My Road From Diaper And Back To Them Again

[Pull-ups man]

This is my story of how i became a DL...

not that you have to, but feel free to comment...

How I became a Diaper Lover (DL)

This story may turn out to be quite long in the end, but if you do start reading it, please finish reading it. Thanks.

1.5.2007

Note:

This is a true story of how I became a DL. However, all the information is only from my memory so there could be some things I can’t remember so well anymore. I’ll try to keep it as true as possible.

The story:

I’m 18, will be 19 in May. I’ve had an absolutely normal boy life. I was wearing diapers till I was 3. From that time until I was about 6 I liked to watch other mommies change their babies’ diapers. Then, during my school up till grade 7, I completely forgot about diapers. Then, at the age of 10-11 (in 8th grade) I was once visiting my cousin. She had one of those baby doll that you feed, dress etc. I was playing with her one afternoon and as she was taking off the dolls clothes I noticed a Pampers diaper on the dolls bottom. I suddenly felt a great memory from the past years of me liking diapers come back to me. But I didn’t know what that feeling was. I asked her if, when she’s done playing with her doll, I could play with it as well. She didn’t say anything and so the second she left the room I took the diaper and put it slowly on the baby doll. I was so excited about the whole experience that as soon as we got back home I asked my mom if she could by me some doll diapers as well. She didn’t say anything. I then found out that I had a teddy bear that had the perfect waist size to put those doll diapers on. At first I just liked to put the dry diapers on and off of my teddy bear. But that soon wasn’t enough for me.

I once even stole a doll diaper from my friends’ sister. She didn’t find out luckily. During the next years there have always been times when I forgot about liking diapers. When I was 13 we were with my parents in Croatia, where we were staying at a nice family who had a 3-year-old girl. She was still in diapers and I was just so fascinated every time I saw her be changed or when she just ran around the place with only her diaper on. She was wearing Pampers size 5 (no Pampers 6 at that time unfortunately) and they were so small as I once stole one diaper from the pack and locked myself on the toilet and tried it on. One day as I was taking a piss into the diaper, my dad knocked on the door and I was suddenly so frightened but managed to hold him off a bit longer. I pulled the wet diaper from between my crotch and hid it behind the toilet. That was the first time I was nearly caught with a diaper.

Then, when I was about 14, I noticed once, as I was buying stuff in the store, that they had really cheap diapers in the shelf in the L size. I was really tempted to buy a pack, but I didn’t have enough money to afford it. So the next day I went back to the store any bought one pack of 14 or so diapers. I was really nervous and sweaty as I came to the cashier. The woman just looked at me, suspicion on her face, but said nothing. I ran out of the store and stopped about a 100m away to breathe a bit. There was some construction going on nearby and I couldn’t take all the diapers back home, because my parents would definitely notice. I didn’t have any place to hide them from them. So I tore of the plastic cover and pulled out about 10 of the diapers and threw them on a pile of rubble and covered them with anything I could find. What a waste!

So I came back home all sweaty. And you know what you have to do when you’re nervous? I really had to pee. And I couldn’t think of a better thing to do. I looked at myself in my room and pulled out the 5 diapers from the pack. I put 4 of them behind my underwear pile, pulled down my pants and underwear. Now I was literally peeing in my pants but I kept it in a second longer. I only managed to put the diaper on (it didn’t fit well at all), lie down in my bed and let it go.

It was the most beautiful feeling I’d ever experienced. The diaper became so bulky and warm on my skin as it absorbed the urine. We all know the feeling, right? From then on I went back to the store and bought a pack of those cheap diapers once in a while. But about a year later the diapers suddenly disappeared from the isle! I was shocked by it. I couldn’t afford the Huggies diapers and plus there were too many diapers in them anyway. So I was forced to compensate my growing urge for diapers by going on the web and looking up people in diapers and pretty much anything that had to do with diapers. At first I was very excited about all those pictures and videos of people with diapers. Then I started reading different articles about diapering and diaper changes, that kind of thing. There was nothing much in any of them that I was looking for and so my diaper urge started to fade away after a while again.

JUST TO LET YOU WHO ARE READING THIS KNOW I WASN’T AWARE OF DL/AB AT THAT TIME WHAT SO EVER…

It was not until about a year ago that, as I was browsing through articles on the web, I came across an article at pull-ups.com. I was simply fascinated by the reviews and problems that parents have to face when they toilet train their children. From then on I’ve been coming back to pull-ups.com reading the new reviews as they are posted. The only thing I disliked about the articles was the shortness of them. But then one afternoon this long article caught my attention. I have posted it here for you to read it yourselves:

Janie does go potty, just not always. She has never been night trained so we have to put her in a diaper (size 6 Pampers because pull-ups leak at night) when she goes to bed. There are days (usually 2 out of 7) where she wakes up dry but she won’t go to the potty when she wakes up. Like this morning, for example, she came down to the kitchen for breakfast and I could tell she was still wearing her diaper. I figured she was wet and asked if she needed help changing and she said "nope I’m dry" so I asked if she went potty and she said "no I don’t have to go." Now, I could tell she had to go because during breakfast she couldn’t sit still...Needless to say, before she could finish her breakfast, she completely soaked her diaper...and a few minutes later she said "uh oh daddy I guess I did wet my diaper last night , cause now I feel wet." This isn’t the first time she has done this. Just about every time she wakes up dry she will end up going in her diaper after she wakes up. I know what you're going to say..."stop giving her diapers at night." I’m sorry but that's not a solution. I cannot wash wet sheets/clothes every other day. I have tried waking her up at 4am to go pee, limiting fluids, nothing works. And this isn’t the only issue. During the day I have to put her in pull-ups now because she's been having a lot of accidents...not sure if they are "accidents" though because sometimes I know she's aware of what she's doing. We went to the mall this afternoon to do some shopping... we're walking along, she's walking beside me and all of a sudden she stops and says "wait daddy I gotta pee." I’m thinking okay she wants me to take her to the bathroom... only to find out she's stopping and squatting to pee in her pull-up. She starts walking after a little while and says "come on daddy" and I said "I thought you had to pee" and she said rather proudly "I did!" So of course I ask her why she went in her pants and she said "cause daddy m wearing a pull-up it's okay to have a accident in them. " So I explain to her that it's not okay to purposely pee in them and she pouts and says "but daddy the potties here are icky... " I’ve been through this situation before. She almost never uses public bathrooms . She goes to kindergarten everyday wearing a pull-up. The teachers wont change her so by the end of the day when she gets home her pull up is about ready to burst... but she doesn’t care. She'll just come home and say "daddy I’m wet I need a new pull-up." A friend of mine told me to let her sit in her soggy pull up so she'll get sick of the feeling...trust me, I've tried that. She will wet her pull up until it leaks and it won’t discourage her from doing it...

