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Book 2 – Chapter 2: Welcome Home, Oskar!   Breakfast was cereal. Calling it cereal, however, required a certain generosity of definition. Mia stood quietly at the kitchen island, watching Sally pour what looked less like breakfast and more like a celebration into a large bowl. Brightly colored Froot Loops cascaded out of the unmistakable red American box, followed by a generous amount of cold milk. The box itself had crossed the Atlantic only a week earlier, tucked into the luggage compartment of the Gulfstream after Captain Richard had once again agreed—under highly unofficial circumstances—to become Sally’s preferred importer of American breakfast foods. European supermarkets, in Sally’s opinion, possessed many admirable qualities. Breakfast cereal was not one of them. Europeans, she had often declared, treated sugar as though it belonged on an international watch list. Every colorful American cereal seemed to arrive stripped of its personality, sweetness and questionable nutritional decisions. Captain Richard, by contrast, understood diplomacy. Every few weeks Sally would order several boxes online, have them delivered to the FBO in Teterboro, and somehow they always found space aboard the aircraft. Mia merely called it “contraband.” She also pretended to disapprove. Pretended. “Morning, sugar junkie.” Bridget’s voice drifted into the kitchen just before she appeared in the doorway, already dressed for the day but still carrying that softer look of someone who had only recently escaped the world of midnight feedings and hospital visits. Sally looked up immediately, leaned sideways from the breakfast bench and accepted the kiss her mother placed on her forehead before wrapping one arm around her in a lazy half-hug. “Morning.” Bridget glanced at the spectacularly colorful bowl. “So…” she said thoughtfully, “getting your fill before Oskar eventually discovers breakfast?” Sally shrugged without the slightest trace of guilt as she crunched enthusiastically through another spoonful. “Mia will probably force me back into civilized eating in about twenty minutes.” “I do not force,” Mia replied from the island without looking up. “You strongly encourage.” “I strongly encourage.” Sally smiled. “But this…” She looked affectionately at the red cereal box standing proudly beside her bowl. “This is part of the experience.” She picked it up automatically, scanning the back as though reading it for the first time. Bridget laughed. “You’ve read that box every morning.” “I know.” “And yet?” “I always feel like there might suddenly be new information.” “About fruit-flavored sugar rings?” “You never know.” “There could be breaking developments.” “There could.” Mia carried over Bridget’s coffee, setting the mug carefully in front of her before taking her usual place opposite them with a neat handwritten shopping list already resting on the table. The weekly ritual began almost without announcement. Every Thursday morning Mia and Bridget planned the household together. Groceries. Cleaning supplies. Fresh flowers. Kitchen staples. Small repairs. The quiet machinery that kept an enormous household functioning without anybody really noticing how much work disappeared into making daily life seem effortless. Sally loved these mornings. Not because shopping lists fascinated her. Because eventually Mia and Roberto would head into Zurich for the supermarket run, and Sally almost always managed to persuade them to let her tag along. She genuinely loved Swiss supermarkets, not merely for their endless cheeses, but for the sense of order that seemed to govern everything within them. The aisles were calm, the shelves precise, the customers quiet, and even the most ordinary errand carried none of the usual urgency or irritation. Wandering among the neatly arranged displays became strangely restorative, as though grocery shopping here were less a chore than a brief retreat from the disorder of the world outside. She had once confessed this to Katrina. Katrina had stared at her for nearly thirty seconds before concluding that Swiss wealth had finally damaged Sally’s judgment. Today, however, the familiar routine shifted. “I’ll do the shopping tomorrow instead,” Mia said, making a small note beside one item. “I’d rather prepare the list today.” She looked first toward Bridget, then toward Sally. “Tomorrow everybody will be adjusting.” The words lingered quietly over the table. No matter where the conversation wandered, it always seemed to return to the same expectation—that tomorrow Oskar would finally be coming home. A soft chime echoed through the hallway. “The delivery,” Mia said, rising immediately. “Excuse me.” The kitchen grew quieter after she disappeared. For a few moments only spoons, coffee cups and distant footsteps filled the silence. Then Bridget looked toward Sally with the kind of careful expression mothers somehow perfected over years. “Anything you need while Mia’s making the list?” Sally glanced up. “Like what?” Bridget hesitated only slightly. “Any…” She smiled apologetically. “Intimates?” Sally understood immediately. She shook her head. “No. I’m actually covered.” She thought for a second. “I’ll probably need shampoo eventually, but honestly I’ll buy it when I get back to the States.” “So you’re already thinking about leaving again.” Sally made an exaggerated face. “Apparently responsible people travel for work.” “Imagine that.” “I know. It’s deeply inconvenient.” Bridget smiled into her coffee. “And perhaps there happens to be a certain orange Italian automobile waiting for its first proper outing?” Sally blinked. Then laughed. “I completely forgot.” “You forgot?” “I actually did.” She leaned back, shaking her head at herself. “Well…” A smile slowly spread across her face. “Okay… maybe that sounds pretty exciting.” “I suspected it might.” “But that’s work too,” Sally defended herself with theatrical seriousness. “Morgan would call it driver development.” “I’m sure she would.” Sally’s smile lingered only briefly before softening. “I’ll miss you.” Bridget reached across the table and rested her hand over Sally’s. “We’ll miss you too.” “And Oskar.” “You’ll miss him most.” “I probably will.” Bridget nodded thoughtfully. “We’ll be here. Learning him.” She smiled almost absentmindedly, already picturing it herself. “I’ll be feeding him… changing diapers… convincing him to sleep… feeding him again… changing another diaper…” She laughed quietly. “I’ve been informed newborns have a remarkably repetitive lifestyle.” Sally laughed with her. “Sounds exhausting.” “It probably