Confused and sexuality

[Tom Personal]

Hi all not sure if this is allowed here I hope people don't paint me as a freak, pervert, etc or I get banned as I am genuinely Incontinence (the Urologist thinks due to Retention and overflow since my spinal cord injury I can prove to owner snippets of Neurosurgeon, Podiatry, Urology reports privately if needed without too much personal identity).

I don't think I am a DL or ABDL as if I hadn't had the spinal injury or bladder issues I would never have worn or new about those sexual areas existed only when Googling for incontinence issues (and how to cope as was suicidal at the start to the point due to needing Nappies/Diapers my Treating Psychiatrist wanted me hospitalized due to Bipolar Depression but no Hospital will admit anyone with ASD/ADHD for mental health at start of my issues in 2009).

Would I still wear if I was magically cured yes!!!(unfortunately) as I have had no treatment until now as I refused to self catherise recommended by a different hospital due to physical Disabilities as well as Autism would make it difficult according to my current private continence nurse as well as I find them comfortable as well as I have bowel Issues (mainly bleeding which Previous GPs all refused referrals to relevant specialist until now I was supposed to have a Colonoscopy in April but everyone agreed to wait til Indwelling Cath is out as the prep would be too difficult for me to clean up accidents as well as need cleanness with the cath)


I sent the following to my relationship counsellor
I am not sure how to explain this.......... as it is awkward......... and sexual... was going to originally email you with my fake email account due to embarrassment.... not sure if it would help with my report.

I think I may either mentally increase sexual drive or hypersexuality (my bipolar and ADHD seem stable in all other ways if it is related) as thinking about it a lot more lately but can't do anything due to an indwelling catheter until at least 22 May since 27 March as I don't know how to do it safely and it is advised against on medical websites as could cause internal damage, I will talk to my Urologist on the 22 May at my next appointment.

Here is the latest I posted annon on social media sexuality FB Page looking for advice for example... When I tend to get hyped up I tend to post this kind of questions annon on FB as well as Incontinence forums as well as diaper fetish sites (which were the only information supports I found on Google as no incontinence websites you are the only person I have told this due to embarrassment but until recently I have had no professional support or continence nurse and urology departments refused treatment (until recently) for support and no support groups in Australia) just for information on how to handle incontinence mentally as products which my continence nurse didn't even know the products existed eg Nappies I wear etc)

Well a bit embarrassed and awkward (hopefully not too much TMI)
I am a 38-year-old male who has Physical disabilities (sometimes wheelchair bound) which incl incontinence (tapped nappies and sometimes Indwelling catheter), spinal and feet, and hand tremors as well as ASD, Bipolar, ADHD, and Anxiety disorders.
Well, I only know how to masturbate with my hand on my shaft as haven't learnt how to any way other in a safe environment.
The Sex Counsellor I saw a couple of times for a report for NDIA requested
12 hours (1 hour a month with a Disability Sex Worker)
17 hours with the sexual and relationship counsellor
I am wondering how in Sydney would I physically explore toys (perhaps a trial with a Sex worker in a safe environment), as well as know what size I am for protection as I get hypersexual and quite bored with my hand.
Sorry if the post is inappropriate, not sure where else to ask

As well as I posted in the same FB Group thread

Another question would it be inappropriate to ask the Urology Dept to ask what size condom I would be when they remove the Indwelling catheter?
(as they would be looking down there to take the catheter out)

Am I open of playing with myself in Nappy/Diaper yes I am also looking to explore more ways as I have never Sexually experimented as well as have a private look at ABDL/DL Unfortunately yes as my medical conditions depress me as my mobility and continence conditions are getting worse to the point my mobility condition requires a manual wheelchair more and more and my OT is apply for a portable mobility scooter as the wheelchair by previous OT was inappropriate for me and my support workers but I lived in a 2nd lvl unit with no mobility access and the government at the time gave me a budget of $1500.

AGAIN I HOPE THIS WASN'T INAPPROPRIATE OR MAKE ME OUT TO BE A FREAK BUT LOOKING FOR SUPPORT AS I GENUINELY HAVE CONTINENCE AND PHYSICAL DISABILITIES AND LOVE THE RESOURCES HERE WHICH I WOULD NEVER HAVE NEEDED TO GOOGLE SEARCH IN THE 1ST PLACE WITHOUT CONTINENCE ISSUES

[FretaBWet]

We're all adults here so asking a sexual question shouldn't be a big deal. Your post is a little difficult to read but my guess is that it's a result of your mental health issues but I'll do my best. If I'm off base just let me know, my intentions are constructive.

I'm not sure why you are asking about condoms but you wouldn't be able to use one if you have a catheter in. I don't think size is much of an issue unless you're hung like a porn star. Just buy whatever brand that appeals to you.

If you are thinking masturbation in a diaper might be fun you would be on the right track. Sex starts in your brain, not in your genitals. It's a very personal thing and unique to each individual. Looking at the photo galleries doesn't do much for me personally so I seldom go there yet they are the first stop for many on here I suspect. The story archives happen to be where I am most likely to hang out. Put some thought into what it is that turns you on and use that to put you in the right headspace for playing. Wearing a diaper means no condom needed and cleanup is a snap. I hope this helps you.

Hugs

Freta

[Tom Personal]

4 hours ago, FretaBWet said:

We're all adults here so asking a sexual question shouldn't be a big deal. Your post is a little difficult to read but my guess is that it's a result of your mental health issues but I'll do my best. If I'm off base just let me know, my intentions are constructive.

I'm not sure why you are asking about condoms but you wouldn't be able to use one if you have a catheter in. I don't think size is much of an issue unless you're hung like a porn star. Just buy whatever brand that appeals to you.

If you are thinking masturbation in a diaper might be fun you would be on the right track. Sex starts in your brain, not in your genitals. It's a very personal thing and unique to each individual. Looking at the photo galleries doesn't do much for me personally so I seldom go there yet they are the first stop for many on here I suspect. The story archives happen to be where I am most likely to hang out. Put some thought into what it is that turns you on and use that to put you in the right headspace for playing. Wearing a diaper means no condom needed and cleanup is a snap. I hope this helps you.

Hugs

Freta

 

 

Thanks for the reply
 

Well Catheter is thankfully until the 22nd of this month I hope then I can have "fun" inside of diaper.

Yeah was thinking condoms with toys and disabilty Sex workers more