valeria

I struggle to calm down on my own as i try to so i can say "i...i don't know why this happens to me" i cough a bit from crying so much. I rub my eyes as they were a bit red and puffy as i started to think it maybe was an accident as i just nod my head yes to you.

"No please don't tell the school i....i can't afford to find someone else to endorse me" I panic as i fall in to an anxiety attack that everything i worked hard for would be for nothing. Tears run down my cheeks as i have a hard time controlling my breathing as i stress out to the point i don't notice i had to pee.

"What! no no it wasn't me you have to believe me. And i...i'm sure it could be just water on the floor or you put the water there to blame me". I get quiet after mouthing back to a teacher as i worry it will ruin my chance of passing as i only had to be here for 4 weeks.

"what are you doing?" I move to go try and go to my seat as i set my backpack down on the table as it tips over and some of my stuff spills out as my backpack was such a disorganized mess to find anything at all. I manage to clean it up and just sit down while waiting for the kids to arrive and since i was early i thought about doing homework but then figured i could do it later at home.

I nearly ran out of there as i barely find a bathroom in time as i panic when i felt pee come out as i was starting to really get upset with myself for this happening. I quickly use the bathroom and then leave to get home not even noticing i had left pee on the floor. I rush to get home as i was lucky i lived alone so that it was one thing i didn't have to deal with.

"Okay i...i will try to remember to pack extra clothes but do i really have to tell you if anything were to happen while i am helping you with the kids tomrrow" I look to you as i really just wanted to get out of here as i hope my snipper attitude doesn't get me in to trouble as i have alot on my plate as it was with school and everything*

"No no thats not needed m...my family is um very busy with work and stuff so um i..i will pack extra clothes" i stutter as i never been so nervous before like this as i was starting to think maybe something was wrong with me or it was maybe just stress with preparing for my college future. "Please i will not let any of this happen again i really don't know whats happening i never had accidents like this before and i certainly would never just do it on purpose"

"Oh umm at home i...i didn't have to worry as um no one was home" i say it as i realy hope i don't get asked about my home life as i knew that part alone was a big risk i was taking as i been on my own since i could remember and if my school found out they would by law have to report this as i was a minor. I felt my pants as i did not like that feeling at all as i could not wait to go home and take a shower and try to forget this ever happend as i never want something like to ever happen again especially infront of the students that you teach.

"Huh! what no no please..please don't report this i really don't know why this is happening and i really don't want anyone to find out about this" i panic as this was the last thing i needed was for my school to find out as then it would lead to issues that i don't want to ruin my chances of getting in to the college after i worked so hard to almost get in. "Please don't i...i worked to hard to almost get in to my dream college and if i don't make this deadline then my whole application will be voided"

I really didn't want to stay as i needed to find a bathroom to go use it before i go home as i didn't get why you needed to see me for anything. As i waited i try to think if i was in trouble for somethnig or if there was something i didn't do right while with the group of kids. I glance at the clock as time felt like it slowed down as i didn't know what to do as i felt the urge to pee getting worse.

I was finally relieved that we had finished and signed the contract as i go to move and get up when i felt a bit uncomfortable and went to touch the back of my pants and felt they were wet again. I was so confused not understanding at all why this was happening at all to me as i am usually good at knowing when i needed the bathroom. I was embarrassed and needed to cover this up, so i took off my hoodie to tie it around my waist. I try to hope no one notices this at all as i wouldn't know how to explain myself.

After school i head over to the place for my second day as after yesturday i couldn't understand why my pants were wet at all. I let it go for now as i show up to your class room as it was only just you there. "Um hi i am here" i enter and go to place my backpack down as its a disorganized mess inside.

"Huh sure right we can talk about it tomorrow but umm i...i should leave and get home" I go to get up as you could see my backpack was messy and unorganized as i look at a clock on the wall seeing the time and really needed to go. I get my backpack on me when i then felt that my pants bottoms felt wet and i didn't know how it happend.

"huh? oh um okay i..im sorry is there anything elses you need from me? and i...i hope to get a good review as i really want to look good for my dream school" I say all this as i then go over to get my school when it tips over and some of my school stuff falls out, i try to get it all collected and back in to my bag when i move i felt like the back of me felt a bit cold and wet.

"huh what? no i don't smell anything at all and i will do my best to try and get her on time" I roll my eyes as i just really wanted to be cleared to leave so i can get home needing to get homework done as i worry a bit if all this would help me reach my goals of getting in to the college i want to attend or if this all ends up with me being rejected for failure to meet requirements. As i stood there i had zoned out not noticing if you were still talking to me or not.

"Oh well yes i do need the endorsement in order to finish school so i can get in to my dream school. And well i just hope to do the best i can so that i can pass and meet the deadline to get the last of my papers to the college so they can hopefully accept me" I looked to you alittle as i hope i can leave and i still had homework to do. "Is there anything i should know about the class or what i would help do with the kids here?".

I roll my eyes about being called short as i couldn't help it as i just let it go and just go over to the table and watch what all the kids were doing. I just sort of watched and walked around the table to see what each kid was working as i start to wonder a bit if this volunteer work is gonna be super easy to pass. As my mind wanders a bit as i tend to get distracted or over think things.

I looked at the teacher infront of me as i heard him ask me about my parents as i try not to roll my eyes about it. I sigh and then go to say "um hi im valeria your volunteer for the next few weeks" I wait to see what he says while wondering if my school told him about me. I try not to fidget as i never liked when adults talk to me as if im a child as i try to hold back as i tend to give attitude and talk back.

I knew i was gonna be cutting it very close as i had alittle trouble getting to the place. Once i arrive i go inside and find the room i am suppose to be in as i go to enter i try to be quiet and wait off to the side. I looked around as i am only 5ft. green eyes, dark brown hair, small body. I have on worn out jeans, faded tshirt, hoodie and old sneakers. I set my backpack down as its alittle heavy from my school books in it as i needed them for homework.

When the last bell rang for the day, i knew i had to get to my locker to get my stuff for homework. I then had to leave and get to the place i am volunteering at as i did not want issues of getting there late.

My school guidance counselor Mrs. Allens had pulled me out of my last class of the day and wanted to have the usual meeting to see how i am with my classes. She then explains to me that i would be helping a teacher that works with kids in a art program, and that i must attend to that every day after school in order to get all my requirements submitted to the college i want to go to.

Its just 6 months left of high school til i can finally graduate and then i can be off to my dream school. But that all won't exactly happen unless i pull my grades up and do the requirements that my college needs in order for me to be accepted in. I was already getting help with pulling my grades up with the help of my teachers and all i needed was to do service hours and get someone to be able to endorse me in order for me to make the deadline in time. My names valeria soon to be graduate of riverdale high school and on a mission to get in to my dream college to study childhood education and minor in sign language.

hi i am interested in hearing more about the 2nd and 3rd ideas

Hi everyone my names valeria and i hope to find friends on here to play with i would love a mommy, daddy or both to love and take care of me. I used to be on here alot but had to stop as life got in the way but i back now.

I listened as i suck on my fingers and drool a bit as i felt you lift me out of the tub, and wrap a towel around me and take me to my room. I felt you lay me on the changing table as i wouldn't stop sucking on my fingers.