will be.” They sat comfortably with that image for a moment before Bridget’s eyes drifted almost unconsciously toward the staircase leading upstairs. Then she looked back at Sally. “Speaking of diapers…” Sally raised an eyebrow. “Do you still have yours?” The question arrived so gently it almost caught her off guard. “They’re still in the wardrobe somewhere,” Bridget continued. “I wondered whether…” She searched for the right words. “Perhaps it’s time to let them go.” Sally became very still. She hadn’t expected that. Her fingers rested quietly around her spoon while she looked down into the brightly colored cereal floating in the milk. “Already?” she asked softly. There was no argument in her voice. Only hesitation. “So soon?” Bridget didn’t answer immediately. Instead she watched her daughter with quiet patience. “Have you needed them?” Sally slowly shook her head. “No.” “Have you used one?” Another small shake. “No.” Silence lingered comfortably between them. Bridget smiled first. “Then perhaps…” She reached over and squeezed Sally’s hand again. “…we simply leave them where they are.” Sally’s shoulders relaxed almost visibly. A shy smile appeared. “Maybe.” “Maybe.” She hesitated before adding almost apologetically, “They can still be…” She searched for the word. “…practical.” Bridget nodded before Sally even finished. “And comfortable.” Sally smiled, grateful she hadn’t needed to explain. “There’s no rush,” Bridget said gently. “Healing isn’t measured by throwing things away.” She looked at her daughter for another long second. “But I will admit…”, her smile warmed. “I’ve loved seeing you wandering around the house in ordinary pajamas again.” Sally laughed quietly. “So have I.” “As long as you promise me one thing.” “What’s that?” “You keep telling me how your nights are going.” Sally nodded without hesitation. “I will.” And somehow that promise felt far more important than whether a forgotten package still rested quietly in the back of a wardrobe upstairs. -- It almost felt like an expedition. Not because they were traveling far—the hospital was scarcely a few minutes away—but because the entire house seemed to understand that this was no ordinary outing. There was a quiet sense of preparation in the air, the kind that surrounded milestones before anyone dared call them that. Mia had checked the diaper bag twice. Renée had quietly confirmed that nothing essential had been forgotten. Bridget had walked through the front hall with the restrained excitement of a mother trying very hard to remain practical. Sally stepped out onto the driveway just as Adrian finished opening the rear hatch of the dark brown Mercedes station wagon. She stopped for a second. Then looked at him. Then at the car. Her eyebrows climbed. Adrian caught the look immediately and answered it with a casual shrug as though the choice required no explanation at all. “Your grandfather’s car,” he said simply while lifting the diaper bag into the luggage compartment. “I thought we’d include him.” The words lingered for a moment. Sally looked at the familiar Mercedes differently now. It wasn’t merely the station wagon she had inherited. It still carried quiet traces of Oskar Weiss Sr.—the man who had driven it through Zurich countless times, who had refused to replace it simply because something newer existed, who had somehow managed to make understated elegance seem completely natural. She smiled. “I like that.” “So do I.” Adrian folded the new stroller frame neatly beside the diaper bag before lowering the hatch with a gentle push. When Sally opened the rear door, she noticed something she hadn’t expected. The infant carrier was already installed, perfectly level in its rear-facing position, its harness neatly arranged as though quietly waiting for its tiny passenger. She slid into the seat beside it and instinctively rested her fingertips against the soft fabric, studying it for a long moment.  In only a little while Oskar would be there—bundled securely inside, impossibly small, perhaps already asleep before they had even left the hospital. The thought alone brought an unbidden smile to her face as she looked at the empty seat, already finding it difficult to imagine the car without her little brother in it. Bridget settled into the front passenger seat while Adrian started the engine, and the Mercedes rolled quietly down the gently sloping driveway before joining the peaceful streets of Zurichberg. The city still seemed half asleep beneath the clear summer morning, sunlight filtering through old trees whose leaves still carried traces of yesterday’s rain. Sally kept glancing toward the infant carrier beside her. It seemed impossible that something so small could change an entire household. Then again… He already had. “You know,” she said thoughtfully, still looking at the empty seat, “I give it… maybe four years before Oskar starts asking for rides in the F40.” Bridget laughed softly without turning around. “I sincerely hope his ambitions develop more slowly than that.” “I said asking,” Sally defended herself. “Not driving.” “I’d prefer neither.” Adrian smiled to himself as he guided the Mercedes through a quiet intersection. “I imagine by then,” he said, glancing briefly at Sally in the rearview mirror, “his older sister will be qualified to handle those requests.” Sally looked up. “You think?” “I should hope so.” He nodded toward her almost imperceptibly. “You’ll have had years of proper driver training by then. Morgan will have frightened all the bad habits out of you.” Sally grinned. “So… I’d be allowed?” “If,” Adrian said with deliberate patience, “you have not reduced your orange Lamborghini to an expensive collection of Italian spare parts by the time Oskar develops an interest in automobiles…” Sally already knew where this was going. “…then yes.” She folded her arms with exaggerated dignity. “I appreciate your confidence.” “It’s conditional optimism.” Bridget shook her head, smiling despite herself. “You two sound remarkably alike.” “We absolutely do not,” Sally protested immediately. Adrian nodded gravely. “That’s exactly what I would have said.” Sally looked out the window to hide her smile. “Thanks, Dad.” There was no sarcasm in her voice. Only uncomplicated happiness. The Mercedes continued quietly through the tree-lined streets, carrying three adults toward a hospital where, for the first time since Oskar had entered the world far too early, they would not be arriving simply to visit him. They were going to bring him home. -- It had taken considerably longer than Sally expected. Not because anything was wrong. Quite