Thank you for the advice both of you. I did ask him to do the enema for me and his first reaction was "but I like the part after" so then I felt awkward asking for anything else. He's not turned on by wetting, only messing, and I'm fine with it. This was my second time messing a diaper with him. I did suggest taking it one step at a time instead of trying to fully fulfill both of our most elaborate fantasies at once. He agreed but seemed disappointed by that. I just want to be as good as any DL. I do want to do it. The way he gets when I wear a diaper is so hot, such a turn on, he gets so passionate, I love it. I guess I'm just trying to figure out how to love the diapers themselves, not his reaction to them.