Newborn, I don't quite know what to say other than you should be grateful that it's just a dream rather than a reality. I have had the DL fetish as far back as I can remember & I am almost 42 yrs. old now. It wasn't until I got married(at 25) that I was finally able to share those feelings with anyone for the first time. My wife. And she was very receptive to the idea & enjoyed wearing diapers with me. I think the hardest part of the whole AB/DL fetish is the complete misunderstanding of it by society in general. We are not sick,perverted or pedophile in ANY way shape or form. In fact,I think we're the sanest of them all. Instead of making & causing drama out of every single "crisis" & everyday life situations, we regress or dress up in our very comfortable diapers & go to a place that is extremely safe & offers us complete serenity & solitude. We win. In my personal experiences this last 14 years(since I discovered all of the AB/DL sites on the internet), I see more & more people showing up to talk & take a serious interest in our lifestyle. For example,that one senator or whatever he was who got caught with his pants(actually diapers)down showing serious interest in our lifestyle. He got pummeled by the media & shunned by his peers. Big deal. Look at the bright side to the situation. This opened up the eyes to many & gave the opportunity to many more, just like ourselves, the relief that they weren't the "only one" who had/has the same feelings. I guarantee you thousands hit the internet & got to explore their true feelings about this subject & perphaps meet many thousands just like themselves. TOTALLY AWESOME!! In the mean time, I suggest you just be a little careful about keeping your feelings to yourself until the time is right to maybe move out to your own little safe-haven to participate more often. Good Luck! pupster27