the opposite. The nurses moved with the unhurried confidence of people determined that nothing about Oskar’s departure would be rushed simply because everyone was eager to get him home. There had been one final weigh-in, another careful examination from the neonatologist, a review of discharge papers that Bridget and Adrian signed almost absentmindedly after weeks of hearing the same reassuring words, and one last opportunity for the nurses to admire how much their tiny patient had grown since arriving in an incubator scarcely bigger than he was. Then came the car seat. The infant carrier was brought into the NICU, and Oskar was gently settled inside while one of the nurses adjusted the harness with practiced hands. She checked the straps, loosened them slightly, tightened them again, tilted the seat back a fraction and watched him quietly for several minutes. Sally smiled to herself. Most of these things had already been tested days earlier. The doctors knew perfectly well he was ready. This almost felt ceremonial. As though the hospital needed one final opportunity to convince itself that the tiny boy it had watched over for two months could now safely belong somewhere else. There were hugs afterward. Real ones. Bridget embraced nurses whose names had become as familiar as those of old friends. Adrian, never naturally demonstrative, shook every hand twice and thanked each member of the team individually, his composure barely concealing the gratitude beneath it. Sally hugged Renée first, then found herself unexpectedly hugging two NICU nurses she had only ever known by first names. Nobody seemed embarrassed by it. The nurses had watched Oskar fight his way into ordinary life. The Weiss family had simply come to collect him. Outside, the morning air felt wonderfully ordinary. The brown Mercedes station wagon waited exactly where Adrian had parked it, sunlight filtering softly through the old trees surrounding the hospital entrance. Adrian opened the rear door and carefully lifted the carrier from the waiting cart before lowering it onto its base with a firm, reassuring click. This time… Oskar was inside it. Sally had quietly slipped into the rear seat before anyone noticed, fastening herself beside the carrier while Adrian checked the locking mechanism once, then again, and finally tugged gently upward to satisfy himself that nothing could possibly move. Only then did he close the door. Sally leaned slightly toward the carrier. “Hey, buddy.” Her voice was almost a whisper. “First car ride.” Oskar responded with all the solemnity expected of an infant who had only recently discovered the outside world. His eyes drifted toward her for a few quiet seconds before one tiny shoulder shifted beneath the blanket. He stretched almost imperceptibly, opened his mouth in something that might have become a yawn, then settled deeper into the soft padding of the carrier. His head tipped gently to one side. Entirely content. Bridget appeared beside the open door before climbing into the front passenger seat. She paused when she realized where Sally had installed herself. Their eyes met. Sally smiled with unmistakable guilt. “Would you mind…?” For a second Bridget simply looked at her daughter. Then the corners of her mouth softened. Bridget leaned into the car and brushed a loose strand of hair behind Sally’s ear. “Look after him.” “I will.” Bridget closed the rear door gently. A moment later the driver’s door opened, Adrian settled behind the wheel, and after one final glance at every mirror, every warning light and every seatbelt indicator, the Mercedes rolled quietly away from the hospital. Sally rested one hand lightly over Oskar’s tiny chest. She wasn’t holding him exactly. Only close enough that, irrational as it was, she somehow felt he couldn’t possibly be alone. Every few moments Oskar opened his eyes just enough to study the enormous person sitting beside him before drifting comfortably back toward sleep. Sally smiled every single time. In the rearview mirror Adrian’s eyes kept returning to the back seat. Not anxiously. Simply… Checking. Confirming. Making sure everything remained exactly as it should. The streets of Zurich unfolded quietly ahead of them. Adrian drove with almost exaggerated smoothness, braking early, accelerating gently, avoiding every pothole and tram rail as though transporting crystal rather than a newborn. Eventually Sally couldn’t help herself. “Dad…” “Hm?” “You’re driving incredibly slowly.” A smile tugged at Adrian’s mouth. “I am.” “You realize cyclists are beginning to overtake us.” “They’ll survive.” Sally laughed softly. “I’d like to see you drive today,” Adrian replied without taking his eyes off the road. “I somehow doubt you’d be particularly interested in exploring Oskar’s tolerance for lateral G-forces.” “I absolutely would not.” “No,” Bridget agreed warmly. “She wouldn’t.” She settled more comfortably into her seat before smiling toward the windshield. “You’re driving perfectly.” After a moment she added quietly, “I was terrified the day I brought Sally home.” The words lingered gently inside the car. “I remember thinking every bump in the road would somehow break her.” Silence settled naturally afterward. Sally looked down. She knew. Adrian hadn’t been driving that day. He hadn’t even been there. The absence no longer needed explaining. It simply belonged to their history now. Bridget reached quietly across the center console until her fingers found Adrian’s hand resting lightly beside the gear selector. “I’m rather glad,” she said softly, “that you’re my driver today.” Adrian turned his hand over, intertwining his fingers with hers without taking his eyes from the road. “Forever.” The word came almost absentmindedly. Then, more quietly still, “Together.” No one spoke for several moments after that. The city seemed to move around them in peaceful silence. At the next red light, Sally carefully reached for her phone. Oskar had awakened again. His enormous blue-gray eyes looked curiously upward from beneath the little knitted cap, completely unaware that this was the first journey of his life beyond hospital walls. Sally smiled. She captured the moment with one photograph. Not posed. Simply… Oskar. She opened the caption field.   #MiracleBaby on his way home. Finally. Thank God.   #Thankful #NICU   She read it once. Pressed “Post.” Then locked her phone and slipped it back into her pocket. “It’s official,” she murmured almost to herself. Bridget glanced back over her shoulder. “What is, honey?” Sally looked down at Oskar. Then out through the passing streets of Zurich. A smile settled quietly across her face. “Nothing,” she said softly. After a moment she reached out once more, resting a single finger lightly against the edge of Oskar’s tiny blanket. -- Sally followed Bridget and Renée upstairs almost instinctively, carrying the folded blanket they had brought back from the hospital even though nobody had asked her to. It simply felt wrong to arrive home with Oskar and not carry something that belonged to him. Renée walked ahead with the baby nestled securely in her arms while Bridget climbed the staircase carefully beside them, one hand resting lightly on the banister more out of habit than necessity. Adrian lingered behind long enough to gather the last few things from downstairs before looking toward Sally with an encouraging smile. “I’ll be up in a minute,” he said quietly. “Give the ladies a little space first.” Sally’s answering smile came easily. She nodded once and hurried after them, her sandals making soft sounds against the wooden steps before disappearing onto the upper landing. Oskar’s room already felt lived in despite the fact that its smallest resident had never spent a single night there. Morning sunlight filtered through the pale curtains, painting warm rectangles across the floor. The armchair waited beside the window. Fresh flowers stood on the dresser. The crib, perfectly made, seemed almost too immaculate to belong to a real baby. Sally slowed as she reached the doorway. For a moment she wasn’t sure whether to walk in or remain outside. This felt like sacred territory somehow. She settled for leaning lightly against the doorframe, watching as Renée carried Oskar to the changing table with the calm efficiency of someone who had performed the same sequence thousands of times before. “There we are,” Renée murmured, carefully unfastening the blanket wrapped around him. “Let’s make sure our young gentleman survived his first expedition.” Oskar responded by stretching one tiny arm above his head before wrinkling his face into an expression that looked remarkably serious for someone barely acquainted with the world. Renée smiled. “I’ll take that as a yes.” She checked him over almost without appearing to touch him at all. A practiced hand here. A glance there. His breathing. His color. His temperature. His diaper. Satisfied, she nodded once. “Perfect.” By then Oskar had begun stirring in earnest, his tiny mouth making searching movements long before his eyes fully opened. “Someone has realized he’s home,” Renée observed softly. “And hungry,” Bridget added with a knowing smile. Renée crossed the room and lowered Oskar carefully into Bridget’s waiting arms. The transition happened so naturally that he scarcely protested. Instead he nestled immediately against her, already recognizing the familiar warmth, heartbeat and scent that had become his entire world. “Time for lunch,” Bridget whispered. Renée looked between mother and daughter before quietly stepping toward the hallway. “I’ll leave you girls to it.” She paused beside Sally and gave her a small conspiratorial wink. “I’m only a few steps away.” Sally smiled gratefully. Once Renée disappeared down the hallway, Bridget looked up from Oskar. “Come here.” Sally hesitated only a second before entering properly. She looked briefly at the empty chair beside the window, then chose the floor instead, lowering herself onto the thick cream-colored carpet until she sat cross-legged directly in front of her mother. She rested her elbows loosely on her knees. Neither of them spoke for a while. Sally simply watched. Watched Oskar settle completely, watched Bridget instinctively adjust him with tiny movements that already seemed effortless, watched the peaceful concentration on her mother’s face as every other concern in the world quietly disappeared for a little while. It struck Sally that motherhood seemed to compress time. Bridget wasn’t thinking about tomorrow’s schedule, foundation meetings, recovery, visitors or anything beyond the tiny life resting in her arms. The room itself seemed to slow down around them. A moment later Adrian appeared quietly at the doorway Sally had occupied only minutes earlier. He leaned one shoulder against the frame, slipped his hands into his pockets, and looked across the room without saying anything immediately. His eyes moved from Bridget… …to Oskar… …to Sally sitting contentedly on the carpet between them. He smiled. “Beautiful,” he said softly. Nobody disagreed. Sally kept watching Oskar with open fascination. “He still hasn’t cried,” she announced after a while, sounding almost proud of the accomplishment as though she had personally negotiated the arrangement. Bridget looked up with amusement dancing in her eyes. “He’s a quiet little fellow.” She glanced affectionately toward her daughter. “You, on the other hand…” Sally’s head lifted immediately. Bridget laughed under her breath. “Oh, you made yourself known.” “I did not.” “You absolutely did.” Sally leaned back onto her hands, already smiling despite herself. “I require evidence.” “I lived the evidence,” Bridget replied. “You announced every opinion at full volume.” Adrian chuckled quietly from the doorway. “Your mother became remarkably fluent in the language of newborn demands.” Bridget nodded gravely. “I learned diplomacy, crisis management and advanced negotiation before you were six months old.” “I was tiny.” “You were loud.” “I had rights.” Bridget laughed outright now, the sound warm enough to make Oskar pause briefly before continuing his lunch without concern. “My dear,” she said, gently brushing one finger across Oskar’s tiny shoulder, “raising you taught me that volume and conviction are not the same thing.” Sally pretended to consider that. “I still think I made some excellent points.” “I’ve no doubt you did.” The room settled into gentle laughter again. And for the first time since Oskar’s birth, it no longer felt as though the family were merely visiting him. He was home. -- The room had settled into that peculiar silence which follows contentment rather than awkwardness. Oskar’s eager movements had slowed, his tiny hands no longer opening and closing with determined purpose but resting lazily against Bridget’s blouse as the last moments of his feeding gave way to sleepiness. Every so often he paused completely, eyes half closed, only to rouse himself again for another few determined swallows before drifting back toward drowsiness. A gentle knock sounded against the already open door. Renée stepped inside carrying nothing more than the quiet confidence that seemed to accompany her everywhere. She took one look