think that my Mommy may never be in my life again.

It also hurts to think that someone as kind and sweet as my Mommy could have so much bad stuff happen to them.

I'm trying my best to just be a big kid and deal with it, but sometimes, I just wanna be Little.

But being Little without my Mommy just makes my stomach churn.

I put on the best big girl brave face that I can, but I still miss my Mommy...

She was there for me when no-one else was.

She was the mother figure in my life when I needed it the most.

And now she isn't there.

I try not to think about it, but as soon as I'm alone, these thoughts creep into my head:

'I want my Mommy'

'I miss my Mommy'

'Please come back, Mommy'

I have cried myself to sleep more than once since her last message, and then I wake up the next day, repeating the same cycle:

Wake up

Put on brave face

Go to work

Come home

Sleep

What should I do?

Thank you to all that took the time out of their day to read this.

Any and all thoughts would be appreciated.

 

[Worried...]

Hey guys! It's TomBoyAB.

I just wanted to get this out of my system.

A very good friend of mine in the ABDL community hasn't talked to me in awhile.

We used to talk every day, but they haven't sent me a message in over a week.

I just hope they're ok. We've gotten so close since we started talking, they're like family to me.

I know I'm probably just overthinking, but I'm trying to actually talk about my feelings for once, instead of bottling them up and shutting down like I normally do :/.

It's gotten to the point where I don't even feel comfortable looking at diapers, let alone wearing them.

But wearing them is my coping mechanism, so without it, the anxiety just gets worse.

It feels kinda weird talking about this, but I need to get it out somehow and no one around me is going to understand.

Whenever I brought it up before (the 2 times I did) everyone thought it was a "weird fetish".

I just feel like I've gone kinda numb to all of this.

I've been trying to keep my mind off of all of this by throwing myself at everything else.

Work, hobbies, books, etc.

So, anyway, there's my rant for the day.

Thank you to all who took the time out of their day to read it.

Have a good one, guys!?

 

[Looking for a mommy in richmond <3]

Hey guys! It's TomBoyAB! I just wanted to see if there were any Mommies in my area that are looking for a Little :3 I'm not quite ready to do this IRL yet, but I'd love to meet my Mommy one day^^ So, as my username implies, I am a Tomboy. Raised as one of the boys, really x3. I don't like wearing anything girly and prefer wearing guys clothes because they're more comfy :3. With all that being said, I'm also a butch lesbian.When it comes to a CG/L relationship, I don't really find it sexual. The AB  treatment is more for coping with stress for me. However, I have no objections if my Mommy were to become something more(as long as we can keep the Lover and Mommy sides separate)❤. Thanks for reading this and have a great day!:D

[Breaking the Girl: A Novel]

Happy Birthday, bbykimmy!:3

I hope you get bunches and bunches of presents and cake and ice cream! 

X3

[Breaking the Girl: A Novel]

2 hours ago, bbykimmy said:

What Vanessa does in this chapter is really important:  Before anyone can hear you, before anyone can hear the message you're trying to share or the reassurance you're trying to give... they have to know you heard them first.

If someone is upset, you have to Listen.  Don't interrupt, just let them talk, let them say their piece... and then tell them what you heard.  Don't get defensive, don't try to tell them they're wrong, don't try to fix it.  Tell them what feelings that you hear they are expressing, tell them that the feelings make sense to you - you don't have to AGREE with what they're saying, but if you can express that their feelings make sense, that they're valid... a person who's hurting really needs that.

Here, Jess is hurting.  She is unsure, she is anxious, she is scared.  And Vanessa listens.  Vanessa tells Jess what she heard and when she's got it... Jess cries at first, but she feels real deep relief.  Because knowing that the person you're talking to you really hears you, really understands you... it's incredibly comforting, just being heard.

THEN Vanessa can begin to reassure her, to use logic and point things out.  If Vanessa had tried to START with that, Jess likely would have withdrawn, because the message there is that her feelings are wrong, invalid.

Listening is really friggin' hard.  It's a life skill.  Vanessa's good at it.

I couldn't agree more! Listening is INCREDIBLY difficult at times, but it's always worthwhile. Also, bbykimmy, you have a VERY good point about LISTENING first, THEN saying what you feel needs to be said. When you know that they are actually paying attention to to your words and actions (and not just waiting for you to stop talking so they can proceed to tell you how you are wrong/incorrect on the matter), it's so INCREDIBLY validating. Like someone actually cares enough to put the time and effort into trying to help you with what ever is upsetting you. Again, you have hit the nail on the head! Amazing work!:3

[Breaking the Girl: A Novel]

This story is SO COOL! I can relate to it a lot myself^^ Every now and then, the world is too much and I no longer want to be in charge (at least for a little while). Can't wait for more!