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Yeah, I will say that I have read the bible more lately then the my entire life. Honestly, my grandfather did not even through Leviticus at me at all. He didn't seem to need any other verse but Romans 1. I am trying to read through that and understand some other point of views on that chapter but honestly it is a good one. I do however have one problem that I can not help to think about. Romans 1 was written as a letter to Rome by Paul. Not only has Paul never been there, but how would someone in that day and age even know really what was going on there and what Rome was really like back then if they had not really been there in the first place? Also I am having a hard time understanding how you can really take Romans 1 in the first place other than how people like my grandfather takes it. I am still learning and reading it more and more though. Anyways, not to post about the bible and things. lol I don't really want to get over family, but I was just thinking that maybe they are not good for me to be around. I mean they are good hard working people with morals and they tell me they love me. I am sure they do because in there eyes they think they are doing the right thing. My problem is this, I am an absorber. I absorb my surroundings and the words that people say to me. I take how people view me and things that people say to me to heart. I honestly don't know why I am that way but I just am. My family is never gonna quit trying to "save my soul" they will never quit trying to convince me that I am under control of the devil. For an example, my grandmother earlier this week called me and wanted me to come over to go out for dinner with them. (she left a message, I was asleep) I know better then that, I know that if I do that it will be a trap. It is a set up to get me to discuss with my grandfather about how the bible said I am going to hell if I don't clean myself and ask god to take this sin away from me. To go even further, He came over at noon (Uninvited and while I was still sleeping) and wanted to take me out to lunch. I was half a sleep so my mom told him that I was tired. I told her to tell him that I may come over later but I have no intention to do so. This is what my entire family will do, they will continue to try to change who I am and to make things worse, I still live with my mother so I don't have a way out. Now I spend every waking minute away from home. I eat out a lot, go to the book store...etc just to be away from it all. It makes me feel like I need to distance myself from them. That I am going to be happier and live a healthier life if I was not so involved with them. Honestly, I love my family but I don't think I will ever feel comfortable to have holidays with them anymore. My dad even wants to keep it a secret from my brother, like he is going to become gay because of me or something. My grandfather will never be OK with having my partner over (when the time comes that I meet that person) and I will tel you one thing. There is no way I would ever leave my partner alone on Christmas or thanksgiving...etc. I mean unless He wanted to be alone with family then I would respect that but honestly, I would never want to not be with that person on holidays. Anyways, That is my post for now, I am currently sitting down, enjoying a nice burrito from Qdoba and I am off all day. I think I would like to move to my states capital sometime. It is a good hour away from here and there are lots of furries there. Maybe I could meet a few nice people there, I don't know but Part of me wonders if I will ever be able to live my life here, being so close to family.

That is exactly why I don't have a facebook account! I know someone who was screwed over because of there facebook account. I have also heard of people loosing legal battles because of facebook as well. Of course they chose to post and put things on there that they might not want everyone to know but still. I use Kato_pup for just about everything myself. I don't really need to tell anyone about my desire to wear diapers. I don't honestly really know why I want to tell the councilor about it. I mean there are times where when I am trying to explain feelings or whatever to her and sometimes I might want to include my desire for diapers but it possibly could just complicate things. I do wish though that I had more friends that I could be myself around. I mean it would be nice even to have more furry friends then I do now. I have a furry group I try to meet with every Tuesday but I am not completely in the group but maybe if I continue to go that will happen eventually. it would be nice to have a diaper friend to hang out with sometimes. Nothing crazy just a good friend that I didn't have to hide my diapers from, even if they where not into diapers themselves.

