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I live it every minute of every day and man, I KNOW exactly what you're dealing with.....and I am ON the top tier pain meds! Without them, I am bedridden, no life at all. I PRAY you are seeing a DR to make sure it is not something as simple as a discectomy or bone spur removal.....scary? SURE! But living in PAIN when the pain CAN BE eliminated is just plain CRAZY! Sadly, my spinal issues are to the point I have been told I "may need emergency surgery in the VERY near future" yet the Neurosurgeons I have seen are unwilling to do ANYTHING about it right now. LOVE being in LIMBO, especially knowing that I might make one wrong step, might slip, might sleep the wrong way and NEED the be able to reach my phone to dial 911 as I KNOW the day I CAN'T move is coming....has come before, will come again. I don't know which is worse, the 24/7/365 "headache" that is NOT a "headache", not a migraine...diagnosis is New Daily Persistent Headache! THAT! And $5 MIGHT buy a coffee today...I don't know. I brew my own! But having seen EVERYONE POSSIBLE, 3 separate Nero Opthamologists only to be told the problem is NOT my eyes (the pain IS 100% BEHIND my eyes.....and when BAD (as it was for 5 days post op 2 weeks ago) LITERALLY feels something is inside of my skull, attempting to drive my eyeballs OUT of their sockets! Leaves me seeing 2 of everything once it reaches an 8/10 and NO ONE has an answer.....to date way over 2-250 headache, migraine and "off label" medications have gained me NOTHING and outside of my closest Dr's, no one is willing to even treat this! God forbid! Chronic pain patients today are LEPERS! My spinal issues have me concerned beyond belief, I am awaiting a 2nd opinion, but like everything else, NOTHING happens overnight! I can't make time move faster, but GOD am I PETRIFIED as I CAN'T live without being able to do at least SOME of what I want. I just continue to do what I can as I can and PRAY...as i KNOW I am in real trouble spinal wise.  Prayers are with you Mikey....do you know WHAT the cause is? Have you seen a neurosurgeon/had MRIs and such? If not, PLEASE do not risk your future! Kind of begging you to find out WHAT you're facing as the risk of doing nothing? TERRIFYING! Doing surgery is equally TERRIFYING!.....BUT, if thee is no other option??? Kind of leaves you no choice in the matter.   CptKirk

I have to say the original 6 tape Attends myself, ESPECIALLY with the same buttery soft plastic, that PERFECT fit, updated to modern absorbency would be bliss. I NEVER wore a better fitting diaper in my life, and comfort wise? they reigned supreme.  I still have 1 pack (unopened) of the original Molicare Super Plus which at the time, it was those or the Abena X plus as the ONLY diapers I was CONFIDENT wearing when IC first RUDELY invaded my life.....I wound up PARANOID that somehow EVERYONE would INSTANTLY KNOW I was wearing a diaper, so I went with a depend....I was hospitalized for over a month, came home to an empty refrigerator (my wife/kids were "conveniently" not home.....my marriage DIED the day I got sick only it took me a year to recognize this as GONE was the 232lb 5'7 1/2" mountain of muscle and more critically, so was the extra 1500-5K+ cash I made at night on the side and WOW did my wife fool me! She INTENTIONALLY made sure she wasn't home when I needed a ride to the hospital....gone on some fall festival....coming home to a LIST of groceries (GOD FORBID she spend 1 cent of HER money!) and off I went....I had my cart ALMOST FULL when the catastrophic diaper failure occurred, leaving me standing in dripping wet pants, pee in my shoes, wet socks and a lake at my feet in a PACKED grocery store! I RAN (needed a walker, but in my mind I RAN) leaving the cart, and damn near killed myself driving 70-80+ mph home, on roads suited to 35 mph.  Since that day, I learned how to dress so NO ONE will KNOW, and I am very good at this now, but it took forever and a day to rebuild that confidence, and I have ALWAYS been a very confident man!  SO, wearing diapers that GUARANTEE me I am good for 2, 3, 4 hours? Invaluable and today life seems EASY as knowing I am good for no less than 6 hours? WOW what a difference a couple of decades make! Sorry for going off topic....just kind of explains my reasoning behind what I'd like to see again, only made to modern standards. NOTHING fits as well as a TALL 6 tape diaper! Sadly the 6 tape diapers made today MIGHT mast me 30 minutes! I can envision a taller, 5 tape megamax being pure perfection.....but I can imagine the cost to change the machinery to manufacture these would be cost prohibitive.

I'm slammed with work this week. I hope that I can get a new chapter out this week, but it may not happen until next Monday. 

Well, another great read. Leading upto possible Betsy being breastfed, yummy. Luna getting pregnant sounds interesting as well, I wonder who could make that happen? More excitement to come Im sure.

She found diapers in your trash, if this is someone you think you have a REAL future with, lying will destroy your future, even though being honest might do the same. I had several GFs who I eventually came clean to way back before I had medical IC issues (I am a disabled vet with major spinal issues amongst many others) and incredibly, to me, all laughed, all thought it weird, but none had an issue with it. Honestly, I KNEW I was risking A LOT, but the reward was absolutely worth the risk! So, you nee to ask yourself, IS SHE WORTH THE RISK? IF the answer is yes (I get the feeling it is) than you really need to go out to dinner, and begin to come clean. Yes, there is a chance she is really upset, walks away and you have to start over but I GUARANTEE you that if you lie, and she discovers this later on? THAT IS IT! OVER! INSTANTLY! Being HONEST is not easy to do, but you KNOW it is the right thing to do, even if it costs. Not knowing how long you're together, her personality and such leaves me no idea how she may react, but lying about it? Maybe you can sneak around the rest of your relationship and NOT get caught but WHY? You KNOW a lie leads to more lies, and I know NO WOMEN (or men) who want to be with someone who lies to them.  The fact she went through your trash is kind of pointless now, it is done. How you handle this is up to you and I'm more than willing to chat with you to tell you how I had it work for me way back when I was a DL if interested, but we're different people and not knowing your partner/GF at all leaves me no insight into HOW to come clean only that if this was me? I'd be honest, up front and maybe even buy the book "You're Not Broken" and hand it to her.    I wish you the best! I know this is a BRUTALLY HARD DECISION....the only question you need to answer is IS SHE WORTH IT? If yes? Kind of leaves you no wiggle room. If she is not? She found diapers in your trash, buried, so it isn't like someone else randomly selected your trash to bury their diapers.    Let me know IF you'd like my advice. I am available, and I am willing to talk on the phone so long as you are as well. CptKirk Wishing you the best...and remember, fear is just the unknown.,.... IF that makes sense. One question I do have...what was her initial reaction? THAT might give me some insight on how to move forweard, but you do have to move forward and to me, HONESTY is ALWAYS the best policy as trust me, this is not going away.....unless you wind up medically IC, then it kind of gets ground into dust but outside of that? The desire is inside of you as it was yesterday, the day before that and will be tomorrow.