Hi there CuriousGirl; this is Mommy Jodie. I totally understand your freaking out, but to put in another perspective, I would like to tell you my take on this. As an experienced woman of many years, everyone has a fantasy that would like to be fulfilled. Your husband could be trying to relive his baby days, just close your eyes and try to remember how you felt as a baby. Did you feel warm, secure, cuddled and loved unconditionally by your mommy when you were a small child. This is a kind of experience to let your inner child come out. It is a normal experience. It is also something that he may feel he needs to remember. You have to remember that when a child is born, especially a male, they have little teenie hard-ons even as newborns. I have been a mommy to a few men and I have learned to understand their needs. When I am a mommy, I am able to personally feel like a mommy who loves their little newborn child. It brings a warmth to my heart. Please be open minded and just try!!! You might never know, after a little time, you might enjoy yourself as much as he does.