After I finished reading it I was so excited about it that I immediately crawled into my bed and masturbated thinking only about pull-ups and diaper changing. I was in heaven as I said the quoted lines out loud while masturbating.

I am really proud of the fact that I have kept my DL “problem” sealed from everyone in my family and school etc. Nobody knows about my DL fetish. So from then on I stuck to this article whenever I masturbated and I still do. The second time I was nearly caught with diapers was at my grand mother’s house. She had a pharmacy where I’d always sneak into and smuggle out a diaper from a shelf and then put it on and pee into it (it was only size 4, so really small). I once even pooped into it, that was when my granny mentioned a diaper in the garbage bin. I was so nervous, but I managed to stay quite calm and cool until she left and the matter somehow evaporated and was forgotten about. She’d just told me not to do it again. I was 15 at the time this happened, I was laughing at her in my mind at what she’d said. But let’s now come back to more recent days.

…UNTIL RECENTLY:

So about 4 months ago I started to search for the source of the great pleasure I felt when I read or saw anything about diapers. I started off with Infantilism on Wikipedia.com. I discovered that the urge I have is called DL/AB, that it mostly occurs with heterosexual males (Which I am). I couldn’t sleep for 3 nights, cause I was like so scared and disturbed at what I’d read and learned the day before. But after about a week this shock faded away and I started to accept my DL urge as it is, even though I was still frightened about it. But now I’ve really got into being a DL, cause after I discovered dailydiapers.com and the wonderful community here I was relieved to know that I wasn’t the only one with a DL/AB fetish. Since there aren’t any stores where I could buy diapers for grown-ups, I’m using only pull-ups now, because they are the cheapest and prettiest diapers. I’ve had an experience with the medium size boy pull-ups and large size girl pull-ups. But since I’ve got a 33 inch waist, the medium pull-ups tore almost right away and it was a waist of money in a sense.

Then, when I came back to TESCO again, I noticed that they were having a sale for large girl pull-ups! I couldn’t believe my eyes! I immediately started to go through the packs of pull-ups and found one last pair of those cute girl pull-ups in the back of the shelf. I grabbed it and bought it right away. I knew my parents weren’t at home so I headed back as quickly as possible. As I got home, I took of my pants and tore off the plastic rapping of the pull-ups pack and pulled out a wonderful cuddly pull-up, smelled the awesome babyish smell inside the pull-up and started to pull it on. It fit me almost like normal underwear, only it didn’t go all the way up to cover my butt. I didn’t care at all, because my penis fit inside just fine and that was all that mattered to me! Once I’d used all of them up (It took me about a week, because I used 2 pull-ups a day and there are 15 in the pack) I took a break for about a month and then I just couldn’t hold on any longer without those beautiful girlie designs and the warm feeling of pee as it made contact with my skin whenever I peed.

So today I went to TESCO again, only to find that the sale was over and they had no more large size girl pull-ups anymore! Man I was furious! I went outside and I saw a drugstore down the road. At first I didn’t want to go inside as I saw all those women. I felt weird about buying girl pull-ups myself, you could say I was even worried at the looks of the women in the store. But I gathered my courage and went in. They had only two remaining packs of large size girl pull-ups, no L size boy pull-ups, unfortunately. So didn’t hesitate and bought them. They were quite expensive this time, but I had enough money so I didn’t care. About a week or so ago I came to the end of my pull-ups stock. I haven’t bought any more since, because I don’t have enough money at the time (I’m a student, don’t have a job, so the only way for me to acquire cash is when my parents sometimes give me some money and I save up for pull-ups).

Well this is my personal story of how I became a DL, my life with diapers (more recently pull-ups) and how I cope with my DL fetish. Please note that I view myself as a DL, I have no desires to act or be an AB!

[D_Rainger]

Hi Pull-ups man,

Well done.

I usually stay away from autobiographical material on sites such as this, but I found myself reading your accout through. You have the gift of converstaional writing. I can see that you take pride in your work. The spelling, punctuation and grammar make for an easy read. How about some fiction?

Something I found helpful in writing a good story is that not every detail is necessary. At times something veiled has more allure than the face that is hidden under it.

My experience as a diaper lover is somewhat similar to yours. Imagine growing up in the 1950's and 1960's, though. No disposables. No pull-ups. On the other hand, lots of plastic pants!

Something I have learned over the years is to keep diapers in their place. A paraphilia can be overwhelming. It is wise to lead a balanced life.

-D Rainger

[Pull-ups man]

thank you so much! its a honor to hear words from someone like you, who i found to be a very skilled writer... yep, as a matter of fact, im currently writing a short story very similar to the one about Maya.

Thanks again,

Pull-ups man