Here's my advice gone thru alot of crap too in my life and out of the things endured many of the things I love to do today blossomed my high scoop career was sprint between classes or be pulled into the bathroom by like 6 ppl and be beaten unconscious and outta this the necessity of being able to defend myself spawned my love for martial arts I now have two second degree black belts working on a third or take this for instance my friend took his own life a few years back and left me his bass I've learned to play it and play it so he'd be proud but I digress enough rambling from me my point is find ur copes perfect them and when things get to hard to push thru them put ur very heart and soul into those copes anddrift off for a bit