Trading Post

1. I started wearing in my 20's when I started wetting the bed and leaking again. Never had the best holding control growing up.  Ive been 24/7 for quite a long time. Ive had a couple of dry spells where I thought things were improving that ultimately didn't last long before I'd start leaking again.  The last day I went without a diaper was a few years ago. I ended up with damp underwear and pants at work without me realizing I was leaking. I discovered I was damp when I dropped a pen in my lap. That's how I found out timed voiding was no longer working for me. 2. I define incontinence as the inability to control when or where a persons bladder or bowels will empty in some manner. Incontinence is different for everyone. Yes, I now consider myself incontinent. My control has gotten worse over time to where I'm going to be fully incontinent. I leak and dribble. I dont have to consciously do anything, I get almost no notice, I know a split second before it starts.  I can feel it happening but I can't stop it and never know when I've completely finished.  I check myself regularly since I don't always know how many times I've gone, the amount or if I've just been leaking. I have surprised my with how much I've wet myself with no memory of it happening and have had a few leaks let me know it's time to change. A good diaper cover is a must for me now. Trigger I've noticed the most would be running water. I can't do dishes or water the garden with peeing. I'll also usually end up peeing while filling my car up. The sudden temperature change when changing had made me pee. Sometimes when I'm cold and start to shiver I'll end up peeing.  3. I'm 100% confident that if I tried 24 hours without a diaper on I'd be tied to every bathroom. There would be lots of things like my clothes and furniture that I'd have to clean or replace if I wasn't super close to one. Nobody would want me around them during those 24 hours.  All car rides require me to be diapered even short ones. As a kid we had to constantly stop somewhere for me to pee. We had the ol ice cream pail for me during long trips 😆  I can air out but not for more than a few minutes. I have ended up peeing while I'm drying myself off after a shower. Ive gotten the floor and bath matt wet too many times so now I dry off while standing in the tub. If I happen to pee I can just rinse off. I've had accidents during changes where I've had to quickly hold the fresh or used diaper in front of me to catch the stream.  4. When I first started to wear I had a ton of anxiety that everyone could tell I was wearing and did what I felt I needed to hide it from everyone. It only made my anxiety and depression back then worse. Once I realized that most people didn't notice or care about my diapered state, the more I was able to accept it. I'm now in a place where I really don't care who notices, figures or finds it out. I don't hide it but also I don't make it obvious when out in public.  Those close to me know about my needing diapers. That includes mine and my husband's family and a few select friends. It's not a secret I have to put tons of effort to hide anymore but it also not an open subject of conversation.  5. I have been to many appointments diapered from my dr to my physiotherapist. My wetting problems stem from birth defect causing me to have the potty training of a toddler. Spotty at best but could get by till I couldn't anymore. In elementary school I knew I had to pee really quickly when the Lil wet spot appeared after the sudden squirt. You get an automatic hall pass when your teacher sees it. Quite a few times I had to hold myself while rushing to the bathroom only to lose my grip and then the inevitable happened.  My old doctor and my current doctor know that I have continence issues going back to childhood so yes it's on my record and no it doesn't bother me. I've never been given a prescription for diapers but then I've never asked about one either. I probably should ask about one now.  My skin is pretty tough so I don't get rashes unless I really try for it. I've never been to my dr about diaper rash or uti problem. 6. I am a bedwetter and can't even nap without waking up wetter than I was. I need all the bed protections because I have wet so much in my sleep my pillow was soaked when I woke up. 