Hellos, I introduced myself awhile back, but I'm really really shy...
As the title suggests, I have a really hard time relaxing and regressing.
I've come close to the feeling a few times, and it felt so amazing. When it did happen, I stared crying a little because of it. But it never lasts... I have my diapers(Either Depends Max Prot, or Multiple CVS Fitted Briefs) my paci, a bottle, even my teddy. But most of the time, it just doesn't happen.
Last night was the closest I've gotten. I was in bed, no diaper(I have insomnia, and wearing makes me too excited ) snuggling with my teddy and I felt my little self crying for a "ba-ba" and wanting someone to hold him. It only lasted for about 3 minutes.
I think it may have something to do with my sexual feelings towards forced age regression, and the inability for two very separate feelings to coexist. Or maybe it's because of my limitations, i.e. Only when roommate is at her bfs, only store brand diapers, no baby clothes, and I'm an Eastern European GIANT(6'6, 280lbs).
At this point I'm confused about myself and frustrated with my own feelings. Does anyone have any advice or suggestions? It's getting so that I'm unable to self identify, and I have a hard enough time with diaper guilt anyways...
-Elan
P.S. I'm so shy, this post took about 3 months of thought for me to act on. My experience last night kinda jump-started it. And I've discovered it's hard to even type the word "diaper" let alone speak it out loud.