Well I found a place near me that helps find psychologists that can help. When I talked to someone there, they actually told me to continue to talk to the councilor from the company my work pays for. They said that it is better because the councilor can help sort out problems I have and if they feel like I may want to consider a psychologist then they will not only refer me to one but they will help find an affordable one. I guess that is what I am gonna do. I have to call my councilor sometime this week. I haven't called this week yet. I know it may seem like privacy violation but they will tell my employer if I seem like I might inflict self harm or harm to another person, They find out about any harm done to another person child abuse...etc. They even mailed me a copy of the privacy policy and even laws involving it. I don't know why but I am a little hesitant to mention to them about my use and love for diapers, and the fact that I am a furry. I want to say that my councilor thought that if I wanted to, that I might want to come out to my parents. She thought that if I did so, that it would really help. She thinks that if I came out to my family or at least my mother that it would be like a weight lifted off my shoulders. I found myself after that conversation, thinking about it a lot. One day I came home from work and I decided that I didn't want to be alone anymore so I decided to hang with my mom after work. My step dad usually goes to work around 10 so my mother is usually by herself upstairs. When I was sitting there I just could not take the anxiety anymore. I could not handle feeling like I could not breath. I had to do something to help or else I felt like I was gonna die. I decided at that moment that I was gonna just tell her and hope that it would help. I won't get into the details but it did help a little to get it off my chest. since that day not only have I told my mom, but I told my grandparents as well. My mom told my sister and my step mom as well which led to my real dad finding out also. I told my mom I didn't care if my sister knew and She thought if my dad found out and had time to think about it, that it would help. Since then I have had the "GOD has a plan for you and being gay is wrong!" speech several times. Honestly, I can not take it anymore. My mother after the third time told me she did not want to talk about it anymore and finally agreed to not mention it anymore. I have only had one long conversation with my grandfather about it and it was not a pleasant two hours. I still have not talked to my dad because I am avoiding it... for now. I have come to the conclusion that my entire Family are very devoted Christians and although my mother has promised to drop it, they will never stop trying to talk to me about how I am gonna go to hell and how I need to get clean and pray for Jesus Christ to take the sin from me. For an example, my grandmother called me and wanted me to come over sometime this week to go out to eat for dinner. She made it sound like it was just a get together but I am not stupid. I think it is a set up to get me to talk about it with my grandfather who is a Sunday school teacher. My father just got done texting me, "never forget that Jesus has a plan for me and that I need to pray about it." He will never let up either. Holidays will never be the same and if I ever do meet someone to share my life with, he will never be fully accepted by my family. My dad will refuse to meet him ever (he told my mom that recently) and He will never be welcomed to any holiday get togethers with my family. So basically, although my family claims they still love me, my grandfather called it tough love. That he will not support something that is of the devil. Personally I don't believe that GOD is against it but honestly, the only reason why I got saved and went to church was to make my parents proud not for myself. I honestly don't know what I believe anymore. I can tell you one thing for sure. I just want to live my life! I just want to live a happy life accepting who I am. I do not want to hide myself anymore. My name is Chris, and I go by the name Kato_pup. I am a furry who loves huskies. I think they are the most beautiful dogs in the world. I am also a Baby fur. I am not sexually so attracted to diapers as they make me feel good. They make me happy and They make me feel more confident about myself. I Love diapers so much that I plan to wear as much as possible. obviously there will be times where I can't but when I can I will. I also do not want to hide the furry side of myself anymore. I would like to get a collar. Maybe I am on a kick where I want to be proud of myself and I probably wont wear it in public all that much but honestly, when I go to my furry get togethers on Tuesdays, I would like to wear one just because I would like to. I want to be proud of being gay. I want to meet someone special one day, maybe another furry to share the great moments and sadly the bad ones in life. I want to be me and I want to live my life as happy as possible. I don't want to be afraid to live anymore. I don't want to be afraid to die anymore. Part of me has come to an idea that as long as I am around my family, I will never be happy. Part of me thinks that they will never let off me for being gay and will always continue to try to bring me down. Sometimes that is all religion does. It makes you scared to be yourself and makes you think that you need the church to be happy and live your life "properly". Maybe I am wrong I don't know but I am sick of being scared. I am really just tired of it completely of being afraid of what is at the end of my life. Part of me thinks that I need to leave the state completely and distant myself from my family. I mean I love my family so much but they will never understand and to them I will always be walking with the devil and not with GOD. I will always be the one relative who is screwed up and needs to be sent to a camp or something. I am sorry for this long book like post but I just can't help it sometimes when I have something running through my mind, and I am really feeling what I am saying, it is like my soul takes over. I am just overwhelmed and all I want is to be me. All I want is to be happy and I want to one day know what it feels like to wake up and role over to someone that makes your life just that much more special. I want to role over to someone and be able to hold them while I fall asleep. I want to feel what passionate love feels like with someone. I do not want to be alone forever. I may not be ready for a relationship right now but one day I want to and I want that day to come. I just don't know if I can be happy here. I would tell this all to a councilor but I am afraid for to tell her about the furry diapered husky who is wetting his diaper as he sells an android to someone. LOL obviously I would never tell her that lol but I am afraid to tell her about some of who I am and it makes me wonder if I can get help from someone if I am not fully honest with them. anyways, sorry again for the story book.