at Bridget and smiled knowingly. “That face tells me lunch is almost over.” Bridget looked down at Oskar. “I think somebody is deciding whether he’s still hungry or simply comfortable.” “As long as he doesn’t decide to fall asleep before burping,” Renée replied. “Then we’ll all regret it.” Sally immediately looked up. “Why?” “Because,” Renée said with exaggerated patience, “tiny gentlemen who swallow air eventually make their opinions known.” Bridget laughed softly. “Oskar,” she murmured, “apparently your reputation is already being discussed.” Almost on cue, Oskar released the breast and settled completely, his tiny lips relaxing as if announcing that the meal had officially concluded. “There we are,” Renée said quietly. Bridget looked toward Sally. “Your turn.” Sally blinked. “My… what?” “Come on.” Bridget carefully shifted Oskar slightly in her arms. “You wanted to learn.” “I do.” “Then come and learn.” Sally stood almost automatically before stopping halfway across the room. “I’ve never burped anybody.” Renée smiled. “Neither had your mother.” “That’s not helping.” “It should.” Renée crossed to the dresser, opened the top drawer and removed one of the soft white cloths folded neatly inside. “This first.” She unfolded it with practiced hands before draping it gently across Sally’s shoulder and upper chest. Sally looked down. “A towel?” “A very important towel.” “Why?” Renée merely smiled. “You’ll see.” That answer did absolutely nothing to reassure Sally. Bridget rose slowly from the chair, supporting Oskar securely with both hands. “One arm underneath.” Sally obeyed. “The other behind his bottom.” She obeyed again. Renée stepped closer, adjusting Sally’s elbows by barely an inch. “Relax your shoulders.” “I am relaxed.” “No, you’re terrified.” “I’m professionally relaxed.” Bridget laughed. “He’ll notice if you’re stiff.” “I don’t want to drop him.” “You won’t.” Bridget’s voice carried the quiet certainty Sally had learned to trust. “You’ve held him before.” “This feels different.” “It is different.” Carefully—very carefully—Bridget transferred Oskar into Sally’s waiting arms. His weight settled against her almost immediately. Still impossibly light. Still astonishingly warm. His little head rested against her shoulder beneath the towel while his tiny legs curled instinctively toward her body. Sally hardly dared breathe. “Oh…” The word escaped almost involuntarily. Renée stepped beside her. “Support his neck.” Sally adjusted her hand. “Perfect.” “What now?” “Now…” Renée gently touched the middle of Oskar’s tiny back. “Little pats.” Sally raised one eyebrow. “How little?” Renée demonstrated softly against the towel. “Not trying to wake him.” “Just…” “…encouraging.” Sally nodded. Very gently she began patting his back. Nothing happened. She looked at Renée. “Keep going.” Another few gentle pats. Nothing. “He doesn’t seem particularly interested.” “Neither do most babies.” A minute passed quietly. Sally continued patiently. Tiny pat. Tiny pat. Tiny pat. She could feel Oskar’s breathing against her shoulder. Feel the warmth radiating through his little body. Smell that unmistakable newborn scent everyone insisted existed and which, she suddenly realized, absolutely did. She smiled without noticing herself doing it. “I could sit here forever.” Bridget watched her daughter with quiet affection. “I know.” Then—without warning—Oskar’s tiny body stiffened ever so slightly. Renée immediately smiled. “There it comes.” “What comes?” Oskar drew in the smallest breath imaginable. For one suspended second… Nothing. Then the room echoed with a surprisingly deep—   Buuuuurrrrp.   It sounded completely impossible coming from someone barely larger than a loaf of bread. Sally froze. Her eyes widened. Adrian blinked. Bridget pressed both lips together. And Renée burst into laughter first. A split second later Bridget couldn’t contain herself anymore. “Oh, sweetheart…” Adrian leaned against the doorframe laughing quietly into one hand. Sally looked from one face to another in complete bewilderment. “That…”, she looked down at the tiny boy sleeping peacefully against her shoulder, “…came out of him?” Another laugh rippled through the room. “I was expecting…” Sally searched helplessly. “Something tiny.” Renée was still smiling. “Babies have many surprising talents.” “I think my internal organs vibrated.” Bridget laughed so hard she had to wipe beneath one eye. “I’d forgotten how impressive newborn burps can be.” Sally looked down again at Oskar with open disbelief. “You’re about four kilograms.” Renée corrected automatically. “Closer to three.” “Three kilograms,” Sally repeated. “And somehow you contain a truck driver.” Adrian nodded solemnly. “A promising young Weiss.” Sally shook her head slowly, still staring at the peacefully sleeping baby on her shoulder. “I honestly wasn’t prepared for that.” Then she noticed something. A faint warmth. She looked down at the towel draped across her shoulder. A tiny milky patch had appeared near the top. She blinked. Renée saw it immediately. “Now,” she said gently, “you understand the towel.” Sally looked from the towel… …to Oskar… …back to the towel. Then she laughed. Not politely. Not quietly. She laughed until tears gathered in the corners of her eyes, still holding her brother with absolute care as though nothing in the world mattered more than keeping him safely against her shoulder. “I’ve officially been christened,” she declared. Renée nodded with complete seriousness. “Congratulations.” Bridget smiled warmly. “Welcome to the family business.” Sally lowered her cheek carefully against Oskar’s tiny head. “I don’t even mind,” she whispered. And she realized she truly didn’t. The milk stain, the dramatic burp, the towel, the awkwardness. None of it diminished the moment.  