diaperman

Shame is a very powerful negative emotion. It is the rejection of who you are. Guilt is a rejection of something you have done. You could expand on exactly what it is about yourself that causes shame. You may try to think about experiences involving diapers or toilet training that may have caused this shame. It is learned, and children learn shame and can use it shape their behavior for survival. I find it a fascinating subject and much has been written about it lately. It is one of the new frontiers of psychology.

A "wet dream" to most guys means that you have an orgasm with ejaculation while asleep. The first time that happed to me, I woke up thinking that I had wet the bed. When I realized that it was not urine, I thought I had an infection! After fully awakening, I realized what had happened. I had not yet begun to masturbate and had never experienced an ejaculation.

Did you leak badly like me? Did anyone notice?

It is the July 4th. weekend and I am alone. I live alone after years of a long term relationship. I am gay, but that is not linked to my love of diapers. I have been fascinated with pants wetting, desperation, and diapers for as long as I can remember. It probably has some sexual component to it, but I think it is more of a need for a sense of security that I had when life was simple and people took care of me. Now, I am the one that everyone depends on, taking care of people, attending to the need of others. Sometimes I just want an escape from that.