Well, none of the things we talked about (me and the councilor) helps when I have anxiety, just ways to help prevent it. The scariest part is the feeling like I can't breath. I am so scared because of that and I have been kinda panicing a lil just about all day, I am curantly not doing good and was wondering if anyone had any tips on how to get myself to relax and calm down? I can't stop worrying wbout my breathing. Also I was wondering if anyone knows about how not paying medical bills can effect your chance of help? I let my medical bills go to collections from my family docter and all though I truelly regret it, I am not sure if I can see him again or if anyone will still see me ...etc. my insurance is a lil better this year. But for right now i just need to find a way to calm down and not panic

Thinks for the support, I would like to say that my anxiety is going away but it is not and I think that maybe I need to see someone who is also a medical doctor as well. The thing that worries me the most is the feeling of not being able to breath. I fell like my chest is tight all day and I feel like someone is sucking the breath right out of me. Anyways, the councilor I spoke to did say that I might want to take baby steps first. (she doesn't know I wear diapers and I am honestly not sure if I should mention it or not but when she said baby steps I laughed a little inside) She said that maybe I should consider talking to her and spending time with her first. So regardless I am gonna spend some time with her tonight and maybe just talk to her. I will make sure however that I let her know that I have no interest in being alone for the rest of my life and I will make sure to let her know that I will eventually find someone to share my life with. For someone reason the Christian members of my family feels that it is fair for someone to just not act on there feelings and bottle it up and be alone. Anyways thank you vary much for everyone who deals with me on here and I really appreciate it. Maybe one day when I am better, Living my life and I am free from all this, I can be a light for someone else who is going through what I am going through just like you guys are. I just wish I could feel like I can breath. That is the scariest feeling in the world and I think that it causes me to have more anxiety.

So, I wanted to catch up and post about my recent session with my councilor. She has a masters degree And from the Resources For living company my work pays to have for there associates and it is free. I had the session Monday and it was good. I am now gonna see the same person every Monday and continue to talk to her (she insists I do so)We covered several things. She gave me a few things to try out to help with the anxiety and I am gonna try them. Se did say that I might want to think about getting on medication for a while and that it won't solve all my problems but that it will help while I am working through all my issues. She was really nice and so I am gonna continue to talk to her. I did talk to her about me coming out to my parents. after our conversation, she thinks that me talking to my mother and just laying everything out on the table will really help. She thinks that it will really help with my anxiety and it is something I should consider. I will be honest about something related to that. I am really scared, scared of life in general. I am scared of dieing and I am scared to be left alone. I don't want to die and I don't want to die alone. I really wish I had someone here with me to be there for me. I wish I had someone who I could depend on and someone who could care about me. I am not saying I want a boyfriend but I really wish had someone. I wish someone would take care of me and tell me everything will be OK. I wish I had someone to hold me and take care of me. I am not saying I want someone to do everything for me but I just wish I had my mother to make me feel better. I know that sounds stupid and that sounds pathetic but I cant help it. I am so scared right now. I just want this hell to go away. I feel miserable and sometimes it is really hard to move on with my daily routine every day. I am gonna continue to talk to that councilor but next week where gonna talk about medication and she is gonna help me find someone or somehow to see someone who can prescribe that. I mean I have a lot to work out in my life but she said that medication could really help some of the effects so that I can get my problems worked out and back on track. I just want someone to take over my life for a while until I can get back on my own to feet. I just am not ready to die, I really want to live my life and be normal. I have been pretty OK all day until now. anyways that is mah report and I am really trying. I am thinking about coming out to my mother tomorrow while my step dad is at work. I am thinking of just throwing myself at my mom and hoping that she will love me and help me. I think she will, I think she really loves me but I just need to know it. I feel alone and I feel like if something where to happen I have no one to go to. I feel like I am gonna die and that is scary.