If anything, it made it feel even more real. -- Renée accepted Oskar back into her arms with the same unhurried confidence she brought to every movement around him. The little burp seemed to have completed his lunch to his satisfaction. He sighed once, nestled deeper into the crook of her elbow, and looked entirely prepared to sleep through the rest of the afternoon. “One more stop before bed,” Renée said quietly. She crossed to the changing table. Sally followed almost immediately. “So that’s it?” she asked. “He eats, burps and sleeps?” Renée smiled as she laid Oskar gently on the padded changing mat. “In roughly that order.” “And in between?” “He reminds everyone who’s really running the house.” Bridget laughed softly from the armchair. “She’s not exaggerating.” Renée began unfastening the tiny onesie with practiced fingers before glancing toward Sally. “Come over here.” Sally hesitated. “I’ve never…” “I know.” Renée nodded toward the empty space beside the changing table. “Stand here. Close enough to see.” Sally obediently moved beside her. “You’ll be changing plenty of diapers before long.” “Oh.” Renée smiled. “Though judging by the stories I’ve heard…” Bridget couldn’t resist. “You’ve both kept us well supplied over the past year.” Sally turned toward her mother with exaggerated disbelief. “Mom.” “What?” “I refuse to be compared with a two-month-old.” Bridget’s smile only widened. “I merely observed that, until recently, diapers featured rather prominently in both your lives.” Sally folded her arms. “You’re enjoying this conversation far too much.” “I’ve earned the right.” Renée chuckled quietly without looking up. “I’ll stay out of that discussion.” Sally shook her head, though she was smiling now. “Thank you.” As Renée carefully opened the clean diaper and laid it ready beneath Oskar, Sally became aware of another absence. She looked toward the doorway. “Dad disappeared.” Renée nodded knowingly. “He did.” “Where?” Bridget answered this time. “Oh, he’ll suddenly discover an urgent matter downstairs whenever the diaper changes begin.” Sally laughed. “He escaped?” “Very strategically.” “As if I can’t hear you,” Adrian called from somewhere farther down the hallway. Bridget raised her voice only slightly. “Coward.” His footsteps continued retreating. Sally laughed again. “I can’t believe he actually left.” “Oh, he’ll be back,” Bridget assured her. “Usually just after everything is clean again.” Renée lifted Oskar’s little legs with practiced gentleness. “Your father is an excellent man.” “But?” “But even excellent men occasionally discover remarkable enthusiasm for administrative responsibilities.” The fresh diaper came away. Sally’s smile slowly faded. She had never actually seen her little brother like this before. The hospital had always preserved a certain distance. Blankets. Tubes. Tiny clothes. Careful handling by nurses. Now there was nothing between observation and reality. She stared quietly. Renée noticed the change in her expression but continued naturally, cleaning Oskar with calm efficiency while speaking as though this were the most ordinary thing in the world. “It becomes routine very quickly.” Sally didn’t answer immediately. She simply watched. Her eyes lingered for another moment before lifting to Renée’s face. “He’s…” She stopped. “A boy,” Bridget finished softly. Sally nodded. “I know that sounds ridiculous.” “It doesn’t.” “I’ve always known he was a boy.” She searched unsuccessfully for better words. “But…” She looked back down. “I’ve never actually…” The sentence dissolved on its own. Bridget understood anyway. “You’ve only ever known him as your brother,” she said quietly. “Now you’re beginning to know him as a baby.” The distinction settled gently over the room. Sally watched Renée fasten the clean diaper with practiced hands. It wasn’t embarrassment she felt. Nor awkwardness. Only the strange realization that this tiny person, who already occupied so much of her heart, was becoming more real in a hundred ordinary ways. He wasn’t simply Oskar anymore. He was a little boy. One day he would crawl. Walk. Talk. Become lanky. Probably climb things he shouldn’t. Eventually become a young man. The thought arrived so unexpectedly that it almost stole her breath. Renée reached for the tiny onesie lying folded beside the changing table. “Would you hand me that?” Sally did so automatically. Together they guided Oskar’s tiny arms through the sleeves before carefully fastening the snaps one by one. He barely stirred, offering only a sleepy stretch and a tiny sigh before settling once more. “That’s better,” Renée murmured. She lifted him gently from the changing table and carried him the few steps to the crib. The room grew even quieter. She lowered him slowly onto the mattress. For one brief second his eyes fluttered halfway open, unfocused and content. Then they closed again. His tiny fists relaxed. One slow breath. Another. Already asleep. Nobody spoke. They simply stood there looking down into the crib. The nursery no longer resembled a room waiting for a baby. It had become Oskar’s room. -- Lunch unfolded with surprising quietness, as though the emotional summit of the day had already passed. Only an hour earlier they had carried Oskar across the threshold of the house for the first time. There had been smiles, photographs, careful hands, whispered instructions from Renée, and the almost sacred silence of watching him fall asleep in his own crib.  Now the house had settled into something gentler. Oskar slept peacefully upstairs, the baby monitor resting beside Bridget’s plate, its screen showing nothing more dramatic than the tiny rise and fall of his chest beneath a pale blanket. Renée had insisted she would remain nearby, occupying herself with little jobs while keeping one attentive ear tuned to the nursery. For the first time all day, there was nothing that urgently required anyone’s attention. They simply ate. Tomato soup gave way to grilled chicken and roasted vegetables while the conversation wandered without any particular destination. Sally glanced across the table at her mother. “You look tired.” Bridget smiled faintly over her spoon. “I am.” She looked toward the monitor almost instinctively before returning her attention to lunch. “I think I wouldn’t mind a short nap after this.” Adrian looked at her for a moment before nodding. “I think that’s an excellent idea.” Then his attention shifted naturally to Sally. “And I believe our older daughter could use one as well.” Sally looked up in mock surprise. “Me?” Bridget studied her for a second. “You do look worn out, honey.” “I didn’t sleep much.” “I wonder why,” Bridget replied with gentle amusement. Sally smiled sheepishly. “I kept thinking about today.” “Understandable.” “So,” Adrian concluded calmly, “it’s settled.” He took another sip of water. “Siesta for the ladies.” Sally narrowed her eyes. “And you’re apparently made of reinforced concrete?” Adrian looked mildly puzzled. “I’m Swiss.” “That’s not an answer.” “We don’t traditionally take siestas.” Sally laughed softly. “I must have inherited some Mediterranean genes somewhere.” She rested her elbows lightly on the table. “I love an afternoon nap.” Adrian smiled. “Your grandfather certainly did.” “So I’ve heard.” Sally nodded thoughtfully. “He loved Spain.” “He did.” “I think I take after him a little.” Adrian’s expression softened almost imperceptibly. “I think you do.” Mia