Trading Post

It was pizza today.  Met a friend after work that I hadn't seen in a while.  I picked up some stuff on the way there.  He's recovering from cancer treatment.  

Now if you were in my age group we could chat, I’m feeling alone a lot these days .  I have found a really super person recently but not sure how that’s going to be. I hope you can find someone 

$700 this year (both state/fed).    Don't have any deductions anymore and that kinda hurts.  But I think not having a mortgage is still better. 

@Dubious I agree with you on certain parts. like giving up drinking alcohol or smoking.! Or what not. Though stop giving to the church is not a good thing. when you give graciously to the church or as they call it tithing.   You get back 10 fold back to you. There is a lot that could give up!  Not sure why I’m still in this boat 🛶 but I am.

I do not have either diabetes or neuropathy but after 7 years of 24/7, during the DAY I have: Mostly muted sensation of “needing to go” Most of the day is spent in a “drip and dribble” mode with high frequency, low volume, inconclusive voids that dissipate into dripping rather than finishing cleanly.  There are usually countless voids that run into each other and it feels like my bladder is neither full nor ever empty. It seems I can't (comfortably) remain dry for more than a few minutes after changing The sound of a running tap will trigger instant urgency. I can hold off and stay dry but not for long: usually within 90 – 120 minutes urgency will overwhelm my control and I'll wet whatever I'm wearing Mostly voiding episodes are accompanied by some kind of bladder spasm but in a rare-but-increasing trend, there can be “silent” wettings. It is no longer always clear to me if a daytime wetting event was commanded or automatic I am of the belief that I could go nappy-free if I had to but it just seems so hard and not worth it. At NIGHT in bed: I will void less frequently and in slightly larger volumes but will still usually "go" 3 – 5 times per night During voiding events I can be awake/asleep/dreaming/waking-up-during SOME times I will wake and although not have any real urgency, be aware that my bladder is not empty and it can take time to “relax” and use my nappy SOME times I will wake and instantly wet my nappy with no apparent command to do so being obvious Other nights I might sleep straight through and not remember any voids by morning but have a sodden nappy There is no doubt that my whole lower urinary tract system now behaves abnormally and is weak but it’s uncertain if this is my protracted 24/7 nappy use or advancing age. Having said that, I’m firmly of the belief that psychology is a factor for my night wetting:  ANY attempt to “force” a bedwetting will far more likely inhibit one.  All bed wettings are a “surprise” in a sense.  There is some psychological inhibition here but it’s eroded enough for it to be regularly defeated now.  I suspect that I sleep-wet more in cloth and wonder if this is because cloth nappies work much better in bed for me than disposables.