I eant tothano everyone for there help and for them giving me info on therapy. I really apreciate it and I think I may need both therapy and a psychologist. I figure I will see a therapist first anf it they think my problem required medication, I figure they will refer me to someone. When I first came here, I stoped comeing because I was allways sad and I was afraid that people thought that is all i would ever be. I thought that maybe i was more of a problem then I was worth so I stoped. I want everyone who has ever been so kind as to help me to know that I truelly thank all o you and I a really sorry it I come accrosed as pathetically sad and depressed all the time. Even though I have come a long way from where I was, I'm still haveing a really dificult time. I juat want myife back and i want to be in control. I am not depressed or at least I don't feel like I am but yet I still habe uncontrolable anxiety. There are so Much in life i want to exerience in life and I can't do any of it when I'm over taken but anxiety. Sometimes I wiah i had a close friend or family member who understood and someone I could depend on. Maybe even juat somepne I could hug and know that things are ok but sadly, I don't have that. So what imtonna,do is I am gonna,call my insurance company and I'm gonna,ask for any info I can that they cqn give me and i am gonna ask what I'm covered for tomorrow. I'm gonna try to see someone but ir i have to spend alotof money, I sadly don't have that. I only work part time. Bit i am gonna do whT I have to to get my life back on track. Thank you again for all the suport you all have given me, it means more then you knoe and I dont know where i would be with out you! thank you

thanks for all the info. Like I said earlier, my work pays for a company to provide over the phone counciling for free. they are all professional councilors and they claim to keep our calls anonymous unless I tell them I am suicidal and in that case they have to tell my work for security reasons. I would call them but I am afraid that if I am honest and talk to them and tell them what is really on my mind, I am afraid they will call my work and tell them im gay or that I wear diapers or whatever. maybe I am just paranoid though. I am not looking to be put on medication and I am not trying to just get diagnose with stuff. I just think that I would really benefit from having someone that I could talk to about some things. There are a few things that I would like to talk to someone about because sometimes I don't feel like I am in control of certain things in my life. Like my constant worrying about things, anxiety but also I think I would like to talk to someone because I think I know why I have anxiety. I think I am afraid to die. So I am pretty sure I need to talk to someone and I think that maybe if I do, I think that it will help. My reliance for diapers plays a huge part of my anxiety because as soon as I start to wear, my anxiety starts to go away. My sexuality plays a huge part because I think it might be a huge reason why I am afraid of death. I just hope that I will be able to find a way to see someone money wise because I really don't have that much to pull from. I only work part time (generally 30 hours) and I am in the middle of trying to move out on my own. anyways thinks for all the info, I think that I want to see a therapist not a psychiatrist. I am sure if the therapist thinks I might have a mental problem (like ocd or something) they will refer me to someone for that or whatever but I would like to get myself back on track with out medication... I am a little afraid to take medication, I get anxiety just thinking about it. Anyways before I continue rambling, thinks for the help and thinks for not being mean.

OK, I think there is a glbt support community in my area, I will ask them. My work actually pays an outside company to offer professional counciling for there associates. I have called there once but I am worried about them reporting anything to my work. They claim that everything is confidential but I honestly don't know if I believe that 100%. My insurance sucks but I get a starter $500 to pull from before I pay out of pocket, I hope that will be able to go to something. The reason why I was looking to make sure I went some where that supported glbt was because my problem with anxiety started when I decided to just accept my sexuality and stopped smoking, I get anxiety out of know where and it is really hard to control sometimes. the reason why I wanted to make sure that they where supportive of diapers because I can have really bad anxiety, my mind be clouded and things be miserable, and as soon as I decide to start wearing diapers again for a while things change completely. Like I have been having anxiety for the past 3 days over something. I decided last night after I made this post, that I was gonna wear 24/7 for a few days and my anxiety is almost completely gone. I just thought that I should mention that to the therapist...etc. The main reason why I want to talk to someone was to seek help learning to understand anxiety and learn to control it. Also I have been told for years that I have ocd so there is that as well. Honestly it would also be nice to be able to talk to someone about a few things with out feeling like im trolling or bothering a forum or whatever. I think I have a lot of issues that need to be sorted out and I think the help of a professional could really do me good. It can be really difficult sometimes because I really do not have any friends I can talk to. I have one friend who I could talk to but they don't know im gay...or that I wear diapers sometimes to relax!lol I have a group of furries I hang out with but im not yet completely in what that crowd yet. So sometimes I wish I had a best friend like someone that I could hang out with and visit and depend on to just be there. p.s. Now that I think about it, it is interesting how diapers can have such an affect on me mentally. lol I can seriously have anxiety and be upset and as soon as I decide to put on a diaper, things change completely. I have not been wearing lately because I don't really want to wear 24/7 and I didn't want to rely on them so much but maybe I just need to let it go and stop trying to avoid them. Maybe I should just realize that Diapers have a positive affect on me mentally and maybe I should embrace that. I guess it is not a big deal. anyways thinks for the info:)