appeared beside the table carrying another serving dish before anyone had noticed her leaving the kitchen. Without asking, she placed an extra portion of grilled chicken and vegetables onto Bridget’s plate. Bridget looked up with resigned affection. “Mia…” “No arguments.” Mia gave one satisfied nod before disappearing toward the kitchen again. Bridget accepted another bite obediently. There was no self-consciousness about it anymore. Every extra serving, every glass of water, every reminder to rest carried a purpose beyond herself now. She was still recovering, yes, but more importantly she was nourishing a little boy who depended entirely on her. The realization seemed to settle warmly over the table. After a while Bridget looked across at Sally. “You looked wonderful with Oskar today.” Sally glanced up. “I mean it.” Bridget smiled. “You’ve become very natural around him.” Sally shrugged modestly. “I suppose I learned from watching you.” She smiled. “Definitely not from Dad.” Adrian continued cutting his chicken with complete composure. “I seem to remember burping you once or twice. It terrified me.” Sally’s smile faded into curiosity. “You mean that?” “I do.” There was no trace of exaggeration in his voice. “I almost didn’t come.” The words lingered quietly above the table. Sally looked at him without speaking. Bridget reached for her water before gently continuing the story. “There was… resistance.” She chose the word carefully. “Your grandfather wasn’t enthusiastic about Adrian leaving work for weeks to sit beside a newborn.” She smiled faintly. “He considered there to be more important responsibilities.” Adrian nodded slowly. “I eventually got on the plane anyway.” He rested both forearms lightly on the table. “I had no idea what I was doing.” Sally smiled. “I believe that.” “I had never changed a diaper.” “I believe that too.” “I barely knew how to hold you.” “But you learned.” “I did.” He looked down briefly before continuing. “Before I flew back to Switzerland, you recognized my voice.” Bridget smiled at the memory. “You settled when he held you.” “It took practice,” Adrian admitted. “It also changed me.” He fell quiet for a moment, choosing his next words more carefully. “I came home realizing that everything I had believed was important suddenly wasn’t in the same order anymore.” He looked toward Bridget. “It created disagreements with my father.” He exhaled slowly. “I probably should have gone even further than I did.” Sally listened for several moments before quietly shaking her head. “No.” Adrian looked at her. “You did what you could with the man you were then.” She offered him a gentle smile. “And somehow… it became enough.” Her eyes drifted briefly toward the baby monitor. “If things had happened differently…” She let the sentence fade away. “They didn’t.” Adrian returned her smile. “It means more than you know hearing you say that.” He looked toward the monitor as well. “And now,” he said quietly, “I have a second child.” He smiled almost to himself. “My priorities are rearranging themselves all over again.” Sally grinned. “So I’ve officially been demoted.” Adrian actually laughed. “No.” “I been replaced by someone considerably smaller.” “I don’t think that’s how hearts work.” Sally tilted her head. “No?” He shook his head slowly. “You were never occupying a limited amount of space.” He looked first at Bridget… then toward the baby monitor… then finally back to Sally. “I don’t love you less because Oskar arrived.” His voice had grown very quiet. “I simply discovered my heart had room I didn’t know existed.” For a moment no one spoke. Bridget reached for her napkin and dabbed gently beneath one eye. She looked at Adrian with the same expression Sally had seen countless times over recent months—a mixture of gratitude and quiet amazement that life had brought them back to one another after so many years. “You should have written poetry,” she murmured. Adrian smiled faintly. “I don’t know the first thing about poetry.” “I disagree.” She reached across the table and briefly touched his hand. “If poetry is simply saying what is true… I think you’ve been writing it all your life.” -- When Sally’s alarm finally rang, the sound seemed to rise from somewhere impossibly far away, as though she were climbing out of a deep, peaceful well. For a few disoriented seconds she simply lay there, blinking at the ceiling, trying to remember where she was and why she felt so unusually rested. Then it all returned at once. Oskar was home. The hospital was behind them. The long weeks of waiting had finally ended. She reached over, silenced the alarm, and rubbed the sleep from her eyes. Only an hour. That was all she had allowed herself. Even so, she felt as though she had slept for half a day. The previous night had been restless, her mind too full of anticipation to settle. Then there had been the emotional intensity of bringing Oskar home, the relief of seeing him in his own nursery, the quiet lunch afterward, and finally the afternoon nap that had overtaken her almost the instant her head touched the pillow. She stretched until her shoulders protested. “My goodness…” Two days without proper exercise had somehow transformed her body into something that felt oddly unfamiliar. Her calves were tight, her back stiff, and she wondered how quickly the discipline of daily jogging and tennis disappeared. She smiled to herself. Apparently, faster than she’d imagined. Pulling on a pair of loose shorts, she slipped her feet into her well-worn Brazilian thong sandals and quietly opened her bedroom door. The house rested in that pleasant afternoon stillness that follows lunch. Somewhere downstairs she could hear the distant hum of the refrigerator. Nothing else. She walked softly along the hallway. As she approached her parents’ room, she noticed Oskar’s nursery door standing slightly ajar. Silence. Curious, she eased it open another few inches. The nursery lay bathed in soft afternoon light. The curtains stirred gently in the breeze coming through the cracked window, carrying the faint scent of the garden inside. Sally instinctively slowed her breathing. She stepped quietly toward the crib and leaned over, careful not to cast too much of a shadow. Oskar wasn’t asleep. His dark eyes wandered lazily around the room, studying the ceiling with solemn concentration, perfectly content entertaining himself in that mysterious newborn way that required almost nothing from the outside world. Sally couldn’t help smiling. “Hey, buddy,” she whispered. Oskar blinked. His eyes drifted toward the familiar sound of her voice, though