I don’t feel accepted by anyone.

[DLClayMongoose]

I can’t be happy for some reason.

My mother knows about my DLism and says it’s wrong because diapers are “for incontinent people”. As much as I respect her opinion, it’s something I can’t just get rid of. As such, I’be tried doing stuff for other *BDLs.

Yet I barely have any chance of doing anything creative. Right now, I’m in a state where I just go to work, come home, eat, and go to bed. Even when I do make something, it feels like

 

I feel like I’m a pariah here. I don’t know if it’s because I have the wrong politics or beliefs or what, but it seems like nobody wants to bother with me.
 

I’m a terrible artist, and more of a writer anyway, but even in the case of the latter, it feels like nobody gives a crap about what I produce. This came abundantly clear in 2016, when two YouTubers sicked their fans onto my old Deviantart and I got no support.

 

Oftentimes, I keep thinking “What’s the point?” when it comes to telling the stories and stuff I want to tell. 
 

I draw, nobody looks.

I write, nobody reads.

I speak, nobody listens.

It’s futile to try.

[beallucanb]

Don't give up on yourself, perhaps you should try something different for a little while.

 

[DLClayMongoose]

But what? I’m on sabbatical from Gunpla building.