So My question is to anyone who is familiar with seeing a psychiatrist/psychologist. I think that I should see someone for a few reasons. I won't get into to much detail but I am sick of having random bouts of anxiety and I think I could really use talking to someone about it. My question is if anyone is familiar with seeing someone. I honestly don't know how to go about seeing someone. Also, I plan to mentioning diapers, its not the reason why I want to see someone but It is something I want to mention. I don't want to talk to someone who is just gonna tell me that it is wrong or a problem...etc. Is there something to look for that will give me a better idea of they will be open minded? I also plan to talk a little bit about being gay and I don't want to talk to someone who is not gay friendly. Also, does anyone know how billing is when seeing someone like that? I have insurance but it sucks. I don't know if there are any programs or anything that maybe I should look into to get help? I don't mean to ask someone to tell me everything or do all the hard work or something, I just was curious if there was anyone who has any experience dealing with any of this stuff. Thinks in advance for any info you give me.

Hey haven't been lately but count me in for sure! I would like to meet some new people!

As someone who has never bought any diapers off line, I am forced to make with what is do. I use depends maximum protection with 3 depends boosters inserted one in the middle, one in front and one in back. If i where to wear 24/7 for a week, (which I do anyways...>.>) generally they last all day then i change at night before bed. That is if I dont want to bother with changeing.^=^ That means every two weeks I buy (if i where to go padded and boosted propperly) for two weeks, I would buy 2 20 packs of depends maximum protection, and 3 20 packs of depend booster for a grand total of 45 bucks every two weaks at a max if I dont buy at a discount. That is a lot of money and I generally don't do that. I don't onow how much it cost to be 24/7 like that if I bought online but it works for me. With 3 booster I never leek!

I live in fairborn, ohio. I am not to familiar with where Dublin is located but my phone Is a gps. I should also mention that I'm not exclusive to meeting only ab's but dl are welcom as well. Just naturally say ab I guess.

Just lookin to meet some new people near me. Looking to make some ab friends to hang with every once In a while. I don't mind driving to colombus or other areas. Wondering it anyone wanted to get together for lunch sometime. Just worn you though in advance, I am verry shy so expect some akward silences! Lol just think It would be nice to have an ab friend near by, I think It would help me be more open.

Well I admit that I attempted the banana and tampon trick once myself. I took two bananas and stuck 1 supository, banana, 2 suposatories, another banana and on last suposatory and got dispersed up and of to bed. I was intruded by it cause I wanted to see if I would actually void with put control while I was sleep. It didnt really work out as I planed. I went to bed full and awoke full never released on its own like I read. It was a little fun doing it myself and it had no bad smell but not what I was looking for. I did feel a little crampy afterwards but no really side effect for me. I may have used the wrong suposatory though. Not sure. And it defined was less messy.

