Gennie

Hi Kanji, Yes, you did come out to me before I publically made my own statement, and I suspect that both you and I have felt this way for near to ever! I can't offer you much in the way of saying 'it'll be alright', because, honestly, I'm not sure it would. My mother, the most understanding and accepting person I know, already knows that I have gender issues, and is thinking about GRS, and she's not to pleased at all. I suspect parts of the rest of my family would just disown me, and as TG/TS, this is something that we need to worry about. As to Idaho versus San Francisco, I guess SF would be easier, but if indeed you are going to transition, you'll live in ALL of the world, so you might as well start somewhere. I don't know about you, but my biggest issue is the money...as in, I don't have the funds to do this, so I probably won't be, as much as I wish I could. However, if you've started the therapy, and invested that much time and effort into this, then you've already made the commitment in your mind that you are female, and you need to continue down that road. Only then will you find your happiness. I don't know what to say to you to make you feel better, I wish I did dear. I do know that doing nothing is the last thing you want to do, because it'll only drive you nuts. Make a decision to do this, then find the way to make it happen, and go from it. You are only a decision away from everything you've always wanted. Gary

There was one episode that I am aware of, even though I didn't see the actual event. It was either the Boston or New York Marathon, and top woman finisher had apparently messed herself (no diapers involved) before she crossed the finish line. There was an internet cartoon showing her poop falling out her shorts, and I believe Jay Leno also had some fun with it. This was, I believe three or four years ago. I don't suppose that cross country women runners wet themselves any more than cross country men runners do. Gary

D'back, Personally, I don't consider CSI to be a good 'family show' either. Is it a bad show? No, not at all. It's gritty, realistic, honest, and delves into matters that most parents don't want their kids to know anything about....ever! Ask any of the people here, that have non-adult children, if they want their children to know anything about diapers, or want them to be an AB or DL. I guarantee you that 99% of them will answer "Not my child!' People want their child to grow up and be innocent. It's a delusion, of course, because it won't happen, but as a child, they child doesn't need to be introduced to ABs, Furries, or SM Dommes. Hence, CSI is *not* a good family show. It is a good show for adult entertainment, though. Gary

"Purchase Bytemine (come on, don't tell me you've never thought about it)" Don't think Bill would be willing to sell it. Want me to ask him? Gary

Okay, I'll get into this fray. MegaMillions just had a $267 million dollar winner in Ohio. It wasn't me, either. Therefore, the jackpot is back down to 12 million, pay out on a 26 year annuity. By the way, the person who asked about why the lump sum is substantially less. If you take the full annuity, the amount of money is invested into an 'Annuity' (which is why it's called that!) and then paid out over the life that annuity. While in the Annuity, it collects interest, which is what you're paid, along with some principal. If you take the 'lump sum', that is the actual amount of the lottery jackpot. If you invest that exact same amount in another annuity, with the same interest rate, you will have the same amount of money at the end of the annuity term. Okay, now, Mega is back to 12 million, that works out to about $460,000 a year, or a little less than $300,000 a year, after taxes. So, let's say $300, 000 after taxes. I will purchase a small plot of land, and build a three bedroom house on it. $150,000 I will pay off my '05 Malibu. I will not get another car. $20,000 I will spend $50,000 and go back to school to finish my pilot ratings. That should take six months. I will give some family members up to $10,000 a piece. $30-40,000 Right there, I'm at close to the max. That leaves me about $40,000 to live on, less than what I make now per year, although more 'real' money, because the taxes have been paid. In the second year, I buy my airplane! Gary

I'm not sure that I actually qualify as a 'sissy', per se. For me, the term now is 'transgendered.' Jennifer Lynn is the name I have been using. My given name is Gary Meredith, and I played with Meredith Anne for a while. Lately, I've been thinking I'd like to keep my initials, if I decide to 'go all the way', and maybe I'd use Gennifer Meredith Xxxxxxx Gary and Jenny

My therapist, years ago, told me it was okay. It took a while to get it through my head. What she did tell me was she didn't understand my need for them, but since I too am a control freak (so she says) it may be an escape. She said that since I didn't have any issues about being 'deviant', that I shouldn't worry about it. Since then, as I'm an AB, not a DL, I've found more and more things that indicate that I may not have any choice in this matter anyway, that it's hardwired into my brain. I think there are therapists who are starting to get the message on that, too. Now, if I could just work out the gender issue, and have public acceptance for both my AB side, and my wanting to be a woman, I guess my life would be easy! LOL Gary