There is a plan to talk to one though from 2013 or 12 not sure. to 2016 or 17 not sure I was in a special program for this kind of problem. I got to revisit my studies on that. And utilize what I have learned so I can find a peaceful resolution to my events.
Sorry you had a bad day. Maybe talking with a therapist could help you process the events and how you feel about them? Also a therapist can help you build skills and techniques to deal with similiar situations if they ever arise in the future.
I... am way too familiar with that sensation. If I push my back too hard trying to do stuff around the house, when I wake up the next morning, just trying to stand up takes my breath. There's no scream, because it feels like a gut punch, but from the back.