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Okay, this morning I woke up with "morning wood" and it was impossible to pee until I sat up and actively relaxed and waited a little and slowly let go. It is as expected, but a little painful now that it is still sore. The inner sphincter is still very strong and especially combined with things that makes it clench, like erection, it takes away all "incontinence". After I had emptied my bladder, I laid down in bed and I was leaking. Basically when my bladder is already empty and pressure is zero, it runs right through. I think the swelling has gone down a bit now, because it definitely isnt the "tightness" from a day ago. Keeping the inner sphincter is both good and bad imo, depending on what you want. For me I didnt want to be 100% incontinent and dripping all the time, but if there was a button to turn it on/off that would be ideal. It is also a bit "sore" down there still, so I think I will learn more as things turn normal. My external sphincter is definitely out of play, and my internal is strong (as it should be, like 50 cm h20 is normal). The internal sphincter makes me kind of continent, but for example this morning when I was in bed and things were just running through I had no chance of stopping it. Kind of a weird feeling. If you want the "full incontinent" I think the only way is to remove bladder neck, which comes with its own set of problems. One of my main issues was pain from CPPS + a tight sphincter and "discomfort" and things not feeling right down there. I cannot confirm it is fixed or gone because I still take painkillers, but fingers crossed this fixes that part. I think it will take some time for me to heal and "learn how my new body works". Maybe some things will change too. I dont have much more to report today. Yesterday I was watching a movie and feeling kind of incontinent but today I have had some pain after the "morning trouble". I hope my information can be helpful to some...

The learning curve is a bit steep, but on the small scale is somewhat easier to learn. You take it in small bites like eating an elephant.  My configuration is complicated because I have about 20TB of storage for movies, TV & music and I'd rather not have a big honk'n server in the same room with my TV.  I'm also happy to help anyone that wants to learn. I always made it a point in my career to give the younger kids (no matter how old) a hand up. 

Hey Jonny, great to have you join and welcome. 

Hello and welcome! Like you, I too lurked around for a bit before settling in. I'm glad I did because it's a wonderful community here.

Well hello and welcome! That's quite an entrance and I see you're quite a fan of Nietzsche's philosophy and it got me thinking... You're not pathetic, it's all in your perspective. For the man himself denied the existence of absolute, objective truths, arguing instead that all knowledge and reality come through subjective interpretations and human drives. 😄