i think that was very well put there gary and i agree there is going to be a lot of pain but deep down i think you will have tons of people around that support you and will get you through this rough time. i can barely even imagine how it feels as i have not lost a loved one but i do know that the time will come and i imagine its gonna be exactly like what you are going through im here for you if i can do anything to help comfort goodluck with everything peace.