😒 I have no idea how many times per night I go, all I know is I'm never dry in the mornings 7. My bowel control is currently slipping from my grip but I knew it would probably happen. I was told by my Dr years ago that I had a higher chance of losing it because (sorry if this next bit of personal info negatively affects anyone) I'm unfortunately a childhood SA survivor and as my Dr put it, I suffered some horrible repeated, unwarranted and unwanted damage to my young body by an adult body. I was also told that it would likely happen later in life. I was in my 20's at the time so I thought later in life meant my late 60's or 70's it would start happening,  not in my  Well, now how fecking fittingly perfect is this 😂 here I am focusing on writing about my experience with loosing my bowel control and I literally end up pooping myself because I wasn't paying attention to my body, yet again.  I can't stop laughing at the perfect timing of it. Almost like my bowels knew I was talking about it so it got mad and decided that I was talking bad about it so it's like "here deal with this then if you can't talk nice to about me. Wanna talk shit! Then here! Have a shit! Muwhahahaha" Anyways lol, I hadn't expected it to start in my late 40's but here I am in yet another messy diaper. I have had plenty of time to prepare myself and accept that this could and probably would happen. I was also told that when and if it did I'd most likely end up needing diapers permanently.  8.  My days start off in a wet and messy night diaper before I even head to the shower. My trusted preferred daily diaper is the abena M4 for normal wear, I also like and trust anything from Rearz and Forsite. I use stuffers when needed, use diaper covers to reduce noise and smells while at work or out in public and wear a onsie to help hold things in place. Droopy saggy diapers are annoying 😑. I carry a backpack with me that always has at least 4 diapers, one XXL goodnite pull up as a backup emergency, powder, wipes, rash cream, plastic bags, clean pants, socks and a spare diaper cover. I also keep some medications and some pepto bismol tablets for when I need them. My backpack is never far from me if I don't have it on me it's nearby in my car should I need it. At work it's in my locker.  Leaks happen for me if I don't properly check myself regularly and I've reached the capacity of my diaper. With having a small bladder, dribbling and leaking issues I don't flood my diapers. I have experienced a few blow outs and was glad I had a cover on at the time.  I dont really feel limited by having to wear diapers. I felt way more limited when I had to constantly be aware of how long it's been since I last went,  where the nearest bathroom is, is it private or stalls, what if it's occupied and will I be able to hold it if it is.  I just don't go swimming or sit in hot tubs anymore. Having to change an unexpected messy diaper can be inconvenient if your out and about but not having one on is even more inconvenient in my case.  Skin care. I shave and use cream when needed. I have a separate Lufa that I use to scrub my diaper area. When I put on a fresh diaper I use powder to help with odor. I use pepto bismol to reduce odors and it helps prevent loose poops for me. I stay away from foods and beverages that make me smell more, like coffee or spicy stuff.  For disposal I just put my wet diapers in the regular garbage. Messy ones if I'm able to I knock the solids into the toilet and they then go into a separate scented trash bag and once its got a couple in it I take the bag to our outside bin so as not to stink the place up. A proper adult diaper bin is on my wishlist.  For storage I have my diapers in my closet and in a spare dresser.  Well I really need to change now I had one more surprise soft poop while I was finishing writing this up.   

I've had a really hard time finding diapers in city centers.   A lot of stores in city centers are smaller, and don't have adult diapers (or even baby diapers)  That's the order that I'm travelling, so Hamburg is at the end.  I need to refill either in Genoa or Munich.

Remind me again, how old is Tom at this point in the story?  I'm sure the idea of going to a urologist for  bedwetting would be horrifying for me.

Well played, I had a feeling the hypnosis was going to have some unwanted effects, but I did not see the twist where they were only temporary.   Just binge read the entire story so far today, not sure how I missed this one before, but it is extremely well read.   As I Jeff Dunham fan, I can only bring myself to pronounce Ffrances as Fuh-fuh-rances in my head 😅 

Tapes didn't stick well either.  I had to use a diaper pin on one of them.  Since I don't have either of these issues with Betterdry, I also came to the conclusion that perhaps the printing process on the plastic somehow weakens the backing and the ink may be a cause of the tapes not sticking well.  I'm a basic "Try it once" kind of person.  Been there, done that, probably won't order Crinklz again and stick with Betterdry.  I'll see how it goes with the rest of the package.