I am sorry for all the negativity I habe caused. I am sorry for anything thwarting I have done to my you guys hate me. I really want a second chance. I need help, I am being for help. I don't want to feel this way anymore I don't want to cut myself anymore. I'm wcsred to death of myself because every minute grows and I feel more and more like killing myself and that is biting to scare le. I don't want to be this way anymore and I want help. I habe tried to see my works councelor but they domt help. They are worthless. Please I anything would be helpful

You know what makes me feal worse is I am being myself. I have never lied, I have never stretxhed the truth, and I habe never acted any diferently than I really am. I am pathetic, I am weak, I am verry easily hurt. I have a verry big heart, and it is kept on my sleeve. When I ask what makes me anoying, im not looking to change my personality but I am looking for things that I say, things that I do that turn people off. These are things that i can work on. I spent from the age of 7 to the age of 9 being abused my dad for my bed wetting problem. I was forced to wear diapers to school as punishment and was forced to tell any friends i had over( witch was few) that i liked to wet diapers at night and that the belt on my wall was my potty training. My brother and sister where both molested at early ages so when i turned 10 i was to babysit them after school every day, and all summer long untill i was 17. Since i decided not to make friends in school to save imbarisment, I got the name of being the quite kid in school. Sofor most of my life i havent really had friends. I didnt have a brother who could teach me things or take care of me like i had to do for my brother amd sister. I hated myself for my injoyment in diapers and sexual confusion. I am a week pathetic fool who has zero social skills and the only social skills i have is when i am fake." Oh yeah, windows based phones are just as good as an iphone!" I care alot about what others think of me, i am self conciouse and when someone openly tells me that i can be pretty anoying in the middle of chat and not even have the decensy to say "just kiding" to help me save face is like stabing my heart. That is who i am for those who had a hard time seeing that and if that is anoying tell me cause i would just rather die!

First off i am really sorry for being so depressed all the time. I am sorry tjat i am the way i am. I dont understand why i am so weak. I dont understand why i care about what others think of me. why am i so emotionally unstable. I hate that i have social enxiety. I am pathetic in a social invirement and all i do is rubb people the wrong way. I try so hard to fit in and i want people to like me but somehow i manage to screw it up. I was on chat and i mentioned to someone that i felt like they didnt like me. They said that i anoyedc them often and when i asked them what i could do to be less anoying the said that i have to be myself and that theres nothing i can do It really hurt my feelings because a couple minites earlier they where talking to me and i thought that maybe i was wrongthat is a really bad feelimg to really want to be friendly to someone and they just shoot u in the face. I just want to crall into a corner and just cry. Why am i so messed up. Whats wromg with me? I soight out a councelor but all they say is " how does that make you feel? Oh i know that feeling! Oh yeah thats true. How does that make you feel again. We just go in circles and i have spoke to several diferent people. I tried to do something to better myself yesterday and wemt to a furry meet and greet at fazolis that i was invited to. I sat there by myself for an hour before decideing to leave. I just dont know if i can do this anymore. I mean i am going as far as not even hiding the cuts on my arm anymore. There as clear as day and now ones sees them. I promised someone on here that i wouldnt cut myself but i dont think they like me anyways so i dont know if i can keep my promise. I think im gonna go cancel my membership here, i feel like a burden and a downer here. This place should be somewhere u can come and have relief with people who umderstand you and i think all i do is create a bad invirement and drag people down with me. I just want to go in a corner and die.

I recently had a conversation with someone on the topic of dateing...ect. it was a verry short conversation but it made me ponder. Is it really that unrealistic to save yourself that one person? I habe never been on a date or in a relationship. I am still w vergim and I am onow ok with that. i no longer hat myself foe my sexuality or my kinks and look foward to meeting someone one day, but I gues I'm a bit old fasion. Is it unrealistic for me to want to save myself for one person? I am a submisive person amd a bottom at heart but when I run tjrougj it in my head o imagin there person I spemd my whole life with being the only one I habe ever beeneith. Is it in real to want tjat. Is it unrealistic to want your parnter to know they habe you completly. That its all there's? I gues when I imsgin it its more emotional and less physical. Is that odd to feel that way. that the emotional feeling is more rewarding then the physical? I lnow sex is s big deal in s lomg lastomg relationship but u can still tslk about it so u know if your compatible right?