his little neck was still too weak to lift properly toward her. “I thought you’d be asleep.” He answered by opening and closing one tiny fist. Sally glanced toward her parents’ bedroom. Still quiet. Her mother must still be resting. For another moment she simply watched him, her hands resting on the crib rail. Then temptation won. “Come here.” She slipped one hand beneath his head and shoulders, the other beneath his little body, lifting him with growing confidence born from countless supervised moments over the past weeks. Oskar settled against her chest almost immediately, as if he had expected this. Sally instinctively supported his head with one hand while carrying him across to the armchair beside the window. Sitting down carefully, she adjusted him until he rested comfortably against her. “There.” She smiled. “Much better.” The room felt wonderfully peaceful. She offered him one finger. Almost at once his tiny hand found it. His fingers curled around hers with surprising determination, holding on with all the strength his little body possessed. Sally felt something inside her melt. She lowered her cheek gently against the soft fuzz covering the top of his head and began rocking almost without realizing she was doing it. Neither of them seemed in any hurry. “So…” she whispered after a while. “How’s this new world treating you?” Oskar blinked slowly. “You were awfully impatient to come and see it.” She smiled to herself. “I don’t blame you.” The rocking chair creaked quietly beneath them. “I’m really glad you’re home.” Her voice had become almost thoughtful now. “I kept visiting you in the hospital, but it never felt right leaving without you.” She looked down at him again. “You know what?” He continued staring somewhere near her chin. “I’ve got a room upstairs that’s waiting for you.” She laughed softly. “Well… not exactly your room.” “My room.” “But you’ve already started taking over parts of it.” She gently bounced him once. “I bought you a blanket.” Another little bounce. “And that play mat.” “I think you’re going to like it.” Oskar’s little fingers tightened around hers. “Not today, obviously.” She smiled. “You’ll probably just stare at it.” His eyes slowly wandered upward until, for one brief moment, they seemed to settle on her face. Sally’s smile deepened. “I think you know me now.” She wasn’t even sure why she believed that. Perhaps it was only hope. Perhaps it was true. “Soon you’ll be talking.” She tilted her head. “I wonder what your first word will be.” Oskar responded with a tiny collection of newborn grunts and soft gurgling sounds that seemed immensely important to him. Sally widened her eyes dramatically. “Oh?” Another little sound. “I see.” A pause. “That’s a fascinating opinion.” More gurgling. She nodded solemnly. “I hadn’t considered that.” The conversation continued entirely one-sided for another minute, though somehow it didn’t feel one-sided at all. Eventually Oskar began squirming a little more insistently. His little mouth searched instinctively. His tiny noises became slightly more urgent. Sally frowned gently. “What’s the matter, little fellow?” She gave his diapered bottom a few reassuring pats. “You’ve got something important to tell me?” A warm voice answered from the doorway. “I suspect I know exactly what he’s trying to say.” Sally looked up. Bridget stood there smiling, one hand resting lightly against the doorframe. She looked rested now, her hair slightly tousled from sleep, but there was a softness about her that hadn’t been there only weeks earlier. “Mom.” Sally smiled sheepishly. “I hope you don’t mind.” Bridget crossed the room slowly. “Not at all.” She reached out and gently stroked Oskar’s tiny arm. “He was awake.” “You were asleep.” “So…” “I improvised.” Bridget laughed quietly. “I noticed.” Sally blinked. “You did?” Bridget pointed toward the shelf. “The baby monitor.” Only then did Sally notice the small camera quietly watching over the nursery. She covered part of her face with one hand. “Oh no.” “I heard your entire philosophical discussion.” Sally groaned. “That wasn’t intended for an audience.” “It was lovely.” Bridget’s eyes rested affectionately on her daughter. “You sounded like a very proud big sister.” “I am.” Sally carefully transferred Oskar into Bridget’s waiting arms. The little boy settled against his mother almost immediately, already searching instinctively. Bridget kissed his forehead. “I believe someone has decided it’s time for another meal.” Almost as if summoned by the sentence itself, Renée appeared quietly in the doorway. “Perfect timing,” she observed with a smile. “I thought I heard somebody negotiating with hunger.” Bridget settled into the armchair. “I’ve got this.” Sally stood, stretching her shoulders once more. “Do you mind if I disappear to the pool for a little while?” She rolled one shoulder experimentally. “I honestly feel as stiff as a plank after two days without proper exercise.” Bridget nodded. “Go.” Then she smiled. “But don’t get too comfortable.” Sally looked suspicious. “Why?” “Because next time…” Bridget adjusted Oskar gently in her arms. “…you’re helping with the diaper.” Sally laughed softly. “Fair enough.” She looked fondly toward her little brother. “I’ve got a feeling there will be plenty of opportunities.” Renée smiled knowingly. “Oh…” “There will.”

Thank you for your patience. I have had company and the household has been crazy busy this past two weeks. Will be getting back to this soon.

Thankyou. 😀 Thanks for being invested. 😀

“Oh..you want to make that gamble?” I said as I gave a stern look. “Ok..we will make a bet. If you have an accident in your panties. You will be back in diapers. If you can manage to be accident free. I have to be in diapers.” I said with a grin. “How does that sound?” I said as I gathered a pair of training panties and a diaper waiting for dads decision.

Unfortunately, life hit me with a massive amount of writer’s block in April, and I ended up in a state where I just couldn’t write for the months I normally write. It’ll most likely be January before I have any new posts for this. They will come, but the back half of the year is my long hours at work, and I usually don’t have energy left for writing. I’ll probably be working in what little spare time I have to put together book 2 and 3 of chapters to publish in that time, though.  I did have another project I started on, but it’s going to be a multi-year project, I assume, that I’m going to want to edit a lot before sharing. We’ll see what happens. Thanks for checking in on me! Sorry I don’t have anything for you right now!