diaperfascination

Unfortunately being a chronic pain patient and being on a sufficient amount of meds , i get a fairly decent amount of lucid dreaming . i get atleast 5/6 a week . and some of them have been really wierd latley . Im still having trouble accepting my DL side and its become frustrating for me for a little while now , on top of other stresses its all seems to be coming out in my dreams . the other odd half is , some of it is turning AB as well . I just had a diaper dream i believe either yesterday or the day before and this involved me still in highschool , i was staying at a relatives because my parents left the country , well and been put on a new med due to stress , well the med was causing me to wet the bed so i was forced to wear diapers while i was staying at their place . Which was odd because as of late i have been waking up close to wetting the bed . the plastic pants they were having me wear were blue plastic with race cars and teddy bears on them with a onesie over top of it and i remember being upset because it meant i couldnt take the diaper off and it reitterated the fact that i was padded . not to mention the fact that it made me look like a child which upset me even more because i wasnt a child . To get used to the diapers i was forced to wear them even at school , but it was only for night time wetting . alot of it is now fragmented in my memory but some of the others usually change along the same lines of being forced to wear diapers or caught in diapers or messing or wetting my adult clothes . and even stranger is when im waking up i can feel the diaper actually on me up until the point of me having my eyes fully open and aware of where i am . and i too also have the ability to fall back asleep into the same dream , at the same point i left it , without a problem .

I like my diaper to be sort of half and half , i like the area around my waist to be snug and the rest slighly snug just so that i can pull the leg guard back and have it snap flush with my leg but not digging into my leg .

Good evening everyone , my name is kyle and i happen across this site about a year or so ago but i have been reluctant to sign up for a few different reasons which i wont bore you with . i have had an interest in diapers since i was 6 years old and it laid mostly dormant until high school until our initiation day when one of the groups was put into diapers for the day and all i could think about was the diapers and wondering if i could get one . I finally wore my first diaper about 6 months ago and after that , i was happy that i finally decided to try it out and that i wasnt a wierdo because of it . shortly before this though i was unfortunatly in an accident (skiing) and also compressed my spine once as a youth . after the ski accident , it wasnt known to me later (9 years) that my spine was damaged in the accident as well and was left untreated . (tore acl clean off and in/outer miniscus) and my entire stance will change depending on how much i stress myself,. also were certain muscle groups. i noticed after my accident that i would have issues with after urination leak and waking up fighting off wetting the bed . ive just recently started looking into the link between spinal damage and urinary issues as i wasnt completley sure if it was my back alone causing this to happen as i have also been under a fair amount of stress the past few years as well , and have not told anyone since my accident that it has been happening for fear of embarassment . basically i registered looking for more information and hopefully finding someone who may be able to relate or concur any of my suspicions. But i though i should say hello first and not be afraid.