Ok heres my thoughts on the matter, and tell me if I am wrong: Adult Babbies: If you have a desire to regress to an infint like status rather it be 2,3,4,5...whatever rather it be by obviousely diapers, bottles, pacifiers, onesies, plastic pants..ect/ the use of babby talk/ being changed or the desire for s mommy/Daddy Diaper lover: the injoyment of wearing diapers for pleasure rather u have a medical condition or not ( if you wear diapers for medical and don't injoy u fall In niether) some may injoy the fealing of the padding or the material/ injoyment of just useing a diaper/ ijoyment of smells...ect I think you clearly can not merge the two unless your willing to just consider yourself an ab. Dls generally injoy dispers with out treatment of being a baby or injoyment of use of anything else that is related to infintilism. There Passion is soley with the feeling of being or seeing themselves or others in diapers. Adult babies on the otjer hamd habe a desire to go back to an infint Like or babyish state. They have a mental emotional atachment to diapers and other things of that nature. The regress in there own way for watever emotional reason. If amyome wanted to argue anything is that there is no middle ground. If you fall into any of the catagory of an adult babby then u should just be considered an AB. if you fall on the catagpry of DL AND DON'T HAVE ANY DESIRE for any of the catagories of AB THEN you are an DL. If you injoy cstsgories from both sides then you are clearly an AB ( but i can understand if someone doesn't want to be associated with being an AB that's your business). ALSO YOU COULD ARGUE THAT anyone imto diapers and thimgs from any catagory is not iether but simply into himiliation and just hapen to like to be humiliated in that matter. But to say that someone who has no choice bit to wear diapers for medical reasons and desides to become dl or is and dpesmt fall under any catagory it an AB is not far to them. Just my opinion

Actually I am confused on what it is for me. Sometimes I famtasize about being in a nice thick diaper and a short skirt that doesn't cover my diapers. and a nice v neck shirt with panty hose. I also like slim jeans cause ther just tight enough to notice but not uncomfertable. they also ride really close to my crotch so the are tight there and they sit low on my hips so if I bent over u would see my panties or diaper or both. I also eometimes I fold my private area down wards so that the front is completly flat and i csn feel it throb imbetween my legs. I am gay but i don't actually want to be a girl. I am proud and like being male. But I just fsntasize about being treated like one sometimes. I fantasize about another male forcing me into these things and nameimg certain parts of my body after feminine body parts. I also fantasize about ring told that I am gonna feel what it feels like to be handled like a women.I like to br told that there gonna make me climax like a women. And that tjere gonna make me moan like a little girl. And that for the next hour I will be so confused that I will actually feel like a girl. Bit yet i don't want to actually be one and I don't think i was ment to be one or anything. Does thst make me a sissy? I don't really know what that means ror me.

I apreciate all the posts, as most of you know by now (I'm sure) that I am just now folding to terms with who i am after a long time of self hatred and attempts to ignore or even make myself thinly i am not who i am. I am am more and more becoming comfortable with who i am as some of Seen my miner antics in chat to help myself open up. The reason i asked about ab/dl relationships is because everyday I find out more about myself, realizing know that I habe some deep childhood isues witch play a part I'm my abness. I have just pondered to myself sbout my future ad i accept myself and think about what i want out of life and what I like. I realized that I do want to experience a relationship with someome I care for. I want to know what it is like to come home to someone I love. I habe mever been in a relatiomship, help i jabe never been on a date. Ok top of that my image or a relationship is minimal if not warped. I don't know what a normal relationship is like and what kind of relationship I would find myself in. I was just curiouse of what other peoples relationships where like. The only other image of s relationship is from the stories I read on here witch less face it. They are stories for a reason and not what I real one is like. Not that I would want some of them. I guess it just bugs me that I am completly relationship ignorent. Thanks again for the posts amd look foward to more.

I agree, what a womderfull thought. I habe always my entire life wanted to west since I was 10. It's a security blanket that protects you from the bad guys. After cleaning up and tapping on a fresh diaper its like reminder that everything will be ok and the diapers almost saying relax I got u. I have ur back don't worry. Nothing we cant get through together. The best telling is putting one on right before bed time. Puting on my Batman boxer briefs to keep it snug and heaving a teddy to bed. Almost like saying dont worry. Wept well dont worry get your rest. It's a wonderfull feeling. As far as not wanting to grow up, doesn't bother me as much but I will way that sometimes its good to go back, give up control and responsability.