MrTheFox1157

I paid for "Wetting and Messing" and "Making Messes" on Tiny Beehive. I found them effective, I had an easier time messing regardless where I was using these.

I've used files from a different site. Both purchased and stuff on youtube. Hypnosis works by putting what the hypnosis is saying into your subconscious. I was listening for one that was basically telling me that I can feel free to poop myself whenever I want and if I didn't wear diapers I would poop all over the floor. The next morning when I had to poop I remembered what I heard last night in the back of my brain and just pushed without thinking about it for more than a couple seconds. Repeating the process makes it more automatic to where you start having real accidents.

I'm new here but I've been browsing for a while. It seems like most people want to untrain for urine only and that's totally cool. I just want to see more from people who are going for bowel too cause it adds a whole nother level of both fun and challenges. Maybe there can be a thread pinned here just for bowel stuff cause it's hard to find information about it just scrolling down through posts. Onesies and higher rise thicker diapers and high rise plastic pants become a necessity. I've had blowouts out the back of M4's too many times for comfort so I'm switching to Betterdries or perhaps even Megamaxes for the day. I'm glad I found a brand of plastic pants that is both high rise and super comfy. So yeah, I guess let's talk about bowel specific training stuff here. I did reach a new milestone, I don't have to squat to mess to mess anymore. I can be sitting in my PC chair and just push out and fill it up without having to sit up a bit. Most of my poop is on the mushy side so that probably helps.

I have good memory and my memory starts from when I was 3. Long before diapers were sexual I had dysphoria about not wearing and needing them. As a kid it felt like a part of me was dying pooping in the toilet. My partner is just a big as an abdl as me but he doesn't have a desire for 24/7 and with his bladder of steel and how poop shy he is, he would have a really hard time untraining too. I guess the difference is I just have major dysphoria about it.

It's awesome. I'm sure other people mentioned how it feels but I wanna talk about some other stuff I love about it. I love how my bathroom cupboard is full of bags of diapers. I love changing my diaper pail and taking it to the trash even though it can be smelly. As long as I don't get them too often and it doesn't go on too long, I even love having rashes. I love how sore it is then I put the cooling menthol cream and cake it with powder for a couple days and my skin is healthy again. I love carrying a backpack with all my supplies with me. I love that I have washable pads for my bed and computer chair. I love that my mom is gonna get a washable chair cover for her car since I don't drive. It's gonna be degrading and embarrassing in a non sexual way, but I'm even looking foward to having bowel accidents while I'm in the car with my friends or a lyft driver and having to explain my condition to them. I already told one of my friends that I don't hang out at their houses much cause I'm having major IBS issues and all my friends know my bladder is overactive. I'm non binary, I have 10x the amount of dysphoria for not being fully diaper dependant then I do about my appearance. And I get pretty bad dysphoria about my appearance. This is everything I wanted and more. To sum it up in one word, I feel "complete" being diapered every day and needing them.

Welp wasn't on planning on telling my mom yet. I was one month restarting my untraining journey this time I'm going for full double incontinence. I did about a year for just urinary but I stopped cause it just wasn't enough for me. I need double or nothing. Well anyways, I needed a pamp break cause my rash was really severe, I knew switching to a different brand would solve the issue cause a part of why the rash was so bad was cause the plastic was digging into my skin. I was outside smoking a cigarette and I had to shit, I didn't want to put it out even though it felt urgent. I finished it up and was walking past my mom going up the stairs and it all let loose. I'll spare you the details but I told her about my issues. She already knows I have a really overactive bladder and nerve problems so it wasn't weird for her. She even is now helping me cover costs. If I already have an overactive bladder and I'm making messes like this without even trying, I feel like I really do need diapers and I'm so happy. I already knew I needed them on an emotional level and a spiritual level, now I just need to make it fully physical. We even talked about getting a seat cover for her car. It was awkward and extremely embarrasing talking about this to my mom, but those are the realities of double incontinence and I've already accepted I'd have to deal with that a long time ago. My lifelong dream is coming true and I couldn't be more excited.