little89

I turn 52 next month, but wish I was turning 2. Divorced years ago and single, not much in to the dating scene. Had only one 1-night stand in my life, hated it. Finding the right woman and soulmate seems an impossibility for me. The problem is I might be asking too much..... best friend first, wife second... and during the difficult times... mommy third. Sometimes it gets complicated. I like the feel of wearing diapers (found some fantastic pullups that fit nice, hate the adult diapers), and when I am in them the line between number two and number three gets blurred. What I mean, sometimes I just need love and nurturing, forming the bond between me and mommy. Other times, I get turned on, and want my wife to play with me. The problem is, sometimes I don't know what mood I am in..... but she does. I know she is out there, I feel it. Don't know how to find her. I dream of breastmilk... I am sure it has something to do with occasionally sleeping in diapers. That is another blurry line. I find the thought gentle and nurturing at times, and others it turns me on and makes me the hottest I have ever been in my life. Is there any couples that have this kind of relationship that might chime in and share some of the secrets? Is there a lady I caught the attention of? (might you be her?) up at midnight.... past my bedtime.... damn I need a bottle..... Little89

It is difficult for me to classify myself. First, I am 51, male, single and divorced 12 years ago. My ex-wife did not understand me, and did not understand my thoughts and needs. Why would I consider myself a little, and have a desire for a woman to put me in diapers and a bottle? It took me a while to understand this, and here recently I figured it out. I was diagnosed with High Functioning Autism, formerly called aspberger's syndrome. While I am mostly normal to the rest of the world, not so in my own mind. I do not like crowds, loud noises, and when things go wrong, I just shut down. The world is a big place, too big for me. Remembering back to my childhood, there was a time where bills, the truck breaking down, work, and all the stresses of adult life just was not there. It is nice to go back there, and even nicer to have a kind and caring woman that loves me take me back. I have not found her, it certainly was not my ex-wife. In an apartment by myself, I find I can do what I want. I recently got some diapers, and now I enjoy sleeping in them, the world is getting a bit smaller for me. Bonding and intimacy is important to me. I read articles on adult breastfeeding, part of the lifestyle I want. This is a tender moment where I let go completely, and the only thing in the world that matters is me and her. I know this sounds weird, but when I look at a picture of a pregnant woman, I see the perfect place to sleep. All the sounds must be gone, the warmth and closeness. With that being said, I look forward to the comments and suggestions as I start this journey in this lifestyle. I do not know if such a lady exists that would be caring and understanding of my situation, but I figured this site would be the best place to start. Take care all.