[Went number two for the first time]

Ive used alternative stuff to simulate a feeling of a messy diapers.  Ive used bananas stuffed down the back of the diaper.  Ive also used oatmeal... the kind you mix with water... that way you can experiment on how wet or how dry you want the oatmeal... i typically would make it wet enough to pour it down the back of the diaper and then the water would be absorbed into the diaper leaving the oatmeal in the diaper.  

[When did you realize you where a sissy]

I started feeling jealous of girls when i was in 1st grade... seeing the dresses and tights with mary janes made me wish i was wearing them.... started with my grandmothers pantyhose and wore them a few times... then when i was bit older i started with my moms clothes when i was home alone.... one day she and my grandmother found some of her things in my closet (stockings, panties and slip) she asked what i was doing with them and i lied saying they were in with my clean clothes when i put them away the other day and i put these in my closet.

She knew i was lying and said that was impossibe and took them back.   I continued to sneak in and wear her things and a few times she would ask "who has been going though my dresser"  i never admitted it was me but i am pretty sure she knew.

When i moved out i started wearing things i would buy at the store and online and have involved diapers as well.  and i love every day of it. 

[Web Site not working - secure warning]

Not sure if you would be able to help with this issue but when i log in it says that this site (particlually the chat and message board is not secure and gives me a warning. I was able to bypass and still log it but it seems to be some kind of security issue. I tried it on google chrome and Microsoft Edge and got the same message.