My tow cents I don't think any of this behavior is or would be considered normal. I have struggled with it almost my whole life.With cycle purges just to have the desire overwhelm me and find myself in a diaper again diaper bag filled with more diapers, plastic pants, powder,baby oil, diaper rash cream and suppositories. Now that is not normal for a grown man I see it so others on the outside would think its just bizarre and rightly so.But we are here and that's why I have never tried to share this with anyone because I know the outcome.